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Wild_Honey_66 said:
Yes, and it was very disconcerting. Especially since we had a mutual friend who was not made aware she was Ghosting Me out of her life. Her reasoning for doing it that way was that she couldn't bring herself to tell me the truth, and after having come back from a 2 week road trip, she just used the known absence to keep the lack of communication going. Before she knew it (in her words) a couple of months had gone by, and now she was worried what would happen if she reached out to try and explain.
We have spoken since then, and though it hurt when she finally came out and spoke the truth behind why she had chosen to stop contact, it would have been much easier had she told me that in the beginning. It would have prevented some very hard feelings on both sides. She had become fearful I would try and lash out through mutual acquaintances. I on the other hand, had become very untrusting of anything she said from that day forward. Conversations we had in the past were read over again, and took on new meanings, intended or not. To this day, I neither speak to her, nor any of the mutual people we interacted with either online or in the gaming community we were part of. I just chose to not put myself back into her graces, and rather than cause uncomfortable situations for people who would feel the tension between us, I decided it was better that I move on to other venues. A few of those people do still send me messages and ask if I want to participate in some projects, but I still don't feel any desire to join in at this time. That may change, I don't know.
At the time when she decided her course of action, I was going through the beginning of the downfall of my health. I was dealing with the harsh reality of my injury and the upcoming surgery. The flip flop of medications they were running me through, trying to find the right one and the right dose didn't help. My attitude towards life, my living situation, was making me more and more irritable. To the point that I had begun to do nothing but complain. So lost in my depression, I didn't see it. Had she spoken to me, pointed it out, it could have helped me see what was going on. Something she had done in the past with great success. This time however, she decided it would have made me angry with her. I can't say it wouldn't have at the time, but she knew me well enough to know that once I recognized my mistake, I would have apologized to her and we would have worked it out. Instead, she decided what I would think and do, for me. By the time we got to speak it out, the damage was done.
I did Ghost someone, though it wasn't intentional at all. An accident left me without any way to contact anyone online for about 6 months. My computer was gone, cellphone was gone, along with all of my back ups of CD/DVD and ZIPDrive discs. The hard copy of my address book was gone as well. By the time I was able to get back in contact with people, the damage was done. She was so demanding that I prove it, that when I did provide the documents she needed, she was so ashamed she decided she wished I had never gotten in touch with her again at all. "I would have rather just gone on thinking you hated me, instead you come back after I have moved on and turn my life upside down all over again." I accepted her decision and left her alone. I do regret it, not like I could have really done anything to prevent the how it happened. I just wonder where things would have gone or how they would have ended up if I had chosen to fight harder once I had been able to get back in contact with her.
It's safer. 
Not dying anytime soon. Promise.
