Fairysong vs. the big bad ugly C Monster

[SeaCat]

Cat

 

[rgraham666]

Just *HUGS* today, fairysong. I need my strength today.

I'll have some more for you tomorrow.

 

[Dar~]

Strength for both of you Twinker bug and RG.

 

[minsue]

 

[CharleyH]

Anyone up for a serious discussion on cancer? Is this not a porn site? How does cancer relate to porn or erotica?

Anyone?

 

[yui]

*hugs* Fairysong, and as much positive energy as I am capable of sending.


*hugs* to you, too, Rob.

 

[fairysong]

Just *HUGS* today, fairysong. I need my strength today.

I'll have some more for you tomorrow.

*HUGS* Rob. You can share my strength today.


**

I'm doing well. Just getting used to walking, and eating, and being around people again. My Mum had to leave for Ireland. Call me weak but I cried. It felt good to cry. I hadn't seen her since I left home and honestly I never realized how much I missed her. She is an amazing woman and her support means the world to me. Even though she won't be seeing this thread I wanted to say that I am grateful for her and for having this chance to connect with her again.

 

[fairysong]

Anyone up for a serious discussion on cancer? Is this not a porn site? How does cancer relate to porn or erotica?

Anyone?

Charley,

Sure let us discuss. If cancer relates to porn or erotica I'm not sure. On some level it does just as any other illness does.

If you asked me how my cancer relates to sex I would say that it has given me a greater understanding of my sexuality. Erotica? I think that for me at least there would be a level of trust needed for me to be sexually intimate with someone. That level of trust needed is much higher now. Because of that very reason sex with cancer is very erotic in my view. I think it can be just as erotic if not more than sex when healthy.

Not sure if I'm making sense but that is how I see cancer and erotica and sex at the moment.

Edited to add: If anyone has thoughts please share.

 

[Dar~]

I like bald heads. I think girls who can pull that look off are incredibly sexy cancer or no
Hey Twinkerbug

 

[fairysong]

I like bald heads. I think girls who can pull that look off are incredibly sexy cancer or no
Hey Twinkerbug

Blad heads can be very sexy. I think a lot of the sexyness comes from the person own confidence. I hated loosing my hair but not because I thought I would be less attractive but because it was a physical sign of my illness. Since then I have accepted my hair loss and I like the way I look.

Hey Dar

 

[Dar~]

Blad heads can be very sexy. I think a lot of the sexyness comes from the person own confidence. I hated loosing my hair but not because I thought I would be less attractive but because it was a physical sign of my illness. Since then I have accepted my hair loss and I like the way I look.

Hey Dar

So, how are you feeling physically. I understand the emotional stuff, but how things elsewise?
Ar eyou out from under psycho bitch nurse?

 

[CharleyH]

Blad heads can be very sexy. I think a lot of the sexyness comes from the person own confidence. I hated loosing my hair but not because I thought I would be less attractive but because it was a physical sign of my illness. Since then I have accepted my hair loss and I like the way I look.

Hey Dar

And how does it affect sex with your partner? Or how you think your partner looks at you?

 

[fairysong]

And how does it affect sex with your partner? Or how you think your partner looks at you?

All good questions. I can't answer the first yet as I haven't had sex.....stuck here. At first I feared that he might find me less than I was, that I would not be sexy to his eyes. I have to say that during those times I felt less sexy myself, less confident in my sexuality. I was unsure and afraid to think of a relationship.

Since then I have done some thinking. My Mum and I did some talking and I have to say for someone who never discussed sex openly before she had a lot to say. I am much more confident in myself, I know who I am and I know that cancer or no cancer I am still me.

I have also talked with him. I guess I decided that instead of wondering I prefered to know. So, now I know that in his eyes I am still sexy. He said that I do look different but it is not much more different from me deciding to get a new hair cut. Bald can be sexy. Long hair can be sexy and so can short. It is all just a matter of how you wear it. And if you are with an openminded person, one who sees sexuality and beauty beyond the limits that society has placed on them than sex with your partner should not be any different.

**

I'm off for the night.

 

[rgraham666]

Damn, missed her.

Be strong sweets.

 

[JRaven]

FairySong,
I love your outlook on things. I sincerely believe that your positive attitude had as much to do with your continued recovery as any doctoring did.

Take care, get well.

Jenny

 

[Black Tulip]

Hi Fairy,

Back from my travels and I found you a sunny bunch of flowers in Crete.

Hugs and strength.

 

[moonlight elf]

*Boo*

Just checking to see how you are. Let us know when you come online and keep getting better.

Also, thought you would like an update. My work organize the youth cancer relay is almost done. Everything is in place. The schools started last week and I have talked to the clubs and orgs of the public schools as well as those at the university. We have a good number of supporters and many have pleged their time to walk/run in the relay.

The turn out won't be as grand as that for the American cancer society but it should be large enough to draw much needed attention to cancer in youths. I am very excited about this. Just a few weeks more and we'll have our first youth relay.

Take care sweets.

Moonie.


Edited to add the update

 

[SeaCat]

All good questions. I can't answer the first yet as I haven't had sex.....stuck here. At first I feared that he might find me less than I was, that I would not be sexy to his eyes. I have to say that during those times I felt less sexy myself, less confident in my sexuality. I was unsure and afraid to think of a relationship.

Since then I have done some thinking. My Mum and I did some talking and I have to say for someone who never discussed sex openly before she had a lot to say. I am much more confident in myself, I know who I am and I know that cancer or no cancer I am still me.

