DeepGreenEyes
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Dear x,
That was fun. you are so absolutely, creatively, magnificently dirty.
That was fun. you are so absolutely, creatively, magnificently dirty.
Dear X:
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BiBunny
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Give 'em hell!
chy_girl
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I don't want to, but I will.
minx1
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*laugh* well in all honesty YC it's not about me being nice; this is just for me.
I reckon I need to let go of all the negative feelings in order tomove forward myself. I did a lot of thinking this weekend. I saw him you see, by accident and it totally threw me. The result were two horrible, upsetting days. I went over and over the usual stuff that fills my head not least how unfair it all is that things seem ok for him yet so different for me.
Then I realised two things; revenge is not an outcome I have wanted from the beginning, but fairness is. Secondly that I have been doing this all wrong. I need to take more of an approach I would take for work and be more strategic about identifying the outcome I want and the steps to achieve that. I have been so caught up in the emotion that I havent been able to see the wood for the trees.
So thats what I did on Monday. I sat down and worked it out like I would a work project and I feel so much more in control for doing that. I know what I want from this and whats more, I intend to achieve it. I can be quite determined when I put my mind to something
Cant say I've been doing any more hobbies lol but I have started writing a book. I've completed three chapters so far and also have been given a temporary promotion at work which will be challenging but also is a huge opportunity.
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*laugh* well in all honesty YC it's not about me being nice; this is just for me.
I reckon I need to let go of all the negative feelings in order tomove forward myself. I did a lot of thinking this weekend. I saw him you see, by accident and it totally threw me. The result were two horrible, upsetting days. I went over and over the usual stuff that fills my head not least how unfair it all is that things seem ok for him yet so different for me.
Then I realised two things; revenge is not an outcome I have wanted from the beginning, but fairness is. Secondly that I have been doing this all wrong. I need to take more of an approach I would take for work and be more strategic about identifying the outcome I want and the steps to achieve that. I have been so caught up in the emotion that I havent been able to see the wood for the trees.
So thats what I did on Monday. I sat down and worked it out like I would a work project and I feel so much more in control for doing that. I know what I want from this and whats more, I intend to achieve it. I can be quite determined when I put my mind to something
Cant say I've been doing any more hobbies lol but I have started writing a book. I've completed three chapters so far and also have been given a temporary promotion at work which will be challenging but also is a huge opportunity.
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*laugh* well in all honesty YC it's not about me being nice; this is just for me.
I reckon I need to let go of all the negative feelings in order tomove forward myself. I did a lot of thinking this weekend. I saw him you see, by accident and it totally threw me. The result were two horrible, upsetting days. I went over and over the usual stuff that fills my head not least how unfair it all is that things seem ok for him yet so different for me.
Then I realised two things; revenge is not an outcome I have wanted from the beginning, but fairness is. Secondly that I have been doing this all wrong. I need to take more of an approach I would take for work and be more strategic about identifying the outcome I want and the steps to achieve that. I have been so caught up in the emotion that I havent been able to see the wood for the trees.
So thats what I did on Monday. I sat down and worked it out like I would a work project and I feel so much more in control for doing that. I know what I want from this and whats more, I intend to achieve it. I can be quite determined when I put my mind to something
Cant say I've been doing any more hobbies lol but I have started writing a book. I've completed three chapters so far and also have been given a temporary promotion at work which will be challenging but also is a huge opportunity.
Sounds like things are working better for you. And you know, biologically you can't really forget, you learn something else. So you can't get rid of your love, you can only learn not to express it. It's still their though, and sometimes it may pop back up out of the blue, but not to worry, once you've learned something it's much easier to learn it back, so you'll be able to keep it all in check much easier.
And you'll meet someone else, so keep up appearances.
BiBunny
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Dear X
The only person who can know is you, and it is your choice to look or not.
I care.
Because you matter.
Just sayin'...
me
*Hugs*
DeepGreenEyes
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Hey Chy! Buck up, kid!
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chy_girl
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*Hugs*
Hey Chy! Buck up, kid!
Thanks. Having people I care about hurt tends to grate on the nerves a bit. And given that whole discretion/valor thing it was better to voice The Things That Had To Be Said here than at the person I really wanted to tell them to.
Chalk one up for a Dory Day, huh?
redroserecords
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Dear X,
It will not work, I can already see the two of you falling apart within the next 2 years. Your enthusiasm and naiveness saddens me and makes smiling at you harder without letting my doubts show but I must also admit, I envy your happiness of the moment even though I do not think that it will last. But for now, you two are happy and I wish I could be a better person and be just as happy for the two of you.
It will not work, I can already see the two of you falling apart within the next 2 years. Your enthusiasm and naiveness saddens me and makes smiling at you harder without letting my doubts show but I must also admit, I envy your happiness of the moment even though I do not think that it will last. But for now, you two are happy and I wish I could be a better person and be just as happy for the two of you.
