Distance Domination-Support Thread

[lil_slave_rose]

I just did the stupidiest thing...

I yelled at Master for something he told me..

So I am very upset..He almost got offline but luckily stayed...

I regret doing what I did..

He thankfully accepted my apology but I wrecked our time tonight...

::::huge hugs::::::: because i KNOW how this feels. i've done this very thing. the conversation went a little bit like this

me: i'm tired and need to go to bed
Him: then go to bed
me: but i need to take a shower first
Him: you can take it tomorrow
me : eeww NO i need to take one tonight
Him: what was that word you just said to me?
me (being my defiant bratty ass self): since when am i not allowed to say NO??
Him: silence (LOL)
me: hellllllloooooo!?!
Him: since when ARE you allowed to say no to me??
and on and on...i kept digging my hole, i wouldn't shut the hell up, knowing damn well i had pissed Him off. silence means bad bad things for me. it means He is getting irritated or pissed off and that i need to stop, but for some reason my mouth just keeps running. He told me to take a shower and get to bed and He'd give my punishment the next day. i apologized of course and i beat myself up ALL day over it waiting on what He would do to punish me. He ended up saying that HE'd chalk it up to me being tired and that He thought i had punished myself far more than anything He could have done Himself.

it happens, and it's good that He accepted your apology, but i know how you must be feeling. :::Hugs:::

 

[lil_slave_rose]

Glad that you got to talk to your Master..I know that helped

I hate that about your friend..I know she is glad to have a friend like you....

That is great that he is off 3 days this week..I konw that will help you greatly and hopefully get more time with him

my best friend IS the best. she does so much for me, and i for her so i can't just leave her sitting at her house (she doesnt' have a car or anyway to get around at all) so i have to go get her and make sure she's alright which usually leads to her coming to my house for the weekend. i go see her atleast once a day to make sure she doesnt' need anything, i know it's not my responsibility but she's my best friend..ya know? but yea, we'll get some time while he's off work this week and i will be SO happy about that. i got some books from the library and we started the one the other night but i was too tired to read to much of it to Him, so maybe that's what we'll do

 

[DomWharfsBitch]

::::huge hugs::::::: because i KNOW how this feels. i've done this very thing. the conversation went a little bit like this

me: i'm tired and need to go to bed
Him: then go to bed
me: but i need to take a shower first
Him: you can take it tomorrow
me : eeww NO i need to take one tonight
Him: what was that word you just said to me?
me (being my defiant bratty ass self): since when am i not allowed to say NO??
Him: silence (LOL)
me: hellllllloooooo!?!
Him: since when ARE you allowed to say no to me??
and on and on...i kept digging my hole, i wouldn't shut the hell up, knowing damn well i had pissed Him off. silence means bad bad things for me. it means He is getting irritated or pissed off and that i need to stop, but for some reason my mouth just keeps running. He told me to take a shower and get to bed and He'd give my punishment the next day. i apologized of course and i beat myself up ALL day over it waiting on what He would do to punish me. He ended up saying that HE'd chalk it up to me being tired and that He thought i had punished myself far more than anything He could have done Himself.

it happens, and it's good that He accepted your apology, but i know how you must be feeling. :::Hugs:::

Thank you hon..I am the same way I punish myself so much harder...I hated that I did it but I just couldn't help it..we had had a nice time on the phone earlier..When I answered it I didn't say HI Master I just said Hello..But I was sitting in the dark and didn't have the light on so I just picked it up without looking at the caller ID.. But he accepted my apology but I wrecked the night

 

[lil_slave_rose]

Thank you hon..I am the same way I punish myself so much harder...I hated that I did it but I just couldn't help it..we had had a nice time on the phone earlier..When I answered it I didn't say HI Master I just said Hello..But I was sitting in the dark and didn't have the light on so I just picked it up without looking at the caller ID.. But he accepted my apology but I wrecked the night

aww that sucks, but don't beat yourself up too much or you will displease Him by not letting it drop. i know Master hates it when i dwell on the things i've done wrong. if i apologize and He accepts it, and i continue to dwell i'm doing a disservice to Him by continuing to keep it going when He has basically told me to drop it. i don't have to answer the phone 'hi Master' but i think that's mostly do to the fact that my kids are always around or because we talk so much that i'd be saying it every 5 minutes LOL

 

[littleone77]

I have crossed a stepping stone...due to some rather coincidental events Him and i haven't been able to connect for a few days...usually i would just assume the worse and my mind would go wild. This time however it only happened once! *jump up in happiness* And that thought didn't last long either.

