disclosing my weird fetish with fit / muscular women

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happy to talk about it.. i'm a bit embarrassed about it because it borders on so weird and bizarre. or maybe that's just because i haven't shared it.

i almost have exclusively masturbated to porn of women who take steroids for about 7 years. you can get an idea if you go to a site like girlswithmuscle dot com. you could also search, "fbb" on a porn site. i laugh thinking i might send someone else down that rabbit hole.

the weirdest part is that i don't even think my attraction or fixation to this style of porn is based in attraction to a woman having a developed physique. i think i have a strange fetish for taking a woman who behaves in ways that are dominant and getting her to submit. or maybe not, i can't tell! i think a lot of guys would prefer a fit woman with muscle tone over an overweight woman who doesn't take care of herself.

i've speculated that i wanted to taper my own testosterone levels (to prevent hair loss), so by masturbating to women who take steroids i moderate my own aggression. i also think i've chosen this style of porn because i am such a horny dude so as to keep myself focused on work and to also avert risk in the #meToo era. i also think i've been intellectually interested in this whole movement of women trying to take down the patriarchy and effectively act like men; i'm either trying to cope with it by viewing women who work out like dudes, or i am trying to understand the motivation by watching this kind of porn (so it's an efficient way to masturbate by combining initiatives).

i've dated a few athletes in my life and then fell hard for an adventurous woman who told me she briefly took steroids when she was younger. i think the temperament of an athletic woman works better for me. less drama, overall. i might get bored with a woman otherwise.

i've also been in a relationship with a woman who was very feminine and overly emotional; the kind who would cry for hours. i've had a relationship or two otherwise with women who are more conventionally feminine, and sometimes i just get bored or my wild sides are too wild for them. i think i need someone who is off in their own deep end somehow or into risk-taking like me.

for what it is worth, i'm generally considered a larger / muscular-ish dude. i've lifted most of my life. i'm not on the level of taking steroids, and most of my research concludes it's either too detrimental to health or complicated / risky to execute correctly. i just have this bizarre fascination with why-in-the-hell a woman would do that?!

i don't ever see myself wanting to actually be with a woman who goes for size. the largest woman i'd ever want to be with would be a woman who does crossfit or climbs, but even then i'm not sure we'd be a match since i have a bunch of more introspective / intellectual interests. crossfit is kinda stupid to me, and i guess climbing doesn't get me. maybe i could end up with a surfer girl; i'd be fine with that.

oh, also for what it is worth..! i just don't think i'm gay or anything like this. i kind of find most things about dudes being gay with each other as such a twisted concept in my head that my brain shuts down and goes into panic mode in gay situations.. as in, i've been hit on before or a friend growing up was bi and wanted to do gay stuff that's just not my thing. so somehow even though this fetish of mine sounds kinda gay, in an odd way i guess i can say it has nothing to do with dudes or wanting a woman to be like a dude (other than not wanting to ever be with another woman that cries for hours, that sucked).

i guess i just have this secret interest to find a woman to be with and emulate Chuck Norris' marriage (where they do the total gym together); couples who lift together stay together is the saying! i've had some success with this in dating but haven't managed to find my person yet after years of dating. i wonder if sharing this bizarre fetish helps me unblock this a bit more. i've tried in therapy but i think it's too weird for most therapists lol!

alright internet, that's all i've got. i've only fully shared this with other person ever; when i showed her the porn she actually thought it was kinda hot lol.. if you have any psychoanalytic threads or insights for me, i'd love to hear it! if you wanna just say, "yeah it's so weird to look at photos like that and be oddly turned on," i'd agree w ya! :p
 
This isn't all that unusual. There is plenty of FBB porn available, so there must be plenty of fans.
Thanks for the response.. I certainly find it a bit unusual! :p

I think there's an 18-year old self part of me that really liked lifting and creatine'ing and thought there was a stupid and particular sexuality to doing so (let me be as big as possible).. I outgrew it and started focusing more on bodyweight exercises valuing physical efficiency over size.. and in fact it's somewhat well-discussed to build dense muscle vs. the types of temporary size that static movements provide.

I don't personally see a huge need to pay, but realistically could imagine myself meeting a woman at a gym. These women tend to be more the variety that have (at maximum) done one or two cycles (in that world you'd call them more like bikini competitors who took on a coach one time who insisted on PED's). We do have a more "semi-pro" bodybuilding gym in the area, but the challenge there is that the women doing the roids more routinely are doing so because they probably are impossibly turned on by the dudes doing the roids (and their arms easily show it). I'd at least have to get over my embarrassment that I'm showing up to such a gym unless I have an actual ambition to go do a show (at most I'd do a beach body competition). I have zero interest I think to meet a woman with arms my size (lol). However, if she's a bit more muscular than most women that's cool (my arms are a standard deviation larger than the average guys, I'm sure).

And yea, no I super appreciate you! This is one my more private details, and in a way I'm really trying to scratch an itch and I haven't found my person in life yet. I hung out with a couple this year that definitely both took PED's; she didn't look particularly masculine at all, but you can kinda tell that while PED's takes away from the woman's femininity (and possibly getting pregnant) those women are always down to adventure and the sex I am sure is fantastic (porn star level).

