disadvantaged at being an Indian-its hard to find a willing to share pent-up passion

[advasha]

i have been married for 8 years, with a lovely lady, who somehow has turned away from sex.
what do i do with all that love and passion i feel?
i need some lady who is ready to share a passionate encounter - for the libido that has built up over 4 years of lack of sex.
it hurts so much, not being able to shower that love. and has started me on a fantasy of making love to someone very close and dear - a cousin sis - whose eyes are showering a loving warmth while we make love.
now how do i get this?