Hi i'm Zoe, a 23yo trans girl from Australia and i'm in a bit of a pickle. Right, so, well I met a Dom for the first time online without even trying, I just put an ad up for a casual hookup and mentioned I would like to be dominated. We started emailing and never has anyone spoken to me the way he does and thinking about the things he wants to do to me makes me writhe around and tense up and get weird stomach cramps that just feel soooo good.
I actually remember getting the same feeling as a child, the stomach contractions and the ecstasy they brought. Of course I didn't really have the capacity to tie those feelings to anything sexual at that age, but i was hooked on day dreaming about being caught by evil creatures that would restrain me and put me through things so painful that my will had no choice but to break and then they would corrupt my mind until i was also evil or whatever... I was obsessed with imagining that in different ways for years.
So i mean... that's a pretty obvious clue to oneself... but regardless those feelings were forgotten and throughout my exploration of my sexuality i never met anyone who was able to help those desires burgeon. So now that my clearly deeply rooted urges have surfaced i'm going fucking mental. The Dom i've been speaking with hasn't replied in 4 days now after fairly frequent communication and i'm pretty sure it's deliberate and the waiting is driving me insane. I've been researching as much as i can and learned that what i'm experiencing is a Sub-Frenzy and i know that means i need to be careful but holy shit fucking fuck how can hold back this tidal wave of lust? It's deafening, overwhelming and all consuming. I've never been this turned on in my whole life and i neeeeeeeed to have my urges sated.
I just don't know what to do with myself... how do i fill this hunger? If anyone has any advice or experience they feel like sharing i'd be very appreciative. Thanks for reading.
I actually remember getting the same feeling as a child, the stomach contractions and the ecstasy they brought. Of course I didn't really have the capacity to tie those feelings to anything sexual at that age, but i was hooked on day dreaming about being caught by evil creatures that would restrain me and put me through things so painful that my will had no choice but to break and then they would corrupt my mind until i was also evil or whatever... I was obsessed with imagining that in different ways for years.
So i mean... that's a pretty obvious clue to oneself... but regardless those feelings were forgotten and throughout my exploration of my sexuality i never met anyone who was able to help those desires burgeon. So now that my clearly deeply rooted urges have surfaced i'm going fucking mental. The Dom i've been speaking with hasn't replied in 4 days now after fairly frequent communication and i'm pretty sure it's deliberate and the waiting is driving me insane. I've been researching as much as i can and learned that what i'm experiencing is a Sub-Frenzy and i know that means i need to be careful but holy shit fucking fuck how can hold back this tidal wave of lust? It's deafening, overwhelming and all consuming. I've never been this turned on in my whole life and i neeeeeeeed to have my urges sated.
I just don't know what to do with myself... how do i fill this hunger? If anyone has any advice or experience they feel like sharing i'd be very appreciative. Thanks for reading.
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