Distance Domination-Support Thread

[lil_slave_rose]

Hey All..Have enjoyed catching up with each other today from the reading of the thread

MP and lil rose you two crack me up..You are so in love and it shows through everything!

mis I hope that your neck is going to be better soon!

Master surprised me good this morning for work and we had a good time!
I am hoping he will get to call on his way home from work tonight so we can talk for a few and then meet up again online..

Hope you all have good nights..

Hope everyone is doing good

*grins* glad we could make you laugh and i'm also glad that everything is going along good for you surprises from Master are always good

 

[DomWharfsBitch]

*grins* glad we could make you laugh and i'm also glad that everything is going along good for you surprises from Master are always good

Thank you rose...Yes they are good indeed!

 

[xseraphimx]

Help please

Oh how much has changed in so few hours! Some background might be neccessary before I launch into my whole sorry tale. I'm probably going to scatter random question throughout this post so please bear with me as I write them when they occur to me. Master and I have been (online) freinds many years, until late last year, We never overstepped that invisible barrier that exists between freinds. Throughout all this time, I was married, now separated from a drunk, physically abusive soon-to-be-ex.

Master was one of the few who I shared details about my nightmare marriage with. He however was in another relationship at the time so, naturally nothing occurred between Us. Over time I sensed His unhappiness with this girl and to cut a long story short, eventually he ended His relationship because in His words "She would not commit to a real time meeting" I admit that I was still recovering from my wounds, as was He when We became involved, so I empathised with his hurts over Her lack of commitment to a real time meeting. When We became involved I indicated that at some time in the future I'd meet with him, but I was clear and remained adamant that due to my own personal trust issues, it would take me a while to reach that point. [Question#1 - When is it too soon to meet when tis only been 5 months?]

Having said that, I know full well my trust issues increased, when within the first month of He and I becoming a couple, He actually went back to the former girlfriend. She and I are freinds also, and out of respect for Her feelings, not wanting to rub her face in it, I had told no one of the change between Master and my relationship. It was a huge slap in the face to me to watch her all giddy and giggly because they had mended their relationship and got back together. So basically He lied to me and if the timeline of events can bear scrutiny, lied for some weeks, I chose however not to investigate too much, self preservation kicked in on that decision. After the initial hurt had cooled off, several days later I spoke to him. He apologised and begged for forgiveness, stating that as this girl lived in the same country as He that He felt he had a better chance of meeting Her than of meeting me. I was hurt, but reasoned that as His and my own relationship was in the fledgeling stages, no harm no foul. I felt that it was better for me to walk away, with dignity and allow Him his shot at happiness. Hah, who was I kidding? I was devastated. My head said one thing, my heart said another. So, I utcked tail I went back to my humdrum life and got on with it.

Fast forward 4 weeks later and He broke up with the other girl again, citing the same reason, Her lack of commitment and asked me to take him back. [Question#2 - Was I foolish to take him back?] As happy as I was to have his presence in my life again, my trust issues became more acute. I would push them aside, a daily struggle to cling to faith and hope, to believe in Him, and in Us. However, I'll be totally honest here, I withdrew my intention to meet him. [Question#3 - Would You meet and or put a open ended time limit on a possible meeting, given this cheating?]

Fast forward, 2 months into the renewed relationship - Then his own insecurities surfaced. He became distrustful, jealous of me, not understanding why I had to deal with the soon-to-be-ex especially regarding my/Our 5yo son and visitation and those types of dilemnas. Master became beligerent, verbally abusive and demanding of my time, questioning me, it almost felt like the inquisition whenever I was NOT paying attention to him in IM. Harking back to when We were just freinds, He knew I would talk to the children while seated at my pc, that I would often minimise the screen and turn away to talk something over with my 5yo, etc a totally normal situation, One would think.
What I simply do not understand is all of a sudden it was full blown anxiety whenever I was away, irrespective of if I forewarned Him of an imminent event to do with the family etc. Now I am a common sense type of person, I realise that quite often when someone is feeling jealous tis very possible they themselves are already doing something they would not want someone else to know about, Or they are projecting their own desire to cheat by pointing the finger at others.

