Dear X:

[the captians wench]

Dear Universe,

Thanks for the small boost yesterday. Finding a great sale where I can quadruple my investment, and winning a small prize put a smile on my face. Little did I know you were setting me up for another night of tears, heart ache and no way to resolve the issue at hand.

Please find it in your heart to pick on some one else for a while. I'm cracking, and there's no one here to patch me back together again.

Trying to find Hope,
Wenchie

 

[Sir_Winston54]

Dear Universe,

Thanks for the small boost yesterday. Finding a great sale where I can quadruple my investment, and winning a small prize put a smile on my face. Little did I know you were setting me up for another night of tears, heart ache and no way to resolve the issue at hand.

Please find it in your heart to pick on some one else for a while. I'm cracking, and there's no one here to patch me back together again.

Trying to find Hope,
Wenchie

Beaming s and hugs and good vibes your way, wenchie!


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[DeepGreenEyes]

Dear Universe,

Thanks for the small boost yesterday. Finding a great sale where I can quadruple my investment, and winning a small prize put a smile on my face. Little did I know you were setting me up for another night of tears, heart ache and no way to resolve the issue at hand.

Please find it in your heart to pick on some one else for a while. I'm cracking, and there's no one here to patch me back together again.

Trying to find Hope,
Wenchie

I am sorry you are having such a tough time. Take care.

 

[Babyslave]

Dear Universe,

Thanks for the small boost yesterday. Finding a great sale where I can quadruple my investment, and winning a small prize put a smile on my face. Little did I know you were setting me up for another night of tears, heart ache and no way to resolve the issue at hand.

Please find it in your heart to pick on some one else for a while. I'm cracking, and there's no one here to patch me back together again.

Trying to find Hope,
Wenchie

Wenchie, I know I'm not there, if I was I'd give you the biggest hug, and shoulder to lean on. But you're not alone. You have to know that. Just take a look around, okay? There's so much love and caring here for you. I'm going to speak for others, because I know it's true. We love you, we really do!

yeah, well that's not supposed to rhyme, but the words are true so I'm gonna leave 'em just like they are.

 

[TarevaChine]

Dear Universe,

Thanks for the small boost yesterday. Finding a great sale where I can quadruple my investment, and winning a small prize put a smile on my face. Little did I know you were setting me up for another night of tears, heart ache and no way to resolve the issue at hand.

Please find it in your heart to pick on some one else for a while. I'm cracking, and there's no one here to patch me back together again.

Trying to find Hope,
Wenchie

Good thoughts are being sent your way. I hope your tears will be turning to smiles shortly.

 

[Curious_in_Cali]

Dear Universe,

Thanks for the small boost yesterday. Finding a great sale where I can quadruple my investment, and winning a small prize put a smile on my face. Little did I know you were setting me up for another night of tears, heart ache and no way to resolve the issue at hand.

Please find it in your heart to pick on some one else for a while. I'm cracking, and there's no one here to patch me back together again.

Trying to find Hope,
Wenchie

Just keep breathing and the answers will eventually come. All of this hard stuff WILL pass into yesterday before you know it. In the meantime, take good care of you and hang in there! HUG!

 

[the captians wench]

Thanks everyone.

I'm not fully myself yet, but I'm mending. I was able to talk to one of the sources of the issue and be petted and held for a while, that helped.

I'll get there. This one is just a lot less about reason and a lot more about emotion than I'm used to. Usually I'm able to separate the two, come to a logical concultion based on facts and debate, and then I go back and decide how I feel about what happened. I'm not used to the debate being so much about emotion and so little about reason.

Ah the joys of discovery!

 

[Essene]

Dear Significant other

Dearest,

I love you for all that you are, and appreciate all that you do for me. I also appreciate how comfortable we have become with one another...

The febreeze though, is what I'd call "Too little too late".

-Me

 

[Lizzie_Borden]

Dear G,
I'm writing this to attain hopefully some kind of release of the tension and pain inside me.

