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minx1
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Dear x,
I am sorry that seems to have chased you away, but like you said better you know now that later I guess. I wish I could say the same.
I also wish though that you hadn't let it chase you away because I need to get some answers for my own sanity.
I hope I was never rude to you or frightened you from responding. It certainly was not your fault and I am sure I never showed you any animosity.
Its just that as I am sure you appreciate, I need to know exactly what was said and understood between you.
He wrote me an email two nights ago and completely lied in it. He denied contacting anyone else or looking for anyone. He told me he loved me and that he was fighting my paranoia.
It was only when i did more digging and discovered a link to him and his other username that he ''came clean'' and honestly, I doubt that he has. I imagine that his so called truth that he has given me is full of more lies.
He said he wasn't looking for a relationship online or otherwise. He said he had only messaged you a couple of times. That it was 'hardly a relationship'.
Perhaps when you read this it will insense you enough to get back in touch with me. I would rather not have written here, but do so incase you are lurking.
You see, my heart goes out to you, of course it does. You are new to this and you are diasppointed that something was developing. You feel let down. Of course you do.
But please I ask you, put yourself in my shoes. I have moved my life across the world for this man. I have never so much looked at another man in all the time I have known him. I have missed time with my family and friends and the last three years of my life. I want a child badly. I wanted his so very badly and I am fourty years old this year. Time is not on my side.
I did all this, based on what now seems to be a stack on lies. None of it was real.
If nothing else, imagine my humiliation of having to ask people if they have been contacted by the man I thought loved me. The humiliation of having to write to people asking for help.
I need to know answers and no one will give them to me.
Please, if you can answer my pm.
I am sorry that seems to have chased you away, but like you said better you know now that later I guess. I wish I could say the same.
I also wish though that you hadn't let it chase you away because I need to get some answers for my own sanity.
I hope I was never rude to you or frightened you from responding. It certainly was not your fault and I am sure I never showed you any animosity.
Its just that as I am sure you appreciate, I need to know exactly what was said and understood between you.
He wrote me an email two nights ago and completely lied in it. He denied contacting anyone else or looking for anyone. He told me he loved me and that he was fighting my paranoia.
It was only when i did more digging and discovered a link to him and his other username that he ''came clean'' and honestly, I doubt that he has. I imagine that his so called truth that he has given me is full of more lies.
He said he wasn't looking for a relationship online or otherwise. He said he had only messaged you a couple of times. That it was 'hardly a relationship'.
Perhaps when you read this it will insense you enough to get back in touch with me. I would rather not have written here, but do so incase you are lurking.
You see, my heart goes out to you, of course it does. You are new to this and you are diasppointed that something was developing. You feel let down. Of course you do.
But please I ask you, put yourself in my shoes. I have moved my life across the world for this man. I have never so much looked at another man in all the time I have known him. I have missed time with my family and friends and the last three years of my life. I want a child badly. I wanted his so very badly and I am fourty years old this year. Time is not on my side.
I did all this, based on what now seems to be a stack on lies. None of it was real.
If nothing else, imagine my humiliation of having to ask people if they have been contacted by the man I thought loved me. The humiliation of having to write to people asking for help.
I need to know answers and no one will give them to me.
Please, if you can answer my pm.
Dear A,
I wish you could ever understand how much I love you. I am too drunk right now, because of you. I gave you everything that I ever was, I gave you my heart and soul, I gave you my collar, and I thought, for so long, that you loved me in return. I loved you so fucking much, but you never loved me did you?
That's why I get sauced, because I somehow hope that you could ever love me. You tell me all the time that you were stupid, you made the wrong decision, that somehow I was better than she could ever hope to be, but if that were so true, would I be here right now? Would I be so drunk that I'm venting to a bunch of people who I hope will get to know me even a quarter as much as I ever bared myself to you?
I'm sorry I wasn't enough for you. I'm sorry I was never good enough.
-Elarient
I wish you could ever understand how much I love you. I am too drunk right now, because of you. I gave you everything that I ever was, I gave you my heart and soul, I gave you my collar, and I thought, for so long, that you loved me in return. I loved you so fucking much, but you never loved me did you?
That's why I get sauced, because I somehow hope that you could ever love me. You tell me all the time that you were stupid, you made the wrong decision, that somehow I was better than she could ever hope to be, but if that were so true, would I be here right now? Would I be so drunk that I'm venting to a bunch of people who I hope will get to know me even a quarter as much as I ever bared myself to you?
I'm sorry I wasn't enough for you. I'm sorry I was never good enough.
-Elarient
minx1
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Dear Elarient,
Sorry that you are hurting right now.
People are idiots. Suseptible to doing stupid things for incromprehensible reasons.
But you have to remind yourself whenever you are able and I know its hard, that its not about you being enough or not good enough. Its about them not being able enough.