Tis a constant battle between Us - I feel insulted, hurt that He would tantamount to accuse me of cheating when He is the One that did. So I in turn get all snippy and moody and my own insecurities surface. But I am expected to suck mine up and not feel them, whereas He can just sail along as if His were of greater value than my own. Yes, I've pondered if His recent anger is similar to my soon-to-be ex-husbands. Yes, I've become nervous when his cable has gone out and days later he resurfaces, this has happened 4-5 times in 5 months. Yes, I too have questioned him over his disappearances or when He has shown up late (like today 5hrs late) Naturally I was upset and moody again and We began to fight. I don't know how He does this, but He flipped everything back onto me again, I simply closed down inside and let him rail. I hate the fighting it always leaves me feeling dirty and nasty and worthless. The upshot of todays fight is he demands I fly across the world and come to Him or tis all OFF. He's walking.

I sit here now, crying after typing all this out because, I want to be a good girl, my soul cries out to give unto Him the things He asks. But a tiny voice inside me screams No.

I am at the crossroads now. Please help.

 

[FurryFury]

This situation doesn't sound good to me or reasonable. If he continues to act like a spoiled child and make ultimatums to you I'd say your answer is clear. He isn't the right person for you to have in your life right now. I'm so sorry about the pain you must be feeling. In a good relationship, I'd expect you to be able to express how you feel.

*HUG*

Fury

 

[lil_slave_rose]

Oh how much has changed in so few hours! Some background might be neccessary before I launch into my whole sorry tale. I'm probably going to scatter random question throughout this post so please bear with me as I write them when they occur to me. Master and I have been (online) freinds many years, until late last year, We never overstepped that invisible barrier that exists between freinds. Throughout all this time, I was married, now separated from a drunk, physically abusive soon-to-be-ex.

Master was one of the few who I shared details about my nightmare marriage with. He however was in another relationship at the time so, naturally nothing occurred between Us. Over time I sensed His unhappiness with this girl and to cut a long story short, eventually he ended His relationship because in His words "She would not commit to a real time meeting" I admit that I was still recovering from my wounds, as was He when We became involved, so I empathised with his hurts over Her lack of commitment to a real time meeting. When We became involved I indicated that at some time in the future I'd meet with him, but I was clear and remained adamant that due to my own personal trust issues, it would take me a while to reach that point. [Question#1 - When is it too soon to meet when tis only been 5 months?]

Having said that, I know full well my trust issues increased, when within the first month of He and I becoming a couple, He actually went back to the former girlfriend. She and I are freinds also, and out of respect for Her feelings, not wanting to rub her face in it, I had told no one of the change between Master and my relationship. It was a huge slap in the face to me to watch her all giddy and giggly because they had mended their relationship and got back together. So basically He lied to me and if the timeline of events can bear scrutiny, lied for some weeks, I chose however not to investigate too much, self preservation kicked in on that decision. After the initial hurt had cooled off, several days later I spoke to him. He apologised and begged for forgiveness, stating that as this girl lived in the same country as He that He felt he had a better chance of meeting Her than of meeting me. I was hurt, but reasoned that as His and my own relationship was in the fledgeling stages, no harm no foul. I felt that it was better for me to walk away, with dignity and allow Him his shot at happiness. Hah, who was I kidding? I was devastated. My head said one thing, my heart said another. So, I utcked tail I went back to my humdrum life and got on with it.

Fast forward 4 weeks later and He broke up with the other girl again, citing the same reason, Her lack of commitment and asked me to take him back. [Question#2 - Was I foolish to take him back?] As happy as I was to have his presence in my life again, my trust issues became more acute. I would push them aside, a daily struggle to cling to faith and hope, to believe in Him, and in Us. However, I'll be totally honest here, I withdrew my intention to meet him. [Question#3 - Would You meet and or put a open ended time limit on a possible meeting, given this cheating?]

