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[Beth87]

Oh..looks liek everyone has gone. Have nice sleep/day depending on where in the world you are

Thanks fro all the tips everyone. Ill let you know what I decide to do..when ive decided

 

[slapsht25]

night Bethy

 

[theweescotsman]

Jesus darlin' just caught up........2 most certainly and report the fucker to facebook also......protect others.......

 

[starport968]

Lol not patronising..a pat on the head may have been

True..but i still like to apologise..its my thing Sorry for being sorry

<note to self, dont pat Bethy on the head>

Its an English thing probably, I'm sorry to.

 

[starport968]

I can make the bitches MY bitches. Bring me some grapes and a man please

A man would be some feat in an all-female prison!!! Still, if anyone can...

 

[Beth87]

night Bethy

kisses

Jesus darlin' just caught up........2 most certainly and report the fucker to facebook also......protect others.......

I'd love to fb report him but they wont do anything. He's not a convicted paedophile. Plus people can create new accounts. Facebook are absolutely crap about protecting children. They refused to implement a CEOP report button (basically its a direct link to police who work with online crime so children can report peope trying to make sexual conversation or online bullying without having to actually go to the police station) and they change privacy setting all the time without letting people know.

Roleplay? I don't understand how that works.

Maybe you need to talk to your therapist about this. I have to admit I get a sick feeeling in my stomach when I think about you reconnecting with this person in any way. I think it will lead to disaster.

Roleplay is where i talk to therapist or an object and pretend I am talking to whomever I need to. Im not particularly good at the roleplay stuff because when i get emotional or angry I stop speaking and shut down all my emotions.

I will speak to her about it but I dont see her for another week..

Hugs. Im not wanting to reconnect so much as send a letter and then delete and block him. I dont want to hear his stupid excuses about how I was only "pretending to be innocent and he was trying to prove I wasnt like that" or how i never said no. I dont need to hear him say that to me again. He wrecked my head enough earlier in the year when we were still speaking.

"I've f-'d you when you were a school girl, may as well f- you dressed as one" - that still makes me violently ill.

He doesnt deserve this much column space or head space.. stupid pervy b-d

Thanks to all of you for responding and I am sorry if I have caused anyone pain (hugs)

<note to self, dont pat Bethy on the head>

Its an English thing probably, I'm sorry to.

Lol second note to self: - because bethy is not a dog. People pat dogs

too. sorry too It is an english or catholic thing

A man would be some feat in an all-female prison!!! Still, if anyone can...

Prison guard maybe?

 

[HBH619]

EVening dear Bethy, how does today find you?

 

[starport968]

Lol second note to self: - because bethy is not a dog. People pat dogs

too. sorry too It is an english or catholic thing

Prison guard maybe?

<note to self, going to need a bigger note book at this rate>

Must be English, I'm not Catholic

Good thinking, might get you extra favours as well!

 

[drtshare]

Beth lets go walk and find a nice plase in the sun. So wish we could sit and chat.. hold each other .

hugs


fred

 

[Beth87]

EVening dear Bethy, how does today find you?

Better thanks Hows you?

<note to self, going to need a bigger note book at this rate>

Must be English, I'm not Catholic

Good thinking, might get you extra favours as well!

LOL

Im not catholic either..but i often wonder if i should be

 

[Beth87]

Beth lets go walk and find a nice plase in the sun. So wish we could sit and chat.. hold each other .

hugs


fred

mm that sound wonderful Somewhere far away

 

[starport968]

LOL

Im not catholic either..but i often wonder if i should be

now why would that be? Because you enjoy being guilt-ridden?

 

[drtshare]

mm that sound wonderful Somewhere far away

Yes I know just the place..its up in Smokie here in the states... field of grass.. with slow moving river.. trees.. yes a bit of heaven to sit and chat hugs and cuddles...



fred

 

[HBH619]

i'm doin alright, just at home chilling

 

[_me_]

now why would that be? Because you enjoy being guilt-ridden?

Ha....that is so true!!!
I'm catholic, not practising now, the guilt is awful.....but I have to say it is older people's interpretation of catholicism rather than the church.....

I'm prepared to be stoned now

 

[_me_]

Okay..

WARNING SERIOUS POSTING

This is going to be a more serious posting so feel free to skim over if you're just in my thread for sexy fun. I won't be offended. I just need some advice and this is the quickest way to reach my friends

So yes..down to business.

I got a friend request via facebook today from a man who raped and abused me for a long time. And I am not sure what to do. Before you immediately tell me..whats the problem delete the request..please read what I have to say

Firstly..I am ANGRY that he contacted me. I broke contact after he admitted he had raped me..that he knew all along I didnt want to do anything sexual - nevermind that I was a few years under age of consent..but anyways. That sparked me not longer being able to pretend it hadnt happened and I finally removed contact.

