I just needed to vent

[destinie21]

She wants to see the pretty panties
beneath this prada
fingers running over my body
like water.
baptizing me in complete submission
my baby's on a mission
and she knows it hers
so there's no need to ask permission
her fingertips can take me to the edge
but she never has to push me
because I jump all on my own

and tumble head over heels

She'll never be my princess because she's already my queen
and if you saw me kneel before her
you would know what I mean
and these words could border on obscene
and still you wouldn't know the depth of what she does to me
it's more than lips, and fingertips
long legs and she's kind of thick in the hips
and whats between her thighs could make me say my my my
but it's more

It's her eyes
and her smile
and the way just seeing her brushing her hair
can make me pause in wonder
and I wonder why
smelling her perfume makes my heart skip a beat
and I have to remind myself to breathe
because drowning in the depth of her leaves me breathless
I don't want that breath unless
she's going to steal it

mmm I feel it
deep
in and out
nope it's not about breathing anymore
it's about feeling the sweat between my breasts
and in the small of my back
as my fingers choke the hell out of the sheets
and losing my damn mind as I surrender
to the tensing muscles and luquid fire she brings
and I'm burning up
beneath her fingers
and lips
melting
and coming to grips
with the fact that she got me turned on and turned out
showing me love
and what love should be about
I'm done holding back
and never again
no secrets between lovers
no secrets between friends.

 

[RenzaJones]

You know I don't vent quite so beautifully as you do Love
but you also know I can flow a little.
this one is for you.
*******************


As I watch you move my dear
I am in awe and in love, and insane

You’re a pastel explosions that repeat forever
over a beautifully stretched canvas,
Better than a picture taken in the first perfect light
And the sunrise isn’t nearly so beautiful
As the light from the lamp as it strikes those eyes

Like the mist of morning, like the calm of night,
I’ve struck gold, and I a fool for you
How can a woman be so majestic and so infinitely true?

What words can describe your beauty?
What pen would dare attempt to replicate in thought and paper the gift of love you inherently possess

The essence of your eyes, the redolence of your lips, hips and fingertips
Just the thought of trying capture you is treason
And just the thought of you gives me a reason

To live
And give and do for you.
And every day I thank god for you.

 

[destinie21]

You know I don't vent quite so beautifully as you do Love
but you also know I can flow a little.
this one is for you.
*******************

You always did like to talk me to tears
Shame on you for makng me cry.


I told you once before that I’d gladly snatch your name up in my
sweaty palm and lace it with honey then sprinkle rum flavored kisses across your brow.

I did and you know I do
And “I do” isn’t what keeps me true

I don’t need this ring
and paper
to be yours
But you know I love the willingness to commit
And submit together.
And I love to love you
Put none above you
Not even next to you
Because I’m the only one who can bask in that light
And I don’t care if my light don’t shine
All I wanna do is be a reflection of you
The perfection of you is astounding
And I know how it sounds
So let me break it down
And flip the script
Like I ain’t a love poet
But for you I spit
I know you’re not flawless
But I find your intricate complexity
To be intriguing
And I know you’re not faultless
and sometimes you fall
but even when you stumble I like the grace with which you pick yourself up
and not only do you fill my cup
you pour until I’m overflowing
you keep me knowing that I’m beautiful
and with us it’s not always easy
but it’s always pleasing
and I’d fall to my knees pleading

but you know that’s not what I like to do on my knees
and when I do that right
I can make you plead
“please baby, baby please”
promises whispered from my lips to string you out
you’re a me addict and you know it
and in fact I’m an addict to
and I’d dying to overdose on the esscence of you

 

[RenzaJones]

check your email

 

[NoJo]

More from Mrs. J
My guess is the point of the "male-basher" label is that I'm supposed to back down... ditto buzzwords like "aggressive" and "bitch," among others. Someone throwing those words up does not do so by accident. They are trying to trigger a meta-message, to get our goody-goody, desperate-for-acceptance inner girly-girl to take over. Guess what? I've got that little twit gagged, I was sick of her mealy-mouthed whining holding me back!"

Nice quote. Fuck acceptance.

 

[destinie21]

Nice quote. Fuck acceptance.

