Escape Of Real Life

[BalletBound]

I use this lifestyle to escape from my horrible life.

I have epilepsy and brain surgery has been suggested.
Heart problems that could kill me
I have days where I can't get out bed
I am allergic to the sun for more than an hour
I lost my job as a model because I recovered from my anorexia
I have OCD which reminds me of how awful I am
I can't drive.
I I can't keep a steady job even with amazing marks in university because I took my lsats to become a lawyer
I now can't get to classes everyday so I am finishing my masters online because they called me disabled.
I killed myself but the choice wasn't mine and I was put on a ventilator for weeks with tubes everywhere
and continually to be put into a coma with the drugs that killed Michael Jackson
My husband left me because I was too hard to care for me... and he was a fucking doctor.
I live my days on drugs so expensive that I can't move anywhere permanently like to US because I can't live anywhere permanently because I can never receive insurance so my travelling has always been cut short.

 

[dolf]

sounds rough.

 

[snugglestruggle]

I hear ISIS has a wonderful health plan

 

[Debbie]

I hear ISIS has a wonderful health plan

I think your milk of human kindness might be nearly depleted? Tongue in cheek Or is this meant to be flippant?

BalletBound, it sounds like you have an awful lot on your plate. Do you have people you can turn to in real life to at least have some emotional support to help you with what you are going through?

 

[Noor]

I use this lifestyle to escape from my horrible life.

I have epilepsy and brain surgery has been suggested.
Heart problems that could kill me
I have days where I can't get out bed
I am allergic to the sun for more than an hour
I lost my job as a model because I recovered from my anorexia
I have OCD which reminds me of how awful I am
I can't drive.
I I can't keep a steady job even with amazing marks in university because I took my lsats to become a lawyer
I now can't get to classes everyday so I am finishing my masters online because they called me disabled.
I killed myself but the choice wasn't mine and I was put on a ventilator for weeks with tubes everywhere
and continually to be put into a coma with the drugs that killed Michael Jackson
My husband left me because I was too hard to care for me... and he was a fucking doctor.
I live my days on drugs so expensive that I can't move anywhere permanently like to US because I can't live anywhere permanently because I can never receive insurance so my travelling has always been cut short.

I am so sorry to read this, it is quite a list.

My suggestion is to choose one thing and try to find a way around it. Life might not be as it once was but it could be massively better.

I have a friend who had brain surgery for epilepsy and it worked. His emotional swings are less, no extreme lows and the highs are a bit muted but he does fine. He works a good job that he likes, has a gf and all. I guess you have to consider the pros and cons of it.

I also have a friend with morbid high blood pressure, he does stuff, even though he could stroke out at anytime. He can't drive either.

Ocd doesn't make you awful, but depression can make you feel that way.

I am sun sensitive, have been all my life. There are special clothes and I always wear hats.

Doctors often have no patience with things or people they can't fix, I would not take it as a reflection of you.

 

[Recidiva]

I am so sorry to read this, it is quite a list.

My suggestion is to choose one thing and try to find a way around it. Life might not be as it once was but it could be massively better.

I have a friend who had brain surgery for epilepsy and it worked. His emotional swings are less, no extreme lows and the highs are a bit muted but he does fine. He works a good job that he likes, has a gf and all. I guess you have to consider the pros and cons of it.

I also have a friend with morbid high blood pressure, he does stuff, even though he could stroke out at anytime. He can't drive either.

Ocd doesn't make you awful, but depression can make you feel that way.

I am sun sensitive, have been all my life. There are special clothes and I always wear hats.

Doctors often have no patience with things or people they can't fix, I would not take it as a reflection of you.

Always listen to Noor.

I'm sorry to hear it as well.

I would second finding one thing to work on at a time. I know that may sound impossible based on the amount of energy you have left over after dealing with pain. I hope you find a day where it's possible and take positive steps toward healing, whatever those are.

 

[BabblingBrooke]

BalletBound, First, I am quite fond of the alliteration in your username. Second, Noor is right. This is all overwhelming and focusing on one thing at a time would allow you to make progress. When you're feeling that low small successes and focusing on positives make a difference.

 

[Mischka]

Congratulations on recovering from your anorexia. How long has it been? A healthier body will make tackling the other physical issues easier, so good on you for starting down the right path.

As you listed it first, and from the advice already given, the brain surgery seems the most critical next step. Do you have insurance to cover the procedure? Have you chosen a doctor?

 

[lovecraft68]

Sorry for your lot in life but glad to see you still trying and coping. I saw your post in the AH saying you enjoy the stories.

If you are enjoying erotic stories you still have more than a little spark to you

My first question to the surgeons would be are you currently strong enough for the surgery.

 

[Fata Morgana]

I hear ISIS has a wonderful health plan

Have you decided to become a knobhead?