Insecurities....

[Jewelz]

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Jewelz, enough!! You have four days to enjoy him and enjoy each other. Stop flagellating yourself with what-ifs and other negative mind talk!! Do you want to turn him, and yourself, off??

Think positive. On Friday you begin four days of wonderful exploration. Enjoy the adventure, live it to the full, cherish every moment by living it as YOU want, rather than worrying about the times after.

When a person has a dream, the world goes out of its way to help make it happen. So dream big! Very BIG!!!

Hugs, Don

Don you are very wise. Thank you for your honesty and your knock upside my head!! Sometimes I need that! Dream big? Have you been ready up on me? That is my motto

HUGS don!

 

[enjoyingitall]

Morning, sweet Jewelz...a bright day for you today, I'm hoping.
Hugs.

 

[Jewelz]

Morning sweet E. Aside from a headache and tummyache that wont go away....today is a good day so far

 

[omahaman2]

okay,JEWELZ I Know its hard not to worry about insecurities. I agree with ht everyone has said and i agree,you have nothing to worry about. A friend of mine will keep you company wednesday and thursday.


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HOWEVER,starting friday,I do not want you to even think about insecurities.I think I have one of the best views on this whole matter since I just went through this meeting thing myself a few months ago and am in addition from his area of the country,Just wanted to let you knowa couple of things. Number one is you may worry now but that first look from the other person, that first smile. that first sight of how they look at you, that first hug, that first kiss will wipe all thoughts of insecurities from your mind. Roflmao, i can remember that eventful day when i was downing bottles of scope,trembling as the elevator rode up to her apartment but when that door opens and she was standing there,m it was like heaven on earth. All worries were instantly removed by her lips.Here months later she still puts up with me, she is even moving to Omaha.Now, im no Mel gibson, so that just shows you you have no grounds for insecurities.The second reason I can tell you why you shouldnt have insecurities is like him I am a male from the same part of the country,very very close, and I can tell you we mean what we say, Everything i say,is heartfelt and i mean it. This is what males are like from our part of the country so believe what he says.

Now, about him, he almost got me in trouble yesterday. From his av, i thought I saw him at lunch on tuesday. Finally,figured out it wasnt him but sure got some strange looks from the gtoup of guys there LOL. OH WELL have a wonderful 4th and even a more wonderful weekend . enjoy it, I know youll see lots of

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and im talking the weekend,not the 4th. REMEMBER,ENJOY YOURSELF

 

[Phelan]

Yeah, those who know me, know very well that I am pretty much an insecure person who has very little self esteem.

My body image is the main reason for that. Yes, I am a BBW and yes, it is something that I have the power to change and believe me, I am trying. But while in the midst of trying, I still can not get passed the worries of "what if he is repulsed", "Will I be able to turn him on still"...etc etc.

Many times over he has reassured me that I have nothing to worry about nor fear. But its just 3 days away....I love him so very much and I want to be able to put this insecurity to rest. I do unfortunately fear losing him. And I dont like having those feelings of insecurity especially since he has told me over and over again to "STOP". I know he loves me with all that he is. He is one hell of a man. He is my everything. But my body just has me scared of rejection. Of repulsing him. Silly ...i know.

And he will just about kill me when he reads this thread. Baby...I trust you and believe in you and what you say to me. I am trying, I promise, I am trying to let go of this insecurity of mine. I think come Friday, hopefully it will be my moment to exhale and rid myself of these senseless worries.

Soo, any other BBWs out there care to give any advice on getting over that fear? Or anyone have advice on letting go of insecurity??

OK, let me sum this up for you... I love you. That's it, that's all. See that period at the end of the sentence? Notice how there's no conditions after that, like, I love you .... but? That's because it's unconditional. No stipulations, no conditions, no if's, no but's, just plain old unconditional love. Three little words, I Love You. End of story, time to pick up a new book and start a new chapter in our lives.