Two and a half weeks ago I did something I never thought I would ever do. I broke up with you.

I could not watch you suffer anymore, torn between two lives - the one you had with me and the one you had with your family. You loved me and you loved your wife but you knew your wife would never accept me after past events between her and I.

You didn't want to leave me, you didn't want to leave her. You had to talk to me privately all the time out of fear of her knowing you were talking to me. The whole situation was eating at you, tearing you in two and you saw no solution and were on the verge of a breakdown mentally.

I love you to much and care about your wellbeing to much to watch you end up in the Hospital with a mental breakdown. As your Pet, looking at your life from half the country away I knew there was only one solution that would keep you sane and keep you from losing yourself.

Now both of us aren't whole anymore. Yet it was the only option. I still love you, and always will. In my dreams I still kneel at your feet every night and call you Master. You always will be Master to me.

I pray in time you can forgive me for what I did to you for I know I caused you pain, but I saw no other solution.

I love you Master. Always.

Pet

Holy crap, that's brave.

 

[GrimsPet]

Holy crap, that's brave.

Thank you.
I'm not so sure if it was brave though.

I did it out of Love. I did it out of my own deep respect for him. I'd walk through hell alone and naked to rescue him if I had to.

I cannot however watch someone suffer when I know deep inside I can do something about it. Every fiber of my being was screaming in pain as I told him I was setting him free. When you know deep inside the person you are breaking it off with is the one person on this Earth who is your soulmate, it makes it that much more tough. Every night I think of him and every day I think of him. He's always there in my thoughts. I want nothing more than to reach out to him and touch him and just hold him and tell him everything will be alright.

We still contact each other via email or PM. We've remained friends. He understands the scope of what I did and why I did it - or at least so I think. I really want to think he's better off for it. At least he sounds like he's not being torn in two now at least. If it kept him from having a nervous breakdown then it was worth it.

Why does loving someone so much have to hurt?

 

[Lizzie_Borden]

Thank you.
I'm not so sure if it was brave though.

I did it out of Love. I did it out of my own deep respect for him. I'd walk through hell alone and naked to rescue him if I had to.

I cannot however watch someone suffer when I know deep inside I can do something about it. Every fiber of my being was screaming in pain as I told him I was setting him free. When you know deep inside the person you are breaking it off with is the one person on this Earth who is your soulmate, it makes it that much more tough. Every night I think of him and every day I think of him. He's always there in my thoughts. I want nothing more than to reach out to him and touch him and just hold him and tell him everything will be alright.

We still contact each other via email or PM. We've remained friends. He understands the scope of what I did and why I did it - or at least so I think. I really want to think he's better off for it. At least he sounds like he's not being torn in two now at least. If it kept him from having a nervous breakdown then it was worth it.

Why does loving someone so much have to hurt?

I just know that I've tried to contemplate a similiar situation before, but I just can't. I couldn't bear to think about what it would mean for me, I'm just that darn selfish, and weak.

 

[confusedtears]

Dear D,

You stole my childhood. You ruined my life. You never got punished.

Now it's time to take back MY life. And you can't touch me now. Ha. Ha. Ha.

 

[Lizzie_Borden]

Dear X

Having never loved anyone quite the way I love you, even after all this time, I find the strength and depth of my emotions unsettling sometimes. It's all still scary and new and big and overwhelming, but when I'm with you, that fades to background noise, and I feel wrapped up in tenderness and love and calm.

These feelings all make me impatient for the future, but I know we both have some growing and changing to do before we get there. It'll make it all worth it. It'll be awesome, even.

ILU.

XX

 

[laceNlthrgrrl]

Dearest darling person who (theoretically, anyway) owns me:

If you could possibly tear yourself away from your little virtual world for a while (at least a few hours) you might find a very willing slave at your beckoning. She's absolutely available on Tuesdays (just ask!) and possibly weekend mornings, at the very least.

Hint: Tear yourself away from all the theoretical online fluff first. She may not be ideal, but she's definitely REAL!!!

