Depression. It's a silent killer.

I hate that my good mood can turn and burn over such trivial things. But we all know it’s not trivial, it’s only a part of the problem that isn’t being dealt with.

Be safe out there.
Love you
 
I have to move, again!! It’s my choice and it’s for my mental health. I’m just so tired of not having a place to call home.

Be safe out there.
Love you.
 
Well, I was able to communicate my needs to my son and secured a place to stay for the near future. Talking it out with some friends helped me get my head on straight and figure out what I need to do first. Never underestimate the power of venting.

Be safe out there.
Love you.
 
It's been a while. I never intended to return, but here I am.

I have to admit, I have been strongly considering taking my own life over the last 24 hours. My recent attempts to form new connections with people have fallen flat, they always fall flat. It's like there is a barrier between me and others. I feel, and always have felt, invisible, and I don't know what else I can do to break that. I have tried joining groups, churches, clubs, and online forums, but nothing has ever worked. I'm just a weirdo with ASD and ADHD that can't connect to people, pure and simple.

I can't take this pain anymore, this isolation, this feeling that I lack the basic human skills that allow others to form connections. As a male, I know no one is coming to my rescue, I'm supposed to just "man up". But I can't anymore, I've had enough.

I haven't entirely decided if/when I'll do it, I keep hoping for some miracle from a God I know doesn't exist to give me a sign I know isn't coming. My mind and soul are so weary, I'm so tired.
 
It's been a while. I never intended to return, but here I am.

I have to admit, I have been strongly considering taking my own life over the last 24 hours. My recent attempts to form new connections with people have fallen flat, they always fall flat. It's like there is a barrier between me and others. I feel, and always have felt, invisible, and I don't know what else I can do to break that. I have tried joining groups, churches, clubs, and online forums, but nothing has ever worked. I'm just a weirdo with ASD and ADHD that can't connect to people, pure and simple.

I can't take this pain anymore, this isolation, this feeling that I lack the basic human skills that allow others to form connections. As a male, I know no one is coming to my rescue, I'm supposed to just "man up". But I can't anymore, I've had enough.

I haven't entirely decided if/when I'll do it, I keep hoping for some miracle from a God I know doesn't exist to give me a sign I know isn't coming. My mind and soul are so weary, I'm so tired.
I am not sure how to respond to this, but I’ll just say this: do not.

Life is worth living, even when it seems like everything is closing in on you and your world seems in the shitter.

There will be better days ahead. I know that sounds trite and corny. But there will be those moments when you see a flower and marvel at how wonderful life is. Or you will experience the opposite of what you’re feeling today and feel better or even joyful.

I don’t know if you’ve ever tried the suicide hotline, but I have found that the people there are really good folks.

Or DM me. I’m not a professional, but willing to talk… (altho I I’m working, but I’ll check my DMs)

If nothing else, Marvel at the beauty of nature.




 
I am not sure how to respond to this, but I’ll just say this: do not.

Life is worth living, even when it seems like everything is closing in on you and your world seems in the shitter.

There will be better days ahead. I know that sounds trite and corny. But there will be those moments when you see a flower and marvel at how wonderful life is. Or you will experience the opposite of what you’re feeling today and feel better or even joyful.

I don’t know if you’ve ever tried the suicide hotline, but I have found that the people there are really good folks.

Or DM me. I’m not a professional, but willing to talk… (altho I I’m working, but I’ll check my DMs)

If nothing else, Marvel at the beauty of nature.




Thanks, but I don't know what anyone can say or do to help.

I'm texting someone now, but I really can't see a way for things to get better.
 
Depression first came to call on me when I was nine years old. I’ve fought this battle ever since. Lots of therapy, medication, and nature…that has helped me. I have learned to create tiny pockets of happiness each day…lying in the sun under my favorite tree, sitting on the beach, painting, talking to crows…and best of all, other people. Depression woos me into isolation, which is a recipe for disaster. The best thing has been making friends with other people who struggle with depression. I can be myself with them and not feel judged or misunderstood. I battle wanting to die…if anyone reading this feels lost and can’t find their way…message me. I will listen. And maybe sometime you can listen to me.
 
It's been a while. I never intended to return, but here I am.

I have to admit, I have been strongly considering taking my own life over the last 24 hours. My recent attempts to form new connections with people have fallen flat, they always fall flat. It's like there is a barrier between me and others. I feel, and always have felt, invisible, and I don't know what else I can do to break that. I have tried joining groups, churches, clubs, and online forums, but nothing has ever worked. I'm just a weirdo with ASD and ADHD that can't connect to people, pure and simple.

I can't take this pain anymore, this isolation, this feeling that I lack the basic human skills that allow others to form connections. As a male, I know no one is coming to my rescue, I'm supposed to just "man up". But I can't anymore, I've had enough.

