Jacking-Off Log

[Zen_Life]

c&p...

last night i put some serious energy into perfecting not cumming.

bringing myself to the brink, then taking a breeath, relaxing, clearing and making it vanish.
kinda difficult at first, with the rappit ears thrust hard under the hood of my clit, set high enough to be not quite comfortable.

i can now just make the feeling go away and i can keep it up for hours.

...jacking minus the off.

I'm a BIG fan of that. Sometimes I don't want to cum. I just want to last for a loooong time because it feels so damned good

 

[rosco rathbone]

Vitality is low. RIght now, I have the wisdom of an ancient sage on a mountaintop. The female body doesn't seem particularly interesting. It will be a matter of empirical fact, as to how long it takes to recharge sexual hatred.

God bless all you jackers who keep the faith.

 

[Batch]

during my lunch hour

sitting in my car

and lo, the urge, the desire

the absolute

need

came upon me and followed it

questioning, do I have porn on my 'puter?

yes!

undoing my belt and sliding the zipper down
reaching in, finding umm wet

held tight by my clothes,
damn

unexpected
hard need
hard arrival
done
bliss and relaxed

damn good O

 

[stirbird]

Vitality is low. RIght now, I have the wisdom of an ancient sage on a mountaintop. The female body doesn't seem particularly interesting. It will be a matter of empirical fact, as to how long it takes to recharge sexual hatred.

God bless all you jackers who keep the faith.

I predict three days. Let us know how long it actually is, if you would.

Oddly enough, the placing of wisdom at the opposite end of the see-saw from sexual vitality was one I saw John Fowles make just a few hours earlier today (I think it was toward the end of The Magus, but it might have been in some ancillary material I read online after finishing the novel--I remember thinking rather ironically how wise I must be these days).

What Rosco describes above, an infrequent if not rare experience for him I think, is my daily, almost unvarying, reality. As I've said before in this thread, without someone in my sphere of perception who erotically interests me and who I am interesting to (the mutuality of interest is an essential part of the sexual formula for me), it's as if my sexuality shuts down, goes into almost total hibernation. Very rarely in this period, I've felt desire, even intense desire, but it's random and unconnected with anything or anyone specific. Unsually it's just a porn picture that caught my eye.

I realize this may sound like I'm trying to identify myself with the sleeping beauty archetype, but I am no beauty and I am wide awake lucidly analyzing this unplesant and dreary situation. I have tried out other theories on for size, such as PTSD, but I've noticed strong variations in my desire since the event that caused the most stress--if you can call it that--in my life, that had to do with whether or not I thought that the condition of mutual desire was being fullfilled at the time. Still, when enough time passes, I may come to understand the whole thing differently. We shall see.

Last night I went to bed earlier than what I've grown used to and I couldn't sleep. But I needed to, because I had an interview the next morning I needed to be alert for. So I finally decided to try something I'd mentioned brielfly here before: to force myself to orgasm when I had no desire, much the way people here occasionally describe forcing themselves not to come, when they really want to. I knew if I did orgasm the resulting physical relaxation would probably let me drop off.

I was able to do this without too much trouble, to my surprise, although there wasnn't much fanfare involved. I rubbed myself with my hand, the way I always do (anything else is too intense and becomes painful). I thought of a standard fantasy for me: two men, one sadistictally beating me while the other fucked me. In last night's fantasy I made them vampires because I get off on shedding blood when it feeds someone else's lust, and that condition is easy to meet when you partners enjoy drinking you. So I'm imagining myself bleeding from numerous bites--some large and painfully ragged; some small--all over my body and held in a vice grip on top of the vampire who is screwing me while the other whips me with a scourge so harsh, it also causes me to bleed. The arousal accompanying these images is muted and dull, it's barely there, but it's there enough that I can see I'll "get the job done" without too much time and effort.

All of a sudden the vampire fucking me says something like, "you really need my cock in you, don't you?" I am suprised to hear my sexual desire related to anything besides masochism, and I think of how long it's been in real life since I felt that particular sensation. (I'm too ashamed to say how long it's actually been in public, but I believe it would set some sort of record on Lit, even given the great variety of people who post here.) I barely have time to reply to to my vampire lover, "yes, you're absolutely right" when that, of all fucking things, god-damn it all to hell, causes me to come.

