Im a guy who fantasies all the time about being a girl. I love seeing porn of girls sucking cock and wishing it was me that was her.I'm envious of the female body and wish I had one. I want to be made to suck cock and swallow Cum. I get off on being treated like a girl.
I wish i was a transgender.
- Thread starter Hard4Dick
- Start date
Stella_Omega
No Gentleman
- Joined
- Jul 14, 2005
- Posts
- 39,700
first of all, you are transgendered, and yeah-- it is painful and depressing.
Not so many of us get to change our sex-- our body-- to match our brain. We have to use our imagination.
You certainly can be made to suck cock and swallow cum in the body you already have. "being made to suck cock" is not a thing that makes you a woman.
Not so many of us get to change our sex-- our body-- to match our brain. We have to use our imagination.
You certainly can be made to suck cock and swallow cum in the body you already have. "being made to suck cock" is not a thing that makes you a woman.
SissyElla
Really Really Experienced
- Joined
- Dec 29, 2011
- Posts
- 403
Plenty of us understand what you're feeling, if you ever want to talk, feel free to message me 
Can I just say I love your turn of phrase =)
Can I just say I love your turn of phrase =)
EMPRESSLAINIE
Really Experienced
- Joined
- Jul 9, 2012
- Posts
- 158
Find Dr. Bushong's treatise: What is Gender on the net and read it. It only took me 72 years to realize I had been a female person all my life. Feel free to PM me with any questions you have. Never been happier. I wouldn't wish being TS on anyone, but my own path was easier than 98% of the others. Many of us go thru years of pure hell either trying to fight it, or having to deal with the problems after coming out. One reason I live stealth.
And my becoming famous quote: Trying to stop the progression of TS is like trying to stop a runaway freight train with your bare hands. It ain't gonna happen.
In many cases the options are: Transition or Suicide. I lost a dear 19yr old friend that way.
HaddenIndustries
Experienced
- Joined
- Jul 1, 2006
- Posts
- 80
Do you fantasize about making out with a guy? Or do your fantasies focus on cock?
Stella_Omega
No Gentleman
- Joined
- Jul 14, 2005
- Posts
- 39,700
Starr, "genetic women" is still a problematic wording We like to say "cis women or man" meaning someone who is happy and comfortable and identifies gender-wise the same way their body's sex presents.
We like to say "cis women or man" meaning someone who is happy and comfortable and identifies gender-wise the same way their body's sex presents. Sure, lots of cis women ID as submissive, but that's not what makes them female. This person's only stated reason for thinking they want to be female is because they feel submissive. That's not much.
Stella_Omega
No Gentleman
- Joined
- Jul 14, 2005
- Posts
- 39,700
Celedriel 
Stella_Omega
No Gentleman
- Joined
- Jul 14, 2005
- Posts
- 39,700
Now that's an interesting point-- when I watch porn or read it or see images-- IF I am turned on, it's because I identify with someone in it. And usually, that's a male. I want to be that dude.
Even if the dude isn't exactly human...
Even if the dude isn't exactly human...
Stella_Omega
No Gentleman
- Joined
- Jul 14, 2005
- Posts
- 39,700
But-- i WANT to be a cartoon character!Even if the dude isn't exactly human...
Lol! followed the link and NO, it doesn't make you a cartoon character either!
What's really crazy about that character is the dude no longer has a penis at all, but a vag. And a tail.
it's been interesting to see what the female slashwriters make of it.
lindsey4cum
Really Experienced
- Joined
- Jul 18, 2011
- Posts
- 159
Ok we have gone over a lot of things and I too would like at least a quick comment about me.
12 or 13 years old I wished all the time I was a woman, in the shower or in my dreams I fantasized about it, but as raised christian it was wrong. I fought it over the years and purged a lot if I felt I was found out.
