I Dont Know If I'm Gay but.... this is all I can think about

[MrGreen96]

I have had this fantasy for years now and as it evolves in my head it just keeps getting better and better and I need to tell someone about it. In bed with women I am usually dominant, but I have this other side that I need taken care of. I have this fantasy of serving a women and doing everything she wants. I want her to take me into a public area infront of people, perferably a club, and force me to take guy after guy in my ass. I want to be laying there and feel there cum dripping down the sides of my legs. I want her to get fucked infront of me and have to eat the cum out of her pussy. I want to be laughed at used and abused.

I feel like this is something that I am alone on... anyone please comment.

 

[FurryFury]

From what I've seen you are not alone. IMO, whatever gets you going is a good thing to think about too.

 

[MzChrista]

I have had this fantasy for years now and as it evolves in my head it just keeps getting better and better and I need to tell someone about it. In bed with women I am usually dominant, but I have this other side that I need taken care of. I have this fantasy of serving a women and doing everything she wants. I want her to take me into a public area infront of people, perferably a club, and force me to take guy after guy in my ass. I want to be laying there and feel there cum dripping down the sides of my legs. I want her to get fucked infront of me and have to eat the cum out of her pussy. I want to be laughed at used and abused.

I feel like this is something that I am alone on... anyone please comment.

That fantasy is more common than you think.

And if it meant you were gay, what would the woman be in it for? Forget labels.

 

[catalina_francisco]

Maybe you are bisexual, maybe not, what you really need to explore is if this is something you want to explore in some way or keep as a fantasy. That being said, if you do go as far as physically exploring, please remember all the safer sex steps you need to employ.

Catalina

 

[DVS]

I have had this fantasy for years now and as it evolves in my head it just keeps getting better and better and I need to tell someone about it. In bed with women I am usually dominant, but I have this other side that I need taken care of. I have this fantasy of serving a women and doing everything she wants. I want her to take me into a public area infront of people, perferably a club, and force me to take guy after guy in my ass. I want to be laying there and feel there cum dripping down the sides of my legs. I want her to get fucked infront of me and have to eat the cum out of her pussy. I want to be laughed at used and abused.

I feel like this is something that I am alone on... anyone please comment.

You're not gay and I don't even think you're bi. I do think you want to be submissive to women though, and there's nothing wrong with that.

But I think I'd keep your fantasy as a fantasy. It seems very public and you might find that outing yourself in this way is erotic at the time, but disasterous, after.

Maybe find you a woman that wants to Domme you and together you can play out some scenes that fulfill your needs without getting into the public thing. Have you thought about two dominant women? With strapons?

 

[DVS]

Double post. Either the Internet is slow or Lit is. In my haste, I clicked once too many.

 

[Qla890]

I have had this fantasy for years now and as it evolves in my head it just keeps getting better and better and I need to tell someone about it. In bed with women I am usually dominant, but I have this other side that I need taken care of. I have this fantasy of serving a women and doing everything she wants. I want her to take me into a public area infront of people, perferably a club, and force me to take guy after guy in my ass. I want to be laying there and feel there cum dripping down the sides of my legs. I want her to get fucked infront of me and have to eat the cum out of her pussy. I want to be laughed at used and abused.

I feel like this is something that I am alone on... anyone please comment.

This is just my thought, but, I think, personally, labels as far as sexuality do more harm than good. I get the feeling from your question that you are unsure about identifying as gay, but that you're really interested in this fantasy- it worries me that maybe if you identified your fantasy as being a gay tendency than you'd somehow not want to embrace it as fully? If that's not the case, then all the better, but, if it is, I think it would serve better to not put a "sexuality" on things, and just say:
"I am me. I like what I like, and this is one of the things I like. (or am curious about, at least)"

I mean, to me "gay" means strictly male for male. If you're looking to be dominated by a woman, (and I'd assume your normal practices are with women, hence the 'is this gay' question?) then things are not 100% homosexually oriented for you..

I mean, if an off the cuff "label" is really so desired, I'd personally consider you bi-curious,or bi sexual, and go on with my merry day.

Like someone else said, a lot more people desire things of this nature than you'd expect. Hell, you probably work with, or have met, plenty of people yourself.
Embrace what you like,and don't mind the judgments of others. It's either simple secret curiosity, or deep rooted self hatred if anyone say anything negative.