Fast forward, 2 months into the renewed relationship - Then his own insecurities surfaced. He became distrustful, jealous of me, not understanding why I had to deal with the soon-to-be-ex especially regarding my/Our 5yo son and visitation and those types of dilemnas. Master became beligerent, verbally abusive and demanding of my time, questioning me, it almost felt like the inquisition whenever I was NOT paying attention to him in IM. Harking back to when We were just freinds, He knew I would talk to the children while seated at my pc, that I would often minimise the screen and turn away to talk something over with my 5yo, etc a totally normal situation, One would think.
What I simply do not understand is all of a sudden it was full blown anxiety whenever I was away, irrespective of if I forewarned Him of an imminent event to do with the family etc. Now I am a common sense type of person, I realise that quite often when someone is feeling jealous tis very possible they themselves are already doing something they would not want someone else to know about, Or they are projecting their own desire to cheat by pointing the finger at others.

Tis a constant battle between Us - I feel insulted, hurt that He would tantamount to accuse me of cheating when He is the One that did. So I in turn get all snippy and moody and my own insecurities surface. But I am expected to suck mine up and not feel them, whereas He can just sail along as if His were of greater value than my own. Yes, I've pondered if His recent anger is similar to my soon-to-be ex-husbands. Yes, I've become nervous when his cable has gone out and days later he resurfaces, this has happened 4-5 times in 5 months. Yes, I too have questioned him over his disappearances or when He has shown up late (like today 5hrs late) Naturally I was upset and moody again and We began to fight. I don't know how He does this, but He flipped everything back onto me again, I simply closed down inside and let him rail. I hate the fighting it always leaves me feeling dirty and nasty and worthless. The upshot of todays fight is he demands I fly across the world and come to Him or tis all OFF. He's walking.

I sit here now, crying after typing all this out because, I want to be a good girl, my soul cries out to give unto Him the things He asks. But a tiny voice inside me screams No.

I am at the crossroads now. Please help.

to me there are way too many red flags to just up and fly to another country to meet this man. Master and i were together for 3 years before our first Meet, though there were some pretty big obstacles standing in our way. the fact that he is so jealous and doesn't understand why you have to deal with your ex because of your 5yo makes no sense to me. you have a child together, he better get used to you having to see your ex, because you'll be seeing him for atleast the next 13 years, and probably longer than that. you say he disappears, do you mean he just up and goes somewhere and you dont' hear from him for a long periods of time? i don't know, but like i said for me, there are entirely too many red flags..be careful

of course Master wants my time, but if my kids need me, He doesn't get all bent out of shape when i say i'll have to call Him back..or if i tell Him brb on IM because i have to do something else. he sounds very insecure and almost abusive by the way you have described and i'd just be careful if i was you. you don't want to end up in a situation like you were with your ex. i agree with fury in that it doesn't sound like a good situation and that in a good relationship you should be able to tell him how you're feeling.

 

[MasterPhoenix]

It sounds to me like you are seeing a lot of red flags. I would not ignore them. I have flown in the face of red flags before, and basically gotten burnt bad.

I don't know him, but if you cannot trust him, as it seems from your writing, how can you submit to him? I believe that the most basic foundation of Ds is trust.

I am not going to say what you should or shouldn't do as far as meeting him, but I do think that you should take a look at everything and make sure that you feel he is someone you can truly give yourself to. If the answer is no, then you would be best walking.

Just my two cents.

 

[HottieMama]

I sit here now, crying after typing all this out because, I want to be a good girl, my soul cries out to give unto Him the things He asks. But a tiny voice inside me screams No.

Listen to the tiny voice...Seriously. IMO, if this is the behavior in a LDR, it's only going to get worse once you bring it into real-time. (the jealousy, suspicion etc...)

I am a firm believer in "gut feelings" and just knowing if something feels right... To me, your doubts speak volumes about this not feeling right to you. BTW..as a mom of two kids, you ARE NOT a bad girl for taking care of your kids and not ignoring them to talk on the computer. He can shove that little pearl of wisdom directly up his ass.

 

[myinnerslut]

Oh how much has changed in so few hours! Some background might be neccessary before I launch into my whole sorry tale. I'm probably going to scatter random question throughout this post so please bear with me as I write them when they occur to me. Master and I have been (online) freinds many years, until late last year, We never overstepped that invisible barrier that exists between freinds. Throughout all this time, I was married, now separated from a drunk, physically abusive soon-to-be-ex.

