Help, I'm afraid I'm suicidal

[seattlelevel27]

See Dude,
thanks for replying to my question though.
So you were going to be separated in no matter she dumped you/ not.

But Life is like that,
Life gives answer in 3 ways ..
It says yes nd gives u what u want,
it says no and gives u something better,
it says wait and gives u d best!!!

So, Live long and live happy

thanks! I know this is gonna be a healing process, and there will be good and bad days, but I'm hopeful now. I can live with her being taken away from me due to life's circumstances (which is what would've happened).

 

[Colton_White]

All you need to do is

thanks! I know this is gonna be a healing process, and there will be good and bad days, but I'm hopeful now. I can live with her being taken away from me due to life's circumstances (which is what would've happened).

Keep your mind distracted for a while and it'll automatically fade away.
Try distracting it with some hobby of yours,
I recommend playing games on computer/xbox/playstation etc. [hey i'm not joking ,that really helps]
although its bad for health playing games on TV/computer all the time, but its lesser evil than stressing your mind with all those heartburning.

I'd have recommanded you watching Movies/TV but then since only your eyes are seeing but mind is thinking something else. & may make you even more unhappy seeing all those romantic scences in it so won't help.

Games are good, cause your eyes,hands,mind -all are distracted.

 

[VelvetDarkness]

I'm really glad that you're getting your perspective back and realising the realities of the relationship you were in. You did give it your best shot at the time and you can move on knowing that.

Like the sunscreen guy says, 'your choices are half chance, so are everybody else's.'

 

[NotNowHunny]

Just checking in on you...

I know I don't know you but I care. Trust me babe, life goes on .There is so much ahead of you, hang in there.

 

[JamieB]

Good to see you turning the corner, mate. Keep an eye on that horizon.

J

 

[pocahontas]

Hey, I've read over this post....Paid more attention to what you wrote. It's good you looked over what you have written before to gain some perspective. I'm a depressive and I keep a personal journal and read my previous rantings during a really down phase and see that I just was not on a normal level. Besides just writing on here keep a personal journal so you can look back and see are you still in that moment or are you moving past that. Also, talking to the crisis hotline was a brave and very good thing to do on your part. Also, rallying your friends around you so you know you had a support system of some kind was a wonderful thing for you to do. So, just keep writing here until you feel you have moved beyong those scary thoughts which seem to permeate your days when you do have them. But I hope that when the are gone, it seems the clouds have parted and the sun is shining and the birds are singing just for you. Hope you are have better days. Talking or posting can help because you seem to be getting it out and working through it and your postings show that you are begining to see how down you were and how you are improving to get back to your life and your dreams(as you mentioned you had your own). Huggs to you, hope you find happiness and or pleasure in your day to day again.........

 

[jackechanprime]

logic dictates...

fuck dude, if you even think your suicidal, get a shrink. it's not as intimidating as it's made out to be.

 

[AngloSexon]

Sorry, I don't mean to pick on this post in particular, but I needed to say something.

I've been going through issues of my own for the past 18 months or so. This involved being incarcerated against my will in a hospital for 2 weeks because I was a danger to myself.

I've been recovering to the point where I've been doing stuff like this, starting to "socialise" if you like.

However - without meaning to pour scorn on the advice given - a lot of what I've heard here has just opened up all the wounds. I could have - should have - exercised the prerogative to get off this thread when I realised what was happening, but I didn't. And all the stuff I've heard, it's all the stuff I heard eighteen months ago, about life, about the concern and grief of others.

To me, life is meaningless. There is no point to it. We're born, we eat, sleep, work, fuck and die. Nothing we do makes any difference. There is no goal, no purpose. We're here today, gone tomorrow, forgotten the day after.

Screw this for a lark. I'm gone; I'm not coming back. You won't hear from me again and with luck nor will anyone else.

Bye.

 

[SweetErika]

Sorry, I don't mean to pick on this post in particular, but I needed to say something.