Over the last 3 years I have gotten my cherry poped from a very nice black man in full dressing! I find women beautiful and exotic! Having sex with them is always fun! But on the other hand I don't find guys attractive at all unless they are taller than 6'2" and if they treat me like a lady when I'm dressed I'm puddy for him. I will do anything for him. Never had a boyfriend so I don't know how that will go, but women never get me to feel sexy or needed, a guy dose. Maybe I'm on the line untill someone can complete the two sides that I need! But I do smile and I'm more happy when I dress. Oh when I dress I hate to be untucked!!! I still love my "clit" to be played with yes, oh yes, but please never untuck me!! I feel I'm not a woman if I get untucked!
How would I be reckinized?
12 or 13 years old I wished all the time I was a woman, in the shower or in my dreams I fantasized about it, but as raised christian it was wrong. I fought it over the years and purged a lot if I felt I was found out.
Over the last 3 years I have gotten my cherry poped from a very nice black man in full dressing! I find women beautiful and exotic! Having sex with them is always fun! But on the other hand I don't find guys attractive at all unless they are taller than 6'2" and if they treat me like a lady when I'm dressed I'm puddy for him. I will do anything for him. Never had a boyfriend so I don't know how that will go, but women never get me to feel sexy or needed, a guy dose. Maybe I'm on the line untill someone can complete the two sides that I need! But I do smile and I'm more happy when I dress. Oh when I dress I hate to be untucked!!! I still love my "clit" to be played with yes, oh yes, but please never untuck me!! I feel I'm not a woman if I get untucked!
How would I be reckinized?
Last edited:
Stella_Omega
No Gentleman
- Joined
- Jul 14, 2005
- Posts
- 39,700
yeah. FUCK Politics! I am SO SICK of politics! LOL
Tell us about sex for a while.
Little Bird
Literotica Guru
- Joined
- Jul 29, 2003
- Posts
- 1,071
sexual repruduction is a great thing, but making it that everyone gets only half the parts is the greatest unfairness of nature.
why can't we all be more like snails?
why can't we all be more like snails?
EMPRESSLAINIE
Really Experienced
- Joined
- Jul 9, 2012
- Posts
- 158
I agree with everything you said. I have been my true self for over 5 years now....very few people have knowledge that I am trans; including a lovely woman I met the other day and had a little chat time with. UNTIL my gf's son used my old name and outed me the next day when they had a date.
Stella_Omega
No Gentleman
- Joined
- Jul 14, 2005
- Posts
- 39,700
EMPRESSLAINIE
Really Experienced
- Joined
- Jul 9, 2012
- Posts
- 158
Stella, the kid is 49 and has no understanding of TS. His twin brother and his mom (my sort of fiancee - another story) does and knew Christine Jorgensen in person.
I think the lady is OK about it, and it made me feel wonderful that she had no clue I was a transwoman. She initiated the hugs after some 3way conversation with me and the mom.
I think the lady is OK about it, and it made me feel wonderful that she had no clue I was a transwoman. She initiated the hugs after some 3way conversation with me and the mom.
Stella_Omega
No Gentleman
- Joined
- Jul 14, 2005
- Posts
- 39,700
He's a malicious little shit, then.
And it's gotta feel great to know you're so female!
... reminds me of someone I met a few times in my young adult days. I was and am a rocker, and always dressed on the flamboyant side, and I did not understand why anyone wouldn't.
This trans woman wanted to wear Lane Bryant sets, you know? It baffled me. But all she wanted was to be a lady.
There have been plenty of shitstorms over being transgender, what it means, what it doesn't, etc, and yes, there is a wide range of gender expression out there, there are people who identify as hybrid or neither male nor female, there are crossdressers of variety (those who see it as a 'hobby', those who are strongly sexualized with it i.e when dressed become sexually hyperactive, you name it...).
Gender is complicated as hell and defining things get very tough. It is also very hard sometimes to tell what someone is, let alone determine what we ourselves are. There are plenty of people who id as cross dressers who later on decide that they really want to transition and live as women, get SRS, etc....(I am leaving out FTM here so as not to go too broad, though FTM's have similar stories as well as differences).
