DreamingOfMyEx
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The old Victorian house had been handed down to him from his paternal grandparents. His great-grandfather, the original owner, had also been named Samuel. The only child of an only child, the modern day Samuel Parker had hoped to one day fill the four additional bedrooms with children by his beautiful wife Tara. That would ensure the perpetuation of his line, and fill their lives with happiness.
That had been the plan.
Now one of those rooms served as a guest room, a second one was also available in case another guest room was needed, and the room in which Samuel could be found was his "office (slash) hobby room". Truth be told, it was also a room for collecting junk he couldn't bear to part with.
The fourth room was Tara's hobby room, where craft projects had been moved aside to make room for light weights, a yoga mat, and other fitness-related items.
He and Tara had so much in common it seemed - in the beginning. Similar religious views, similar political views, the same tastes in movies. In truth she was somewhat more intelligent and cultured - something he never denied and which she never pointed out. Otherwise, it seemed a match made in Heaven -- almost.
There were other differences. Tara had been overweight even when they married, and seemed to gain even more after the wedding. Samuel would have preferred her "thinner", but still found her to be a remarkably beautiful woman -- one he felt he didn't deserve. Samuel didn't have the same issues with his weight. In fact he was quite healthy back when he was in the Army, but that was years ago. This more sedentary lifestyle, coupled with job stresses, were beginning to take their toll. No, he wasn't "fat", but he was starting to look much less fit - and he was starting to feel much less fit as well. Perhaps if he spent more time on the dusty treadmill sitting in the corner instead of at the computer desk watching porn ...
"Doesn't matter now, does it?" he mumbled to himself from the corner in which he sat on the floor. When the man wants - needs - sex more often than the wife, what's the man supposed to do? And when the wife doesn't share his same fantasies -- well, that's what the internet is for, right? He would never in a million years dream of paying a prostitute to play the Dominatrix for him. At least Tara, on the rare occasion she indulged his fantasies, made an effort to pretend she was who he wanted her to be. A prostitute would just be going through the motions anyway, with no emotional investment in the game. Not that he would ever consider that option.
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"Fuck!" It was almost loud enough for Tara to hear in the Master Bedroom. "Fuck!" he whispered, but just as emphatically. It was supposed to just be a fantasy! Sure, as she was losing weight he encouraged her to dress sexier, spend more time on her hair and makeup, he even sprang for a couple of days at some fancy spa where she would be treated as the goddess she was becoming. Sure, he got a bit excited the first time he saw her flirting with a handsome young waiter. And the second time, too. It played right in to one of his biggest fantasies.
But fantasies are just that. They have their limits. Right?
Apparently not. Not in this case.
It was difficult to admit to himself it was all his fault - even though it may have been. No, it wasn't. It was a fantasy. It wasn't supposed to be real.
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A few minutes earlier his beautiful sexy wife had given him two options: Suck it up, or pack his things and get out. Get out of the house HIS great-grandfather had built with his own two hands. Still, it wasn't the thought of having to leave his own home that he dreaded, but the thought of living without Tara.
Wiping away the last of his tears, Samuel returned to the bedroom to find his wife sitting at the vanity. Admiring herself? Getting ready to go out?
"I love you" he whispered. She didn't appear to care one way or the other. She was waiting for him to say something else. "You ... you deserve ... whatever you want. I.. I just.. don't want to live without you. I.. can't live without you. Please.. let me stay."
The tears started again.