Master was one of the few who I shared details about my nightmare marriage with. He however was in another relationship at the time so, naturally nothing occurred between Us. Over time I sensed His unhappiness with this girl and to cut a long story short, eventually he ended His relationship because in His words "She would not commit to a real time meeting" I admit that I was still recovering from my wounds, as was He when We became involved, so I empathised with his hurts over Her lack of commitment to a real time meeting. When We became involved I indicated that at some time in the future I'd meet with him, but I was clear and remained adamant that due to my own personal trust issues, it would take me a while to reach that point. [Question#1 - When is it too soon to meet when tis only been 5 months?]

Having said that, I know full well my trust issues increased, when within the first month of He and I becoming a couple, He actually went back to the former girlfriend. She and I are freinds also, and out of respect for Her feelings, not wanting to rub her face in it, I had told no one of the change between Master and my relationship. It was a huge slap in the face to me to watch her all giddy and giggly because they had mended their relationship and got back together. So basically He lied to me and if the timeline of events can bear scrutiny, lied for some weeks, I chose however not to investigate too much, self preservation kicked in on that decision. After the initial hurt had cooled off, several days later I spoke to him. He apologised and begged for forgiveness, stating that as this girl lived in the same country as He that He felt he had a better chance of meeting Her than of meeting me. I was hurt, but reasoned that as His and my own relationship was in the fledgeling stages, no harm no foul. I felt that it was better for me to walk away, with dignity and allow Him his shot at happiness. Hah, who was I kidding? I was devastated. My head said one thing, my heart said another. So, I utcked tail I went back to my humdrum life and got on with it.

Fast forward 4 weeks later and He broke up with the other girl again, citing the same reason, Her lack of commitment and asked me to take him back. [Question#2 - Was I foolish to take him back?] As happy as I was to have his presence in my life again, my trust issues became more acute. I would push them aside, a daily struggle to cling to faith and hope, to believe in Him, and in Us. However, I'll be totally honest here, I withdrew my intention to meet him. [Question#3 - Would You meet and or put a open ended time limit on a possible meeting, given this cheating?]

Fast forward, 2 months into the renewed relationship - Then his own insecurities surfaced. He became distrustful, jealous of me, not understanding why I had to deal with the soon-to-be-ex especially regarding my/Our 5yo son and visitation and those types of dilemnas. Master became beligerent, verbally abusive and demanding of my time, questioning me, it almost felt like the inquisition whenever I was NOT paying attention to him in IM. Harking back to when We were just freinds, He knew I would talk to the children while seated at my pc, that I would often minimise the screen and turn away to talk something over with my 5yo, etc a totally normal situation, One would think.
What I simply do not understand is all of a sudden it was full blown anxiety whenever I was away, irrespective of if I forewarned Him of an imminent event to do with the family etc. Now I am a common sense type of person, I realise that quite often when someone is feeling jealous tis very possible they themselves are already doing something they would not want someone else to know about, Or they are projecting their own desire to cheat by pointing the finger at others.

Tis a constant battle between Us - I feel insulted, hurt that He would tantamount to accuse me of cheating when He is the One that did. So I in turn get all snippy and moody and my own insecurities surface. But I am expected to suck mine up and not feel them, whereas He can just sail along as if His were of greater value than my own. Yes, I've pondered if His recent anger is similar to my soon-to-be ex-husbands. Yes, I've become nervous when his cable has gone out and days later he resurfaces, this has happened 4-5 times in 5 months. Yes, I too have questioned him over his disappearances or when He has shown up late (like today 5hrs late) Naturally I was upset and moody again and We began to fight. I don't know how He does this, but He flipped everything back onto me again, I simply closed down inside and let him rail. I hate the fighting it always leaves me feeling dirty and nasty and worthless. The upshot of todays fight is he demands I fly across the world and come to Him or tis all OFF. He's walking.

I sit here now, crying after typing all this out because, I want to be a good girl, my soul cries out to give unto Him the things He asks. But a tiny voice inside me screams No.