I've been going through issues of my own for the past 18 months or so. This involved being incarcerated against my will in a hospital for 2 weeks because I was a danger to myself.

I've been recovering to the point where I've been doing stuff like this, starting to "socialise" if you like.

However - without meaning to pour scorn on the advice given - a lot of what I've heard here has just opened up all the wounds. I could have - should have - exercised the prerogative to get off this thread when I realised what was happening, but I didn't. And all the stuff I've heard, it's all the stuff I heard eighteen months ago, about life, about the concern and grief of others.

To me, life is meaningless. There is no point to it. We're born, we eat, sleep, work, fuck and die. Nothing we do makes any difference. There is no goal, no purpose. We're here today, gone tomorrow, forgotten the day after.

Screw this for a lark. I'm gone; I'm not coming back. You won't hear from me again and with luck nor will anyone else.

Bye.

Well, it's a good sign this guy made the post at 4pm and is still logged in at 5am, I guess.

I don't know if he's serious or not, but either way, I hope he gets what he needs, be that help or dignity and peace.

Hopefully his post doesn't make anyone feel bad for what they said in this thread. A thread on the internet isn't going to make someone commit suicide. Neither is being dumped. IMO, the vulnerability has to be there before the event, just like the fortitude has to be there to either survive or go through with it.

 

[JagFarlane]

Sorry, I don't mean to pick on this post in particular, but I needed to say something.

I've been going through issues of my own for the past 18 months or so. This involved being incarcerated against my will in a hospital for 2 weeks because I was a danger to myself.

I've been recovering to the point where I've been doing stuff like this, starting to "socialise" if you like.

However - without meaning to pour scorn on the advice given - a lot of what I've heard here has just opened up all the wounds. I could have - should have - exercised the prerogative to get off this thread when I realised what was happening, but I didn't. And all the stuff I've heard, it's all the stuff I heard eighteen months ago, about life, about the concern and grief of others.

To me, life is meaningless. There is no point to it. We're born, we eat, sleep, work, fuck and die. Nothing we do makes any difference. There is no goal, no purpose. We're here today, gone tomorrow, forgotten the day after.

Screw this for a lark. I'm gone; I'm not coming back. You won't hear from me again and with luck nor will anyone else.

Bye.

-just sighs and shakes his head- Ya know...its people like this that just tick me off. I am a suicide attempt survivor, still carry the physical and emotional scars. You tell me you've been working for 18 months to tend to yourself and then just up and turn around and post this bullshit? Pathetic...really it is...I worked for 18 months...and at the end of that time had resolved myself and become a much stronger person. Yes, every now and then the thought comes to mind...only to be quickly swept away. You tell me there is no purpose to life? Look into the eyes of a child and tell me there is no purpose. Work a hard days work and tell me there is no purpose...read about scientists finding new ways to cure diseases and tell me there is no purpose. But someone like you...does not deserve the kindness that has been poured out. All you show is that you haven't worked...

 

[PublicAffection]

The kindness of strangers (that is essentially what we all are here) is an inspiration to you, I hope. Find someone to talk to - go to a counselor/therapist and just talk it out. It does help. I've been there, and I can definatly tell you that it's worth sticking it out. Three years ago I was ready to die and was suicidal. I was losing, and then lost, everything.

But now, I have more than I could have ever asked for. Yes, we all still have those days where we hate the world and wish that it would all just fade away. But those days are temporary and if you search yourself long enough you will surely find happiness again.

 

[hbcacouple]

Suicidal

I was feeling suicidal so I called the Suicide Prevention Hotline.
They have out sourced call center to Pakistan. When I told them that I was suicidal, they wanted to know if I could drive a truck.

 

[VelvetDarkness]

someone like you...does not deserve the kindness that has been poured out. All you show is that you haven't worked...

These things are very easy to say. Personally, I would worry and feel guilty if I posted something so flippant in response to such a depressed poster. They may be an attention seeking asshat, they may be on the verge of suicide. I think it's wisest to err on the side of caution.

