How are you particular?

[Black_Bird]

What, in your own personality, makes you feel alienated? What would you most want to change about yourself? Are you? Would you even try?

 

[Tyrael]

I'm a walking bundle of contradictions.

I want to be alone but not be lonely.

I don't care what others think of me yet I want to be liked.

I don't really know of anything I'd like to change about myself other than try to be more friendly to people around me and stop using short, one word answers. ( yeah, nope, whatever)

I have tried. My paralyzing shyness is a great obstacle to overcome.

 

[Juspar Emvan]

I'm infinately more peculiar than particular.

 

[Guest]

Black_Bird,

I am basically a very shy person. The anonymity of the board has helped me immensley, but there are times when it's much easier to just read than to post.

I think the shyness has caused me to feel very alienated. It has also made me feel very insecure. Or, is it the other way around? Has my insecurity let me become shy? I also think fear has a part to play in the shyness factor. That fear doesn't allow you to really be yourself and you tend to hide, to find reasons not to do something.

Lately, I have taken steps to change that. Granted, they are just small steps, but that is a good start.

Smile,
Enchanted

 

[Wiggles]

I'm pretty shy. I have a tendency to feel smaller around people I believe to be greater than myself. I think this limits my interraction with a lot of people.

If I could change that I would. I wish I could just be friendly and open to everyone.

Sometimes I feel like my mind works in different patterns than what could be considered normal. My humour is off beat and most of the time people don't get what I'm saying. I wish I could communicate on a basic level, to connect with others.

Sometimes I feel a certain way, and I'm not really sure why. Right now I don't feel amicable, I wish I did. There has been a lot of times when I could've been happy and smiley, but for some reason I just wasn't into it. I wish I could change my moods to fit the circumstances, it would open up a lot more oppurtunities.

But if I changed all that, would I still be me?

 

[Fly_On_Wall]

I have a gift to disapear in a crowd... then learn things about people when they forget i'm around.

 

[seXieleXie]

i'm shy and an introvert, but highly ambitious. the two don't mix easily. if i want something i have to fight for it, and that includes fighting my natural tendency to withdraw. it can be exhausting at times. it takes so much effort for me, when for others it is a natural part of their personality. i think that makes me feel alienated sometimes.

 

[Guest]

 

[Jacqline]

I have found that some people have a hard time dealing with my being so open and "up front" about things. It's incredible how many people would rather play games. Communicating effectively has been one of my biggest lessons...........

Another thing about me is that, if I say I will do something, you can count on it. I am my word. Why is it that so many people promise things and don't come through? If I am not sure I will be able to do something, I won't commit to it until I do know.

Sometimes I think too much......mostly the philosopher (I strive to be positive at all times).

Sense of humor............My dearly departed Mother left all of her children with her wonderful sense of humor.............without it, I would have given up a long time ago.

Change? No..........it took a lot of lessons to get where I am. I am always trying to learn new things and refine things..........

 

[Ladyhawke]

I painfully shy in social situations. I just cannot go up to someone, especially a guy, and start a conversation. I am fine at work, I talk to customers no problem, my boss didn't believe when I told her I'm exteremely. I wish I could overcome this, I really want to meet people and make some new friends, but I just don't know how to do it.

 

[MorgaineLaFay]

Alienated ... I am not sure of that...in general I am a very outgoing person. I am the type of person who is happy to stand out of the spot light, some where is the shadows observing others. I am comfortable in my own skin, but I find as I grow older...I have less tolerance for some people. People who rattle on for hours about nothing...Bore me to death, people who hate, who judge others, who can only see one side of a story...I can’t stand to be around these kinds of people...which in turn, makes me no better. I lack patience's.

Morgy

 

[Juspar Emvan]

What Morgy said. 'Cept that my outgoing appearance is a bit of a front for my fear of rejection.

 

[perks]

What, in your own personality, makes you feel alienated? What would you most want to change about yourself? Are you? Would you even try?

I have opinions that I argue, but then I second guess and doubt myself. I'm my own enemy. I would change it if I could.

 

[T.H. Oughts]

I have found that some people have a hard time dealing with my being so open and "up front" about things. It's incredible how many people would rather play games. Communicating effectively has been one of my biggest lessons...........

Another thing about me is that, if I say I will do something, you can count on it. I am my word. Why is it that so many people promise things and don't come through? If I am not sure I will be able to do something, I won't commit to it until I do know.

Sometimes I think too much......mostly the philosopher (I strive to be positive at all times).

Sense of humor............My dearly departed Mother left all of her children with her wonderful sense of humor.............without it, I would have given up a long time ago.

Change? No..........it took a lot of lessons to get where I am. I am always trying to learn new things and refine things..........

Oh My Gosh, 99.8% of what Jacqline said is me.