I am at the crossroads now. Please help.

run fast and far away and dont look back

i would hate for you to get hurt

 

[xseraphimx]

ThankYou

run fast and far away and dont look back

There are 2 things that I want to share with You before I leave today.

I should have listened to the tiny voice if not weeks ago then probably earlier this week when I first stumbled across this board. That tiny voice is the reason that - I have not been able to be sexually intimate with Master in 3-4 weeks, and 2ndly the fact I was drawn to this board and willing to expose my private feelings to total strangers.

I am certain that if I wasn't in a M/s LDR relationship I doubt I would ever have come to this board, much less poured out my heart to anyone. I'm much too private and shy to have shared this in any other medium.

No offence towards all who see this or have commented, but tis with bittersweet albeit well intentioned meaning, I pray I never have need for this board ever again.

I'm gonna run and as far and as fast as I can.

ThankYou all

 

[lil_slave_rose]

There are 2 things that I want to share with You before I leave today.

I should have listened to the tiny voice if not weeks ago then probably earlier this week when I first stumbled across this board. That tiny voice is the reason that - I have not been able to be sexually intimate with Master in 3-4 weeks, and 2ndly the fact I was drawn to this board and willing to expose my private feelings to total strangers.

I am certain that if I wasn't in a M/s LDR relationship I doubt I would ever have come to this board, much less poured out my heart to anyone. I'm much too private and shy to have shared this in any other medium.

No offence towards all who see this or have commented, but tis with bittersweet albeit well intentioned meaning, I pray I never have need for this board ever again.

I'm gonna run and as far and as fast as I can.

ThankYou all

don't let one bad experience with the lifestyle make you run from the lifestyle! and ultimately you have to do what is right for you, if it's something any of us said tonight when you asked for help, i'm truly sorry. you asked for advice and it seems we all saw the same red flags, but that does not mean its' what you have to do nor does it mean even if it IS what you decide that you have to run away from BDSM all together....

 

[myinnerslut]

don't let one bad experience with the lifestyle make you run from the lifestyle! and ultimately you have to do what is right for you, if it's something any of us said tonight when you asked for help, i'm truly sorry. you asked for advice and it seems we all saw the same red flags, but that does not mean its' what you have to do nor does it mean even if it IS what you decide that you have to run away from BDSM all together....

agreed... when i said run, i meant from this relationship.... as for the lifestyle, i hope you stay involved if it made you happy

 

[intothewoods]

trust your instincts, xseraphimx. When you're ready, you might want to come back here and give this board a try. I found it (well, still find it, lol) very intimidating at first, but it's a good place to learn without feeling pressured.

 

[Toa_lin]

Good for u for choosing to leave. and I think when she says she's leaivng the board, she's talking about the support thread, that she joined it cus she was in a bad situation and needed to talk, and hopes she won't get into another one again, so won't need to talk on here again.... Though i could be wrong. And if I am, I'm also agreeing, don't give up on the BDSM life-style completely. If u need to step back and take time away from it, feel free, but still, several of us are walking talking testaments that a D/s relationship CAN be a GOOD one.

 

[Toa_lin]

What about your recent petition to have this thread renamed the ToaLin Distance Domination Thread? on the ToaLin BDSM Talk Forum on ToaLinsliterotic.com on the ToaLin Internet.

LOLOL... Just messin with you bro, its all good!

But pheonix, how did u know I intend to take control of the world one day?



but ironically, it was from the running joke amongst my friends that I WILL take control of it one day that got me and my pet involved this way... Though that's a long, weird, convoluted, and potentially humorous story... but most of it is lead by inside jokes, which for the oddest reason just aren't funny to people outside of them

 

[MasterPhoenix]

But pheonix, how did u know I intend to take control of the world one day?



but ironically, it was from the running joke amongst my friends that I WILL take control of it one day that got me and my pet involved this way... Though that's a long, weird, convoluted, and potentially humorous story... but most of it is lead by inside jokes, which for the oddest reason just aren't funny to people outside of them

LOL just a hunch...

Maybe becuase you remind me of Pinky from Pinky & the BRain...

What are we going to do tonight Brain?

