Jacking-Off Log

[rydia57]

Hmmm... got off a little after six, after spending an hour talking to someone I was lusting after. In my bed... my toys about me, dildoes, buttplug, toothbrush... came moaning loudly his name...after thinking about him and a sick fantasy I have... gushing all over, got a little on the sheets.... took 30 minutes before i could move... finish the job... whew!

 

[MechaBlade]

In my bed... my toys about me, dildoes, buttplug, toothbrush... came moaning loudly his name...

oh yeah. you had me at buttplug.

after thinking about him and a sick fantasy I have...

details.

 

[rosco rathbone]

As a rule, Asians don't have much ass, but we do it with any round ass we come across.

The OC was referring to this anecdote, in which my old Belizean partner claimed that the black man was directly responsible for any asian avoirdupois.

Certainly, there are points where you're so hot for some ass you think (and yeah, I've thought this) "Man, if women had a third hole in their ass, I'd fuck that, too." And sometimes when you get some good ass or a good jack, you want more after you're done, but it seems to me, from my knowledge of myself and everything I've heard from other men, that after a good 2-3 Os you're as done as you want to be.

What I find is that, while my physical body may be exhausted-and it's possible to confuse that with orgone satiety-I am still plagued by dissatisfaction of some kind.

 

[Hester]

What I find is that, while my physical body may be exhausted-and it's possible to confuse that with orgone satiety-I am still plagued by dissatisfaction of some kind.

i have the same thing happen, more so with masturbation that partnered sex, but it happens with both.

 

[Hester]

It changed your need? My porn only broadens my horizons.

Big fan of metaphors, but I got lost on this one.

problem is i don't need my horizons broadened. i already scare myself with where my mind goes and have a hell of a time finding partners who "get" me.

the metaphor was a bad joke.

 

[stirbird]

Porn works well for me--although text works slightly better than pictures or movies--probably because I'm the sort that easily projects myself into other situations. I can get lost in all but the very worst-written novels.

As for post-possession dissatisfaction, I wonder sometimes if physical sex isn't a poor approximation of something that's a lot more complete (and that we vaguely remember somewhere). I do know from personal experience that as (or if) one's love or affection for the owner of the body part or quality you most eroticize becomes stronger, the approximation of a feeling of unity increases.

 

[Hester]

Porn works well for me--although text works slightly better than pictures or movies--probably because I'm the sort that easily projects myself into other situations. I can get lost in all but the very worst-written novels.

As for post-possession dissatisfaction, I wonder sometimes if physical sex isn't a poor approximation of something that's a lot more complete (and that we vaguely remember somewhere). I do know from personal experience that as (or if) one's love or affection for the owner of the body part or quality you most eroticize becomes stronger, the approximation of a feeling of unity increases.

i'm with you on both counts. the written word seems to stimulate me much better. it also, however, pushes me more quickly.

because of my sex drive, i use masturbation and/or sex as a "maintenance" tool---to let off steam so i don't go completely crazy.

in my heart of hearts, though, i believe sex is one of many doors to a transcendent experience. i think the lack of that in my sexual realm is at least a large part of my frequent dissatisfaction even after good masturbation or sex.

i'm not sure of the role of love in this. although i think love makes the door easier to open i've had dissatisfying sex lives with men i've loved and, conversely had at least semi-transcendant sexual experiences with men i've felt less affection for.

 

[Marquis]

I've fought the impulse to jack for the last few days as a way of trying to salvage some semblence of control in my life.

 

[SolidState]

I've fought the impulse to jack for the last few days as a way of trying to salvage some semblence of control in my life.

How long will celibacy last?

 

[Marquis]

Who said anything about celibacy?

 

[SolidState]

Who said anything about celibacy?

Good man.

 

[Olivia_Yearns]

i had to stop using porn. it escalated my need for the...unusual to a point where i was disgusting myself, which in turn was strangely arousing. which is really not anyplace i need to go right now.

i'll suffer my terminal arousal with little release, and change the vacuum bag every few days.

I feel that - mixtures of disgust and arousal. And I wonder where that will lead me. My own fantasies have always had bizarre and degrading elements, but actually seeing some of those things enacted in porn - I feel like that might warp me in some new way. Thanks for posting that.

 

[hogjack]

I feel that - mixtures of disgust and arousal. And I wonder where that will lead me. My own fantasies have always had bizarre and degrading elements, but actually seeing some of those things enacted in porn - I feel like that might warp me in some new way. Thanks for posting that.

New Warp can be fulfilling as long as you are in control.

Engage.

 

[Hester]

I feel that - mixtures of disgust and arousal. And I wonder where that will lead me. My own fantasies have always had bizarre and degrading elements, but actually seeing some of those things enacted in porn - I feel like that might warp me in some new way. Thanks for posting that.

ain't sexuality grand

 

[Olivia_Yearns]

ain't sexuality grand

Grand agony. I'm a walking cliche, torn between sacred and profane love.

Jacking-off log: I'm going to go do it now, before going back to work.

 

[SolidState]

torn between sacred and profane love.

A little from column A and some from column B.