 

[Kurokami]

Kuro, I don't know how things work in Oz, but since you've been in your new home for less than a month, over here (US) you'd have a number of remedies available to you to resolve this issue, including your homeowner's insurance. You should be able to get some sort of drainage system/device built/installed, for one thing.

If this is a brand-new home, never lived in before, there are probably even *more* remedies available to you. Check with your realtor or with the Better Business Bureau (or Ozian equivalent). ASAP.

Can't believe I missed this one for so long! Yeah, that's exactly what I ended up doing; we've got a couple new drains installed relatively cheaply, so the issue's been resolved. Actually, all we had to do was knock out a little part of the retaining wall in the courtyard so that water could flow out of the place, and it's perfectly fine, now. Thanks for the advice, though

Okay, now this one's going to get a little ranty, but:

Dear paternal grandparents,

How long has it been since we last spoke? About two and a half years, isn't it? That was kind of a frosty conversation too, because before that you effectively disowned me from your side of the family, all for sending my shitbag of a father to prison for a couple years. That happened. I was there. It pretty much crushed me.

So, where do you get off summoning me to talk to you guys in person after all that time? You've never really done anything without an ulterior motive before now, but like an idiot I tried to think of you as good human beings and I went anyway. That was a mistake, huh?

Don't get me wrong, I really appreciate a lot of things about that meeting. Like how you let me leave without some scathing remark this time. Like how, just this once, you didn't try to pass off my father's incredible, scarring abuse as somehow my fault. I really appreciate how you two are now acting as go betweens for my deadbeat father so he can communicate with me without violating his fucking apprehended violence order. Awesome.

And who knows, maybe dear old dad really does want to be a family again. Let's assume that this universe is big enough to allow for the possibility that letting him back into my life won't backfire horribly down the line. That. Man. Tried. To. Kill. Me. And my brother. We're not willing to allow him back, at all. I know I'm having kids soon, and maybe dad really does just want to meet his daughter-in-law and his grandkids. But if he tries that, I will kill him.

So yeah, I laughed in your faces and left. Don't act so fucking surprised! I still have the nightmares, I still have the hatred, and I'm still fucking pissed at that asshole for taking my childhood from me. Far as I'm concerned, he can rot in hell, and you can too. Fuck it, fuck you, I'm done. I'm taking my goddamn life back, and I'm going to live it to the fullest. From where I'm standing, it's looking pretty great without you, and your entire goddamn family, in it. I don't need to be a Readman to be happy.

Sincerely,
Your grandson, a proud member of the Canton family, now.
(Bitches)

Wow, that felt good!

 

[Kajira Callista]

Dear Daddies,
Please find time for me before my sammy shows her face... I need to hurt.

Love,
Your (trying hard to be a) good girl

 

[Sir_Winston54]

.... you two are now acting as go betweens for my deadbeat father so he can communicate with me without violating his fucking apprehended violence order. Awesome.....

Sincerely,
Your grandson, a proud member of the Canton family, now.
(Bitches)

Wow, that felt good!

First of all, congratulations on your firm and adult response to all of this. You have come through this with an amazing resiliency and strength, and I applaud you wholeheartedly.

Second, in my work, I deal with a *lot* of what are called restraining orders, injunctions against repeat domestic violence, or simply domestic violence injunctions (DVIs). They *almost always* include orders that the violent person not contact, directly OR indirectly, the victim of their violence. This includes via phone, mail, text, e-mail, etc., and third parties. Doing so constitutes a violation of the DVI, and can be a criminal matter resulting in the violent person going (back) to jail.

PLEASE check with your local prosecutor's office and determine if his "apprehended violence order" includes the same type of third-party contact restriction. If so, file the necessary paperwork to get it through to your sperm donor and his parents that you do not want any contact at all, ever, in any form from him.

 

[Chiara_searches]

First of all, congratulations on your firm and adult response to all of this. You have come through this with an amazing resiliency and strength, and I applaud you wholeheartedly.

