I'm sure I'll get judged for this but, whatever. For some context, we had done a bit of swinging until he said that he wanted us to stop. I told him I would, but I continued having my own fun. At first, it was just about wanting to continue having fun with others and enjoying new experiences, but in recent months I've really started to get a thrill out of the sneaking around and coming home after being someone else's dirty slut without my husband having a clue. The last thing I want is for me not to be able to enjoy sex for the lack of the thrill of cheating, but it has truly become such an addicting feeling that I've been really pushing the boundaries. Almost like I'm trying to see how far I can take things before I get caught. And maybe it's that danger. That makes it so enticing as well. Don't know if anyone else can relate but it has been an incredibly fun year for me.