After saying goodnight to Maggie, I go to my room and get undressed for bed. Putting on my pyjamas, I slide under the covers and instantly fall asleep...
The door was ajar and I passed through it easily I noticed the moon's light playing along the forms in the room seeing him stretched out on the bed. I hesitate for a moment before my halting steps take me forward. I shift forward moving to lie down on the bed, noticing the way he looks as if for first time.
I can feel another presence hovering at the edge of my awareness, like a flickering shadow. My fingers flittered an inch away from his skin. I lean over and slowly lick his neck, I watch as he rolls onto his back, evidently still asleep. I'm not sure whether to be relieved or dissapointed as my lips brush his. In an tender kiss, feeling him respond as he slumbers, I feel the sheets being pulled away and a warm breeze flits through room as I slide the straps of my nightie off my shoulders, feeling it slip down over my breasts to collect at my waist as I press against him once more. I feel guilty but am unable to pull myself away.
I feel my wife's mouth on the back of my neck, gently licking me. I roll onto my back, allowing her to move closer and kiss me, her wet lips pressing against mine, our mouths opening as the kiss becomes firmer.
I can feel movement as the sheets are pulled back and then I feel my wife's naked breasts pressing against me. It seems so long since we have done something like this. I feel myself hardening with feelings of love and desire. My hand comes up and cups a breast, feeling the teat hardening in my palm.
I then gently push her back into the bed as I move down her body and take her hard nipple into my mouth...
my eyes seem to be very heavy as he moves and shifts, caressing one breast in his work roughened palm, I let out a silent gasp as his lips move down to capture it. I know in back of my mind that he's asleep but something propells me onward sliding my nightgown over my hips and letting it fall off the bed. My fingers searched to remove whatever he was wearing as his sleepy yet tender mouth continued
I feel my excitement rising as my wife's hands over my body, pulling at my pyjamas. I can't remember the last time she has been so eager.
I run my hands down her now naked body, noticing how much smaller she seems than usual, moving my mouth to her other breast, tickling the nipple with my tongue...
Even though I was possessed I wanted this as badly or even more than the being who guided my actions. It was my voice that let out a soft little moan as his mouth continued it's torment, my fingers that tugged his pajamas off, my fingers that slide down his chest to feel his excitement. It had a dreamlike quality to it and while I knew I should wake him I couldn't.
I felt the fear that he might awaken and reject me at any moment adding to the thrill, the urgent need of having him filled me with a mindless need as his hand pressed between my legs. I heard another soft moan pass my lips as his mouth moved down his eyes still heavy lidded with sleep.
Now on my hands and knees, I move her legs apart, my mouth steadily moving down, leaving a trail of wet saliva.
Lifting my palm up, I insert both my thumbs into her vagina, moving them apart, causing her opening to stretch as I gently start to caress her insides.
By now, my tongue is at her nether lips which I start to lick, occasionally dipping into her moist sex.
His words evoke something inside me and I feel like crying as my body goes limp for a second, I suddenly find myself completely in control of my body and lost. Which would be worse, to wake him up now or to play along......It seemed as if I had no choice as his hands held me firmly down in an entirely pleasant manner and I softly whispered, "Please, my love, take me."
When he looks up his heavy lidded eyes flickering as if he were dreaming. I shiver even as his lips move back up my body to cover my own. I suddenly realize how much I wanted this, and not just with anyone but this man who had pain and integrity and worked hard and played hard. My fingers slid along his back enjoying the play of muscles moving under his skin.
I can feel her a hand on my back, kneeding my skin while my hand moves from her buttocks onto her sex, with one then two fingers sliding in and out deeply while the thumb starts to tweak her bud causing her to moan in my mouth.
I gently stroke her hair with the other as my kissing becomes more and more passionate, my hardness pressing firmly against her body.
Even as the pleasure courses through me, I still can't help feeling that there is something amiss, something not as it should...
My morals have long since been laid aside as I take what is offered even as I feel shame at blemishing the memory of his wife. I long to wake him to know that when he cries out Maggie it is me he means, I tremble under his touch as my fingers feel tension in his lower back. Feeling his fingers seeking inside me. The kiss grows more and more intense as my hands pull his hips to me. Unwilling to speak again for fear of breaking the magical bubble of his sleep.