Perhaps my litany of 'Daddy is not going to leave' is finally working. *beams*

 

[minx1]

thanks for the hugs and re-reading my posts makes me want to delete it. LOL sounds like i was whining to get attention, that's not it, i just love this thread and everyone is so supportive and knows what i'm going through so it's easier to pour my heart out here. anyway, thanks again

*big hugs* Rose,

I felt exactly the same after my outburst the other day,and was a bit ashamed that I blurted in public *laugh* but actually ir really really helped.

So please don't feel like that, its great to be able to pour your heart out here and know that not only will noone judge you, they will most likely completely understand.

 

[minx1]

I just did the stupidiest thing...

I yelled at Master for something he told me..

So I am very upset..He almost got offline but luckily stayed...

I regret doing what I did..

He thankfully accepted my apology but I wrecked our time tonight...

*big hugs* Hope everything is ok with your M now DW

I think often the frustrations of distance etc often manifests themselves in us acting up a bit and being a bit petulent now and again...I know just lately its been that way for me...but at least you recognise it and he forgives it

 

[MasterPhoenix]

*sighs* another night of barely chatting with Master. it's becoming more and more this way, i swear. and even when we are on the phone there's so much silence, or my friend is over here and i'm busy talking to her. i really really hate when life gets in the way of our time. between me having to go to bed early in order to get my son up for school in the morning and then my friend being over here on the weekends we have had not much time at all, and it's driving me nuts, i'm sure it is Him too. we'll get through this though, we've been through worse for sure. i just miss Him and need to have His arms wrapped around me.

me and my best friend took our kids to the park yesterday, and that was the first time i'd been there since Master's visit in Sept. so it brought back alot of emotions that i wasn't expecting, so i text messaged Him while i was there telling Him i wished He was with us *sighs* distance SUCKS....and i thought it would get easier once we had that 'real time' touch, but i've had it twice now, and it just gets harder.....ok i'm done whining...................for now...

Been trying to wake you up for three hours now...

It has been hard on me, as we talked about whilst I was on break...

Just know that I love you, and am doing my dammedest to get back to you asap.

Your text messages made me wish I was at the park with you... *sigh* such is life.

It is up to us, to finish this transition and lose the distance baby... nothing is really in our way.

 

[minx1]

I have crossed a stepping stone...due to some rather coincidental events Him and i haven't been able to connect for a few days...usually i would just assume the worse and my mind would go wild. This time however it only happened once! *jump up in happiness* And that thought didn't last long either.

Perhaps my litany of 'Daddy is not going to leave' is finally working. *beams*

Good on ya littleone sounds like you have broken that cycle of thinking he will leave and I am certain it will go from strength to strength now.

 

[MasterPhoenix]

::::huge hugs::::::: because i KNOW how this feels. i've done this very thing. the conversation went a little bit like this

me: i'm tired and need to go to bed
Him: then go to bed
me: but i need to take a shower first
Him: you can take it tomorrow
me : eeww NO i need to take one tonight
Him: what was that word you just said to me?
me (being my defiant bratty ass self): since when am i not allowed to say NO??
Him: silence (LOL)
me: hellllllloooooo!?!
Him: since when ARE you allowed to say no to me??
and on and on...i kept digging my hole, i wouldn't shut the hell up, knowing damn well i had pissed Him off. silence means bad bad things for me. it means He is getting irritated or pissed off and that i need to stop, but for some reason my mouth just keeps running. He told me to take a shower and get to bed and He'd give my punishment the next day. i apologized of course and i beat myself up ALL day over it waiting on what He would do to punish me. He ended up saying that HE'd chalk it up to me being tired and that He thought i had punished myself far more than anything He could have done Himself.

it happens, and it's good that He accepted your apology, but i know how you must be feeling. :::Hugs:::

Minor correction to your story: You did NOT end up taking a shower that night after all...

 

[the captians wench]

Minor correction to your story: You did NOT end up taking a shower that night after all...

*giggles*

ah samantics.

*snickers*

 

[minx1]

Minor correction to your story: You did NOT end up taking a shower that night after all...

*giggles* ooops

 

[MasterPhoenix]

The Void
by Master Phoenix
(c) 3-12-2k7

In my former home thats no longer home
I go though the daily motions of life
work sleep and the mundane rituals of a day
Every day the void is present
reminding me I am no longer home
my heart never returned from where you are
and while I live here, my life is there
In this former home I exist as days pass
working a job I despise, catering to the moronic masses
seepwalking thigh life as my heart is no longer in my chest
it resides in my new home with you, where I am not
Each day is empty and and without meaning
Except that it brings our next time together closer
The sun will rise again in the east, and traverse the sky
As I long for another place that is now my home
And the sun will set once again in the western horizon
not knowing or caring that my life is a void until I am home once again.

 

[MasterPhoenix]

*giggles*

ah samantics.