I haven't entirely decided if/when I'll do it, I keep hoping for some miracle from a God I know doesn't exist to give me a sign I know isn't coming. My mind and soul are so weary, I'm so tired.
Hey, Bassytian. We haven’t chatted before, but I know that I, Ms. Kiddo, will have a better day if you post to this thread and let us know you’re okay.

You absolutely DO connect with people. Look at all the followers you have for your stories! @Wonderer67 cares enough to check his/her phone and post beautiful flower pics (in addition to great advice). @Wetkitty09 posts daily positive affirmations and keeps this thread near the top—where it needs to be—and thus cares for all. Many of us struggle with ADHD. 🙋🏼‍♀️ @stickygirl started a thread about being autistic. Lit is a terrific, supportive community. The few gnarly, malicious apples certainly don’t spoil the bunch.

Returning to what the original thread starter stated…
“I think it would do a good service to discuss what has worked for you to overcome your depression or what has helped someone you know”…

A therapist recently gave me a handout from therapistaid.com on grounding techniques that I’ve found helpful.
And I recently had an epiphany 😂 that improvements will only start happening if I implement a baby step daily so that it eventually morphs into a common practice. (I can see a checklist will be needed. 🤔)

Please reach out!

Sincerely,
Ms. K
 
It's been a while. I never intended to return, but here I am.

I have to admit, I have been strongly considering taking my own life over the last 24 hours. My recent attempts to form new connections with people have fallen flat, they always fall flat. It's like there is a barrier between me and others. I feel, and always have felt, invisible, and I don't know what else I can do to break that. I have tried joining groups, churches, clubs, and online forums, but nothing has ever worked. I'm just a weirdo with ASD and ADHD that can't connect to people, pure and simple.

I can't take this pain anymore, this isolation, this feeling that I lack the basic human skills that allow others to form connections. As a male, I know no one is coming to my rescue, I'm supposed to just "man up". But I can't anymore, I've had enough.

I haven't entirely decided if/when I'll do it, I keep hoping for some miracle from a God I know doesn't exist to give me a sign I know isn't coming. My mind and soul are so weary, I'm so tired.
Hey Bass. I look forward to seeing your posts whenever you feel like posting them. I’m here if you want to chat. You’re not alone. I know what it feels like to be invisible. I am too.
I’ll PM you.

Be safe out there.
Love you.
 
Hey, Bassytian. We haven’t chatted before, but I know that I, Ms. Kiddo, will have a better day if you post to this thread and let us know you’re okay.

You absolutely DO connect with people. Look at all the followers you have for your stories! @Wonderer67 cares enough to check his/her phone and post beautiful flower pics (in addition to great advice). @Wetkitty09 posts daily positive affirmations and keeps this thread near the top—where it needs to be—and thus cares for all. Many of us struggle with ADHD. 🙋🏼‍♀️ @stickygirl started a thread about being autistic. Lit is a terrific, supportive community. The few gnarly, malicious apples certainly don’t spoil the bunch.

Returning to what the original thread starter stated…
“I think it would do a good service to discuss what has worked for you to overcome your depression or what has helped someone you know”…

A therapist recently gave me a handout from therapistaid.com on grounding techniques that I’ve found helpful.
And I recently had an epiphany 😂 that improvements will only start happening if I implement a baby step daily so that it eventually morphs into a common practice. (I can see a checklist will be needed. 🤔)

Please reach out!

Sincerely,
Ms. K
I'll take a look at that website, thanks!

I'm a little better today, I've been talking to @Wonderer67 and it's taken the edge off, he's terrific to talk to!

While I am still in quite a bit of pain, the fact that people have reached out helps, so thanks to everyone who has!
 
Here some nice flowers pics.

My wife and I busted our ass yesterday, so we’re taking it easy today. Just chilling.

Just taking it easy today

Found these out by our fence line.

A few apricot colored Lilly’s. Wife or I don’t know how they got here… or the Shasta Daisy. But they’re here.

My beautiful smelling Japanese Lilly’s are not tho. 🫤



Sweet william

Shasta Daisy.
They are all lovely. But the apricot lilies are stunning! Isn’t it amazing when something just appears out of nowhere? I had some purple pansies spring up in early May in my mulch/weed bed. The stargazer lily I planted last year has not produced flowers, but there’s hope for next year. 😉
 
They are all lovely. But the apricot lilies are stunning! Isn’t it amazing when something just appears out of nowhere? I had some purple pansies spring up in early May in my mulch/weed bed. The stargazer lily I planted last year has not produced flowers, but there’s hope for next year. 😉
The stargazers we had are gone. Spent or the bulbs moved by squirrels.
 
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