 

[Jewelz]

(((((OMAN)))))) you are such a great friend to have! you always brighten my days with the wonderful things you say to jenny and to others...me included! I know you are a man of your word and I KNOW he is too. He is so very special to my heart. I also know that once he holds me when I get off that plane..I will be in heaven. I just need to feel his love on a physical level. no, not just sex...lol.. i am so excited that jenny is moving to omaha with you...if all goes well, i will be moving there too i am sure. thanks for the cuddle bear..i need one!!! LOL

and LOLOL @ the lunch scene...omg..too funny!! you guys have probably shopped at the same grocery store at the same time! heehe!!

Thanks for your encouraging words Oman!!

 

[Phelan]

Here months later she still puts up with me, she is even moving to Omaha.

We'll all have to get together someday and have a drink some night after everyone gets moved out here.

 

[Don K Dyck]

There for art thou Romeo.

Right on Phelan!!

 

[Lance Hardrock]

Jewelz Honey....

Good morning, baby girl. I see you have even more well-wishers and the Awesome Phelan himself has spoken. He said it all in three words. That's all you need to think about.

Now, I won't be here tomorrow, but I will be back on Friday. I want you to have a great 4th and even GREATER time with Phelan.


Now, as far as Shining Eyes suggesting a licking from head to toe. .... I want in on that scene for sure. I'll start at your feet, she can start at your lips and we'll meet in the middle. Now that sounds pretty dang good to me (of course, Phelan, don't be jealous. We love you too)

 

[Jewelz]

Re: Re: Insecurities....

OK, let me sum this up for you... I love you. That's it, that's all. See that period at the end of the sentence? Notice how there's no conditions after that, like, I love you .... but? That's because it's unconditional. No stipulations, no conditions, no if's, no but's, just plain old unconditional love. Three little words, I Love You. End of story, time to pick up a new book and start a new chapter in our lives.

*tears* my sweet baby....I love you with all that I am. You make every day worth living. You have given me so much love, that unconditional love, every day since we met. Im so very blessed to have your love, your friendship, and your heart. I promise to always treasure every breath you take and to give you the same unconditional love back. I love you Phelan. Im ready to start that chapter. The everlasting novel called Forever Love........

 

[Jewelz]

thank you lance *hugs* you have a great holiday too!! thanks for everything...you have always been there when I needed someone to talk to.

and behave! the only one licking my body is phe...

 

[beth-n-mike]

jewelz.... your post.. i have no words.. i had a terrible day with my own weight yesterday , and am still coping with a lot of those feelings ( see the bbw threads , i dont remember which one)

i know its hard to accept yourself , and even if you come to a point where, say 90% of the time you feel just fine.. theres still that last 10% that comes at you like a bat out of hell and knocks you flat on your ass, and has you tearing..

ok,, this isnt coming out right...

i cam going to fight some cliches..
looks arent everything.... no they arent but , if you don't have them , you can help but notice the looks from others.

your man has fallen in love with you in perhaps the best possible way , without you two meeting.. flesh is just that flesh , and lets face it , he fell in love with the real you , not the package.. and he has assured you the package is unimprotant, take that thought and hold it dear... not often we hear that from a loved onewhen we truly truly need it . he sooundsl ike , from everyones raves , hes a wonderfull man , and he is so lucky to have a sensous wonderfull woman as yourself for him to treasure

you will make a great couple, i am sure of it. nervousness . well gee , if you werent nervous , then there would be something to worry about...

right now, youre in limbo, feeling excited to see him , and terrified it wont be "right"... i understand that. and i know its hard , but you have to let it go .. just keep repeating .....what happens is meant to be .... and it will ... good luck , hold on to the smile
youre a very beautifull person , and he is damn lucky to get a chance at you

B

 

[Jewelz]

oh my gosh! im so blushing. Beth darlin...you hit the nail on the head......most of the time i try to ignore the weight and have a good time regardless..but yes! i know exactly what you mean when you say that other times it plain knocks your ass out. the stares, the snickers, the hateful snide comments from some "fat" haters on the boards. or even everyone drooling all over a knockout..yanno??

Thank you very much for your words. Very sweet of you to say what you have.

Lucky is me........I dont ever wanna lose him. I have been looking my whole life for him.

*hugs* hon!!