 

[rosco rathbone]

There's no one like you, birdie.

I rubbed it this morning but held it in--to build vitality. All of this saw palmetto I'm taking is helping my rebound time, I think.

 

[luxey313]

a wake and bake sleepy wank
thinking of bathroom sex over the sink
pants under the ass
hurried anal but sweet
looking at each other in the mirror
pulling my shirt up
tits out of the bra to feel them on the cold counter
the edge digging into my hips
watching him in the mirror looking down as he is in me
kinda embarrassed

 

[tortoise]

Last night. It had been a few days. My cock reminded me of this, insistently, but I was distracted and petulant, so I ignored it.

"Too stressed," my mind grumbled, dismissively. "Nerves too raw."

"Throb. Throb. Throb."

"Yeah, yeah. Just go to sleep. You'll get plenty of attention later. Primadonna."

Drifted off. Deep, undisturbed sleep. Undisturbed, that is, until the wee hours of the morning (two or three am). Cock throbbing like the clanging of a mission bell, almost painfully tight.

"Not stressed NOW, are you, motherfucker?" he snarled.

"Fucker. Okay, okay. A quick jack. Anything to shut you up."

Hard, fast, angry jack. Manhandling my cock while manipulating my ballsack. Mind a blur of images, finally settling on a trigger image. Her, riding me, in my lap, her ass in my hands, her nipple stuffed in my mouth, her cunt stroking, clutching, grinding, body pressed tight to mine at every electric point of contact. Fucking explosive O, with epic streams of seed.

My mind didn't want to relinquish the curmudgeonly tone, as that would be letting my cock off the hook. "There. Happy now?"

"Yeah. But you are too. You can't fool me."

"Whatever. Get some sleep."

 

[rosco rathbone]

a wake and bake sleepy wank
thinking of bathroom sex over the sink
pants under the ass
hurried anal but sweet
looking at each other in the mirror
pulling my shirt up
tits out of the bra to feel them on the cold counter
the edge digging into my hips
watching him in the mirror looking down as he is in me
kinda embarrassed

Jacking on your birthday? Scandalous!

 

[Evora]

last night, my boyfriend called me and we had phone sex while his college roomates were in the same room but asleep. it was great

 

[luxey313]

Jacking on your birthday? Scandalous!

you have to get laid on your birthday!

 

[BedtimeStories77]

last night, my boyfriend called me and we had phone sex while his college roomates were in the same room but asleep. it was great

Evora, 17 year old's are not allowed here. Once the site owners find out your ISP will be banned.

 

[Hamletmaschine]

. . . God bless all you jackers who keep the faith.

Amen to that. This is the only 'neverending thread' that I hope never ends.

And, for what it's worth, I think there is more depth of political thought in an honest J-O log than in all the political pseudo-discussion threads on Literotica.

 

[Hester]

Amen to that. This is the only 'neverending thread' that I hope never ends.

And, for what it's worth, I think there is more depth of political thought in an honest J-O log than in all the political pseudo-discussion threads on Literotica.

amen to your amen.

this thread has changed my life. i'm not sure what exactly that says about me, but i'm willing to at least file it in the "positive things" category.

 

[rosco rathbone]

Amen to that. This is the only 'neverending thread' that I hope never ends.

And, for what it's worth, I think there is more depth of political thought in an honest J-O log than in all the political pseudo-discussion threads on Literotica.

I agree. This thread has something to offer everyone. The one thing that unites us is our dedication to the onanistic art: masturbation.

 

[cfnmparty]

Tonight I gave myself a "stranger." I jacked off with my left hand so that it felt like someone else was doing it....

 

[rosco rathbone]

Tonight I gave myself a "stranger." I jacked off with my left hand so that it felt like someone else was doing it....

And here I thought I was the only person who did that shit.

If you want to kick it up a notch, apply a local anesthetic to the left hand, or cut off the circulation.

