HottieMama
Notta Domme
- Joined
- Mar 16, 2007
- Posts
- 6,066
Dear X,
While we have supposedly been figuring things out over the last few weeks, I have had a lot of time to think, both about myself and about the concept of "us." I gained insight into myself that perhaps I had not had before, and overall my self-awareness has become much stronger. Because of that, as well as what has occurred in this "figuring out" period, I do not think we should be together any longer. I am sorry I tried to get back together with you. I will never be the type of submissive/lover/partner that you want. You will never be the type of Dominant/lover/partner that I need. I don't thrive with constant uncertainty and criticism. I do not function well without consistency both in actions and moods. I do not see the point in giving 100% of my effort when I am only receiving minimal effort in return. It is not how I work, and certainly not the way for you to see the best "Nicole" I can possibly be. You have known me long enough and well enough to know all of this, so I am wondering why you even attempted this in the first place?! Did you want me to fail so you could blame us being apart on my failure to make you happy? Did you want me to get so upset and frustrated that I gave up trying and realized that I am better off without you? Well I certainly am frustrated, and this is me giving up. I am tired of hearing what I am doing wrong. I am tired of hearing that I shouldn't be doing XYZ anymore or that I NEED to do ABC. What on Earth is wrong with me telling you that I love you? Are you that much of a fucking cunt, that you just can't accept those words for the truth that they are? Or is it just another attempt at that wonderful emotional sadism you seem so fucking fond of? Doesn't really matter either way now, because my anger and bitterness toward you has overshadowed any love I have felt for you.
Please do not come here for a visit like you had planned. If you do, do not expect to see me. I simply cannot and will not be around you right now. I will not let you erode any self-esteem and self-worth that I have left. You don't fucking deserve it. No one does. I have come too far in my life to let your ideas about what a good submissive/person is ruin the good submissive/person that I KNOW I am. Go back to your Barbie dolls and your uneducated hos. That seems to be what you truly fucking need. While we are at it, you are quite fond of telling others that I have taught you a lot of what you know about the lifestyle. Please stop. I didn't teach you to be a cold, manipulative, overly critical, uncaring, inconsistent bitch to the one woman that for a brief moment thought you hung the moon. You have forgotten most of the things that I have taught you, or have perverted them in such a way that they are no longer recognizable. I take no responsibility for the "Dominant" you have become. I just know that I do not want to be associated with her in any way.
Sincerely,
Nicole.
While we have supposedly been figuring things out over the last few weeks, I have had a lot of time to think, both about myself and about the concept of "us." I gained insight into myself that perhaps I had not had before, and overall my self-awareness has become much stronger. Because of that, as well as what has occurred in this "figuring out" period, I do not think we should be together any longer. I am sorry I tried to get back together with you. I will never be the type of submissive/lover/partner that you want. You will never be the type of Dominant/lover/partner that I need. I don't thrive with constant uncertainty and criticism. I do not function well without consistency both in actions and moods. I do not see the point in giving 100% of my effort when I am only receiving minimal effort in return. It is not how I work, and certainly not the way for you to see the best "Nicole" I can possibly be. You have known me long enough and well enough to know all of this, so I am wondering why you even attempted this in the first place?! Did you want me to fail so you could blame us being apart on my failure to make you happy? Did you want me to get so upset and frustrated that I gave up trying and realized that I am better off without you? Well I certainly am frustrated, and this is me giving up. I am tired of hearing what I am doing wrong. I am tired of hearing that I shouldn't be doing XYZ anymore or that I NEED to do ABC. What on Earth is wrong with me telling you that I love you? Are you that much of a fucking cunt, that you just can't accept those words for the truth that they are? Or is it just another attempt at that wonderful emotional sadism you seem so fucking fond of? Doesn't really matter either way now, because my anger and bitterness toward you has overshadowed any love I have felt for you.
Please do not come here for a visit like you had planned. If you do, do not expect to see me. I simply cannot and will not be around you right now. I will not let you erode any self-esteem and self-worth that I have left. You don't fucking deserve it. No one does. I have come too far in my life to let your ideas about what a good submissive/person is ruin the good submissive/person that I KNOW I am. Go back to your Barbie dolls and your uneducated hos. That seems to be what you truly fucking need. While we are at it, you are quite fond of telling others that I have taught you a lot of what you know about the lifestyle. Please stop. I didn't teach you to be a cold, manipulative, overly critical, uncaring, inconsistent bitch to the one woman that for a brief moment thought you hung the moon. You have forgotten most of the things that I have taught you, or have perverted them in such a way that they are no longer recognizable. I take no responsibility for the "Dominant" you have become. I just know that I do not want to be associated with her in any way.
Sincerely,
Nicole.