Put another way, I've also dated the yoga instructor women, and they are too obnoxious for me in their sensitivities. My personality is decently fit for this kind of woman, I imagine.
 
I've belonged to gyms for 30+ years. I love seeing fit women working out. There is something very sexual about seeing a woman fully concentrating and exerting herself physically to the max. I remember watching a woman doing triceps extensions and she was so focused and straining to push herself. It was similar to watching a woman's building pleasure as she reaches orgasm.

I've always found female bodybuilders sexy. They are so focused on their bodies. That is sexy. And many of the FBBs I've seen in porn have an extra big clitoris from the testosterone they have taken. And many have breasts implants, which I used to hate, but have come to see as sexy also.
 
I'm into muscular women too (but not so much that whole enlarged clit thing that seems to happen).
 
the weirdest part is that i don't even think my attraction or fixation to this style of porn is based in attraction to a woman having a developed physique. i think i have a strange fetish for taking a woman who behaves in ways that are dominant and getting her to submit. or maybe not, i can't tell! i think a lot of guys would prefer a fit woman with muscle tone over an overweight woman who doesn't take care of herself.
You mention submit dominant women. Maybe what arouses you is unconsciously wanting to dominate women that seem impossible to dominate because of their physical strength and that could make you submit…
 
You mention submit dominant women. Maybe what arouses you is unconsciously wanting to dominate women that seem impossible to dominate because of their physical strength and that could make you submit…
This seems more accurate..

Or another reason I've speculated over time is that it -- that fetish -- helps me to clear my thoughts of women because I'd get too horny otherwise.. so that if I jerked off or fantasized about women I wind up in actual interactions seeming too horny. Maybe. It feels strange to me, even.

There definitely seems to be something culturally happening where women emulate masculine traits more while men are talking about pegging more? There could also be a component of trying to study this phenomenon.. like why on earth would women do this to themselves? The pursuit of that answer perhaps is more tantalizing than the usual monogamy.. the world seems confident it's solved the way it's always been done and so giving way to usual desires makes you vulnerable.

I wonder if anyone else feels like I do even if they just manifest it differently.
 
Wow, there is a lot to unpack in your many comments.

I will be brief in my remarks and bot touch all of the subjects you have brought up.

In regards to woman who works out versus one who is more sedentary or even overweight, they are all “just” women.

If I may, and I don’t want to seem to judge your preference as I judge no one in general; you seem to have associated stronger physical women with dominant traits. Perhaps, you seek a dominant woman, who, by the way, may not necessarily be super muscular. Perhaps the muscles attract you?

I for one love a woman with strong defined muscles especially legs.

Pegging always happened, it was just and I think still is not an easy conversation topic without coming across as a classical “sub” guy. Although, the society’s mores keep on evolving, I am in my 50s now, in my 20s, anything approaching this subject would have carried a “fag” (we did not say “gay” back then) connotation.

We are inching, however slowly, to a wider more diverse world where, what used to be kinks, are now part of societal norms.
 
As someone who has written many, many thousands of words of porn about strong women, fit women and also - for good or for ill - muscular women with either clitoromegaly or dual sexual characteristics, I've had plenty of time to consider how I feel about femininity and strength.

Firstly, and I think (given my writings at least) importantly, the discussions around sexual orientation and gender are interesting to consider. Despite writing some very weird stuff, and drawing odd art, and even making lewd 3d images, I've always come back to the idea that I'm pretty vanilla in my tastes, however weird that may sound.

I like a muscular look, but even the most butched out, steroidal female bodybuilder hits differently for me than a muscular male: maybe it's an artists eye for proportion, or just the starting point for physical development being very different, but I find female bodybuilders of almost all sizes and levels of virilisation attractive, in a way I don't for men. I've thought about it a lot, wandering if I'm kidding myself, but luckily, as a man I've got a fairly reliable one-eyed dowsing rod that tells me I'm not just in denial. Big clits, deep voices, muscular chests... the only thing I think I've never really gone in for was body hair, and even then, I don't mind a big bush either.

On a different forum, I ended up being accused of being homosexual because of this attitude, which I'll admit I found baffling: seemed like someone was being a little too keen to draw a line and put themselves firmly on their idea of the 'correct' side of it. Of course they pointed to my stories about girls with boy bits as proof, but I've always considered the matter fairly clearly in my own mind: I don't want many guys in my porn - they're not really what I'm interested in. Perhaps it's just the way I read: not necessarily putting myself in the shoes of the character with the cock, but seeing it more or less cinematically, the action in front of me. I don't mind a hot girl with a dick handing out tickets to the tubesteak rodeo, but if I'm writing or reading thousands of words about a guy character in a porn story (over hours and hours) then there has to be at least a good reason, or something I find interesting about it.

