Know it's been covered before....

[Nathon_88]

But....

*start rant*

I just watched Traffic.

I feel like it's partially my fault that there are drugs in the world.

I've saved a friends life after an OD......I've spent hours talking to a mountie who wanted to know who his supplier was......I didn't know, because I chose to ignore that part of her lifestyle.....I still don't know, but I am still friends.

Am I wrong to think like this? I saved a addict's life. I TRIED to help her quit......

Addiction is sad. I spent the first week in a sleeping bag, outside her door, trying to let her realize that this isn't what she wanted out of life, that there was more to life than the de-oxegenation of your blood.....

She slipped out the window.....and invited me in after she'd taken a hit again.

*sigh* I hate the hold it has on her. She is a wonderful person...... I could love her........as more than a friend.......and she has offered.....more than friendship.....but I let this get in the way.

There are days when being a hopeless romantic doesn't work.

I don't know.....all I know is that, for me, there is more beauty in a robin singing his glorious song to the rising sun, than there will ever be in something that slowly, inevitably kills you.

*end rant*

 

[Nora]

I'm sure there are many views on this other than mine, but for what it's worth, here goes.

You're a good guy to have stood by your friend and tried to help, but she wants whatever the fuck she's doing more than she wants you as even a friend.

To consider anything beyond that with her is asking to have the rest of your life torn apart on a constant basis.

Sure, she could change. But you'll always worry. And you'll be right to worry. I don't have stats in hand, but I'd be willing to bet that junkies who "recover" tend to just move on to some other addiction. Either way, the addictive personality is not the most stable persona to get involved with anyway.

Find yourself a nice girl. Relationships have enough problems without adding that kind of stress into the mix, hon.

 

[Nathon_88]

I'm sure there are many views on this other than mine, but for what it's worth, here goes.

You're a good guy to have stood by your friend and tried to help, but she wants whatever the fuck she's doing more than she wants you as even a friend.

To consider anything beyond that with her is asking to have the rest of your life torn apart on a constant basis.

Sure, she could change. But you'll always worry. And you'll be right to worry. I don't have stats in hand, but I'd be willing to bet that junkies who "recover" tend to just move on to some other addiction. Either way, the addictive personality is not the most stable persona to get involved with anyway.

Find yourself a nice girl. Relationships have enough problems without adding that kind of stress into the mix, hon.

*chuckles*

*laughs*

You're right, of course, I'm laughing at myself. It never was an issue of living with her.

Aside from that, who in their non-drugged up mind would want a Poet, Former-Computer Science Major, current History Major, who happens to have a large sex drive, and a rather displeasing to most complexion.

So far? Nada.