 

[Hester]

Grand agony. I'm a walking cliche, torn between sacred and profane love.

funny, i'm looking to merge the two. i think they are fine complements

for the log--i jack every morning when i wake up and every night before i fall asleep. sometimes midday as well. today so far has been no exception.

 

[MechaBlade]

The OC was referring to this anecdote, in which my old Belizean partner claimed that the black man was directly responsible for any asian avoirdupois.

Oh. Hey, I learned a new word.

What I find is that, while my physical body may be exhausted-and it's possible to confuse that with orgone satiety-I am still plagued by dissatisfaction of some kind.

That's too bad. Have you tried cumming on the ass?

problem is i don't need my horizons broadened. i already scare myself with where my mind goes and have a hell of a time finding partners who "get" me.

the metaphor was a bad joke.

If they don't "get" you, don't tell them about the dark stuff until later, and just have lots of consensual one-on-one missionary sex in a bed with no implements.

Who said anything about celibacy?

Cheater. You're not truly master of your domain until you can withhold from orgasms for days. You have to feel the aching, burning need and resist.

I do it every once in a while as a way of focusing my chi.

I feel that - mixtures of disgust and arousal. And I wonder where that will lead me. My own fantasies have always had bizarre and degrading elements, but actually seeing some of those things enacted in porn - I feel like that might warp me in some new way. Thanks for posting that.

I wanna know what kind of porn you guys are watching that makes you feel so ashamed. I only am ashamed of one kind of porn I occasionally check out, and I'm working on that.

Perversion is something to celebrate, unless it's a performance-restricting necessity of a fetish.

 

[Hester]

If they don't "get" you, don't tell them about the dark stuff until later, and just have lots of consensual one-on-one missionary sex in a bed with no implements.

doesn't work. i've tried the catch-and-ambush tactic and have discovered if he's not a freak on the first day he won't be a year later.

masturbation is more satisfying than a vanilla/unkinked partner. there's a rare exception or two to this for me but i won't get into it here.

 

[MechaBlade]

masturbation is more satisfying than a vanilla/unkinked partner.

sounds like your horizons haven't been broadened, just shifted.

 

[bridgeburner]

I wanna know what kind of porn you guys are watching that makes you feel so ashamed. I only am ashamed of one kind of porn I occasionally check out, and I'm working on that.

Perversion is something to celebrate, unless it's a performance-restricting necessity of a fetish.

I wouldn't say that I'm precisely ashamed of my taste in porn. I mean, it's porn, you know? That's like being a fan of potted meats but then feeling inferior because you prefer Spam to Deviled Ham.

As for the illegalities of my preferences, they're not particularly extreme, you just can't show penetration in non-consentual scenes these days. I end up combing sites like Cinefear and taking chances on 70's porn including Women in Prison flicks, Nazi sexploitation and Cannibal Ferox type movies. Horrid films but they have some brief moments of "just right" for me. Of course, again, it never lasts long enough although I did do well with a film called "Rough Sex II" that came out in 2001. It was apparently banned not long after, but all I care about is that I got mine. ;->

 

[Hester]

sounds like your horizons haven't been broadened, just shifted.

'splain, please

(i'm assuming rosco will let us know if we're hijacking too much)

 

[MechaBlade]

I wouldn't say that I'm precisely ashamed of my taste in porn. I mean, it's porn, you know? That's like being a fan of potted meats but then feeling inferior because you prefer Spam to Deviled Ham.

As for the illegalities of my preferences, they're not particularly extreme, you just can't show penetration in non-consentual scenes these days. I end up combing sites like Cinefear and taking chances on 70's porn including Women in Prison flicks, Nazi sexploitation and Cannibal Ferox type movies. Horrid films but they have some brief moments of "just right" for me. Of course, again, it never lasts long enough although I did do well with a film called "Rough Sex II" that came out in 2001. It was apparently banned not long after, but all I care about is that I got mine. ;->

Non-consent is yummy, and not any illegal-er than softcore porn. However, that's not how America prosecutes.

'splain, please

(i'm assuming rosco will let us know if we're hijacking too much)

I wasn't into anal sex as a kid. Now, I love the idea of fucking ass and have even performed this holy ritual. However, I'd have no problem marrying a woman who had a strict "no anal ever" policy, as long as she made up for it in other ways. My horizons have broadened because I still like the vanilla, but now, if offered, I'll take a slice of the chocolate.

*pats self on back for that metaphor*

 

[Hester]

I wasn't into anal sex as a kid. Now, I love the idea of fucking ass and have even performed this holy ritual. However, I'd have no problem marrying a woman who had a strict "no anal ever" policy, as long as she made up for it in other ways. My horizons have broadened because I still like the vanilla, but now, if offered, I'll take a slice of the chocolate.

*pats self on back for that metaphor*

i think there's a critical mass of kinkage that needs to be in the pastry for me to want to eat it. although i agree with you that it's not necessarily the individual ingredients that matter but the overall taste and satisfaction of the whole (hole?).

 

[MechaBlade]

i think there's a critical mass of kinkage that needs to be in the pastry for me to want to eat it. although i agree with you that it's not necessarily the individual ingredients that matter but the overall taste and satisfaction of the whole (hole?).

Well, I agree, there has to be some kink there.