Depression support thread for the playground

[sonicspeed]

pain pills, booze and my complete set of friends dvd's

and yes i am being serious here. i know it's not the doctor recommended way of getting better but it seems to work for me

 

[Calvin]

i have been rediagnosed with major depression and boderline personality disorder. i have been hospitalized several times this year. my meds have only ever helped to a certain extent. my quality of life has suffered, i will never live up to my full potential. i do the best i can now and take it one day at atime.

Thank you for your kindness, sweetie.

you are most welcome.... I wish I had an easy answer but all I can say is that the most important part is to believe that it will be better... one day at a time... sometimes one hour at a time.... believe... with all your strengrh.... that you will live up to your full potential....

 

[gypziedoll]

pain pills, booze and my complete set of friends dvd's

and yes i am being serious here. i know it's not the doctor recommended way of getting better but it seems to work for me

sweetie, sometimes self medication is the best route....*hugs*

 

[thump]

It's really hard to explain as it doesn't seem to be a specific thing, it could just be someone giving me a smile in the street or just me doing something nice for someone just cos I want to, it could be something I hear on tv or radio, it could just even be that I wake up NOT feeling so down & depressed. I really don't know how to describe it.

Can you tell when it is coming on, or does it just happen? (Im sorry about my ignorance).

 

[gypziedoll]

Used to I could tell, but i can't anymore

 

[trojan999]

Can you tell when it is coming on, or does it just happen? (Im sorry about my ignorance).

Unfortunately no, it's just like moodswings from hell lol

 

[sonicspeed]

sweetie, sometimes self medication is the best route....*hugs*

thanks..............................hugs always help

 

[sonicspeed]

Unfortunately no, it's just like moodswings from hell lol

i agree, i can be on top of the world, next thing i know the world is on top of me

 

[Calvin]

pain pills, booze and my complete set of friends dvd's

and yes i am being serious here. i know it's not the doctor recommended way of getting better but it seems to work for me

the question of course here would be.... does it cure the depression or just waste you enough that you forget about it?.... for the time being anyway....

granted... a glass of wine or a beer can help you relax.... but in all my years of dealing with depression on a professional level showed that almost all of those that used alcohol or drugs (not problem specific drugs) as part of their "treatment" only made it worse....

 

[thump]

I can only imagine what you all and your friends and familes must go through. I wish I had a magic wand to make you all feel better when it comes on. But, short of that I offer my ears again. I dont know what you all are going through, but I am very good at listening. I wish you all the best.

 

[gypziedoll]

thanks..............................hugs always help

anytime you need one honey, just let me know

 

[gypziedoll]

I can only imagine what you all and your friends and familes must go through. I wish I had a magic wand to make you all feel better when it comes on. But, short of that I offer my ears again. I dont know what you all are going through, but I am very good at listening. I wish you all the best.

thank you hon

 

[sonicspeed]

the question of course here would be.... does it cure the depression or just waste you enough that you forget about it?.... for the time being anyway....

granted... a glass of wine or a beer can help you relax.... but in all my years of dealing with depression on a professional level showed that almost all of those that used alcohol or drugs (not problem specific drugs) as part of their "treatment" only made it worse....

i have to have the pain pills regardless. sometimes i feel like it's just a temporary fix but other times it seems to last for a few days. i have an appointment next week to see my doctor about my depression. i'm sure he will discourage my use of the booze.

 

[Calvin]

i have to have the pain pills regardless. sometimes i feel like it's just a temporary fix but other times it seems to last for a few days. i have an appointment next week to see my doctor about my depression. i'm sure he will discourage my use of the booze.

yes... most likely he will... esp if you continue the pain pills....

it is hard because depression comes at us in so many forms and is very insidious... sneaks right up on people.... lot's of people do not even realize that they are technically depressed... and many forms can be managed by simple life changes.... it is the deeper chemical imbalence or unknown cause related ones that can be tougher....
but you are def doing the right thing in trying to find a way to get a handle on it.... I wish you success...