Their issues, not yours.
I may not be too much help at the moment, but my pm box is open if you ever want to chat
girlofurdreams
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Dear minx's X,
Very rarely I truly despise someone.
You made the list.
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Dear minx,
We are here for you.
agreed.
the fucking cunt.
girlofurdreams
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Dear Elarient,
Sorry that you are hurting right now.
People are idiots. Suseptible to doing stupid things for incromprehensible reasons.
But you have to remind yourself whenever you are able and I know its hard, that its not about you being enough or not good enough. Its about them not being able enough.
Their issues, not yours.
I may not be too much help at the moment, but my pm box is open if you ever want to chat
Dear Minx,
Thank you. I'm sorry that other people's stupidity got you hurt as well. Thank you so much for being willing to talk. I think I'm going to like it here, aren't I?
You're a sweetheart.
gypsy*seer
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You are so much MORE than 'good enough'....Keep being true to yourself.
*hugs*
Dear x,
I am sorry that seems to have chased you away, but like you said better you know now that later I guess. I wish I could say the same.
I also wish though that you hadn't let it chase you away because I need to get some answers for my own sanity.
I hope I was never rude to you or frightened you from responding. It certainly was not your fault and I am sure I never showed you any animosity.
Its just that as I am sure you appreciate, I need to know exactly what was said and understood between you.
He wrote me an email two nights ago and completely lied in it. He denied contacting anyone else or looking for anyone. He told me he loved me and that he was fighting my paranoia.
It was only when i did more digging and discovered a link to him and his other username that he ''came clean'' and honestly, I doubt that he has. I imagine that his so called truth that he has given me is full of more lies.
He said he wasn't looking for a relationship online or otherwise. He said he had only messaged you a couple of times. That it was 'hardly a relationship'.
Perhaps when you read this it will insense you enough to get back in touch with me. I would rather not have written here, but do so incase you are lurking.
You see, my heart goes out to you, of course it does. You are new to this and you are diasppointed that something was developing. You feel let down. Of course you do.
But please I ask you, put yourself in my shoes. I have moved my life across the world for this man. I have never so much looked at another man in all the time I have known him. I have missed time with my family and friends and the last three years of my life. I want a child badly. I wanted his so very badly and I am fourty years old this year. Time is not on my side.
I did all this, based on what now seems to be a stack on lies. None of it was real.
If nothing else, imagine my humiliation of having to ask people if they have been contacted by the man I thought loved me. The humiliation of having to write to people asking for help.
I need to know answers and no one will give them to me.
Please, if you can answer my pm.
You are truly 'brave of heart'. Stand proud. There is NO room in life for lies and deceit, and you deserve so much more than that. I am just sorry that it took years of your life before his ways were revealed..(Yup, I have that t-shirt, too )
*hugs*
Sir_Winston54
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Dear head,
I've carried you around with me everywhere I went for almost six decades, washed you, fed you, cleaned up your messes, kept your hair trimmed (most of the time), tried to give you the medicines you need(ed) when you need(ed) them, given you soft pillows, medium pillows, firm pillows, and extrafirm pillows to lie on.
I've pretty much pampered you your whole life.
WHY THE HELL WON'T YOU QUIT HURTING ME?
me
I've carried you around with me everywhere I went for almost six decades, washed you, fed you, cleaned up your messes, kept your hair trimmed (most of the time), tried to give you the medicines you need(ed) when you need(ed) them, given you soft pillows, medium pillows, firm pillows, and extrafirm pillows to lie on.
I've pretty much pampered you your whole life.
WHY THE HELL WON'T YOU QUIT HURTING ME?
me
Kajira Callista
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lidocaine (did i spell that right? it looks wrong) on a long assed qtip thingy from the hospital up your nose is supposed to be a surefire migraine ender. Can I do it for ya? please please?
Doctors are also prescribing caffiene and some sort of anti-inflam. all in one pills for them.
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rida
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Dear H,
Thank you for offering to entertain me and make me forget the canceled date tonight. But it will not make me forget what I'm missing.
Don't get me wrong, I'm happy that you feel better and up for some play.
The fact is, that even thou I know it was not you speaking and you did not mean to hurt me when you said what you said the other night, the reality is that those words hurt. I'm not sure I'll be able to cover up that hurt enough.
However I'll try.
Love,
your w.
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Dear S,
Such is life ...
Looking forward next time.
Love,
part-timely yours
Thank you for offering to entertain me and make me forget the canceled date tonight. But it will not make me forget what I'm missing.
Don't get me wrong, I'm happy that you feel better and up for some play.
The fact is, that even thou I know it was not you speaking and you did not mean to hurt me when you said what you said the other night, the reality is that those words hurt. I'm not sure I'll be able to cover up that hurt enough.
However I'll try.
Love,
your w.
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Dear S,
Such is life ...