I have also talked with him. I guess I decided that instead of wondering I prefered to know. So, now I know that in his eyes I am still sexy. He said that I do look different but it is not much more different from me deciding to get a new hair cut. Bald can be sexy. Long hair can be sexy and so can short. It is all just a matter of how you wear it. And if you are with an openminded person, one who sees sexuality and beauty beyond the limits that society has placed on them than sex with your partner should not be any different.

**

I'm off for the night.

Hey Sexy,

Yeah I know I'm not him, but I'm still here, and so is my wife. I am so glad to hear that your cancer has not beaten you, and I am so glad to hear that you have learned about yourself from it. (I knew you would.)

Be honest with yourself, be happy with who you are, and fuck the rest of the world who don't agree with you. (Actually don't fuck them, just tell them to fuck off.) As you have learned the hard way, and don't we all learn it that way? Live life to the fullest. Enjoy it in all of it's parts including sex. Have fun, enjoy. Keep us posted on how things are going. Remember, we are here for you.

Cat

 

[fairysong]

FairySong,
I love your outlook on things. I sincerely believe that your positive attitude had as much to do with your continued recovery as any doctoring did.

Take care, get well.

Jenny

Honestly, my outlook on things isn't always positive. I have my share of mood swings, of happiness and depression. During one of my bad episodes I wrote a poem. It is not much (I’m not a poet) but it was something that I needed to get down in writing. So I did.

What will end my pain?
Wash away this emotional stain

Uncertainty clouds my thoughts
Filled with fear and anger
I reject comfort
I wish for death, an end.

The pain is tearing me up
Breaking me
I am dragged beneath the waves
Will I drown?

 

[fairysong]

*Boo*

Just checking to see how you are. Let us know when you come online and keep getting better.

Also, thought you would like an update. My work organize the youth cancer relay is almost done. Everything is in place. The schools started last week and I have talked to the clubs and orgs of the public schools as well as those at the university. We have a good number of supporters and many have pleged their time to walk/run in the relay.

The turn out won't be as grand as that for the American cancer society but it should be large enough to draw much needed attention to cancer in youths. I am very excited about this. Just a few weeks more and we'll have our first youth relay.

Take care sweets.

Moonie.


Edited to add the update

That is great news!! Congrats Moonie You have worked very hard to make this happen and it looks like it payed off. Let me know how the event itself goes. If was I near you and able I would have loved to have joined the relay.

Way to go girl!

 

[fairysong]

Hey Sexy,

Yeah I know I'm not him, but I'm still here, and so is my wife. I am so glad to hear that your cancer has not beaten you, and I am so glad to hear that you have learned about yourself from it. (I knew you would.)

Be honest with yourself, be happy with who you are, and fuck the rest of the world who don't agree with you. (Actually don't fuck them, just tell them to fuck off.) As you have learned the hard way, and don't we all learn it that way? Live life to the fullest. Enjoy it in all of it's parts including sex. Have fun, enjoy. Keep us posted on how things are going. Remember, we are here for you.

Cat

Oh, I can do that.

I almost told my nurse to fuck off the other day. I still get to see her. I think she has to be the most unhappy person I know. I have been here for a few months and I have never seem the lady smile. Not once, to me or any other patient.
It makes me wonder what has made her that way?

I am doing well. I have past the worst and am making nice progress. Now that I can move about I have made some friends around the ward. Been learning a new board game and doing some reading. I never thought I'd say that I missed school but I do.

Thank you and your wife for always checking on me.

 

[yui]

Oh, I can do that.

I almost told my nurse to fuck off the other day. I still get to see her. I think she has to be the most unhappy person I know. I have been here for a few months and I have never seem the lady smile. Not once, to me or any other patient.
It makes me wonder what has made her that way?

I am doing well. I have past the worst and am making nice progress. Now that I can move about I have made some friends around the ward. Been learning a new board game and doing some reading. I never thought I'd say that I missed school but I do.

Thank you and your wife for always checking on me.

Fairysong, if you would like to come live with me, you can. I'm enamored of your courage. I'm never good at telling people to "fuck off," but if you would like me to, I will tell your nurse for you. I can be very fierce.

Okay, not really; but for you I would.

Be well. You are in my thoughts.

Much, much luck,

Yui

P.S. Seacat and Mrs. Seacat are nifty, eh?

 

[rgraham666]

Will I drown?

Not as long as the rest of us here can swim.

Hey fairy. So good to hear from you. *HUGS*

 

[moonlight elf]

Oh, I can do that.

I almost told my nurse to fuck off the other day. I still get to see her. I think she has to be the most unhappy person I know. I have been here for a few months and I have never seem the lady smile. Not once, to me or any other patient.
It makes me wonder what has made her that way?

I am doing well. I have past the worst and am making nice progress. Now that I can move about I have made some friends around the ward. Been learning a new board game and doing some reading. I never thought I'd say that I missed school but I do.

Thank you and your wife for always checking on me.

So, did you ever have that heart to heart you were going to have with your nurse? If you did I wanna know how that turned out.

Since you miss school.....would you like to do my research paper for me?
(and you won't drown....just like Rob said....not as long as you have us)

 

[moonlight elf]

Update b/c Black asked for it.

The last I heard from fairysong she was doing well. Her recovery is going very nicely and I believe that she is expecting to have her Hickman(the port for meds that's in her chest) out sometime this month.