Isolated Blurt Thread
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carsonshepherd
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fancy meeting you.... but of course!
carsonshepherd
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mosquito bites! arrrrrgh!
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carsonshepherd said:
*passes benedryl cream*
carsonshepherd
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*scratches and scratches till it almost bleeds*
Just woke up from a bad nap. I didn't care who I was. I didn't care who I killed. I fucking smoked and I loved it. Lots of people died. It was Chrismas, but everything was empty. The tree was up. Lights were up. No lights were on. Everything was dark. I killed some friends, and didn't even care.
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Rhys said:Wine me, dine me, sixty nine me?
I can't stop thinking about this.
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carsonshepherd said:
*smacks hands*
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carsonshepherd said:
*psssst*
You don't even have to do it in that order.
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Celtic Princess said:
yer worse than my mom, yannow that?
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ABSTRUSE said:
Not fucking likely, Abs. Life only sucks if you let it.
You leave and I'll drag your ass back here!
rgraham666 said:
I'll join you. Misery loves company, and I would also love to have any reason to grab Abs' ass.
Life does suck...on some days. Other days it's wonderful. Still other days it just goes on and doesn't seem to do much else.
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carsonshepherd said:yer worse than my mom, yannow that?
I'm helping to preserve your sexiness. It's totally self serving.
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what, raw scratched-up ankles aren't sexy?
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carsonshepherd said:what, raw scratched-up ankles aren't sexy?
Not if you want them sucked on...
*grin*
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actually I prefer a nice nibble...
with toe-sucking for a finish
with toe-sucking for a finish
WARNING: Vent Ahead:
AAAAARRRRRRRRGGGgggggghhhhhhhh....
I want to scream so bad. I want to volcalize the pain I feel. I want to let the world know my heart is empty.
I fucked up ya know.
I made a mistake.
I thought I wanted something.
I thought I wanted someone.
Sex.
What's the big fucking deal?
I gave up everything for a simple want. I'm so fucking childish. I want to grow up. I want to be the man I know I can be. I want to be the man I know I can be for the person I want to spend the rest of my life with. I don't want it to end.
I don't want it to end.
I've seen the paths. I've seen where the one road can lead. I thought I wanted that road. It's not me. I thought it was. Man...I was so lost.
My perfect life was going to work, and coming home. I would come home and be waited on, and for, by a beautiful woman who did nothing but love me. That's all she ever did. She was so good at it. She never asked nothing of me. I asked it of myself. What the fuck was I trying to prove? WTF did I want? I don't know. What I wanted is meaningless. What I'm loosing is the best thing that ever happened to my life.
MY FUCKING LIFE!!!
I got nothing but good. I got nothing but respect and understanding. What did I do? I shat upon it. I'm an asshole. A fucking asshole.
I'm not beating myself up. I'm telling the truth.
Shit happened.
I want to take it all back. I want to reverse time, smack my stupid ass, tell me to cool the fuck down and look. Really look at what I have. A great life. I had a great life.
I see the emptiness coming. The lonely bed. I see the long nights full of pain.
I sold something I love, because I couldn't stand to love it anymore. I said I had no regrets. I was giving up something childish.
No...I loved that game. I loved what I stood for there. I gave it up because it didn't make me happy anymore. Without her, nothing makes me happy.
I would have gone to the tournaments, and maybe won, maybe lost...the point is...it wouldn't have mattered. Without her I don't even want to be the best. I have no one to make proud.
Sure...do for me. That's what I'm told. Take care of myself. Do what makes me happy.
You know what?
I FUCKING DID THAT!!!
You know where it got me?!
Hell.
My own personal Hell.
I should be here. I have no where else to go. I deserve to burn in these firey pits.
Shit...I wish it was firey, then I could feel something dammit.
I'm tired of ranting. I'm tired...period.
I can't sleep. Sleep haunts me. I hurt people in my sleep. Literally and figuratively.
There is a path that is dark and evil and can consume me if I let it. Right now I see it forming. I feel its pull. I feel the marks.
The path of light and peace fades quickly. It fades because I walk away from it. So much do I want to return. I have no reason now.
To go down the dark path is not me. My nature is not there. I know who I am, but I walked away from it. I became someone I'm not. I did things I wouldn't do.
Why?
Fucking sex.
Selfish.
Greedy.
Arrogant.