 

[sonicspeed]

thanks..................ok time for me to get offline ........have fun y'all

 

[gypziedoll]

thanks..................ok time for me to get offline ........have fun y'all

have a good night sweetie

 

[20smoke]

just throwing in my experience..........

have dealt with depression my whole life, just began treatment last fall when things really got to be too much to bear....... I hadn't sought treatment before due to shame and the 'stigma' attached to depression by society and in particular family and most people I knew... for example, about a year ago I mentioned seeking treatment to my girlfriend (now ex thank god) and her reply was "I'm so fucking tired of hearing about your depression, if you were going to kill yourself and had the guts to do it, you would have fucking done it by now"

so when I got rid of her (or she got rid of me , whatever) I did seek treatment, my doctor gave me Effexor and it has worked very well... I can still enjoy a glass or two of wine but heavy drinking is discouraged...

what I'm saying is there are good treatments , it does work, and there is hope

 

[Raindear816]

Thank you pink for this thread. It is cathartic to share with others our experiences, whether good or bad, and depression is something I believe only gets worse if ignored.

I deal with depression everyday of my life. Although I believe I am genetically predispositioned to have it, mine also gets its boost from having post-traumatic stress disorder. There are triggers that cause me to feel worse. Those stem from being abused from early childhood and possibly infancy. Sexual abuse causes a number of problems, mentally, emotionally, and physically.

On days when I am not being triggered into a state of anxiety, the blues of my depression tend to darken with my circumstances. I am matrimonally attached to a man with explosive impulse disorder, and who is also bi-polar. This is a toxic relationship, I know, but he is a good father to our 2 boys, and has been good to me sometimes in our 12 years together.

His "RAGES" cause me to cowar and I am then pushed into crisis-mode where I can only exist, because I am too scared to do anything about my situation. He also knows my triggers, and while in a manic state, he will use them to torture me and drive me into a PTSD flashback. My children are never privy to his mental torture of me. They believe that their father, though moody at times, is the greatest, and practically hung the moon. I, on the other hand know that I cannot remain his silent victim and am making plans to begin my life anew.


Antidepressants (since I was 14 and am now 34) help to some degree, but talking with friends and/or a really good psychologist help me. Lit has been my escape for years, and I've come to care for and genuinely love the people here.

I know that one day, I will be able to come HOME to the man I truly love, who gives me support, and unconditional love. That alone will ease my wounded heart and give me peace.


I wish you all peace, comfort, and contentment.

 

[alisonwunderlnd]

a very good friend of mine is bi-polar and has some very dramatic mood swings.She also will compltely change her clothes style and what music she is listening to according to how she is feeling at the time.She has not had much sucess with her meds either.I often feel helpless,watching her struggle with this and not knowing what to do or say.

 

[pink]

Thank you pink for this thread. It is cathartic to share with others our experiences, whether good or bad, and depression is something I believe only gets worse if ignored.

I deal with depression everyday of my life. Although I believe I am genetically predispositioned to have it, mine also gets its boost from having post-traumatic stress disorder. There are triggers that cause me to feel worse. Those stem from being abused from early childhood and possibly infancy. Sexual abuse causes a number of problems, mentally, emotionally, and physically.

On days when I am not being triggered into a state of anxiety, the blues of my depression tend to darken with my circumstances. I am matrimonally attached to a man with explosive impulse disorder, and who is also bi-polar. This is a toxic relationship, I know, but he is a good father to our 2 boys, and has been good to me sometimes in our 12 years together.

His "RAGES" cause me to cowar and I am then pushed into crisis-mode where I can only exist, because I am too scared to do anything about my situation. He also knows my triggers, and while in a manic state, he will use them to torture me and drive me into a PTSD flashback. My children are never privy to his mental torture of me. They believe that their father, though moody at times, is the greatest, and practically hung the moon. I, on the other hand know that I cannot remain his silent victim and am making plans to begin my life anew.


Antidepressants (since I was 14 and am now 34) help to some degree, but talking with friends and/or a really good psychologist help me. Lit has been my escape for years, and I've come to care for and genuinely love the people here.

I know that one day, I will be able to come HOME to the man I truly love, who gives me support, and unconditional love. That alone will ease my wounded heart and give me peace.


I wish you all peace, comfort, and contentment.

