“Is your love for Boris not worth risking everything for it? For until you face ”M” and submit to him he will living or dead always stand between you and your happiness . His shadow cast across your life forever. Only in willingly submitting to him can you break his power over you Jane.”
She curled into Kawana, drawing strength from his arms around her while her mind spun and twisted on what he said. Her mind refused to accept it. If she gave herself to M willingly she would loathe herself and in the end Boris as well for allowing it and believed he would come to hate her for doing it. Slowly she shook her head against Kawana's chest.
"I can't Kawana. Willingly giving myself to M is more than even my soul could bear. If I ever see him again it will be to choke the life from his body, anything less is a betrayal of myself, Boris, my father and Anne as well. In the end it would shatter my soul as nothing else in this world could do."
Looking up into Kawana's eyes her finger ran gently along his jawline. "M isn't the shadow that runs across my life Kawana, the shadow in my life is that I am bound to two men and will always be so. I've only yeilded to two men in my life and each of you holds a different piece of me and always shall. If you keep me, Boris still had a piece of my heart; if you let me go you still have a piece of my soul. These things have nothing to do with M except for that fact that he put me in your paths."
She curled into Kawana, drawing strength from his arms around her while her mind spun and twisted on what he said. Her mind refused to accept it. If she gave herself to M willingly she would loathe herself and in the end Boris as well for allowing it and believed he would come to hate her for doing it. Slowly she shook her head against Kawana's chest.
"I can't Kawana. Willingly giving myself to M is more than even my soul could bear. If I ever see him again it will be to choke the life from his body, anything less is a betrayal of myself, Boris, my father and Anne as well. In the end it would shatter my soul as nothing else in this world could do."
Looking up into Kawana's eyes her finger ran gently along his jawline. "M isn't the shadow that runs across my life Kawana, the shadow in my life is that I am bound to two men and will always be so. I've only yeilded to two men in my life and each of you holds a different piece of me and always shall. If you keep me, Boris still had a piece of my heart; if you let me go you still have a piece of my soul. These things have nothing to do with M except for that fact that he put me in your paths."