Who is Acceptance?

lol sorry

 

[destinie21]

people suck

I can’t be your exotic
West Indian erotic
Honeyed eyes
See you growing neurotic
Because of who I know I am
Not your playboy pin up girl
I could be the girl next door
In this black white and shades of grey world
Not a pretty piece of pum-pum
Spread open for your entry
No I didn’t date that dude from the penitentry
You don’t want to know me
You just want forced entry
Don’t want to examine my depths
Only penetration
And the need for skin
Your dirty little sin
I’m not made up to be a secret
And I can’t be inconspicuous
God damn ridicule
Fucking redicuolous
I’m not your erotic
Not the exotic wild woman
Of your fantasy
my skin does more than contain my essence
my blood cries out redemption song
my lips speak of the fall of Babylon

NO not your exotic
erotic pretty piece of pum-pum .

 

[destinie21]

when did my best stop being good enough
and when did keeping it real stop being real enough
and am I playing the race card by calling bluffs
or am I bringing offense by telling it true
I'm spitting this one for me not you
and I'm being the olny person I know how to be
you cant flip the script that I wrote
and you can barely decipher the things I know
trying to bite my style you got more than you could chew
trying to run this game
when you don't know the rules

the language of my life used to be like hieroglyphics
on the tomb of Nefertti
and nowadays it's written
in subway graffiti

I don't apologize for this skin and these eyes
this nappy hair
isn't a burden I bear
nor is it a symbol of pride
behind which I hide
just to abide
a lie that was told since I early as I can remember


now worthless
is just another word for priceless
so it has become useless
when used to opress


I won't surrender who I am for everything that was
and I won't live for yesterday
but I can't forget my blood
forgetting isn't moving on
it's only coming undone
letting the past not be repeated
only re-bugun

 

[ffreak]

God I missed these vents. You are just too good for me to find any words that would come close to what you've already said - except maybe: Wow.

Keep it going, you are both singing beautifully.


-FF

 

[destinie21]

remembering you
all sweet lips
and touch soft to the core of me
until the motion became
familiar and stunningly new
the back and forth of waves
even the shallow end of your ocean
is to deep for me to do anything but sink.

and for a second there I couldn't even think
I could only be.





In case I haven't said it today
I you

 

[Svenskaflicka]

Would you like to join The Worst Chain Story Ever? We could use a chapter where our star, Magdalena Shaw, has a lesbinim en-cunt-er.

 

[destinie21]

Sure I'll join in theres nothing that I like better than an en-cunt-er
and it doesn't get any "worst" than me.
BTW you could have pm'd me but whatever, now what exactly do I need to do?

 

[Svenskaflicka]

Pardon the blonde... PM sent. You may now go back to your poetry.

 

[destinie21]

Look at me I'm so pretty
I Don't want or need your pity
I'm happy, happy, happy
because if I don't smile I'll lose it.

I fine, really really fine
wait a second...define fine
no forget it I'm fine, fine
quite devine
down the rabbit hole I sprial
going too fast.
I tripped and fell into this
but I didn't know it was so deep
down the fire escape in someone elses hat and cape
I ran because I run so well
feet slapping pavement
making music
singin', swingin' and getting merry like christmas.

and I'm fine, fine
quite devine
so long as I don't read between the lines
I'm fine
and I can hold it together so long as I don't think or breathe too much.

 

[destinie21]

I had my eyes wide open and I didn’t see it coming
Reticent with a vengeance because talking won’t help.
I want to go back to the beginning and rewrite the ending .
If I was used less
I wouldn’t be so useless
here’s the news flash
I’m not a thing
and by that I just mean I’m not anything

all this hoopla and bullshit that I went through
fucking whoop de doo
blah blah blah
on and on
the same old song
set to a brand new tune.

 

[destinie21]

Venting hard today

This emotion is pouring from my fingertips like blood
the cuts and scars that were hidden instead of healed
surface to taunt me.
I’m not who I thought I was and on top of all this anguish
that hurts too.
I paint and I write like the poet I was born to be
my suffering birthed onto canvases shines so bright
I almost can mistake it for light.
Slashes of color pour over everything
and I feel like Jabez
born in pain
generational curses
carry me back to my roots
the coldness closes in on me
I almost can’t take a breath
and at times I wish I just wouldn’t
but nature is cruel
I’m the fittest so I survive
but something that was intrinsicaly me is gone.
Who am I now Ms. Wordsmith still?
Writing my rhymes like this
Oh I have a lot to say
but I can’t scream it anymore
and the whispers barely reach my ears
so what message can I bring to assuage
the fears?
Tears never were my style
but now they seep from my eyes
and I think it’s the denial escaping
My mind is raped with unwanted images
pouring in unheeded
my cup runneth over
I’ve been in the valley of the shadow of death
but I fear all that is evil
because I know it’s not only in the dark places
Nope
not by a long shot
it’s right out in the open in broad daylight
I
can live with the pain
hasn’t history proved that?
but I can’t stand this patina of paranoia
that’s all over me
I’m a rhombus
I have no right angles
and the webs I've weaved are intricate and tangled
I can’t be beautiful
not now