"Oh darling! You have been away from me for so long. I have missed you so much."
Holding her in my arms, I watch her face intently as I start to move my fingers rapidly back and forth inside her, my thumb still massaging her button. I feel her body start to stiffen, to shiver, her eyes rolling back and she is biting her bottom lip.
I inhale her sweet scent only to notice it is different than usual...
Dear god what have I done flits through my mind just before pleasure spills over my body like warm sunshine filling my skin. I am unable to bite back the long moan that echoes in the room. "Ffffrrrrrrrrrrreeeeeeeeeeeeeedddddddddd," the echoes tease me with his name as I watch his eyes flickering. I find myself praying they will and won't open.
I'm ashamed and in heat at the same time. I manage to draw a sheet over me and I bite my lip. "By the time I realized you were asleep. I didn't have guts to wake you up." I find my teeth chewing on my lower lip, "I'm sorry." A short pause and then I correct myself. "Actually I'm not sorry, not sorry I did it at all. I am sorry you didn't realize it was me. I should have stopped you." My teeth are ravaging my lower lip and I concentrate on not chewing through the skin.
Realising I am naked (what has happened to my pyjamas?), I quickly reach for anything to cover me. This being the robe hanging over a chair. I quickly put it on.
"Maggie. I-I don't know what to say. I'm very flattered but I am still very much in love with my wife."
I can still remember the vivid 'dream' and realise it wasn't a dream at all. It had been real.
My God! The things I did!
I had been in bed with another woman.
I have betrayed my wife!
Filled with guilt, I walk over to the bed and sit down, my head in my hands...
It's like a slap in the face, and suddenly I feel very drained. "I'm sorry it was so unpleasant for you." I whisper yanking the bedsheet forgetting about my nightgown and padding heavily out of his room. I feel like jumping out of a window or something and I feel an infinite sadness passing over me, an emotion that is not my own. It's presence I now easily identify and I glance in window seeing a different face reflected before me. A southern belle, too young to be dead I find myself thinking, the golden curls frame a face as sad as my own. Behind her I see a gentleman, the one whom I had seen flickering over the image of Fred. I murmur a strangled whisper of "Why?" hearing the word echo eerily around in house. I watch them turn to each other and with a sad look their hands pass through each other. I feel sad and merely ask again, "Why?" the word is picked up by their voices bouncing back to me threefold.
The door slams behind Maggie as she leaves the room, her words echoing in my ears.
"I'm sorry it was so unpleasant for you."
She sounded so hurt, so angry.
My first impulse is to go after her and apologise.
But for what?
It was she who came to my bed. Tried to make love to me. She knows how much I love...loved my wife, how much I treasure her memory. Surely she knows that I'm not ready for another relationship?
I remember the dance, remember that I almost tried to kiss her.
What if she had noticed? What if....
I shake my head.
Nah! Surely she would not be interested in me? I'm a lot older than her. Besides we are far too different.
I shake my head again.
Anyway, she's a lovely girl. Any red-blooded man her age would jump at the chance to be with her. She doesn't have to resort to me.
Then I remember what happened this morning.
Maybe she was having another episode?
But she was different this time. She knew what she was doing and she knew me. She called me by name.
I sit there and sigh.
I just don't know what to do. Again I am tempted to go and speak to her but no, I don't want to compound the problem.
Not knowing what to do, I put on my pyjamas and get into bed (after I make sure that I lock the door).
Though try that I might, I can't get back to sleep...
Once I finally returned to my bed I was restless barely sleeping. I rose near midnight and took a icy shower which seemed to help dull the pain. Tomorrow was going to be tough.
When the sun's rosy rays spilled into room I could hardly imagine that it was already the next day. A day I faced with trepidation. I dressed slowly, delaying seeing him. How was it that he was so warm yet so distant? So caring and sensual yet wrapped up in a wife long dead?
At last dawn breaks and with the energy of a man who has had no sleep, I wearily get up and shower.
Once dressed, I go downstairs and, deciding to forego breakfast, I go straight to work. I did consider leaving but in all my years of work, I never gave up a contract, whatever the circumstances nor am I going to start now.
For the rest of the day, I carry out repairs on the outside of the house, avoiding going back inside or seeing my employer. However, by late evening, I am beat and finally calling it a day, I re-enter the house...