The same thing we do every night.... try to take over the WORLD!!!! Bwahahaha

LOL

 

[the captians wench]

Oh how much has changed in so few hours! Some background might be neccessary before I launch into my whole sorry tale. I'm probably going to scatter random question throughout this post so please bear with me as I write them when they occur to me. Master and I have been (online) freinds many years, until late last year, We never overstepped that invisible barrier that exists between freinds. Throughout all this time, I was married, now separated from a drunk, physically abusive soon-to-be-ex.

Master was one of the few who I shared details about my nightmare marriage with. He however was in another relationship at the time so, naturally nothing occurred between Us. Over time I sensed His unhappiness with this girl and to cut a long story short, eventually he ended His relationship because in His words "She would not commit to a real time meeting" I admit that I was still recovering from my wounds, as was He when We became involved, so I empathised with his hurts over Her lack of commitment to a real time meeting. When We became involved I indicated that at some time in the future I'd meet with him, but I was clear and remained adamant that due to my own personal trust issues, it would take me a while to reach that point. [Question#1 - When is it too soon to meet when tis only been 5 months?]

Having said that, I know full well my trust issues increased, when within the first month of He and I becoming a couple, He actually went back to the former girlfriend. She and I are freinds also, and out of respect for Her feelings, not wanting to rub her face in it, I had told no one of the change between Master and my relationship. It was a huge slap in the face to me to watch her all giddy and giggly because they had mended their relationship and got back together. So basically He lied to me and if the timeline of events can bear scrutiny, lied for some weeks, I chose however not to investigate too much, self preservation kicked in on that decision. After the initial hurt had cooled off, several days later I spoke to him. He apologised and begged for forgiveness, stating that as this girl lived in the same country as He that He felt he had a better chance of meeting Her than of meeting me. I was hurt, but reasoned that as His and my own relationship was in the fledgeling stages, no harm no foul. I felt that it was better for me to walk away, with dignity and allow Him his shot at happiness. Hah, who was I kidding? I was devastated. My head said one thing, my heart said another. So, I utcked tail I went back to my humdrum life and got on with it.

Fast forward 4 weeks later and He broke up with the other girl again, citing the same reason, Her lack of commitment and asked me to take him back. [Question#2 - Was I foolish to take him back?] As happy as I was to have his presence in my life again, my trust issues became more acute. I would push them aside, a daily struggle to cling to faith and hope, to believe in Him, and in Us. However, I'll be totally honest here, I withdrew my intention to meet him. [Question#3 - Would You meet and or put a open ended time limit on a possible meeting, given this cheating?]

Fast forward, 2 months into the renewed relationship - Then his own insecurities surfaced. He became distrustful, jealous of me, not understanding why I had to deal with the soon-to-be-ex especially regarding my/Our 5yo son and visitation and those types of dilemnas. Master became beligerent, verbally abusive and demanding of my time, questioning me, it almost felt like the inquisition whenever I was NOT paying attention to him in IM. Harking back to when We were just freinds, He knew I would talk to the children while seated at my pc, that I would often minimise the screen and turn away to talk something over with my 5yo, etc a totally normal situation, One would think.
What I simply do not understand is all of a sudden it was full blown anxiety whenever I was away, irrespective of if I forewarned Him of an imminent event to do with the family etc. Now I am a common sense type of person, I realise that quite often when someone is feeling jealous tis very possible they themselves are already doing something they would not want someone else to know about, Or they are projecting their own desire to cheat by pointing the finger at others.

Tis a constant battle between Us - I feel insulted, hurt that He would tantamount to accuse me of cheating when He is the One that did. So I in turn get all snippy and moody and my own insecurities surface. But I am expected to suck mine up and not feel them, whereas He can just sail along as if His were of greater value than my own. Yes, I've pondered if His recent anger is similar to my soon-to-be ex-husbands. Yes, I've become nervous when his cable has gone out and days later he resurfaces, this has happened 4-5 times in 5 months. Yes, I too have questioned him over his disappearances or when He has shown up late (like today 5hrs late) Naturally I was upset and moody again and We began to fight. I don't know how He does this, but He flipped everything back onto me again, I simply closed down inside and let him rail. I hate the fighting it always leaves me feeling dirty and nasty and worthless. The upshot of todays fight is he demands I fly across the world and come to Him or tis all OFF. He's walking.