 

[destinie21]

I can see them looking and saying I'm beautiful
saying like it's an insult and not words of praise.
"Beauty is only skin deep"
Said just loud enough for me to hear
whatever that's just something ugly people say
so being homely won't seem quite so bad.

If they only knew what they were saying.
it's not about being pretty
that's the last thing I need.
My insides are ripped to shreds and all people can think
is isn't she lovely.

 

[destinie21]

Sometimes I don't know who I'm supposed to be
I'm the strong one
but just now I feel weak
so who am I when the very quality that defines me is gone?
I don't cry often but these words on this page flow from
me like the tears I can't cry
and every now and then I just need to have a good long
space to put it out of my head.

If you want to know who I am just thumb through this rhyme book
and look at all the time I took spilling my soul through this pen
all these tears I've shed again and again
over all the wrongs I can't make right
and the rights gone wrong over night
I have this need to write
to pen these lyrics
just so I can sing this enraged caged bird's song
and right now I feel like baby face and stevie wonder
because what's running through my mind is how come? and how long?

Why can't I just have the strength it takes to admit
or why better yet why can't I just forget?
or be strong enough to really submit
I've been holding my emotions back
but now they hold me fast
and I don't know the answers
because I'm to afraid of the questions
I'm the one who pushes buttons
so why do I feel down pressed?

I can't decipher the reasons.

 

[RenzaJones]

There's nothing wrong with not being strong
it doesn't make you weak

It only makes you human
and by the by the emotions that consume you
are telling you to speak
I don't need to see the tears to know you're crying
I don't need to see your eyes to realize that you're hurting
I can't take your pain away any more than you could take mine, but I have to tell you it's because of you I survived

Words are yours and you are the wordsmith you claim to be
and I can't weave these words into a beautiful tapestry
all I can tell you to convey how I feel is that I love you
but those words could never speak to you on the same level as my heart.
and none of this can say how content I feel when I gaze into your eyes.

don't be too strong to be weak,

Whatever you're going through I'm here for you
my complicated baby.

 

[RenzaJones]

we burn like a ciggarette that had been lit
and left in the ashtray on the coffee table.

I miss you like crazy
I don't know if I can get through the day.
but I will just for that long distance phone call
where I tell you how I spent the whole day
day dreaming about you.

 

[destinie21]

 

[destinie21]

she should have been playing hopscotch then maybe she wouldn't have ended up knocked up
in the backroom of a baptist church
she could'nt afford the car so she named her baby Lexus
and she didn't have a job so she
stripped
and after she was stripped of her dignity
she started turning tricks
she siad it was only for a minute and she would get out of the life soon
but soon never came
the baby's daddy
didn't hear the cries
from the pretty brown eyes
of his baby girl

and Daddy was off schedule with mama
and mama was off schedule with daddy
so somehow the baby never grew up on time

She's a tiny dancer
shaking the only thing her mama ever gave her
staring out from slanted eyes of amber
she's got a chip on her shoulder
and growing older
doesn't help her understand
why she only ever see's herself through the eyes of a man
and so when she's sucking dick and turning tricks
and fucking just to pay the motherfucking rent
in a run down tennament
she's crying
wishing her parents hadn't left her with
these generational curses and these wounds that won't heal

 

[dirtylover]

Her amber eyes open sleepily,
her body naked, like morning sun
she smiles and yawns
No curtains, and window ajar
new awakenings, a baby's laugh
in her room, on her own


A lidded gaze across the years
an evening chill as the sun bleeds across the horizon
a thoughtful look, a reminiscent smile
gentle rocking on a prairie porch
old awakenings, a widows tale
so many things, but wiser now

 

[dirtylover]

bump

hi guys, love this thread, can't believe I dinna find it before, hope you don't mind my posting my rubbish on it

 

[destinie21]

Re: bump

hi guys, love this thread, can't believe I dinna find it before, hope you don't mind my posting my rubbish on it

post away darling the more the merrier