Jenny’s house of fun.

Sea in the moonlight
by Caspar David Friedrich
1823

This is a painting I’ve always loved, but that actually broke me at one time and started a deep depression. Don’t know what happened but just staring at this for hours caused a breakdown.
I’ve been working with my therapist to enjoy this masterpiece again. And I think I am there.


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I can see why, it's most definitely a very strong and intense imagery that can inspire quite a bit of solitude and despair, just a tiny sail boat all alone in that vast, powerful sea, fending for itself against overwhelming and unpredictable forces!

But we should never ignore that glimmer of hope charting its path and guiding it to safety: our will to continue moving forward and not succumb!
 
Dear Diary,

How do you end up in a situation where your brain is your enemy? Where you can not trust yourself?

We take medication, we self medicate, we talk to therapists, psychologists and psychotherapists, and still it is our own brain that is the enemy.

For me, at least, at my worst and lowest my brain fights against me. And I always lose.

If you know in your heart that you are loved, you are surrounded by love and you love them back, so fucking much. How can your own brain tell you that you are wrong? And how come you believe that?

My therapist and I talk a lot about that.
And how I feel like I deserve abuse.

If I can look at it as an outsider, I must say that it is fascinating. But as an insider it feels like being on the 10th floor of a burning building.

Having said that, I am doing well right now.
Summer is coming.
My daughter is amazing.
I have great sex.
My brain is quiet.
My tits are still firm.
I hear bird song from the open window.

Making tea right now.
Eating some yoghurt.
Meds are lined up in front of me.
Soon hubby’s cock will grow hard in my mouth.


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Dear Diary,

Just wrote a long post and then accidentally erased it. And because it is gone I am going to say it was brilliant, Nobel Prize class, maybe best ever.

I mentioned a Spanish movie, masturbation and life in general. Very deep and profound.

It also had a thing about my daughter.
Just don’t have it in me to write the whole thing again.

Sorry Diary, I will be better another day.

Time to make my tea, eat my meds and suck the marital cock.


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