Still, I think that for me the muscular women thing, and the girls with dicks thing are both fairly closely linked - not in terms of look or subject matter, but in terms of principle, motivation and characterisation. What I find sexy about dickgirl porn and muscular women porn is not particularly dominance (though many of the characters I write are), but I think it's fair to say that they're assertive, that their motivations are quite clear and that the intimate moments are physical, quite intense, initiated by the woman as often as the be-cocked partner, and ultimately, mutual. There are few passive sexual partners in my stories, and the defining characteristic is that there is a game, or a give and take that I personally would like to see in my partners. Also, and I think that this is part of it too, the drive of muscular women, the determination to make themselves into a vision of perfection in their own mind, is very sexy too. Is that a dominance thing?

Dunno. Hot though.

Perhaps the last issue is my size: though currently quite out of shape, I'm still quite a tall, strong man. It's not something that I particularly enjoy for its own sake, but I've always had the deep desire to be with someone who I wouldn't feel like I was about to snap in two. It drove one of my partners mad: she didn't realise that all the silly playacting whenever I bumped her accidentally as I rolled over in bed, was almost precisely the reason why, despite her encouragement, I didn't really spank her during sex. I just hate the idea of hurting people I like or love. I suppose in the back of my mind, the strong, assertive, sexually active muscle goddess of my fantasies would allow me to relax and not feel like I was walking on eggshells all the time.

Sorry for the outpouring of brain rot, but it is an interesting discussion - just wanted to see if there was anything interesting I could add.
 
As someone who has written many, many thousands of words of porn about strong women, fit women and also - for good or for ill - muscular women with either clitoromegaly or dual sexual characteristics, I've had plenty of time to consider how I feel about femininity and strength.

Firstly, and I think (given my writings at least) importantly, the discussions around sexual orientation and gender are interesting to consider. Despite writing some very weird stuff, and drawing odd art, and even making lewd 3d images, I've always come back to the idea that I'm pretty vanilla in my tastes, however weird that may sound.

I like a muscular look, but even the most butched out, steroidal female bodybuilder hits differently for me than a muscular male: maybe it's an artists eye for proportion, or just the starting point for physical development being very different, but I find female bodybuilders of almost all sizes and levels of virilisation attractive, in a way I don't for men. I've thought about it a lot, wandering if I'm kidding myself, but luckily, as a man I've got a fairly reliable one-eyed dowsing rod that tells me I'm not just in denial. Big clits, deep voices, muscular chests... the only thing I think I've never really gone in for was body hair, and even then, I don't mind a big bush either.

On a different forum, I ended up being accused of being homosexual because of this attitude, which I'll admit I found baffling: seemed like someone was being a little too keen to draw a line and put themselves firmly on their idea of the 'correct' side of it. Of course they pointed to my stories about girls with boy bits as proof, but I've always considered the matter fairly clearly in my own mind: I don't want many guys in my porn - they're not really what I'm interested in. Perhaps it's just the way I read: not necessarily putting myself in the shoes of the character with the cock, but seeing it more or less cinematically, the action in front of me. I don't mind a hot girl with a dick handing out tickets to the tubesteak rodeo, but if I'm writing or reading thousands of words about a guy character in a porn story (over hours and hours) then there has to be at least a good reason, or something I find interesting about it.

Still, I think that for me the muscular women thing, and the girls with dicks thing are both fairly closely linked - not in terms of look or subject matter, but in terms of principle, motivation and characterisation. What I find sexy about dickgirl porn and muscular women porn is not particularly dominance (though many of the characters I write are), but I think it's fair to say that they're assertive, that their motivations are quite clear and that the intimate moments are physical, quite intense, initiated by the woman as often as the be-cocked partner, and ultimately, mutual. There are few passive sexual partners in my stories, and the defining characteristic is that there is a game, or a give and take that I personally would like to see in my partners. Also, and I think that this is part of it too, the drive of muscular women, the determination to make themselves into a vision of perfection in their own mind, is very sexy too. Is that a dominance thing?

Dunno. Hot though.

Perhaps the last issue is my size: though currently quite out of shape, I'm still quite a tall, strong man. It's not something that I particularly enjoy for its own sake, but I've always had the deep desire to be with someone who I wouldn't feel like I was about to snap in two. It drove one of my partners mad: she didn't realise that all the silly playacting whenever I bumped her accidentally as I rolled over in bed, was almost precisely the reason why, despite her encouragement, I didn't really spank her during sex. I just hate the idea of hurting people I like or love. I suppose in the back of my mind, the strong, assertive, sexually active muscle goddess of my fantasies would allow me to relax and not feel like I was walking on eggshells all the time.

Sorry for the outpouring of brain rot, but it is an interesting discussion - just wanted to see if there was anything interesting I could add.
Wow, what a great post! I’ll be reading some of your stories.

I cannot and will not assume to understand your attraction to powerful bodies, but I will mention one universally found trait in all humans. Biologically speaking, no matter your cultural background it would seem like we all share attraction to perfect symmetry. There has been a lot of work done on facial symmetry and there is no doubt that symmetrical faces are deemed to be more attractive than less symmetrical ones.

It would not surprise me if that same concep also applies to the body. How attractive is perfect abdominal washboard symmetry! 😍

You could say this about legs biceps shoulders and a lot of other body parts.

Enjoy and accept your kink, of course as always, among consenting adults.
 
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