Just my thoughts.

 

[Evil_Geoff]

... Insert "Male Submissive Forced To Sexually Serve Other Males and Be Cuckolded/Humiliated Fantasy #237" here...

I feel like this is something that I am alone on... anyone please comment.

You are not alone. Far from it. It's a very common fantasy, it's not shocking (sorry DVS! *LOL*) in the least.

There are dungeons and/or play spaces that could accommodate your fantasy without exposing your desires to public scrutiny, but you will need to research the clubs in your area. Best of luck.

Safe journeys,
- Geoff

 

[subish2009]

I have no idea about how common this fantasy is, but if these other guys are saying it's very common, they're probably right. They seem to usually know what they're talking about.

As for whether this fantasy means your gay, no one can answer that but you, and I agree with the posters who have urged you not to get hung up on labels. But I will say that your fantasy sounds like it's more about the power exchange than the men. Do you feel attracted to men if you remove the power exchange element from the equation? I mean, you already engage in D/s sex, so don't you think this is just you exploring another part of that dynamic? That's what it sounds like to me anyway.

And as far as exploring it in real life goes...just take it slow. Start by exploring with a Domme in private. You don't have to jump into the full-fledged fantasy right off the bat. Baby step your way in. For me, that always makes it ultimately better anyway because it draws the fulfillment out, but that may be my masochistic streak talking.

Good luck.

 

[Primalex]

I feel like this is something that I am alone on... anyone please comment.

Go away you sick fuck.

 

[Netzach]

I am usually dominant, but I have this other side that I need taken care of. I have this fantasy of serving a women and doing everything she wants. I want her to ...

Sounds like you're still Dominant.

I suggest hiring a pro. Preferably a fetish-friendly escort who'll do whatever you want.

 

[human_male]

You're far from alone. Post this question on the GLBT board and see how many men say they feel the same way.

I do too as a matter of fact, although it's just a fantasy. I wouldn't have the guts to act it out unless I was with a female partner who was really into it and I trusted implicitly. So it will probably just stay a fantasy.

Except the laughing at me part. I wouldn't like that. I have a recurring dream about being abducted and anally probed by aliens. The probing is fine but it's the way they all stand around and laugh at me after that I hate.

 

[MrGreen96]

Im def not attracted to men thats why it makes it even better because i dont want it, but i learn to need it. If there are a lot of people with the same feeling of wanting to be dominated, I feel like if I brought this fantasy up with most women they would be disgusted. Does this thing turn women on too?

 

[subish2009]

Im def not attracted to men thats why it makes it even better because i dont want it, but i learn to need it. If there are a lot of people with the same feeling of wanting to be dominated, I feel like if I brought this fantasy up with most women they would be disgusted. Does this thing turn women on too?

Hmmm...it doesn't me, but I'm a straight sub female. I very much have the impression, though, that their are lots of Dommes who might find this hot.

 

[subwannabe]

I personally think that being gay is different than being bisexual. To me being bisexual means you like to have sex with both sexes. Being gay means you not only want to have sex with only your own gender, but you want life and love to go along with it, as in a marriage type relationship and walking hand in hand down a beach looking at the sunset and kissing your significant other. It's up to you and others to decide which one you are.

 

[MisterSir]

I know at least one gay man who'd think you were wrong and probably many more who'd agree with him. Being bisexual means you find both sexes attractive; being gay means you find one sex attractive. You can get into all kinds of Kinsey-based arguments, but when people talk about bisexuality and homosexuality, that's all they're talking about. The idea that somebody only attracted to their own sex who's uninterested in the house in the 'burbs picket fence deal isn't gay is asinine.

 

[00Syd]

I know at least one gay man who'd think you were wrong and probably many more who'd agree with him. Being bisexual means you find both sexes attractive; being gay means you find one sex attractive. You can get into all kinds of Kinsey-based arguments, but when people talk about bisexuality and homosexuality, that's all they're talking about. The idea that somebody only attracted to their own sex who's uninterested in the house in the 'burbs picket fence deal isn't gay is asinine.

What he said.

That's like saying that someone who is only attracted to the opposite sex but who never wants to get married isn't straight.

 

[SirLeo]

Really, who gives a fuck?