 

[Hotat21]

Once, I masturbated on a public bus...


Right now?

face first on bed, bottom propped up by 4 pillows, knees bent, vibrator in panties....

 

[bridgeburner]

"This will not be quick. You will not enjoy it. I am not your King."


Made me want to cry (I'm hormonal) but it was still hot as fuck.


Who else could I run and tell but you guys?


I did jack later but about something else.

 

[rosco rathbone]

See, I thought he said "this will be quick...." which I thought was even hotter.

If I had directed that movie, I would have shown the legitimate lovemaking of the King and queen as face to face only, maybe all with her on top. Then the ahab-beared traitor takes her from the rear in an act of vile congress.

I jacked long and hard this morning to stimulate the production of raw chi, but held it in. An o would have been enjoyable but I can't afford it right now. I'm reading Decline And Fall so I was thinking about the latter day corrupt emperors and how they'd take liberties with the beautiful wives of the senators in order to humiliate them. A formulation frequently used by Gibbon is "...and whenever persuasion (or seduction) proved ineffective, the Imperial lover had recourse to violence...". This got me jacking. Imagine the thrill of ordering the members of the senate to submit their wives for the purposes of oral servitude! Then I got onto another tack, thinking about one of the various reconquests of Dacia from the Goths, during which each legionnaire was allotted as booty "two or three female slaves" from the immense ranks of the Gothic camp followers.

A historical jack, very edifying and pervy.

 

[rimmy]

I'm usually a very visual creature when I wank. I either watch porn or read a story. Through lack of practice I seem to have lost the art of the fantasy but yesterday I had a very good one picturing the wife getting gangbanged by a few of our friends. While they were fucking her I was filming it and telling her what a dirty little cumslut she was.

Too bad I don't actually have such a video.

9 out of 10.

 

[luxey313]

See, I thought he said "this will be quick...." which I thought was even hotter.

If I had directed that movie, I would have shown the legitimate lovemaking of the King and queen as face to face only, maybe all with her on top. Then the ahab-beared traitor takes her from the rear in an act of vile congress.

I jacked long and hard this morning to stimulate the production of raw chi, but held it in. An o would have been enjoyable but I can't afford it right now. I'm reading Decline And Fall so I was thinking about the latter day corrupt emperors and how they'd take liberties with the beautiful wives of the senators in order to humiliate them. A formulation frequently used by Gibbon is "...and whenever persuasion (or seduction) proved ineffective, the Imperial lover had recourse to violence...". This got me jacking. Imagine the thrill of ordering the members of the senate to submit their wives for the purposes of oral servitude! Then I got onto another tack, thinking about one of the various reconquests of Dacia from the Goths, during which each legionnaire was allotted as booty "two or three female slaves" from the immense ranks of the Gothic camp followers.

A historical jack, very edifying and pervy.

I love concept of the humiliation.
that rules

expect nothing less from you

 

[lemmesee]

Tonight I gave myself a "stranger." I jacked off with my left hand so that it felt like someone else was doing it....

And I thought that I was the only one who did that

 

[rosco rathbone]

And I thought that I was the only one who did that

You too, Pervus?

Apparently the proles have declared today "steak and blowjob day". A stupid idea for a day; one that would be unnecessary in a land ruled by the precepts of mastery, eh Mecha? what what?

Playing with myself just now, after cutting up scotch bonnets for stew. Will I never learn? Now it feels as if the laundry girls used Mace on my draws instead of spray starch.

 

[rimmy]

You too, Pervus?

Apparently the proles have declared today "steak and blowjob day". A stupid idea for a day; one that would be unnecessary in a land ruled by the precepts of mastery, eh Mecha? what what?

Playing with myself just now, after cutting up scotch bonnets for stew. Will I never learn? Now it feels as if the laundry girls used Mace on my draws instead of spray starch.

OUCH! Try and hide it all you want wrathbone but we all know you did it on purpose.

 

[rosco rathbone]

OUCH! Try and hide it all you want wrathbone but we all know you did it on purpose.

It does kind of hurt so good.