 

[Colton_White]

@the Thread Started,

Why dont' you save this thread webpage?

I mean, after 20 years from now, when you're settled down, wife/kids/home/car/ everything,
then you can re-read it and laugh it all away

 

[lovesbrunettesx]

I know what I'm about to write is going to make me sound like an asshole but dont judge me just based on my opinion on this.

Seattleguy ur really not going to kill yourself, u just want attention. I understand u lost someone u love, but so did millions of other people in the world. litteraly. if u need help go get it instead of wasting ur time making a thread about it. what are u gonna wake up and if there's not enough replys to ur thread ur gonna hurt urself? I've had friends come back from the war missing legs, or had severe burns throughout their body. not once did they even think about killing themselves. I talk to them about everything cuz their like my brothers, blood is the only thing that would make us closer. the things they saw over there no man or woman should see. they wake up at night screaming cause of flashbacks. those guys should want to kill themselves but they don't. yet u sleep at night lonely n sad cuz ur sweetheart left u. well at least u arent afraid to sleep. so why don't u just grow a set, be a man, and stop whining over something so small.

 

[Colton_White]

I know what I'm about to write is going to make me sound like an asshole but dont judge me just based on my opinion on this.

Seattleguy ur really not going to kill yourself, u just want attention. I understand u lost someone u love, but so did millions of other people in the world. litteraly. if u need help go get it instead of wasting ur time making a thread about it. what are u gonna wake up and if there's not enough replys to ur thread ur gonna hurt urself? I've had friends come back from the war missing legs, or had severe burns throughout their body. not once did they even think about killing themselves. I talk to them about everything cuz their like my brothers, blood is the only thing that would make us closer. the things they saw over there no man or woman should see. they wake up at night screaming cause of flashbacks. those guys should want to kill themselves but they don't. yet u sleep at night lonely n sad cuz ur sweetheart left u. well at least u arent afraid to sleep. so why don't u just grow a set, be a man, and stop whining over something so small.

This is the finest reply to this post.

Three Cheers to lovesbrunettesx
and sorry to hear abt. your friends

 

[onyxvixen]

Everything's relative. Seattle's never been to war, neither has AngloSexon. Are we going to ridicule them for that? That's not the kind of perspective you get from simply reading a smart assed post.

I agree that these are small tragedies in the scheme of things but if losing your girlfriend is the worst thing that has happened in your life, so far then it's going to smart. Adolescence is fraught with life changing moments. People over react to them because they haven't had to cope with loss, grief or failure on that scale before. It may seem stupid and petty to us, but to them it isn't and some of them are depressed and scared enough to end their lives over it.

Is it more of a waste to commit suicide after serving as a soldier or after losing your first true love? Is one life really worth more than the other?

This board is supposed to give people somewhere to go for encouragement and advice. You may think these posters are being stupid. They say they're suicidal.

Are you going to kick them closer to the edge of that precipice with smart comments? Rightly or wrongly, nobody can say how the comments here will affect the people who posted.

If nothing else, they were reaching out. I don't see them reaching out anymore.

 

[RagsNRiches]

Hi Seattle,
I'm only a layman, but I'm an old one, and I can tell you that you must seek out a therapist very soon. You are getting over your initial crisis now, but with a therapist who is a 'good fit' for you, you could take advantage of this situation to grow a great deal in your self-knowledge, which is invaluable.

Thereapy with the right person is very enriching, and can be fun. Please at least talk to at least one therapist. I know it sounds expensive, but many therapists have graduated scales for their fees, and there are financial aide programs as well.

Like all the others who have written to you on here, I too, have been devastated by love... haven't we all! And we obviously survived. And I for one am sure that I'm no stronger than you. I know you can do it. I've used a therapist during several crises in my life, and it's very comforting to me to know that thereapy is available if I ever need it again.

