fear and loathing

[robertreams]

I am an older bi man. I am writing a story in which a young man attempts suicide, screaming,"I don't want to be gay." Has anyone out there had to deal with those feelings. We hear the snide jokes, the inuendos, then one day you grow old enough and you say "oh god, That's me" and you loathe the very idea that you might be gay, but somehow you work your way through it. Please share feelings like this you might have had.

Also, I remember in my youth, letting myself get picked up hitchhiking or in a bathroom. The overwhelming feeling of fear somehow added to the sexual excitement. Anyone have similar experiences?

 

[John Doe]

Have you considered posting this in GLBT?

 

[Debbie]

I am an older bi man. I am writing a story in which a young man attempts suicide, screaming,"I don't want to be gay." Has anyone out there had to deal with those feelings. We hear the snide jokes, the inuendos, then one day you grow old enough and you say "oh god, That's me" and you loathe the very idea that you might be gay, but somehow you work your way through it. Please share feelings like this you might have had.

Also, I remember in my youth, letting myself get picked up hitchhiking or in a bathroom. The overwhelming feeling of fear somehow added to the sexual excitement. Anyone have similar experiences?

One of my sons friends is gay and I cried (privately) when he came to me and told me he wanted to tell his parents but knew his Dad would probably kick him out of the house.

He was right. He lived with us for a few months while he found his feet and is all set up and doing well.

 

[4est_4est_Gump]

Good lord, I could never do anything to damage this magnificent edifice other than drugs, booze and crazy driving...

 

[eyer]

I am an older bi man. I am writing a story in which a young man attempts suicide, screaming,"I don't want to be gay."

Working title...

...Daddy To The Rescue?