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zeb1094 said:
Many a lawyer I have known, unless they where in Corporate Law, has a current marital status of divorced. Especially in family law practices.
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How ironic is that? :rolleyes:
 
Aurora Black said:
How ironic is that? :rolleyes:
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Yes it is. Here they are arguing for you in a divorce case and they are nolonger married themselves.

Ted-E-Bare said:
Must be hard to be married to someone trained to argue any point.
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How true!
 
There are people in this world who are addicted to emotional upheaval. They are addicted to needy, unequal relationships not because they are healthy relationships, but because they are the type of relationships with which they are the most familiar. Even though it is unpleasant for them to be in such an unhealthy relationship, they will continue as they are, or continually seek out a similar relationship simply because it's familiar, it's what they know how to deal with. It is not, however, healthy. It is not living consciously. It's like walking into the same pit of quicksand time after time because that's the only path they've ever taken, even though they know it ends in quicksand, they're too scared to walk the road not taken.


(This blurt is for me; it is not directed at anyone else.)
 
I'm dying for a rum spiced blueberry slush right about now.
 
sophia jane said:
My poor kid cannot stop coughing! :(
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Stand him on his head! The snot will stop running down the back of his thoat! Of course is sinuses won't drain but he will stop coughing for a while.
 
zeb1094 said:
Stand him on his head! The snot will stop running down the back of his thoat! Of course is sinuses won't drain but he will stop coughing for a while.
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Interesting solution. At this point, I don't think anything's going to work.
 
"I still walk tall with a staggered stance, plus I got hold on the club like I was Bagger Vance"
 
I need to vent, ignore

I put on a good show. I realize that now. I mean I am creepy, that is just who I am. I'm quiet, I'm smart, and I really don't give a fuck about 80% of the people I come into contact with each day.

There are three people in this world that mean something to me, my wife and my two kids. Without them i don't know where I would be. Seriously, before I met my wife I was going to kill myself.

But you see I'm against suicide, so i couldn't just slit my wrists or put a gun to my head, no that is wrong. I think suicide is telling the world that it won, and fuck that, the world didn't win I didn't want to play by the rules I was given.

So my idea?

Kill my self through indulgence. Drugs, sex, and good times. I was completely prepared to die alone in an alley or some undisclosed location and not have anyone know until the smell got too bad. I was fine with it, I like being alone so why wouldn't I die alone?

Then my wife comes into the picture and turns me human. Before her I had myself shut off, my emotions were gone. I went from being a caring open soul to jaded in after two hard years. So what does this woman do to turn me back to a feeling and functional human? She loves me.

I mean full on love, not this shit sold to the world. This is the stuff that I have never experience before. I love my family (parents and such) because I have too and don't give to shit about most of them. So how to I react to this wonderful woman loving me?

I push her away. I cheat on her, I treat her badly, and I am a horrible person and in some twisted way my mind is seeing it that I'm saving this wonderful and AMAZING woman from me. She says she knows me but I know me and I don't want her around that.

Fucked up right? The first person in my life to really love me and I don't want her around. Why? Because I love her and I know that I'm such a scumball and fucking twisted bastard that she is better off without me.

Do my attempts at pushing her away work? No... she LOVES me. She stays with me after cheating twice, once with her best friend. She stays with me and I don't get it. She thinks she is doing something wrong, she isn't. She is doing something right and to be honest I don't know how to take it. I know how to screw up and I know how to take others down with me, but the hard part. The part that scares me, is the success.

Stupid, I know, because I know I can do it, I just don't know how.

Five years, going on six and she is still with me.

I wake up every morning and that whoever is watching that she doesn't realize exactly how bad she messed up staying with me. Right now I'm here and I'm staying here.

I know deep inside everything that I was is still there, but I know that with my wife and my kids, it gets deeper every day.
 
togitc said:
I put on a good show. I realize that now. I mean I am creepy, that is just who I am. I'm quiet, I'm smart, and I really don't give a fuck about 80% of the people I come into contact with each day.

There are three people in this world that mean something to me, my wife and my two kids. Without them i don't know where I would be. Seriously, before I met my wife I was going to kill myself.

But you see I'm against suicide, so i couldn't just slit my wrists or put a gun to my head, no that is wrong. I think suicide is telling the world that it won, and fuck that, the world didn't win I didn't want to play by the rules I was given.

So my idea?

Kill my self through indulgence. Drugs, sex, and good times. I was completely prepared to die alone in an alley or some undisclosed location and not have anyone know until the smell got too bad. I was fine with it, I like being alone so why wouldn't I die alone?

Then my wife comes into the picture and turns me human. Before her I had myself shut off, my emotions were gone. I went from being a caring open soul to jaded in after two hard years. So what does this woman do to turn me back to a feeling and functional human? She loves me.

I mean full on love, not this shit sold to the world. This is the stuff that I have never experience before. I love my family (parents and such) because I have too and don't give to shit about most of them. So how to I react to this wonderful woman loving me?

I push her away. I cheat on her, I treat her badly, and I am a horrible person and in some twisted way my mind is seeing it that I'm saving this wonderful and AMAZING woman from me. She says she knows me but I know me and I don't want her around that.

Fucked up right? The first person in my life to really love me and I don't want her around. Why? Because I love her and I know that I'm such a scumball and fucking twisted bastard that she is better off without me.

Do my attempts at pushing her away work? No... she LOVES me. She stays with me after cheating twice, once with her best friend. She stays with me and I don't get it. She thinks she is doing something wrong, she isn't. She is doing something right and to be honest I don't know how to take it. I know how to screw up and I know how to take others down with me, but the hard part. The part that scares me, is the success.

Stupid, I know, because I know I can do it, I just don't know how.

Five years, going on six and she is still with me.

I wake up every morning and that whoever is watching that she doesn't realize exactly how bad she messed up staying with me. Right now I'm here and I'm staying here.

I know deep inside everything that I was is still there, but I know that with my wife and my kids, it gets deeper every day.
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Show this post to your wife, really, show her.

I read this and it struck such a chord in my heart because it reminds me so much of my husband. He was going tokill himself, literally, the day he met me. He says I saved his life. He is still so scared that he's messing up my life by letting me love him, by loving me and our daughter and now and then, he tries to push me away. He'll not succeed, mind , but he tries it and I still love him.

It's not something you choose to do and once it starts, it's not something you want to stop. She loves ya babe, don't try to understand it, you won't, just try to begin to accept it. :heart:
 
its not really a blurt until it makes itself known.
i have mental blurts almost as often as men think of sex or maybe more so.
i hate interrupting myself mentally. its rude.
most people who talk alot have what i call verbal diarrhea
i have mental diarrhea.
no, not add
just a really active thought process...
 
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