You're so welcome sweetie, i hope you find peace and true happiness in your life and that it come soon. *soft kiss*

 

[gypziedoll]

Thank you pink for this thread. It is cathartic to share with others our experiences, whether good or bad, and depression is something I believe only gets worse if ignored.

I deal with depression everyday of my life. Although I believe I am genetically predispositioned to have it, mine also gets its boost from having post-traumatic stress disorder. There are triggers that cause me to feel worse. Those stem from being abused from early childhood and possibly infancy. Sexual abuse causes a number of problems, mentally, emotionally, and physically.

On days when I am not being triggered into a state of anxiety, the blues of my depression tend to darken with my circumstances. I am matrimonally attached to a man with explosive impulse disorder, and who is also bi-polar. This is a toxic relationship, I know, but he is a good father to our 2 boys, and has been good to me sometimes in our 12 years together.

His "RAGES" cause me to cowar and I am then pushed into crisis-mode where I can only exist, because I am too scared to do anything about my situation. He also knows my triggers, and while in a manic state, he will use them to torture me and drive me into a PTSD flashback. My children are never privy to his mental torture of me. They believe that their father, though moody at times, is the greatest, and practically hung the moon. I, on the other hand know that I cannot remain his silent victim and am making plans to begin my life anew.


Antidepressants (since I was 14 and am now 34) help to some degree, but talking with friends and/or a really good psychologist help me. Lit has been my escape for years, and I've come to care for and genuinely love the people here.

I know that one day, I will be able to come HOME to the man I truly love, who gives me support, and unconditional love. That alone will ease my wounded heart and give me peace.


I wish you all peace, comfort, and contentment.

I hope you find everything you need to fufil your life Sweetie.....and you get the peace you need soon....

 

[pink]

just throwing in my experience..........

have dealt with depression my whole life, just began treatment last fall when things really got to be too much to bear....... I hadn't sought treatment before due to shame and the 'stigma' attached to depression by society and in particular family and most people I knew... for example, about a year ago I mentioned seeking treatment to my girlfriend (now ex thank god) and her reply was "I'm so fucking tired of hearing about your depression, if you were going to kill yourself and had the guts to do it, you would have fucking done it by now"

so when I got rid of her (or she got rid of me , whatever) I did seek treatment, my doctor gave me Effexor and it has worked very well... I can still enjoy a glass or two of wine but heavy drinking is discouraged...

what I'm saying is there are good treatments , it does work, and there is hope

i was on effexor, it worked well. i was happy at times. i am truly sorry for the reaction of that ex of yours. Some people are so cruel and uncaring. i have met someone on Lit like this, he hurt me terribly. He told me that my depression made me unattractive as a person. i thought this person cared about me, show's how dumb i was to think that.

 

[gypziedoll]

i was on effexor, it worked well. i was happy at times. i am truly sorry for the reaction of that ex of yours. Some people are so cruel and uncaring. i have met someone on Lit like this, he hurt me terribly. He told me that my depression made me unattractive as a person. i thought this person cared about me, show's how dumb i was to think that.

people who do not deal with the realities of depression have no clue as to how to deal with someone who does.....and that makes it twice as hard for someone with this ailment to maintain a normal relationship.....

20 & Pink, it sucks that people are so cruel, just because they are clueless, i had that dealing with my husband for years....he didn't believe that this was a true problem......until he found out that mine was caused by both genetics and childhood abuse (mental, sexual and physical) that I supressed for many years....now he at least tries to understand when my mood swings hit(which can be severe, also in that I change my entire way of thinking, dress, music i listen to etc) and when my lows and highs hit which are so extreme, I don't know how anyone can live with me.....

and with me most of the drugs they have put me on work for such a short time....it feels like it is almost pointless, to take them

 

[JGH]

Pink...it doesn't show how "dumb" you were, it shows how trusting you are. Trust is a good thing. Sometimes your trust gets betrayed ( been there, done that, drank out of that bottle) but you can't let it stop you from trusting and you certainly shouldn't let it make you feel dumb for having done so.

 

[thump]

Once again, Im really ignorant when it comes to depression but it would seem to me that one of the first steps would be able to love and believe in yourself. That may be easier said than done, but for many of you I see very awsome caring people that should give themselves as much of a chance as they do other. (I hope this does not sound like Im judging, because that is not my intent).