*snickers*

She loves to correct my stories... LOL

 

[the captians wench]

She loves to correct my stories... LOL

*giggles* maybe she's just being cheeky.....well that's my excuse anyway.

 

[MasterPhoenix]

*giggles* maybe she's just being cheeky.....well that's my excuse anyway.

undoubedly

 

[DomWharfsBitch]

aww that sucks, but don't beat yourself up too much or you will displease Him by not letting it drop. i know Master hates it when i dwell on the things i've done wrong. if i apologize and He accepts it, and i continue to dwell i'm doing a disservice to Him by continuing to keep it going when He has basically told me to drop it. i don't have to answer the phone 'hi Master' but i think that's mostly do to the fact that my kids are always around or because we talk so much that i'd be saying it every 5 minutes LOL

Sorry just answering rose..Master sent me to bed last night...I have a bad habit of dwelling on things too...I apologized 15 times last night...Thanks for listening last night..I really needed it..

 

[DomWharfsBitch]

*big hugs* Hope everything is ok with your M now DW

I think often the frustrations of distance etc often manifests themselves in us acting up a bit and being a bit petulent now and again...I know just lately its been that way for me...but at least you recognise it and he forgives it

Thank you for the hugs Minx...I appreciate them so much!

Yes everything seems to be okay with Master and I now....

Yes I think you are right about the frustrations of the distance add up after a while..

 

[Little_Kitten]

Oh... The frustrations about the distance add up alot I get... frustrated. Both me n my love are tired of waiting.
The good news for me is that I'll be seeing him soon My family finally accepted that I have a lover in USA waiting for me, and after some uh... emotional outbursts... My dad decided that he'd pay the plane ticket :-/ Which is totally NOT like him. He usually just makes things worse. Ooh now I just need to find a schoolrelated thing to do while i'm there.
Oof... It's so close i can almost taste it..... I can't tell whether the thought of being with him so soon is soothing or even more frustrating >_<

 

[minx1]

Oh... The frustrations about the distance add up alot I get... frustrated. Both me n my love are tired of waiting.
The good news for me is that I'll be seeing him soon My family finally accepted that I have a lover in USA waiting for me, and after some uh... emotional outbursts... My dad decided that he'd pay the plane ticket :-/ Which is totally NOT like him. He usually just makes things worse. Ooh now I just need to find a schoolrelated thing to do while i'm there.
Oof... It's so close i can almost taste it..... I can't tell whether the thought of being with him so soon is soothing or even more frustrating >_<

*laugh* possibly the latter...so close you can smell him, almost taste him. Oh god I'm making myself worse here!
Lucky you hon and what a darling dad eh! Where are you living Kitten?

 

[the captians wench]

Oh... The frustrations about the distance add up alot I get... frustrated. Both me n my love are tired of waiting.
The good news for me is that I'll be seeing him soon My family finally accepted that I have a lover in USA waiting for me, and after some uh... emotional outbursts... My dad decided that he'd pay the plane ticket :-/ Which is totally NOT like him. He usually just makes things worse. Ooh now I just need to find a schoolrelated thing to do while i'm there.
Oof... It's so close i can almost taste it..... I can't tell whether the thought of being with him so soon is soothing or even more frustrating >_<

Depending on where in the US he is, I'm sure there are enough of us around here that we can come up with some sort of educational thing for you to add to your agenda.

DW, these things happen. I wonder some times if it's a subby traite or a female trait that we are so hard on ourselves even when we are forgiven.

I have a song floating in my head, from Moulin Rouge that seems fitting for this mood.

"One day I'll fly away
Leave all this to yesterday
Why live life from dream to dream
And dread the day when dreaming ends"

 

[intothewoods]

I have a song floating in my head, from Moulin Rouge that seems fitting for this mood.

"One day I'll fly away
Leave all this to yesterday
Why live life from dream to dream
And dread the day when dreaming ends"

Did someone mention Moulin Rouge?

 

[the captians wench]

Did someone mention Moulin Rouge?

One of my favorite movies my dear....and I had noticed you av.

 

[Little_Kitten]

Well uh... He lives in Pennsylvania.. In Pittsburgh...

I was thinking about doing Highschool there as I never finished it here(i live in denmark btw).... Or some art related school... Or cyberschool which would be the easy, cheap but not so good way... or sumthing...

 

[minx1]

Well uh... He lives in Pennsylvania.. In Pittsburgh...

I was thinking about doing Highschool there as I never finished it here(i live in denmark btw).... Or some art related school... Or cyberschool which would be the easy, cheap but not so good way... or sumthing...

wow so thats quite a way Kitten....bit like me and my Master. I'm in the UK and He is in Perth Australia The art related school sounds like a cool option eh!

We spoke on the phone this morning and then later on MSN so I am a very happy subbie today.