ivantheterrible
use to give a shit
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i hope this comes out right.
ok, i was in a marriage that lasted for 16 years. i got caught up in 2 relationships afterward. didn't work out.
i didn't heed a friends advice of after such a long relationship i should wait at least a year and a half before having anything to do with anyone other than friendship to get your head straightened out.
well, last month was the month i knew i was completely over my marriage. no anger, no longing, no hatred, no sadness at being alone.
being alone does bother me at times. just going to town and being around other people helps. to explain, my job is fairly isolated socially. and of course, isolated period.
i can't help to wonder. due to my accepting my kinks sexually, can it mesh with my emotional well being. i won't get involved with someone unless i am "in love" with them. since, i know that if i am not in love, i will stray to others, even if only mentally, due to the feel of needing to be "in love". and if they are "in love" with me and i not with them, even if our sexual kinks mesh, would i feel different about it?
i have no problem with sharing. the thought does turn me on, and other kinks. but deep down inside, i do want to be in love with them.
IS there a woman out there, whom i can be madly deeply melt in my socks everytime i look in her eyes in love, and have my cake and eat it too?
ok, i was in a marriage that lasted for 16 years. i got caught up in 2 relationships afterward. didn't work out.
i didn't heed a friends advice of after such a long relationship i should wait at least a year and a half before having anything to do with anyone other than friendship to get your head straightened out.
well, last month was the month i knew i was completely over my marriage. no anger, no longing, no hatred, no sadness at being alone.
being alone does bother me at times. just going to town and being around other people helps. to explain, my job is fairly isolated socially. and of course, isolated period.
i can't help to wonder. due to my accepting my kinks sexually, can it mesh with my emotional well being. i won't get involved with someone unless i am "in love" with them. since, i know that if i am not in love, i will stray to others, even if only mentally, due to the feel of needing to be "in love". and if they are "in love" with me and i not with them, even if our sexual kinks mesh, would i feel different about it?
i have no problem with sharing. the thought does turn me on, and other kinks. but deep down inside, i do want to be in love with them.
IS there a woman out there, whom i can be madly deeply melt in my socks everytime i look in her eyes in love, and have my cake and eat it too?
