Depression. It's a silent killer.

Not sure what actually works, it just goes into remission for a while. I usually dance on the edge of the cliff 4x/year. Done therapy, tms, pills; may try doc supervised ketamine later this year.
 
It’s been a struggle. Really I should count my blessings but it’s embarrassing how hard it is to focus on what’s here instead of what’s lacking
Keep the faith and keep looking for the little things. I used to hate the winter and found the landscape bleak and dead looking.

My wife has encouraged me to look at the beauty of winter. Now I look at it differently - and it’s helped me. I have multiple types of depression, but SAD is one of them.

 
Morning. It’s the 10th day of the new year already. The days fly by yet each one feels so long.
Today my coffee is just right. That’s enough for now.
I wish you enough.
Be safe out there.
Love you.
 
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I miss my guinea pig Punkin'. She knew when I was depressed, and she would sit in the corner of her cage, and squeak as loud as she could until I would pick her up. Then she would climb up and cuddle in the crook and my neck, and purr and lick me until she sensed my mood improved.
To be clear I loved the memory of your guinea pig. That’s why I put a love emoji on it.

But sad you miss her. 😕
 
Morning. It’s the 10th day of the new year already. The days fly by yet each one feels so long.
Today my coffee is just right. That’s enough for now.
I wish you enough.
Be safe out there.
Love you.
Enjoy that sip. Enjoy every moment you can!

I am working from home but a bit distracted today.
 
Hope everyone is having the best day they can.

I'm doing alright, watching another round of snow cover my yard and the road I live on. Tomorrow, do I want to risk my life and go into a workplace that views me as an expendable asset, or do I want to stay home and work on something I actually care about. Decisions decisions...

I don't have anything meaningful to add, I simply don't want to go too long without responding on this thread. Stay safe out there wherever you are, keep up the good fight against depression/anxiety/everything else, and remember..

"Pain into Strength"!
 
Depression is almost an epidemic these days. My daughter has it. Several doctors on Youtube think it's cause by the American diet. I am not so sure, but I like the idea of gaining back your health through some kind of modern diet or intermittent fasting instead of drugs seems like a worth while pursuit.
 
Depression is almost an epidemic these days. My daughter has it. Several doctors on Youtube think it's cause by the American diet. I am not so sure, but I like the idea of gaining back your health through some kind of modern diet or intermittent fasting instead of drugs seems like a worth while pursuit.
There have been studies recently showing that the connection between a healthy gut and the processes in the brain are linked. I haven’t looked into it and don’t have any cites to give. It does make sense to me that having a healthy body makes a difference. It seems, at least in my case, that the first thing to go when depression gets bad is self care. It becomes more difficult to find the energy to prepare healthy food. And, because so often we’re looking for comfort, it’s just easier to stuff into our bodies whatever gives us relief no matter how bad it may be for our bodies.
Stay safe out there.
Love you.
 
For some reason I talked myself into a dark day on Friday. It started out great but went downhill quickly. Fortunately an online friend who experiences the same thing helped me through it. Now taking precautions to hopefully avoid a recurrence.
 
There have been studies recently showing that the connection between a healthy gut and the processes in the brain are linked. I haven’t looked into it and don’t have any cites to give. It does make sense to me that having a healthy body makes a difference. It seems, at least in my case, that the first thing to go when depression gets bad is self care. It becomes more difficult to find the energy to prepare healthy food. And, because so often we’re looking for comfort, it’s just easier to stuff into our bodies whatever gives us relief no matter how bad it may be for our bodies.
Stay safe out there.
Love you.
I tend to agree. Being a Vet who does experience “things”, I have found that Exercise, and diet are imperative in combating depression.
Even the act of taking a short walk or “getting fresh air “ can assist.
( just my 2 cents )
 
I'm not ashamed to say I'm very anxious and depressed tonight.
Sometimes just admitting that is enough.
Admitting to being anxious and depressed is a very strong tool in my arsenal. Being able to name the feelings I’m having somehow takes away the power those feelings have on me and gives me relief. Let’s me breathe again. When I know what I’m feeling I can make decisions to follow the relief.
Be safe out there.
Love you.
 
I would like to chat about a big problem that not too many people discuss. Sorry to be a downer. But there are too many people out there who are dying because they are depressed. I suffer from depression (not sure why) but I wouldn't think of killing myself. I've always been told that is a perminant solution to a temporary problem. I think it would do a good service to discuss what has worked for you to overcome your depression or what has helped someone you know.
My mother was, and my wife is, bi-polar. Both only alleviated their depression thorough what is generally considered inappropriate behaviour. Medication never worked and it causes so many problems both for the sufferer and those around them. Which is worse though? Suffer the depression and even suicide or find a 'cure'? I have no answers.
 
I don’t believe there is a cure for depression. Only a relief if symptoms. You learn to live with it. If you’re self aware you learn how to use tools to avoid it, or at least lessen it, through healthy means. Sadly self awareness isn’t the norm in most societies so sufferers tend to turn to self medication for relief.
I’ve done it myself, then I realized it only gets worse the longer I masked it or turned away from the awareness of myself.

Be safe out there.
Love you.
 
Lately I've been taking high doses of the amino acid, L-theanine for anxiety/depression. And tomorrow I'm getting ashwangda to try.
I also do medicate with marijuana extract for all kinds of reasons.
I used to use alcohol to numb myself, but it messed up my liver.
 
Today I have learned that setting boundaries with yourself is easy, but enforcing them is hard. Not going to go into what started it on this thread, but a lot of that self-defeating talk resurfaced this morning. Thankfully, I was able to shut it down, but it wasn’t easy.
 
I have had several online affairs with women that suffered from this. Sometimes, I was able to help (non sexually) and other times, the depression is so despairing that they cut me off. That is the worst - not knowing if she is well.
The worst is that you suffer from it and can't see it. They cut you off because it was the best they could do for themselves. You need help.
 
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