To my ex
R,
I am trying to find the words in my heart and head to ask how you could even think to still ask me for sex if you really believed everything you wrote in this letter. (letter is below). I have wounds that may NEVER, EVER heal because of you. I never have and will never be able to experience the love of a child because of your selfishness. There will be no one to take care for me when I get old because of you. I am alone now because of your selfishness. Are you still that selfish to think I'd share my body with you after all you did to me?
Every month when I have my period I am tormented by the reminder that GOD made a woman's body to bear children and you thought yourself more important that GOD to deny me that right as a woman and as your wife. Every day taking care of my mom drives home the fact that there will be NO ONE to do this for me if/when that time ever comes.
I know now that I am going to have to seek professional help to figure out a way to get past the grief of being childless because living here and taking care of my mom is such a constant reminder of what I was never allowed to have. The idea of children was forced on you, twice in your life and admit it....it was as much your fault as C's and D's because condoms have been around for decades, but you should have never asked someone to marry you without first making it perfectly clear that children were not an option.
If you really believe what you wrote below....you will find it in your heart not to ever contact me wanting sex again. I don't deserve that from you, I think I've earned the right to be spared that heartache in the future. I couldn't say "no" to the divorce, but I can say "no" when asked to share my body with someone who never loved me like a husband should.
Granted....I will always readily admit that I cheated on you also and I should have been above that but knowing what was going on in your life with another woman and knowing that you had done this in the past, I just needed to know at that point in my life that I was still an attractive, desirable
woman, even if I couldn't be that to you.
D
“THE LETTER”
The reasons that , from my point of view , our marriage failed.
1). I went into the marriage looking for a way out. I was not as committed as I should have been. I held divorce over your head like an anvil. WE NEVER BECAME ONE WE WERE 2 PEOPLE SHARING THE SAME HOUSE.We never shared a life together. What things we did do together I found myself jealous and always accusing you of fooling around. I guess I never really trusted you. I AM SORRY.
2). I did not make my feelings clear on children. I did not allow you to become a mother to my two kids or a grandmother to K. I now realize how important your own need for a child was.
3). I MADE A TERRIBLE MISTAKE HAVING A CONFIDANT THAT WAS FEMALE. My involvement with her was entirely out of line and it took things from you that was yours and should have remained yours. I am able to see now that this situation was the root of our problems. I cannot apologize enough for this mistake.
4). I was not able to forgive or forget. I will not re-hash this , we both know what I am talking about.
5). At times I felt unnecessary.
6). I insisted on keeping our incomes separate , which was one of the wedges I placed between us. The stress that this placed on both of us was an unnecessary burden. But , I was trying to protect myself , instead of taking care of your financial problems.
7). I was not there for you at the most critical times in your life. I never held you close and told you that it was going to be ok. I came first and you and your needs were somewhere down the line of my priorities.
8). I was an old leach , I know at times I embarrassed you with my actions. Thinking back on it I should have embarrassed myself. I was not a good husband or partner. I was never the husband you deserved.
9). I ALLOWED FAMILY TO INTERFERE.
R,
I am trying to find the words in my heart and head to ask how you could even think to still ask me for sex if you really believed everything you wrote in this letter. (letter is below). I have wounds that may NEVER, EVER heal because of you. I never have and will never be able to experience the love of a child because of your selfishness. There will be no one to take care for me when I get old because of you. I am alone now because of your selfishness. Are you still that selfish to think I'd share my body with you after all you did to me?
Every month when I have my period I am tormented by the reminder that GOD made a woman's body to bear children and you thought yourself more important that GOD to deny me that right as a woman and as your wife. Every day taking care of my mom drives home the fact that there will be NO ONE to do this for me if/when that time ever comes.
I know now that I am going to have to seek professional help to figure out a way to get past the grief of being childless because living here and taking care of my mom is such a constant reminder of what I was never allowed to have. The idea of children was forced on you, twice in your life and admit it....it was as much your fault as C's and D's because condoms have been around for decades, but you should have never asked someone to marry you without first making it perfectly clear that children were not an option.
If you really believe what you wrote below....you will find it in your heart not to ever contact me wanting sex again. I don't deserve that from you, I think I've earned the right to be spared that heartache in the future. I couldn't say "no" to the divorce, but I can say "no" when asked to share my body with someone who never loved me like a husband should.
Granted....I will always readily admit that I cheated on you also and I should have been above that but knowing what was going on in your life with another woman and knowing that you had done this in the past, I just needed to know at that point in my life that I was still an attractive, desirable
woman, even if I couldn't be that to you.
D
“THE LETTER”
The reasons that , from my point of view , our marriage failed.
1). I went into the marriage looking for a way out. I was not as committed as I should have been. I held divorce over your head like an anvil. WE NEVER BECAME ONE WE WERE 2 PEOPLE SHARING THE SAME HOUSE.We never shared a life together. What things we did do together I found myself jealous and always accusing you of fooling around. I guess I never really trusted you. I AM SORRY.