I sit here now, crying after typing all this out because, I want to be a good girl, my soul cries out to give unto Him the things He asks. But a tiny voice inside me screams No.

I am at the crossroads now. Please help.

Many here know that I am in the states and my Love, my Master, is in europe. And a few know that I am seperated and have been for as long as we've known each other. I was only seperated for 4 or 5 months when I met and started talking personally with my love. It was another month after starting to talk to him that I started dating period, and 2 months after that I submitted to him. Now, my ex and I don't have children together, but there are other issuses that do keep us tied together. One of them being that I can't afford insurance on my own, so as long as we are married his union will pay for my medical bennifits. With as sickly as I can get this is very much needed.

My master and I have been together for 18 months now, and in that time he has only questioned my relationship with my ex once, and that was because he felt like my ex was not treating me right and he was concerned for me. He's also never pushed the issue of flying over there to see him. In fact he tells me every day life has to come first, as much as he loves me and wants me there, it's more important that I can survive day to day. It would do neither of us any good if I just jumped a plain and went over there with no money and came home to a pile of bills that I couldn't pay.

Also this issue with your master going back to this other girl because she was in the same country as him really bothers me. Honestly it sounds to me like he doesn't care who he has, just as long as he has some one.

This is not a relationship that sounds healthy to persue. Having said that, I understand how hard it is to let go of something you want so badly to keep. My advice is to listen to your head, in these matters it usually knows best. That doesn't mean that your heart won't ache tho, on the contrary it will be most painful, but nothing in life is easy.

 

[myinnerslut]

another fun night last night

at 11:30, i wass finally ordered to just sit down and write my paper, no more distractions. i finished around 1:30 and spent the next two hours playing with A.

i've been feeling much more aware of how "his" i am lately (if that makes any sense) and i like it. things are good.

 

[Toa_lin]

another fun night last night

at 11:30, i wass finally ordered to just sit down and write my paper, no more distractions. i finished around 1:30 and spent the next two hours playing with A.

i've been feeling much more aware of how "his" i am lately (if that makes any sense) and i like it. things are good.

I'm glad to se ehe cares enough about you to MAKE u get ur work done and yes, it makes perfect sense, even to a Dom. And finally, it's good to hear thigns are going good.

 

[myinnerslut]

I'm glad to se ehe cares enough about you to MAKE u get ur work done

i am probably the biggest procrastinator i know. A thinks its a horrible habbit. he's probably right. i'm also glad he cares enough to tell me to just sit down shut up and do my work

 

[Toa_lin]

i am probably the biggest procrastinator i know. A thinks its a horrible habbit. he's probably right. i'm also glad he cares enough to tell me to just sit down shut up and do my work

hehehe, i'm the same way, i'm a horrible procrastinator, only problem is, i'm in charge But she does have that ability that most luving SOs have, to gently get me to get it done

 

[intothewoods]

It's Wednesday. Yep, Wednesday.

 

[myinnerslut]

It's Wednesday. Yep, Wednesday.

try this way... congrats! you got to wednesday your doing great! he would be so proud of you for doing this well so far! not much longer now!

 

[minx1]

try this way... congrats! you got to wednesday your doing great! he would be so proud of you for doing this well so far! not much longer now!

Yep itw, nearly there......

 

[intothewoods]

try this way... congrats! you got to wednesday your doing great! he would be so proud of you for doing this well so far! not much longer now!

You're so cute. I'm not proud of me! I think this is one of those moments I'm not supposed to be that hard on myself. If it's good enough for my Master...(I have trouble with that one)

Yep itw, nearly there......

Thank you. Hope all is well with you.

 

[Toa_lin]

You're so cute. I'm not proud of me! I think this is one of those moments I'm not supposed to be that hard on myself. If it's good enough for my Master...(I have trouble with that one)

Thank you. Hope all is well with you.

Of course u have trouble with that one. Because I've noticed this trend amongst subs, what's "good enough' ISN'T good enough in their eyes, they always strive to do better, to be "perfect." not just "good enough" Of course, not liek I complain subs strive for perfection