Stupid.
I miss my perfect life.
I once said let me fuck up my twenties and I'll get everything back to normal in my thirties.
I had a life most only dream of. I had it all. I had peace and comfort. I had love and kindness. I wanted more. I wanted the pain to go away. Is that so wrong? No, but the way I did it was.
Hitler had a great idea, but it was wrong. The way he acted was wrong.
I murdered someone...inside I did.
I stole..dreams...and other things.
I commited adultery.
I put other gods first...idols.
I coveted.
I beared false witness.
I haven't kept the Sabbath holy in a long time.
I've started using the Lord's name in vain.
I fucking hate my parents...for what they did to me.
I can't even think of any of the commandments I have kept. I feel so worthless. I should just go away. Start over...away from everyone. I should be...
I don't know. I'm lost.
End of rant.
AAAAARRRRRRRRGGGgggggghhhhhhhh....
I want to scream so bad. I want to volcalize the pain I feel. I want to let the world know my heart is empty.
I fucked up ya know.
I made a mistake.
I thought I wanted something.
I thought I wanted someone.
Sex.
What's the big fucking deal?
I gave up everything for a simple want. I'm so fucking childish. I want to grow up. I want to be the man I know I can be. I want to be the man I know I can be for the person I want to spend the rest of my life with. I don't want it to end.
I don't want it to end.
I've seen the paths. I've seen where the one road can lead. I thought I wanted that road. It's not me. I thought it was. Man...I was so lost.
My perfect life was going to work, and coming home. I would come home and be waited on, and for, by a beautiful woman who did nothing but love me. That's all she ever did. She was so good at it. She never asked nothing of me. I asked it of myself. What the fuck was I trying to prove? WTF did I want? I don't know. What I wanted is meaningless. What I'm loosing is the best thing that ever happened to my life.
MY FUCKING LIFE!!!
I got nothing but good. I got nothing but respect and understanding. What did I do? I shat upon it. I'm an asshole. A fucking asshole.
I'm not beating myself up. I'm telling the truth.
Shit happened.
I want to take it all back. I want to reverse time, smack my stupid ass, tell me to cool the fuck down and look. Really look at what I have. A great life. I had a great life.
I see the emptiness coming. The lonely bed. I see the long nights full of pain.
I sold something I love, because I couldn't stand to love it anymore. I said I had no regrets. I was giving up something childish.
No...I loved that game. I loved what I stood for there. I gave it up because it didn't make me happy anymore. Without her, nothing makes me happy.
I would have gone to the tournaments, and maybe won, maybe lost...the point is...it wouldn't have mattered. Without her I don't even want to be the best. I have no one to make proud.
Sure...do for me. That's what I'm told. Take care of myself. Do what makes me happy.
You know what?
I FUCKING DID THAT!!!
You know where it got me?!
Hell.
My own personal Hell.
I should be here. I have no where else to go. I deserve to burn in these firey pits.
Shit...I wish it was firey, then I could feel something dammit.
I'm tired of ranting. I'm tired...period.
I can't sleep. Sleep haunts me. I hurt people in my sleep. Literally and figuratively.
There is a path that is dark and evil and can consume me if I let it. Right now I see it forming. I feel its pull. I feel the marks.
The path of light and peace fades quickly. It fades because I walk away from it. So much do I want to return. I have no reason now.
To go down the dark path is not me. My nature is not there. I know who I am, but I walked away from it. I became someone I'm not. I did things I wouldn't do.
Why?
Fucking sex.
Selfish.
Greedy.
Arrogant.
Stupid.
I miss my perfect life.
I once said let me fuck up my twenties and I'll get everything back to normal in my thirties.
I had a life most only dream of. I had it all. I had peace and comfort. I had love and kindness. I wanted more. I wanted the pain to go away. Is that so wrong? No, but the way I did it was.
Hitler had a great idea, but it was wrong. The way he acted was wrong.
I murdered someone...inside I did.
I stole..dreams...and other things.
I commited adultery.
I put other gods first...idols.
I coveted.
I beared false witness.
I haven't kept the Sabbath holy in a long time.
I've started using the Lord's name in vain.
I fucking hate my parents...for what they did to me.
I can't even think of any of the commandments I have kept. I feel so worthless. I should just go away. Start over...away from everyone. I should be...
I don't know. I'm lost.
End of rant.
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