 

[1fiestyredhead]

I really can't say anything more than what the wonderful people here have already said....especially the wonderful Phelan. But as your best friend, and someone who has shared tons of personal joys and tears with, I want you to know that you're one of the truly beautiful, gorgeous people in this world. You dare to lead with your heart, even though you take a chance of it getting hurt every time you do. You don't even realize how special that is. But we do, and Phelan does. Trust in that when the insecurities start to bother you.....You my dear, sweet honey girl....ROCK!

 

[Jewelz]

I really can't say anything more than what the wonderful people here have already said....especially the wonderful Phelan. But as your best friend, and someone who has shared tons of personal joys and tears with, I want you to know that you're one of the truly beautiful, gorgeous people in this world. You dare to lead with your heart, even though you take a chance of it getting hurt every time you do. You don't even realize how special that is. But we do, and Phelan does. Trust in that when the insecurities start to bother you.....You my dear, sweet honey girl....ROCK!

You truly are a precious gift to me. We have spent many hours together and you know so much about me and my life. You have given me strength when I needed it most, you have given me laughter through the tears. Thank you for being the wind beneath my wings. I love you my fiesty girl!!

 

[omahaman2]

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[Marilyth]

He's gonna love you. And if he doesn't then tell me and I'll go to Bellevue and beat him up (lol). Cuz I'm only 10 minutes away

But seriously, I've found that these guys in Nebraska are very open to women as themselves. Yeah some guys are still privy to the physical side, but I'm thinking not yours!

Take a deep breath and don't worry. It would be different if he had NO idea what you looked like, but you're honest and open. NO secrets there!

You're a wonderful & beautiful person, even when you wake up first thing in the morning! There are times I wish I were you.

Good luck!! And Phe, you be good!!!

 

[Marilyth]

We'll all have to get together someday and have a drink some night after everyone gets moved out here.

NO WAY!! Jewelz is moving to OMaha???

I'm In Omaha!! I've always wanted to meet the famous Jewelz!!

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Hehehhehehehheeh

 

[omahaman2]

HI MARILYTH

HI NEIGHBOR. NICE TO MEET YOU

 

[ShiningEyes]

They are. I have never been so humbled by so many people. I wasnt expecting such compliments...just looking for advice to get over my insecurities.......ya'll are awesome!

Hopes the compliments helped in doing just that!!!!!!

 

[Marilyth]

Re: HI MARILYTH

HI NEIGHBOR. NICE TO MEET YOU

Hey there!!

 

[Jewelz]

He's gonna love you. And if he doesn't then tell me and I'll go to Bellevue and beat him up (lol). Cuz I'm only 10 minutes away

But seriously, I've found that these guys in Nebraska are very open to women as themselves. Yeah some guys are still privy to the physical side, but I'm thinking not yours!

Take a deep breath and don't worry. It would be different if he had NO idea what you looked like, but you're honest and open. NO secrets there!

You're a wonderful & beautiful person, even when you wake up first thing in the morning! There are times I wish I were you.

Good luck!! And Phe, you be good!!!

Thanks so much for your post hon! *hugs*

But please, dont ever wish you were me. I have alot of problems that you wouldnt want nor need. Emotional that is. Excess baggage. And you are very lovely in your own skin ....I like who you are as Mari....k?

 

[Jewelz]

NO WAY!! Jewelz is moving to OMaha???

I'm In Omaha!! I've always wanted to meet the famous Jewelz!!

::uncontrollable giggling::

Hehehhehehehheeh

LOLOL!!!!!!!! so cute! Famous? me? nahhh!! woman you silly!!

But yeah, I am sure I will be moving to Omaha!

 

[Jewelz]

Hopes the compliments helped in doing just that!!!!!!

they did, along with his consistent reassurance. i am just amazed by the kindness and gentleness of love and support from everyone. I am actually quite shy about it all. Blushing.

 

[JennyOmanHill]

LOLOL!!!!!!!! so cute! Famous? me? nahhh!! woman you silly!!

But yeah, I am sure I will be moving to Omaha!

Wow... so many future neighbors!

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Sure wish I were flying there now as well! You and Phelan will have a great time this weekend!