 

[Dirac]

I would say my very introspective nature is what alienates me most. It isolates me from those around me, making it unnecessary for me to interact with others. And from a purely psychological standpoint, my introspection removes me from my surroundings. It can be very useful, both in mental occupation and problem solving, but in general, makes for a social disaster area. So my efforts lately have been focused on placing me in more social suroundings -- even if it is an online forum -- and forming new relationships, especially intimate ones.

Dirac

 

[Black_Bird]

Funny how this question seems to get more responses from the "shy type."

Yes... I am a pretty damn shy individual. I still fear rejection, although I am slowly fighting it. I'm usually the last one to speak up for myself - but I'm changing that too. It's hard work, but well worth it.

 

[AusTess]

I'm moody.

And i expect too much from people who will usually dissapoint.

I'm moody.

I demand perfection from others,and let myself get away with mediocrity.

I'm moody.

i carry a grudge.

And i'm moody.

Would i change me?
No,thanks.
I am what i am.
If i changed,would i still be me?

 

[Rubyfruit]

I thought this thread was about being particular. I'm very particular about things. Many things. The sheets I sleep on. The food I eat. The wine I drink. The temperature of the house. The music on the car radio. The pillows I have to have to sleep on. How the bed can't be messy, or I can't sleep. My morning coffee. The orange juice I drink.

As far as standing out in a crowd, or feeling different somehow, I can't say that I do. Not that I am middle-of-the-road, but I am of the belief that we are all quite different and I embrace those differences, even in myself.

I think shy people are great. I love to try to make them feel at ease. Extremely moody people are best left alone, but those with introspective and sensitive natures are always interesting to be around.

I love people with opinions! I find I learn from them at times. However, being opinionated and closed-minded can get boring.

 

[AusTess]

Okay,so i'm particularly moody?*L*

I'm particular about what side of the bed i sleep on.
The milk MUST go into the coffee mug BEFORE the water.
I wont let ANYBODY drive my car.
Or walk my dog.
or take my son in their car.

Apart from that?



well shit.
I'm just moody.

 

[LadyDarkFire]

What makes me particular? Uh, that would be quite alot, but mainly, I think it is the freakish quirk I have about confrontation. IRL I have this shell around me that is basically a walking challenge. I've been told I look cool, calculating, and unaffected. I state my opinions, I can be loud, and I will not back down from a debate. However, when it comes to actual confrontation, arguments with loved ones, anger, pain, aside from the initial defence of one or two lash outs, I can't stand it. My mother has a habit from her childhood. She needles. When I get the urge to snap back, generally, I get two phrases out before running away. She doesn't mean to hurt, and doesn't think it should, but her comments are the most painful I've ever felt in my life, and one of the few things that actually can almost always provoke tears. So, whatever the cause, I don't like to argue. I don't get into the big fights over pain that people have caused me that alot of people who know me, but not very well, might expect. I don't like to cause pain, and I don't like to be hurt. So, I hide, I observe patterns, I try and find out what behaviors won't cause me to have to fight, and I generally follow them. With good friends, or when hiding behind the mask of a screen name, I'm different. To an extent, I let down my guard on the boards or chat rooms, but truely, only 5 or 6 people (and none of them are blood relatives) know who I am. My Brothers of stronger family than blood, and one or two friends who have been true.

 

[HotXBunz]

I too am a linen freak Rubyfruit. I am the princess and the pea in my bed. 300+ thread count on my sheets or nothing. I am also particular about the people I spend time with in RL.

Personally, I feel alienated like Jacqline, as I too am up front and open about my thoughts and feelings. It has caused me problems at work and socially. I have learned there is a time and place for it in the past few years. Most people do not want to know so I share with my partner.

I hate the idea of being rejected but taught my kids not everyone was going to like or accept them so I have to heed my own words of wisdom. Somewhere between "Fuck em if they can't take a joke" and sincere empathy"

The board is a good place for me. I can share, take the flames if they come and hear other voices.

 

[Lost Cause]

I don't run with the "herd", I don't do what everyone says what is "in". People criticize me when I don't act/think/say what they feel should be. The only thing I'm working on is my procrastination. I tend to put off things till they're against the wall, it seems I work best under pressure. Still, it would be nice not to be preoccupied with bills etc.. oh well, I'll put that off too!

 

[Black_Bird]

I love people with opinions! I find I learn from them at times. However, being opinionated and closed-minded can get boring.

So... you like shy, opinionative, open-minded individuals?

Hello, RubyFruit... nice to meet you.

 

[SilverVeil]

I do not like people in general.
After I meet people, then I am expected to socialize with them. Usually after the first 30 minutes, we have exhausted most subjects we have in common and that strained silence starts to build up.

I prefer very little contact with people as that keeps things interesting.

 

[Jacqline]

Oh My Gosh, 99.8% of what Jacqline said is me.

Nice to meet you, T. H. Oughts..........I knew I liked the things you have had to say in the different threads............Now I know why! Lol