Second, in my work, I deal with a *lot* of what are called restraining orders, injunctions against repeat domestic violence, or simply domestic violence injunctions (DVIs). They *almost always* include orders that the violent person not contact, directly OR indirectly, the victim of their violence. This includes via phone, mail, text, e-mail, etc., and third parties. Doing so constitutes a violation of the DVI, and can be a criminal matter resulting in the violent person going (back) to jail.

PLEASE check with your local prosecutor's office and determine if his "apprehended violence order" includes the same type of third-party contact restriction. If so, file the necessary paperwork to get it through to your sperm donor and his parents that you do not want contact at all, ever, in any form from him.

I second everything SW says here.

Kurokami I also want to say that I plain and simple admire you. I did not have to deal with the extent of violence you've dealt with; my situation was minor in comparison. Yet, it's taken me many, many more years to get to the same level of emotional maturity. Please feel proud of yourself for pulling through the horrific events and realizing that it is absolutely right to protect yourself going forward. You are already showing yourself to be an amazing father, so much better than your sperm donor. Your girls are really lucky.

 

[GrimsPet]

Dearest darling person who (theoretically, anyway) owns me:

If you could possibly tear yourself away from your little virtual world for a while (at least a few hours) you might find a very willing slave at your beckoning. She's absolutely available on Tuesdays (just ask!) and possibly weekend mornings, at the very least.

Hint: Tear yourself away from all the theoretical online fluff first. She may not be ideal, but she's definitely REAL!!!

Not sure why I didn't see this before.
I was in such a situation once many years ago now.
It's called an addiction. They're addicted to what is online even though it's not real. When I could stand next to the person in lingerie and lean in and give them a kiss on the earlobe and got almost no reaction - I knew it was time to move on to greener pastures and hope I found someone much more deserving.

You deserve better than this treatment by this person.

 

[Mz_Cunningham]

Dear fake

How do people not see that you are not who you say you are?!!

Signed feeling like the only sane person

 

[Curious_in_Cali]

Dear X,

Enough is enough.

~Me

 

[Babyslave]

Dear X,

Sorry about the endless diatribes You've been so understanding of everything I've tossed your way. I'm sorry too that it suprised me to realize that. I can't bear you to see me as weak. I want you to see the strength inside me. I've been independent and proud and stubborn for so long.... I hope you know just how challenging it is to let my guard down. To ask for anything, even something as simple as a phone call.

me

 

[Chiara_searches]

Dear K:

I've told you, but now I'll tell the world via this note, that you helping me weather the worry about my mother's breast cancer has meant the world to me. Just independently acknowledging, too, the toll the job search is taking on me was amazing. We've only known each other for a short time, but you are here for me more than even the ex was in the good ol' days. Thank you for being a wonderful man and part of my life at this moment in time. You will always be cherished.

Love,
Me

 

[Pandorica]

Dear X

I can't believe just how insensitive I was to you. I still can't get over how short-sighted I was in what I said, how blinkered and unheeding. I don't think I've ever managed to upset someone so deeply and you are someone who has already suffered and had to be far braver than life has any right to demand. I gave no thought to the impact that what I said would have on you. I don't know how I managed to fail to join the dots in my head. I'm experiencing a whole new level of shame and remorse and if you can take comfort from anything it's that I do believe I've learned a very hard lesson in thinking before I open my mouth (or posting input box). I wish you every happiness and success in the future and hope you find all the love and more that you need in your life. I also fervently hope that your battle is over and won.

There are no words adequate to express my regret and remorse.

 

[Yasashii_Kaze]

Dear R,

I don't really have the words to say what you mean to me. Every day you manage to teach me something new about what it means to be with that person who really is the other half of you never realized you were. You shine when it matters most. Anyone can bring me flowers and chocolates. It takes a real romantic to stand by me through thick and thin and never give up on us. You are the most romantic person I know.

Love,
Me