2). I did not make my feelings clear on children. I did not allow you to become a mother to my two kids or a grandmother to K. I now realize how important your own need for a child was.
3). I MADE A TERRIBLE MISTAKE HAVING A CONFIDANT THAT WAS FEMALE. My involvement with her was entirely out of line and it took things from you that was yours and should have remained yours. I am able to see now that this situation was the root of our problems. I cannot apologize enough for this mistake.
4). I was not able to forgive or forget. I will not re-hash this , we both know what I am talking about.
5). At times I felt unnecessary.
6). I insisted on keeping our incomes separate , which was one of the wedges I placed between us. The stress that this placed on both of us was an unnecessary burden. But , I was trying to protect myself , instead of taking care of your financial problems.
7). I was not there for you at the most critical times in your life. I never held you close and told you that it was going to be ok. I came first and you and your needs were somewhere down the line of my priorities.
8). I was an old leach , I know at times I embarrassed you with my actions. Thinking back on it I should have embarrassed myself. I was not a good husband or partner. I was never the husband you deserved.
9). I ALLOWED FAMILY TO INTERFERE.
D
Daddy2mylilgirl
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My baby girl,
I can't wait to lay next to you again. My life is only complete if you are by my side.
Love Eternally,
Daddy
I can't wait to lay next to you again. My life is only complete if you are by my side.
Love Eternally,
Daddy
chy_girl
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Dear X,
I'm sorry that you seem to think this is a "pout" because the reality of it is much harsher far less innocent, despite the lack of malice contained within.
Hopefully you will be able to see it for what it is and deal with it appropriately. It would be heartbreaking to lose something good because of it.
I'm sorry that you seem to think this is a "pout" because the reality of it is much harsher far less innocent, despite the lack of malice contained within.
Hopefully you will be able to see it for what it is and deal with it appropriately. It would be heartbreaking to lose something good because of it.
Keroin
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Dear me,
There now, aren’t you glad you listened to me when you had those moments of doubt, instead of listening to that other me, the one who likes to make you question your worth? I’m no sunshine salesman, honey-bunches. Things won’t always be easy, (in fact they’ll usually be hard as hell), and don’t think I am going to let up on you for one minute. Enjoy your moment in the sun, then get your ass back to work. Nothing worth having comes without effort.
And never forget, the thing, the greatest thing, is not to lose your nerve!
With love,
Me
There now, aren’t you glad you listened to me when you had those moments of doubt, instead of listening to that other me, the one who likes to make you question your worth? I’m no sunshine salesman, honey-bunches. Things won’t always be easy, (in fact they’ll usually be hard as hell), and don’t think I am going to let up on you for one minute. Enjoy your moment in the sun, then get your ass back to work. Nothing worth having comes without effort.
And never forget, the thing, the greatest thing, is not to lose your nerve!
With love,
Me
Dear Me,
What the hell is wrong with you? You know that man is dangerous. You know hes been in your apartment while you were sleeping..you know Sandy saw him standing outside you apartment door.. you know he asked you if you were living alone..you know, like an idiot you told him yes, that jack was one a deployment. Why did you pay the housing complex twenty five dollars to change your locks if your not gonna lock your door at night? Why are you curious about him? You can't become infatuated with your border line stalker.. I know how you love to dig around in a dark, flawed mind..but this is just to risky.. go lock the front door now.. think of Nathan..
What the hell is wrong with you? You know that man is dangerous. You know hes been in your apartment while you were sleeping..you know Sandy saw him standing outside you apartment door.. you know he asked you if you were living alone..you know, like an idiot you told him yes, that jack was one a deployment. Why did you pay the housing complex twenty five dollars to change your locks if your not gonna lock your door at night? Why are you curious about him? You can't become infatuated with your border line stalker.. I know how you love to dig around in a dark, flawed mind..but this is just to risky.. go lock the front door now.. think of Nathan..
YourCaptor
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Get a room
That's not borderline, that is stalking, and intensively too.
G
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Dear A
You're an asshole, and I'm not your booty call. Next time you come around I hope you're ready to experience a woman's scorn.
No, I don't love you.
-J
You're an asshole, and I'm not your booty call. Next time you come around I hope you're ready to experience a woman's scorn.
No, I don't love you.
-J
K
Kitty_Schrödinger
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Dear X,
I'm glad we were friends before it started and I'm glad we can remain close friends now, when it's over. Thank you for understanding, even if I don't understand myself, I'm grateful to have you. I am grateful for endless cups of tea, warm hugs and sillyness.
Me
I'm glad we were friends before it started and I'm glad we can remain close friends now, when it's over. Thank you for understanding, even if I don't understand myself, I'm grateful to have you. I am grateful for endless cups of tea, warm hugs and sillyness.
Me
Lizzie_Borden
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Next time he comes around, just punch him in the face.
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