How do you feel about your life ?

Samuelx

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How do you feel about your life ?


I have mixed feelings about mine.



Date of Birth : February 5, 1985.
Place of Birth : Cap Haitien, Haiti.
Height : 6'1.
Weight : 250 pounds.
Ethnicity : Black.



Academics :

I graduated high school in 2003. I attended BSC from September 2003 to April 2005. I studied Computer Science without getting a degree in it. I tried to register for classes at another school in September 2005 but it was too late. I'm returning to school in January 2006 to study Criminal Justice. If all goes well, I will have my Associate's Degree in Criminal Justice by December 2006.


Career Plans :


I plan on getting my Bachelor's Degree in Criminal Justice and
then go to the Police Academy for training to become a police officer.


Other accomplishments :


Activism for Male Victims of Domestic Violence. I helped a lot of people by handing out thousands of informational flyers all over the state of Massachusetts.

www.safe4all.org
www.batteredmenshelpline.org


Activism for People Living With AIDs.

I spent the summer of 2004 working in a kitchen volunteering to cook food for people who are living with HIV.


Personal accomplishments :

I've written a 340-page fiction book about the lives and loves of bisexual men and women. It's not published yet. There are only
four copies of it in existence and all of them are in my possession.


Other accomplishments : After living in denial about who I was for 20 years, I am proud of myself as a bisexual Black male. I've even come out to a few people I deemed trustworthy.


Romantic Past :


I've had relations with Marlowe D. of Florida. Lori B. of Mass.
Wanda S. of Mass. Kyle G. of Mass.

I've learned a lot from my relationships with both men and women.
All of us are human and need some love. All of us are capable of bravery and love as well as treachery, manipulation and deceit.


My Dreams : To help people and make a difference. To be a published author. To find whatever woman or man I am destined to be with ( if such a person exists). Maybe have kids someday.


How about YOU ?
 
Hmm..Somewhat confused about my feelings..
I'm happy for my friends, but I feel insecure about the future.

I go to a Mathematics University in Greece, and hopefully I can get a good grade to Computer Programming.
My REAL desire rests in drawing and gaming, but there's nothing to be done that involves these activities, so I feel somewhat unhappy about that.

I currently live with my parents, and don't have a job, but I'm thinking of finding one.The problem is I don't want to get too pressured and lose my personal life or my studies.

I get in small-big arguements with my parents a lot lately and I WANT to live somewhere else, but can't afford to(no job..and paying rent is tough without roomies).

Hmm..I haven't had a date in almost a year(since I broke up with my ex-g/f),
and am itching to get on a date with a guy.
Problem is I don't see it happening anywhere near the current time of my life and I feel...uneasy..

Never done anything really worth of praise, and never done anything bad either.Just wanna live my life peacefully and without troublesome ocurrences(is there really a word like this??)...

If I had to put an emoticon it'd be a fusion of:
:rolleyes: :( :D
 
slightly confused.

I'm young and recently divorced......no clue where my life is headed
 
For what its worth, not a lot changes when you get older. A few things pop up in my head to share:

1) I've long since let go of any animosity I had towards my parents. (I hated my dad for years. That got resolved probably about 8 years ago.) Way too much youthful energy for some people is wasted on resenting things that can never be changed.

2) I used to lean on friends to share everything emotionally on my mind. I think I might have been a bit of a burden. Most of them have move on. I realized sometimes its just best not to bother people.

3) I used to think Counceling would "cure" problems. It's good to talk to others - pay them if you can afford it. However, all they can do is help you find the answers within yourself. They can't give them to you. If I had realized that, I would have saved a lot of money.

4) I always wanted a soulmate who I shared EVERYTHING, did EVERYTHING with. I have a wonderful man now for over three years. I don't make him satisfy every aspect of my life. We are monogamous, but I don't also ask him to be my councelor, minister, etc. It sounds like I have cheapened the relationship, but I haven't. I just realized that he is human too and cannot take my burdens as well as his.

5) Though I make good money at the moment, I could loose it anyday. I'm in the computer field which is being offshored to cheaper places mainly India, but also places like Brazil. I think that is the scariest thing when you are middle age. The thought you might have to start all over and that you won't be able to make it this time given that you don't want to start at the very bottom again -- you have bills to pay, expectations of a better life and retirement...

6) It does become more important to help others as you feel your own mortality. Not so much because you look in the mirror and see your body withering away. Rather, your parents, grandparents and those adults you knew as a child are dying off. In my case I am thinking of becomming a veterenarian. I'm not sure if its the right move, but at least it is something that is helping others. I may change my mind because I'd be in my 50's by the time I would graduate if I was accepted.

If there is one piece of advice I could give it would be: Make yourself do today what you Want to put off until tomorrow.

You may think you have years to deal with something, but you really don't. Procrastination is probably the biggest enemy a person deals with on their journey through life. This goes for following your career dreams, apologizing when you are in the wrong, forgiving when someone has hurt you, seeing your family members before they are gone, and even telling someone you love them. Do it now, not tomorrow.
 
Samuelx said:
How do you feel about your life ?


I have mixed feelings about mine.



Date of Birth : February 5, 1985.
Place of Birth : Cap Haitien, Haiti.
Height : 6'1.
Weight : 250 pounds.
Ethnicity : Black.