Sometimes people fantasize about being women watching porn as the OP did and that is simply how they cope with their gender feelings, through fantasy., it happens with some people that way.
Quite honestly, someone watching porn and fantasizing about being a woman and getting fucked could be a lot of things, there is no way really to know what they are or aren't. Saying that someone who fantasizes about being a woman and having sex is simply gay or whatever is as wrong as saying they are definitely transgender and should be looking at transition, hormones, etc.....there is just no way to know. If fantasizing about being a woman and having sex is all someone has, those fantasies, I personally would speculate they are prob not someone ready to go 'the whole way', if at all, but it would be just that.
The OP would need to find their own answers/path, could be they simply enjoy fantasizing about being a woman, there is no way for anyone on here to tell. What someone is can only be found when someone actually goes out and does things to find that out, and I am not talking about dressing up and going to bed with guys, you find out what you are by doing a lot of things (there is nothing wrong with exploring sexuality, but it isn't the same thing as figuring out gender identity or what you need). Having gone through the process and also seen what the internet did, good and bad, what concerns me is when I see things said like "of course, if you dress up like a hot women and have sex with men, you are truly meant to be a woman" or "if you truly are transgender, need to be a woman, of course you will want to sleep with men" and the like, among other thing, there are a lot of fetishistic crossdressers who when dressed love having sex with men, doesn't mean they really want to be women......Not to mention that roughly 40% of M to F trans people stay with women sexually (some of those might be bi, but still tend to aim for women)
. Likewise, you aren't a woman because you love to wear 5" heels or get your ears pierced or wear short skirts (though those things are wonderful, if that is what you are into as a woman) but doesn't define one, either. I have seen people fuck up their lives because they were told by people who didn't know jack shit they of course should transition, when they might have been perfectly happy being a part time cross dresser.....you aren't really 'a woman' because you want to be a submissive sex slut, you aren't 'a woman' because you wear tight, slutty outfits and heels, you aren't a 'woman' because all you talk about is fashion or the latest hot hollywood stud, you are a woman when you find that your identity totally is based around being that, whatever kind you are.
The trappings of the sexy woman are fun, especially as many come up from the ranks of crossdressers where the 'slut' look is de rigeur, and I found that fun (and still do) and sexy, but I also learned that my most profound experiences happened when the artifice wasn't there and I was simply out and around being me, where I could define it and say "yep, that is me". No, I am not one of those in the so called community who totally deny sexuality is part of being trans (we used to call them the grandma moses contingent, who seemed to believe that to prove you were 'real' you had to dress like grandma and deny sex *ick*), that is ludicrous, but if being trans means living for sexual encounters I question it, simply because sex is only a part of life, that's all, and the same would apply to women born that way, if sex was all they had to define who they are few would think that was good......It is why defining who you are in these cases is a process and takes a lot of work, because it involves stripping down and rebuilding in many cases And you never know what the final destination is going to be, the path is a weird one, as I know only too well.....
All I can say to someone who has feelings like "I dream of being a woman", is that that starts by actually going beyond fantasy and working at it, working on the emotions and the various other things that make up exploration and later, transition. One of the biggest tests of whether it is a fantasy or not is when someone takes hormones, given what HRT does to the male sex drive, it often is a good test, those who are on a fantasy jag when they lose male sex drive generally don't like it.....
Gender is complicated as hell and defining things get very tough. It is also very hard sometimes to tell what someone is, let alone determine what we ourselves are. There are plenty of people who id as cross dressers who later on decide that they really want to transition and live as women, get SRS, etc....(I am leaving out FTM here so as not to go too broad, though FTM's have similar stories as well as differences).
Sometimes people fantasize about being women watching porn as the OP did and that is simply how they cope with their gender feelings, through fantasy., it happens with some people that way.
