Well Im glad nobody has read my lame post from earlier...lol I was quite nervous. This is going to be a learning process for me thats for sure. I am somebody normally in control....
ty minx... i'm really NOT ok, at all. i miss Him so much and i still cannot believe He's gone. my heart hurts and i wish so badly i had gotten to say goodbye....i guess in a way i did. i talked to Him the night before thanksgiving. i loved him (and still do) SO much. he will forever be in my heart..a piece of me is missing without Him....it's really just starting to sink in...but it still just doesn't feel..real. He was the greatest man i've ever known (besides my dad) and He knew me better than anyone ever has or ever will....i miss Him....my heart hurts...
it was a HUGE shock. i had been texting him for a couple of days and got no answer...i went to his facebook page and saw all these people saying goodbye to him and i was like what?? so i called His phone and His brother answered and he was like, this is patrick's brother do you need something? and i said, i was trying to get ahold of Patrick....and the phone went silent and he said umm..You want to talk to Patrick? i said yea...and he goes "well, wait, is this April?" and i said yesss..and he goes ..oh god April, i thought someone had already called you...Patrick passed away" i dropped the phone....i thought it was a sick joke at first...like i said it still doesn't feel real...i do have people here to support me...and who understand...but....it just hurts...in time i will be ok....thanks minx for the hugs and well wishes.
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Looking to live vicariously through other's good reports.
Things are very good for us. We might have a meeting coming up in the next month. You know me, I rather talk about it after wards then before. Just in case.
I'll get my full report in then.
Good luck! And despite the mixed feelings, I am happy for you and jealous.
Things are very good for us. We might have a meeting coming up in the next month. You know me, I rather talk about it after wards then before. Just in case.
I'll get my full report in then.
In all honesty I haven't felt really D/s in a couple of months. I have a submissive nature so it's kind of a mute point, but I know it's there. The funny thing about that is that I think it's altered my outlook in a positive way. Some times it's nice to "just" have an "other" rather than a PYL/pyl. Me too! We'll be playing house for a month and getting engaged.
Thanks!
We won't be living in the city I'm not so thrilled with for too long, because we're moving in September, to Poland of all places. But I was hoping until January that he'd want to move to my city for these couple of months before ditching the country. But at least there will be excelent bike routes where I'll be moving, so it's not all bad.
And I'm really happy to be moving in with him, despite the D/s weirdness at the moment. I just get scared sometimes. Living with somebody is a huge change after 9 years of living alone.
And congratulations for the upcoming encagement!