Academics :

I graduated high school in 2003. I attended BSC from September 2003 to April 2005. I studied Computer Science without getting a degree in it. I tried to register for classes at another school in September 2005 but it was too late. I'm returning to school in January 2006 to study Criminal Justice. If all goes well, I will have my Associate's Degree in Criminal Justice by December 2006.


Career Plans :


I plan on getting my Bachelor's Degree in Criminal Justice and
then go to the Police Academy for training to become a police officer.


Other accomplishments :


Activism for Male Victims of Domestic Violence. I helped a lot of people by handing out thousands of informational flyers all over the state of Massachusetts.

www.safe4all.org
www.batteredmenshelpline.org


Activism for People Living With AIDs.

I spent the summer of 2004 working in a kitchen volunteering to cook food for people who are living with HIV.


Personal accomplishments :

I've written a 340-page fiction book about the lives and loves of bisexual men and women. It's not published yet. There are only
four copies of it in existence and all of them are in my possession.


Other accomplishments : After living in denial about who I was for 20 years, I am proud of myself as a bisexual Black male. I've even come out to a few people I deemed trustworthy.


Romantic Past :


I've had relations with Marlowe D. of Florida. Lori B. of Mass.
Wanda S. of Mass. Kyle G. of Mass.

I've learned a lot from my relationships with both men and women.
All of us are human and need some love. All of us are capable of bravery and love as well as treachery, manipulation and deceit.


My Dreams : To help people and make a difference. To be a published author. To find whatever woman or man I am destined to be with ( if such a person exists). Maybe have kids someday.


How about YOU ?

It sucks - and not only at this moment.
Nothing devastatingly horrendous but - it...SUCKS...plain 'n' simple...short 'n' sweet.
 
I can say I'm pretty happy with my life. *smiles* It wouldn't hurt to have a girl to snuggle up with though, ehhh.... :rose:
 
Xectxny19X said:
I can say I'm pretty happy with my life. *smiles* It wouldn't hurt to have a girl to snuggle up with though, ehhh.... :rose:

I'm always available for a snuggle :eek:
 
I am a 53 year old mwm. I have two children, both women, going to college and doing very well. I have a lovely wife of almost 30 years. I have full time employment as an IT professional in a very safe eviroment. Had a lot of tough years when the kids were growing up but now things are starting to level off and be a hell of a lot more fun.

A good friend of mine (same age as me) is dying of prostate cancer. He was diagnosed about 2 years ago. This really woke me up to living, and trying like hell to make the rest of my life more fullfilling. My friend quit work, bought a couple of motorcycles and learned road racing. He is having a blast.

I decided that my life style would end my own life early. I was very overwieght, totally out of shape, and had not visited a doctor in ten years. So.... I went to the doctor, got all the tests for a guy my age and a few more and found out that I was generally very healthy. I got on a diet that I could stick with for the rest of my life, lost almost 90 lbs to date, still a few more pounds to go. I work out 5-6 days a week and my body is coming back to the shape I had when I was in my 20's-30's. I take at least three vacations per year. I am saving as much as possible for retirement. I have paid off almost all my debt. I try to fuck my wife at least 4 times a week, if she will let me, at least she will blow me anytime I want.

So I suppose my life is pretty fucking good right now.

Hope yours gets better, life is short, live it!
 
Wow, never say you've got all figured out cause that's when life comes at ya like a cold wind in your face.

At the moment, I'm probably going through one of the most difficult times since I can remember. Changes and transitions are never easy. That's why nobody wants to go through them. I can only take it one day at a time.

Meantime I count my blessings because things could always be much worse.
Like that old cliche goes, "that what does not kill you..."

:cool:
 
intruder52 said:
I am a 53 year old mwm. I have two children, both women, going to college and doing very well. I have a lovely wife of almost 30 years. I have full time employment as an IT professional in a very safe eviroment. Had a lot of tough years when the kids were growing up but now things are starting to level off and be a hell of a lot more fun.

A good friend of mine (same age as me) is dying of prostate cancer. He was diagnosed about 2 years ago. This really woke me up to living, and trying like hell to make the rest of my life more fullfilling. My friend quit work, bought a couple of motorcycles and learned road racing. He is having a blast.

I decided that my life style would end my own life early. I was very overwieght, totally out of shape, and had not visited a doctor in ten years. So.... I went to the doctor, got all the tests for a guy my age and a few more and found out that I was generally very healthy. I got on a diet that I could stick with for the rest of my life, lost almost 90 lbs to date, still a few more pounds to go. I work out 5-6 days a week and my body is coming back to the shape I had when I was in my 20's-30's. I take at least three vacations per year. I am saving as much as possible for retirement. I have paid off almost all my debt. I try to fuck my wife at least 4 times a week, if she will let me, at least she will blow me anytime I want.

So I suppose my life is pretty fucking good right now.

Hope yours gets better, life is short, live it!

Congratulations. Was good to read that people can change their lives and realize what's important.
 
40 year old checking in.
Life for me has been so-so. I find that life is a disapointment. And the most disapointing part is that it is my fault it is disapointing.
Unhappy with my spouse...
The job is ok, but nothing to write home about.
No kids...
Nothing to look forward to in old age.
What a waste.
Other then that all is well and great.
 
just when you think you have everything figured out.. the ball drops. you break up. and your world is no longer the one you thought you were in... so as far as my life goes...? not good.
 
:catroar:
... and my poor cat is so confused about my change in attitude that he is eating out of the trash... looking for attenntion, I guess? then again, so am i.
 
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