Kate - For the record - I lied

[River_of_Tears]

I lied to you - I was falling for you - hard. I'm a silly old man I know. Thank ou for being there for me on all those lonely nights - it helped. My world and marriage right now is falling apart, however - I have nothing more to lose, or to gain. But I want to thank you for helping make some of the lonely nights I created for myself worth living. The man who finds, touches and keeps your soul will be truly blessed. I have no one now and as weird as this will get and sound to you (again, sorry for putting you in the middle)... Where you used to be, there is a hole in the world, which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime, and falling in at night. I miss you like hell!

 

[CaFem45]

I lied to you - I was falling for you - hard. I'm a silly old man I know. Thank ou for being there for me on all those lonely nights - it helped. My world and marriage right now is falling apart, however - I have nothing more to lose, or to gain. But I want to thank you for helping make some of the lonely nights I created for myself worth living. The man who finds, touches and keeps your soul will be truly blessed. I have no one now and as weird as this will get and sound to you (again, sorry for putting you in the middle)... Where you used to be, there is a hole in the world, which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime, and falling in at night. I miss you like hell!

I don't mean to intrude on your private message to your friend, but I just want to say that I'm going through something similar and I totally feel your pain. I wish you all the best!

 

[River_of_Tears]

Thanks CaFem45

You have no Idea!!!!!! But thank you and I hope you find some peace of mind - and the love you deserve. I'm lost and it's my own foolish fault for being silly minded.

 

[MysteriousVik]

Man....looks like alot of people went through this.
I've been there too...so i feel your pain. Life's shit, but what can you do...

Be strong my friend, with time it will pass...

 

[Inrhapsody]

I am so sorry...hugs

 

[CaFem45]

You have no Idea!!!!!! But thank you and I hope you find some peace of mind - and the love you deserve. I'm lost and it's my own foolish fault for being silly minded.

And I wish you the same! Hang in there....you can borrow my mantra (which I, of course, borrowed myself ) - "this too shall pass" - though it sure as hell doesn't feel like it when you're in the midst of it.

All the best to you!

 

[cockycarp]

well I hope you find the peace that you seek, and like said before "this too shall pass"....

 

[bearcan]

Only the passage of time alleviate the pain and leave the good moments unforgettable.

Good luck and hold on !

 

[foxseeker]

Hang in there squire, many of us have been in similar situations, felt the world coming to an end.
Then, suddenly the terrible pain, hurt and loneliness are gone and it's a new day!

Carpe diem!

 

[ima6uldv8]

This is so sad Time doesn't heal all wounds. I know that personally. But it does help to dull the pain and allow you to find happiness again. I wish happiness for you

 

[Lord Crimson]

This is so sad Time doesn't heal all wounds. I know that personally. But it does help to dull the pain and allow you to find happiness again. I wish happiness for you

Isn't that the Truth.

 

[River_of_Tears]

Thanks everyone!

Thanks for all the kind words and concern.

I guess things will work out fine. I can only hope. I just thought I was way beyond this sort of thing (developing strong feelings for someone over the Internet). I know it's unrealistic, however, I can't help that now I can't speak to a certain (seemingly remarkable) woman - I feel a sense of loss. I guess it was just a realization that women like her exist out there. Hell, I could have her pegged all wrong as well - who knows!! But I enjoyed our time online together. Realistically - she was way out and above my class. But again - I was foolishly infatuated and I know I'm so not that type to get "infatuated" that easily. I think it was just the amount of time we spent online that created a connection for me. That and the fact that I was at a point in my life where I needed someone to just talk to and she happened to be there. I don't know! All I know is that I surprised myself by all this.

Thank again everyone.

 

[not_so_nice]

How true... time doesn't heal all wounds, but sometimes it makes them a little easier to deal with. I've learned that lesson myself. Another lesson learned is to take things one day at a time or when that seems too daunting a task, one hour at a time..... one minute at a time.....even down to one second at a time.

 

[Noor]

Having been on the Kate side:

1) Some of us fall too, esp for silly men but we only know you from within your marriage, so it hard to even imagine anything else. If you divorce and you find your single self again, look up your Kate and have a chat. Anything is possible in the future as long as you are both alive.

2) Its a bit freaky to get messages like this publicly on lit. At least it looks like you took a new nick.

3) Some people you are lucky to meet anyway you can, the internet is only a medium. I will bet it was more than the amount of time...

I met my kindred spirit on line, their being away is like a huge hole. Sometimes I just carefully walk around it, other days I want to fill it up with trees and sometimes I just want to crawl in it and hide away forever.

none of this is about you, mean old pretender, but its nice to see you are still alive

 

[ima6uldv8]

I met my kindred spirit on line, their being away is like a huge hole. Sometimes I just carefully walk around it, other days I want to fill it up with trees and sometimes I just want to crawl in it and hide away forever.

I sure can relate to this. Though my loss is from death. I know exactly how you feel.