Looking forward next time.
Love,
part-timely yours
Sir_Winston54
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It's not a migraine this time, thank gawd/ess. It's just a tension headache from not sitting right, so my neck gets tired/ache-y, then it spreads into the head. I'll try to remember the lidocaine next time a migraine wanders by, though. Thanks for the info.
ETA: I'm trying to get off the caffeine as much as possible, though. I was starting to look like a Mountain Dew bottle - green.
gypsy*seer
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Dear Karma,
Haven't you fucked me enough?
Losing all of my work for the last 3 years is the last fucking nail in the coffin...
bite me...
D.
Haven't you fucked me enough?
Losing all of my work for the last 3 years is the last fucking nail in the coffin...
bite me...
D.
Hisbabydoll26
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Dear X,
You should have talked to your wife and your child more. She is not ready to move on and trying to scare me or anyone into making a move so that she will be where you want her to will only hurt her in the long run. Had you cared more about this a year ago you wouldn't be here. Why do you want to enable her? For her social standing with her peers? That will suffer even more if you move her. She can't and won't do the work. She has proven it over and over again. Why didn't you care when you could do more than bully the district into changing an outcome you aren't pleased with. Did you really have to wait until I was finally starting to relax to drop this bomb? Perhaps someone just told you? Strange since loads of paperwork, email, and phone calls were sent.
I'm going to do my best to not let this, you, ruin what little time I have with my family by worrying I will be sued. I'm not perfect but I did the best damn job anyone could have with what you gave me and what you weren't willing to support.
Thankfully I do what I do for them and not the pay. Between the lack of it and the grief people like you cause me it's insane that anyone is willing to do this "job".
The only person I care about here is your daughter. Be a bigger person and do the same.
the teacher
You should have talked to your wife and your child more. She is not ready to move on and trying to scare me or anyone into making a move so that she will be where you want her to will only hurt her in the long run. Had you cared more about this a year ago you wouldn't be here. Why do you want to enable her? For her social standing with her peers? That will suffer even more if you move her. She can't and won't do the work. She has proven it over and over again. Why didn't you care when you could do more than bully the district into changing an outcome you aren't pleased with. Did you really have to wait until I was finally starting to relax to drop this bomb? Perhaps someone just told you? Strange since loads of paperwork, email, and phone calls were sent.
I'm going to do my best to not let this, you, ruin what little time I have with my family by worrying I will be sued. I'm not perfect but I did the best damn job anyone could have with what you gave me and what you weren't willing to support.
Thankfully I do what I do for them and not the pay. Between the lack of it and the grief people like you cause me it's insane that anyone is willing to do this "job".
The only person I care about here is your daughter. Be a bigger person and do the same.
the teacher
HoHoBomb
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pink
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Dear X,
i saw you. i wanted to say hi but i didn't. i'm glad i didn't.
i can't really say i've moved on 100% because you are still in my thoughts often. i know that you don't love me. i know you have always wanted her, loved her. i'm really really happy, alone. It's how i roll now.
just a girl in the world
i saw you. i wanted to say hi but i didn't. i'm glad i didn't.
i can't really say i've moved on 100% because you are still in my thoughts often. i know that you don't love me. i know you have always wanted her, loved her. i'm really really happy, alone. It's how i roll now.
just a girl in the world
Nymphomaniacal
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Dear X:
I wish I was lying next to you, cuddled up and happily warm instead of alone. I wish this would all work out, and that I was with you and this limbo we're in would end. Its like when im with you nothings changed, we're together and happy, then the reality hits when I leave. I just dont know where I am supposed to stand. My heart, mind, body and soul is all yours. I am yours fully. All I have ever wanted is to love and take care of you. I know, I messed up and so did you, but Im working my ass off to fix this. I just hope you see it. I need my rock, my spazz, my lover and my best friend back. Im yours. Im here. All you have to do is reach out to me and take me.
-The crazy woman that loves you more than anything.
I wish I was lying next to you, cuddled up and happily warm instead of alone. I wish this would all work out, and that I was with you and this limbo we're in would end. Its like when im with you nothings changed, we're together and happy, then the reality hits when I leave. I just dont know where I am supposed to stand. My heart, mind, body and soul is all yours. I am yours fully. All I have ever wanted is to love and take care of you. I know, I messed up and so did you, but Im working my ass off to fix this. I just hope you see it. I need my rock, my spazz, my lover and my best friend back. Im yours. Im here. All you have to do is reach out to me and take me.
-The crazy woman that loves you more than anything.
gypsy*seer
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Dear X,
I should have seen that one coming.....
.....I'm just sayin'
me
I should have seen that one coming.....
.....I'm just sayin'
me
Kajira Callista
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Dear X,
Thanks for pretending I don't exist. That makes things all better...for you
Thanks for pretending I don't exist. That makes things all better...for you
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