stressedsubject
Quite relaxed really
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Firstly thank you for thinking of Lit as safe place for you to not only share pics/vids but thoughts like these.One can have a realistic view of their selves.
I know for example that my face may not be everyone's cup of tea per se, but that I am generally considered to be attractive. I dont get many "yer hideous" types of comments. I understand if my mixed heritage turns some people especially on because of the "asian fetish" and conversely, some ppl only want a Latina or Black or Caucasian or whatever partner. Or jsut dont like my piercings or facial structure or hair or whatever. It happens. Just I guess, not "often". And some pics of me I think look...rather unattractive, and some I think "dayum I look good here!"...all rizzed out!
As for my butt, breasts, legs, torso etc...Im fit. I may not be "jacked" but I also dont have tons of "junk in the trunk" or cottage cheese n fat, or other areas which again, some people definitely prefer, but the "over-arching majority" of "conventionally attractive" for a woman is to be reasonably thin/fit and slightly curvy etc.
I tend to fit that.
As for my breasts specifically, some ppl obviously prefer bigger ones, some like fakies, or even tiny ones. Im more in the middle of course, neither too big nor too small for me or my frame. I also dont have overly large or super tiny areolas and nipples. Again, some may be turned off by the nipple piercings, or my ink, but my breasts are decently sized enough to "enjoy" and are very firm, and there is no area that calls attention for being "a weakness" like...overly long nipples or giant areolas, and they arent droopy/saggy breasts or super smashed together or super far apart or whatever. I do tend to get a lot of compliments on them and well, I like em a lot too.
Regarding piercings and ink. I would never get ink from my neck or above. I think it generally doesnt look great, and also can absolutely influence people's perceptions in terms of professionalism and seriousness and such.
I do love looking at good tattoos. Some sleeves are amazing.
Some looks truly god awful.
I would not ever get my hands done either. Again, it does work on some people, but its also part of the judgement thing.
Piercings can at least come and go for the most part. You have all seen a few pics of me without my septum and nostril piercings for example. I may look better or worse depending on preferences, and certainly have been judged by some for them.
Luckily my other ones are generally hidden haha...(nipples, tongue, navel).
Its tough to think of myself as being HOT or whatever without getting a big ego.
I dont think I am ugly or anything.
Being told on here and by some friends or lovers or whatever that I am sexy etc is always lovely to hear and boosts my confidence and such. I just dont let it get to me.
I think I fucking rock, but sometimes with my anxiety I also feel very average or less than.
So I am conflicted sometimes.
But all that said...
Thank you all. I appreciate the continuous love I get here. Heck, even the haters must think I am kind of sexy or they wouldnt target me as much right?
So from the bottom of my heart, thanks for all the love you all have shown me nearly from day one here, last November...I do appreciate you all. Truly. Thanks for the kind words, the compliments, the horny messages, the hard cock pics and cum tributes, the gentle messages, the support. You are my friends.
Much love from me.
Always.
I think everyone feels some sort of anxiety about themselves to a degree and in different ways. Anxiety and self-esteem fluctuates so the confliction is understandable. Just hopefully we all can be towards the positive side most of the time.
You're thought process is very healthy I might say. Like you said" you might not be everyone's cup of tea but, ...you do fucking rock". Like that in itself is a very good mind state. Regardless of other peoples thoughts its just what we think of ourselves that matters. It's hard sometimes but, at the end of the day you live with yourself for rest of your life so hopefully we don't make an enemy of ourselves and appreciate ourselves instead... again hard to do but, something to strive for
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