Depression. It's a silent killer.

[bws1]

past couple of days have been a real struggle. Between the panic attacks and general anxiety over my own mortality, it's been a battle to get out of bed. That just sends me into a tail spin where I second guess every single one of my significant life choices. That said, I hope everybody else is having an amazing weekend!
Be safe everybody,
Peace

 

[Crankbait88]

Just relax, it will get better or walk it off. If I had a nickel for every time I heard one of those cliches I could make a really nice down payment on a car. I know people mean well, in their own special ways, but sometimes their attempts to help make me want to stick my head in a ceiling fan.

Or their head....lol.

 

[Wetkitty09]

past couple of days have been a real struggle. Between the panic attacks and general anxiety over my own mortality, it's been a battle to get out of bed. That just sends me into a tail spin where I second guess every single one of my significant life choices. That said, I hope everybody else is having an amazing weekend!
Be safe everybody,
Peace

We’re here if you need to talk.

 

[Wetkitty09]

Morning. It’s been an interesting weekend. Pleasure of good company and the disappointment of having to stay home instead of being involved. Quite the range of feels.

Have the best day you can.
Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[Nightaelf]

The antidepressants are helping. My mind feels calmer, but I’m not used to it. I miss the noise, the ideas. I know I really need this calm right now, for my life and my recovery, but writing has become difficult, and that’s frustrating.
My libido is also very low, which I’m not used to.
All in all, I think it’s good that things are going this way for now, but I still want some of my creativity back, because I miss creating stories.

 

[Nightaelf]

past couple of days have been a real struggle. Between the panic attacks and general anxiety over my own mortality, it's been a battle to get out of bed. That just sends me into a tail spin where I second guess every single one of my significant life choices. That said, I hope everybody else is having an amazing weekend!
Be safe everybody,
Peace

I can relate to what you’re feeling. The fear of dying, or even just the awareness of it, can be overwhelming. I’ve faced something similar with cancer, and I’ve learned that the fear itself was often worse than the reality.
The things I imagined kept me trapped far longer than the things that actually happened. Once you’re in it, somehow, life just goes on, quieter, slower, but still moving.

Be gentle with yourself. You’re already doing something strong just by being here, still trying to live through the fear instead of running from it.

 

[bws1]

I can relate to what you’re feeling. The fear of dying, or even just the awareness of it, can be overwhelming. I’ve faced something similar with cancer, and I’ve learned that the fear itself was often worse than the reality.
The things I imagined kept me trapped far longer than the things that actually happened. Once you’re in it, somehow, life just goes on, quieter, slower, but still moving.

Be gentle with yourself. You’re already doing something strong just by being here, still trying to live through the fear instead of running from it.

Thank you! It's very overwhelming. I sincerely hope that your cancer scare turned out to be nothing.

 

[Nightaelf]

Thank you! It's very overwhelming. I sincerely hope that your cancer scare turned out to be nothing.

I’m recovering from a mastectomy and chemotherapy. Unfortunately, it really was cancer. But it has also put a lot into perspective for me. All those fears and endless thoughts that used to keep me up at night are gone. Somehow, when the worst actually happens, the noise in your head finally quiets down.

I still struggle with depression, but I’m taking medication for it now. It helps bring some peace of mind, even if it also feels strange to be this calm.

 

[bws1]

You are most definitely in my thoughts! I can't even begin to imagine the hell you went through, but I am thankful that you are recovering. For what it's worth, wish I could give you a big brotherly hug.

 

[Nightaelf]

You are most definitely in my thoughts! I can't even begin to imagine the hell you went through, but I am thankful that you are recovering. For what it's worth, wish I could give you a big brotherly hug.

Thank you! Hug received!

 

[UsuallyPresent]

Howdy. I've seemingly missed this thread, but I've posted elsewhere about what I've gone through, and frankly am still going thru. Quick thumbnail: 10 years of atypical depression including hospitalization at one point, now trying a brand-new combo-antidepressant that's kicking my butt with side effects, and very little if any relief yet. Early days, just started on it about a week ago, but - it isn't fun. As I'm sure many of you are too well aware.

If I can be of help as a soundingboard or whatever, I'd be happy to.

 

[CuriousInAR78]

Hope all is well depression is kicking my ass today ended up sending my best friend a text apologizing to her if it is the last message she ever receives from me

 

[UsuallyPresent]

Hope all is well depression is kicking my ass today ended up sending my best friend a text apologizing to her if it is the last message she ever receives from me

Take a breath, dude.

 

[Bloodandglitter]

Having a rough moment and I hope it passes or it's going to seriously mess up my mood tonight.

 

[CuriousInAR78]

Take a breath, dude.

My dogs are what has me still breathing

 

[UsuallyPresent]

My dogs are what has me still breathing

Dogs are great, such pure love & joy

 

[CuriousInAR78]

Dogs are great, such pure love & joy

Yea my oldest has been with me through A LOT of BS and she has seen a bunch of females come and go from our life

 

[Wetkitty09]

My dogs are what has me still breathing

Morning. My dog has often been the only thing that will get me out of bed and through the day. When my old girl had to be put down she left a huge hole in my life and I was drifting. I rescued a mutt and he’s helped to get me out of my head.
Hold them close. They are a gift and should be celebrated.

 

[Wetkitty09]

Morning. Back at the structure and huddling around the camp heater contemplating my choices in life.

Have the best day you can.
Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[CuriousInAR78]

Morning. My dog has often been the only thing that will get me out of bed and through the day. When my old girl had to be put down she left a huge hole in my life and I was drifting. I rescued a mutt and he’s helped to get me out of my head.
Hold them close. They are a gift and should be celebrated.

That is how I feel about my older dog, when my other one died I told myself I would never get another dog but then my current dog came into my life and has changed my life

 

[Wetkitty09]

Morning. Traveling to Seattle today. Woohoo. But seeing friends is always a bonus.

Have the best day you can.
Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[razor33a]

I'm getting the ball rolling to try ketamine injections and therapy another go. Figure I should give it the old college try before checking out. At least that way I had exhausted resources. Who knows maybe it will do something?

 

[UsuallyPresent]

I’ve heard good things about ket, except make sure if it works there’s maintenance doses if needed at the end

 

[Wetkitty09]

Morning. In Seattle visiting friends.

I hope you have the best day you can.

Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[Wetkitty09]

Heard this and thought I’d share.