I was worried that he would send me nasty emails etc but there was nothing. So I was able to get stronger and begin to feel angry and sad about what happened. Now less than a year later this request happens with a "hey how are you" message and I am pissed.

Why now..why at all?

So That is my first reaction..to ask him why.

The second reaction is to send a long message about how I despise him and he is a pervert who deserves to be rotting in jail etc (you catch my drift)

My third reaction is to freeze. can't respond to him but for some reason I cant press the ignore button either - this is most probably related to the brainwashed child in me..it's like an automatic reaction; the need to please him.

My last and most disturbing reaction is to accept the request and pretend nothing happened.

So what do I do? Would confronting be a good idea?

He has told me it was my fault before..I made him do it because I was pretending to be innocent! So a long message about how he was wrong and I wasnt might provoke a very nasty message back - which could, potentially, set me back in my healing and cause lots of pain.

This isnt a simple problem..so I apologise for that. If you dont know what to say but want to say something in support of me..sending me hugs is more than enough to let me know you have heard me and you care

One thing I do ask is that no-one tells me how stupid I am for even considering accepting..I already know it is an unhealthy idea..and there is a lot more to it than I am willing to share via public audience...so please dont judge me

He wants contact & is testing your reaction.

I say DO NOT REPLY!!

If you reply for whatever reason is in your mind, he's got what he wants.

*hugs*

 

[starport968]

Ha....that is so true!!!
I'm catholic, not practising now, the guilt is awful.....but I have to say it is older people's interpretation of catholicism rather than the church.....

I'm prepared to be stoned now

hey!!! Who calling old??? And I just love the way you say "not practicing now". Then again I'm C of E, which always stikes me as being Religion Lite, and I haven't practiced for years (prepares to be struck down..)

Why have I got a sudden urge to watch Life of Brian now????

 

[_me_]

hey!!! Who calling old??? And I just love the way you say "not practicing now". Then again I'm C of E, which always stikes me as being Religion Lite, and I haven't practiced for years (prepares to be struck down..)

Why have I got a sudden urge to watch Life of Brian now????

Old as in my mum.....74!!

I have to say she's pretty liberal, but I think a lot of Catholicism is to do with family values & I think that's good

 

[starport968]

Old as in my mum.....74!!

I have to say she's pretty liberal, but I think a lot of Catholicism is to do with family values & I think that's good

Well recovered (I'm not that old yet)!

It does make me smile that there is this perceived guilt thing, but the only catholic girl I know would make my hair curl if had enough and her mum is as bad!!!

Family values is exactly right, and if takes religion of any type to bring that back then it has to be good. Somehow, i feel that the world is on to a loser with that though.

 

[_me_]

Well recovered (I'm not that old yet)!

It does make me smile that there is this perceived guilt thing, but the only catholic girl I know would make my hair curl if had enough and her mum is as bad!!!

Family values is exactly right, and if takes religion of any type to bring that back then it has to be good. Somehow, i feel that the world is on to a loser with that though.

I have my own moral views, but wouldn't inflict them on anyone else

I think people have the view that catholicism is black & white & I don't think it is always

 

[starport968]

I have my own moral views, but wouldn't inflict them on anyone else

I think people have the view that catholicism is black & white & I don't think it is always

As long as your happy with them, who is to tell you what is right or wrong (within reason).

I must admit, that was my view. Dont all religions have something of that about them?

PS Sorry for hijacking your thread Bethy, normal service will be resumed shortly. In the meantime, some music...

 

[_me_]

As long as your happy with them, who is to tell you what is right or wrong (within reason).

I must admit, that was my view. Dont all religions have something of that about them?

PS Sorry for hijacking your thread Bethy, normal service will be resumed shortly. In the meantime, some music...

Well yes

They do, I think catholicism is more hard core

He he.....Sorry Beth
What music?

 

[starport968]

Well yes

They do, I think catholicism is more hard core

He he.....Sorry Beth
What music?

Ha ha ha, now all I can think of is Catholicism as a bad boy rap band with lyrics like " hard core, you know the score". No wonder religion has gone off the rails slightly with people with my sense of humour about

You must remember the bad old days of the BBC when there was a technical fault and some plumby voiced person would appologise and say the "engineers are working to fix the fault. And in the meantime, some music..."

What music would you like?

 

[_me_]

Ha ha ha, now all I can think of is Catholicism as a bad boy rap band with lyrics like " hard core, you know the score". No wonder religion has gone off the rails slightly with people with my sense of humour about

You must remember the bad old days of the BBC when there was a technical fault and some plumby voiced person would appologise and say the "engineers are working to fix the fault. And in the meantime, some music..."

What music would you like?

Lol

Oh yes, I remember

Ermm.....Pendulum please

 

[starport968]

Lol

Oh yes, I remember

Ermm.....Pendulum please

Thank goodness for that, I thought it was just me for a minute!

Dont know any of their catalogue but I'll see what I can do. I'm not in to Drum N Bass much (does Bentley Rhythm Ace count?)