Thanks ES. I'm trying my best to not let it affect me, but it's hard. I'll just have to keep busy until we can make it official. I'm just starting to feel like there's no point in hoping, and once I get to that point, I'm not going to want to discuss it at all if it's really not going to happen. I know this isn't right, and it doesn't help our relationship. So, keep your fingers crossed that M and I come through it ok.
That kind of self-preservation thinking makes sense, though. If you don't think it, you don't hope so much for it, so you can't get hurt. Natural reaction. Keep communicating, even when you just don't want to do it. If it's meant to work out, then it will, and you don't want to shoot yourself in the foot by locking up. (Advice I have to remind myself of all the time.)
Good luck getting back on track!

Just I was warned not to book with Aer Lingus as they are in financial trouble (which is why they have great rates but have issues when I try to book them). And I was told not to book a hotel until the last possible minute because their hotel industry is in trouble and you can stay one night and the next the hotel is gone. 


Can't. Wait!