I've been married for 25 years and I desperately love my husband and he loves me. But we also haven't had sex for 10 years - it just happened. Lately, I've been thinking about women. About the feel of having a woman stoke my hair, and deeper more intimate thoughts that I just don't know what to do with. I don't have any "best friends" I don't have a sibling or an intimate co-worker that I would trust with this. I don't know what to do. I'm a private person and very shy when it comes to sex. My husband is my "only" and even when we were having sex it was never really good, so I guess I don't know what true love making is. I can't possibly go into a store to buy toys, so I come here and am drawn to the Lesbian stories. Playing with myself takes all of 30 seconds to get off and then I feel so empty. What am I. I feel pathetic, but feel like I need some help. Why is this happening now? Has anyone else been through this?
I don't know what I am
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Hi!
I'm girlsmiley, nice to meet you.
I'm surprised that you haven't had any replies!
First off I'd just like to welcome you to GLBT, and let you know that you're not alone! There are some people here who are genuinely interested and want to offer as much support as possible.
Now. I've never been married so I don't know how much help I'm going to be, but I have been in a relationship with a man. It seems like a lifetime ago. I wasn't happy, and pretending to love him was not only selfish of me, but unhealthy. For the both of us. I only really started living when I came out. It was like a brand new life. Like I was brand new again. It was a very difficult part of my life, but necessary.
Why did it happen? I have no idea.
Why at that time? Still no idea.
Like I said, I don't know how much help I'm going to be!
But welcome anyways!
I'm girlsmiley, nice to meet you.
I'm surprised that you haven't had any replies!
First off I'd just like to welcome you to GLBT, and let you know that you're not alone! There are some people here who are genuinely interested and want to offer as much support as possible.
Now. I've never been married so I don't know how much help I'm going to be, but I have been in a relationship with a man. It seems like a lifetime ago. I wasn't happy, and pretending to love him was not only selfish of me, but unhealthy. For the both of us. I only really started living when I came out. It was like a brand new life. Like I was brand new again. It was a very difficult part of my life, but necessary.
Why did it happen? I have no idea.
Why at that time? Still no idea.
Like I said, I don't know how much help I'm going to be!
But welcome anyways!
Hi!
I'm girlsmiley, nice to meet you.
I'm surprised that you haven't had any replies!
First off I'd just like to welcome you to GLBT, and let you know that you're not alone! There are some people here who are genuinely interested and want to offer as much support as possible.
Now. I've never been married so I don't know how much help I'm going to be, but I have been in a relationship with a man. It seems like a lifetime ago. I wasn't happy, and pretending to love him was not only selfish of me, but unhealthy. For the both of us. I only really started living when I came out. It was like a brand new life. Like I was brand new again. It was a very difficult part of my life, but necessary.
Why did it happen? I have no idea.
Why at that time? Still no idea.
Like I said, I don't know how much help I'm going to be!
But welcome anyways!
Thank you so much. You were a huge help. I love my husband, there's just something missing. I'll find it. I hope.