God bless you. Now get an appointment and keep it!

 

[Colton_White]

Everything's relative. Seattle's never been to war, neither has AngloSexon. Are we going to ridicule them for that? That's not the kind of perspective you get from simply reading a smart assed post.

I agree that these are small tragedies in the scheme of things but if losing your girlfriend is the worst thing that has happened in your life, so far then it's going to smart. Adolescence is fraught with life changing moments. People over react to them because they haven't had to cope with loss, grief or failure on that scale before. It may seem stupid and petty to us, but to them it isn't and some of them are depressed and scared enough to end their lives over it.

Is it more of a waste to commit suicide after serving as a soldier or after losing your first true love? Is one life really worth more than the other?

This board is supposed to give people somewhere to go for encouragement and advice. You may think these posters are being stupid. They say they're suicidal.

Are you going to kick them closer to the edge of that precipice with smart comments? Rightly or wrongly, nobody can say how the comments here will affect the people who posted.

If nothing else, they were reaching out. I don't see them reaching out anymore.

Its not worth it committing suicide, just because your g/f left.
I mean its America right? you can change partners more often than clothes.

@Seattledude
so start living and stop whining

How many more threads will you create of the same topic?

You're right, You weren't treating her properly, instead you were spending your time here creating threads like these..

Let me comment on your other threads here...

I masturbate thinking about my female friends!
http://forum.literotica.com/showthread.php?t=527751

ok then start dating one of them.

My friend got a nipple ring and now I want her SO MUCH!
http://forum.literotica.com/showthread.php?t=527502

ok then start dating her.

Seattle guy wants to masturbate in front of a nice lady!
http://forum.literotica.com/showthread.php?t=525768

ok then do it.
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[size=1[b]]Did anyone notice- this guy has his Private Message function off?

At sometimes I suspect he's just some deranged attention & sympathy seeker alt/troll. [my personal opinion and apologies in advance if I'm wrong.][/b][/size]

But,
my friend just grow up.
My girl friend died, I'm still not broken. yours is only leaving. So, stop whining and start living,

my advice..
just forget her and find something else,
you both were just having a 'one year affair' just like one night stand. you knew that she was gonna leave for other town. you two WERE NOT going to live together [as u said in ur previous thread.] so just forget-- more you think..more depression you get.

stop worrying and start living,

My good wishes be with you.

and why don't you laugh it out reading my funny threads!

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[lovesbrunettesx]

I agree with Colton. I don't think u should let one girl affect u this much. onyx u actually sound like u know what ur talking about so I dont really want to argue with it cause I would most likely lose. my point was this guy hit an all time low in his life according to him. but he should be grateful because there are other people worse off than him.

 

[poeticjustice]

Hilarious

I was feeling suicidal so I called the Suicide Prevention Hotline.
They have out sourced call center to Pakistan. When I told them that I was suicidal, they wanted to know if I could drive a truck.

HAHAHA BEST JOKE EVER

 

[pwr2theblondes]

I'm sorry that happened to you. We all know what if feels like to have our hearts broken. But time heals all wounds and I'm sure one day you are going to meet a girl who is more beautiful and intelligent than the last and you're gonna be so happy that things didnt work out with the first girl because you'll be so happy with the new one. It might not seem like it now but it'll happen. Good luck.

 

[squarejohn]

Very often, painful experiences turn out to be blessings in disguise. You got dumped. Ouch. Join the club. Another partner will come around and you may or may not get dumped again. Just soldier on like everybody else.

 

[kmb411]

I'm sorry that happened to you. We all know what if feels like to have our hearts broken. But time heals all wounds and I'm sure one day you are going to meet a girl who is more beautiful and intelligent than the last and you're gonna be so happy that things didnt work out with the first girl because you'll be so happy with the new one. It might not seem like it now but it'll happen. Good luck.

Glad your a Blonde! Look at the OP date 2008. He is long gone, some where,
most likely with a brunette.