Quite honestly, someone watching porn and fantasizing about being a woman and getting fucked could be a lot of things, there is no way really to know what they are or aren't. Saying that someone who fantasizes about being a woman and having sex is simply gay or whatever is as wrong as saying they are definitely transgender and should be looking at transition, hormones, etc.....there is just no way to know. If fantasizing about being a woman and having sex is all someone has, those fantasies, I personally would speculate they are prob not someone ready to go 'the whole way', if at all, but it would be just that.
The OP would need to find their own answers/path, could be they simply enjoy fantasizing about being a woman, there is no way for anyone on here to tell. What someone is can only be found when someone actually goes out and does things to find that out, and I am not talking about dressing up and going to bed with guys, you find out what you are by doing a lot of things (there is nothing wrong with exploring sexuality, but it isn't the same thing as figuring out gender identity or what you need). Having gone through the process and also seen what the internet did, good and bad, what concerns me is when I see things said like "of course, if you dress up like a hot women and have sex with men, you are truly meant to be a woman" or "if you truly are transgender, need to be a woman, of course you will want to sleep with men" and the like, among other thing, there are a lot of fetishistic crossdressers who when dressed love having sex with men, doesn't mean they really want to be women......Not to mention that roughly 40% of M to F trans people stay with women sexually (some of those might be bi, but still tend to aim for women)
. Likewise, you aren't a woman because you love to wear 5" heels or get your ears pierced or wear short skirts (though those things are wonderful, if that is what you are into as a woman) but doesn't define one, either. I have seen people fuck up their lives because they were told by people who didn't know jack shit they of course should transition, when they might have been perfectly happy being a part time cross dresser.....you aren't really 'a woman' because you want to be a submissive sex slut, you aren't 'a woman' because you wear tight, slutty outfits and heels, you aren't a 'woman' because all you talk about is fashion or the latest hot hollywood stud, you are a woman when you find that your identity totally is based around being that, whatever kind you are.
The trappings of the sexy woman are fun, especially as many come up from the ranks of crossdressers where the 'slut' look is de rigeur, and I found that fun (and still do) and sexy, but I also learned that my most profound experiences happened when the artifice wasn't there and I was simply out and around being me, where I could define it and say "yep, that is me". No, I am not one of those in the so called community who totally deny sexuality is part of being trans (we used to call them the grandma moses contingent, who seemed to believe that to prove you were 'real' you had to dress like grandma and deny sex *ick*), that is ludicrous, but if being trans means living for sexual encounters I question it, simply because sex is only a part of life, that's all, and the same would apply to women born that way, if sex was all they had to define who they are few would think that was good......It is why defining who you are in these cases is a process and takes a lot of work, because it involves stripping down and rebuilding in many cases
And you never know what the final destination is going to be, the path is a weird one, as I know only too well.....All I can say to someone who has feelings like "I dream of being a woman", is that that starts by actually going beyond fantasy and working at it, working on the emotions and the various other things that make up exploration and later, transition. One of the biggest tests of whether it is a fantasy or not is when someone takes hormones, given what HRT does to the male sex drive, it often is a good test, those who are on a fantasy jag when they lose male sex drive generally don't like it.....
Last edited:
Stella_Omega
No Gentleman
- Joined
- Jul 14, 2005
- Posts
- 39,700
ncdude, you can call yourself "genderqueer" and no one will argue with that.
blade_rocknut
Literotica Guru
- Joined
- Oct 11, 2009
- Posts
- 26,185
I often wonder just how many folks are caught somewhere in the spectrum of gender confusion. I figure it's quite a lot; most not knowing what the feelings even mean.
EMPRESSLAINIE
Really Experienced
- Joined
- Jul 9, 2012
- Posts
- 158
The cogiati - I finally managed after 5 whole years of being and living as a complete female, got it to say I was category 5 transexual. I had to cheat to do it though.
Hi Dick
In order to give me a better understanding, do you mind telling us how you feel when you're walking down the High Street where there are lots of people about. What are you attracted to then. The men or the women?
