I used to be impotent...

[freescorfr]

How powerless I felt. I used to fight against an education system I didn't believe in, argue my case, form pressure groups, organise protests: all to try to prevent the State taking more and more control of our kid's education.

I hated Margaret Thatcher, and marched with miners, ranted about Cruise and had to leave a school because I led the kids in protest about inviting Denis Thatcher to give out prizes.

I've battled for consummer rights against the biggest companies, and kicked against bureaucracy when it has put itself first.

I stopped inspecting schools because I believed the system was intrinsically against the interests of good relationships. The power of the catholic church - the priests and bishops weren't spared.

Phone calls, faxes, meetings, demonstations, letters, articles were my daily bread.

And I was impotent, or I felt impotent.

And then it stopped. The anger went.

Now, quite peaceful, I don't feel impotent at all, quite the opposite........

Has anyone else had this type of conversion? - it wasn't a blinding flash for me on the road to damascus - more like a lift in a taxi.

 

[T.H. Oughts]

I'm sure there are times we have all felt impotent.

 

[freescorfr]

I'm sure there are times we have all felt impotent.

And quite pleased to be so on occasion, I'm sure.

I mean though TH, ranting as a mission. There's plenty to rant about - you may even have ranted a bit yourself here - and then derantification. It may be called growing up - but it's only happened to me recently when I came out of my adolescence when I was about 50.

 

[MechaBlade]

I assume we are talking about sexual impotency right? If so, I'd like to hear your story of how you came out of it.

I didn't used to masturbate. It didn't feel good. Some guy told me I must've been just doing it wrong.

Then, after some things happened. I masturbated for the first time recently. I guess I was doing it wrong.

The bad thing is now I'm addicted. The good thing is it relieves a lot of stress and tension I used to have. Another bad thing is tension was a big reason for me writing stories. Writing erotica was like masturbation for me.

However, I still like to write. I just don't get the urges like I used to.

That's my story.

MechaBlade

 

[freescorfr]

I assume we are talking about sexual impotency right? If so, I'd like to hear your story of how you came out of it.

I didn't used to masturbate. It didn't feel good. Some guy told me I must've been just doing it wrong.

Then, after some things happened. I masturbated for the first time recently. I guess I was doing it wrong.

The bad thing is now I'm addicted. The good thing is it relieves a lot of stress and tension I used to have. Another bad thing is tension was a big reason for me writing stories. Writing erotica was like masturbation for me.

However, I still like to write. I just don't get the urges like I used to.

That's my story.

MechaBlade

Not really mecha, I've been a wanker all my life. But a feeling of powerlessness is undoubtedly related to some childhood event and everything's sexual at root in many people's books.

First of all, sex can be addictive - but that is unusual. If it's the only thing in your life and you are not lving normally because of it -you know, eating proper meals, fulfilling work obligations, neglecting other people who're important to you - that sort of thing, you may be addicted.

If it's just that you love porn and cumming and erotica, that's normal and all you need is a good relationship - which can be a lifetime's work.

Writing, as many Lit people will tell you can be hugely therapeutic - keep at it, it's also good for the brain.

 

[Laurel]

I felt impotent once - when my third grade teacher made me Hall Monitor and I got to wear a cool badge.



I'm sincerely apologize for the above. I just couldn't help myself.

 

[freescorfr]

I felt impotent once - when my third grade teacher made me Hall Monitor and I got to wear a cool badge.



I'm sincerely apologize for the above. I just couldn't help myself.

That's the sort of thing that can fuck you up for life, Laurel. Have you had therapy for it? Probably explain the cat thing.

 

[Laurel]

Could be.

 

[sch00lteacher]

I'd love to be around in 200 years...

To see what history has to say about Margaret Thatcher, and Ronald Reagan. I think by then a lot of what they really did will no longer be classified and kept from us.

The Iron Lady, and the Gipper. They sure didn't get a lot of respect when they were in power. But I think, me, that a lot went on behind closed doors involving these two.

Here in the states we view Reagan as a buffoon who could hardly remember his own name. I don't think that was the case.

Anyhow, freescorfr, you do not stand alone as someone who 'fought the law, and the law won'. Government has gotten too big to listen to a single man or small groups. Until you can control the outcome of an election, to hell with you (as far as they are concerned).

At least you tried, how can you feel bad about that? So many do not even do that. I respect you for trying. That was the important thing. You tried.

 

[freescorfr]

Thanks, sch00lteach. That's kind. I don't regret it at all. On looking back, I feel I expended a lot of energy on systems - rather than relating well to people.

The most valued currency in my day was rationality - it defined "being human" - that makes me smile now. I believed that you could argue and win. What nonsense.

I'd like listening skills to be the most taught thing in schools, closely followed by, "How to love unconditionally".

 

[android1966]

Re: I'd love to be around in 200 years...

The Iron Lady, and the Gipper. They sure didn't get a lot of respect when they were in power. But I think, me, that a lot went on behind closed doors involving these two.

No, I don't even want to imagine it. Aghhh, too late, Maggie and Ronnie and Bonzo in a threesome with a vat of custard.

 

[freescorfr]

I can't imagine Maggie and Ronald hard at it in the whitehouse.

Maggie's not a centrefold type.

Now Clinton, he'd have made a good porn star.

 

[android1966]

I thought "Bedtime for Bonzo" was a porn film, it certainly sounds like one.