Dear X:

[ultramarineblue]

Dear x,
Why didn't you call the regular Friday night place? Did you seriously think I was going to go to the movies alone? I mean come on, you know me better than that. I know you're concerned about me and I appreciate it. I've got to find my own way now. I know you're just trying to help ease things but it doesn't work that way. It's hard watching you and she break up. I know you both need someone to talk to but I can't be that person because both of you are my friend. I just can't be in between that anymore. I have my own demons to face and I know I'm going to beat them. I finally beat the definition thing this summer that I've struggled with for so long. It still shocks me that I no longer doubt that I am that. Just keep things light for now when we talk.

 

[girlofurdreams]

dear X,

thank you for your messages of support today... they meant so much to me, i love making you proud

but i'm sad i had to delete those pics you sent straight away as 'people' had access to my phone

i will miss you when you leave again, and look forward to having you back in my world soon xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

yours forever x
bb

 

[SweetGigi]

Confused- called to know
Things I wish I didn't know.
What does it all mean?

ETA:

YAY!!

Over it.

What a relief.

 

[Bags]

Dear My Many X's ....

I am tired ... so very tired sometimes. I do hope I shall get out of this with my head on my shoulders.

to understand what I'm going through ... I have sick family .. my favorite family ... my inlaws needing me out of town to look after them ... my mom not well .. my brother now going in mega crisis ... I have a strange marriage to deal with ... I have friends I HAVE to worry about and support ...

So, my mind right now might not be where it "should" be sometimes, and I may not be where I should be sometimes. My Play time is virtually pushed out of the way (and that kills me, it was keeping me sane!!). I know that upsets "you" ... but that's all i can do. It kills me as well.... I wish I had 5 of me to go around, and be what everyone around me needs and wants ... And then have one that's just able to be ME!

So, X's ... I am borderline a mess right now ... please have patience with me, sometimes I need more cuddling and kinda words ... right now, more than ever.

And I need you ... I worry about you ... I miss you ... I want you still .. and I hate that I still feel that way.

 

[naxalite0906]

Minx, Sweet gigi and shyguy, thank you.

To know you care means alot xxxx

A bit late... but *big hug*

 

[the captians wench]

Minx, Sweet gigi and shyguy, thank you.

To know you care means alot xxxx

awe shy. *huggles*

 

[the captians wench]

Dear X,

I'm glad I was out today, but part of me wonders if you knew I would be. Part of me wonders if I should call the cops like I told you I would if I ever saw you again. Did you really think I would be interested in your perposal enough to break my vow of never speaking to you again?

You really fucked with my head. Yes I let you do it, but I did not agree to what you did to me. The things you got me to believe and do, those were not things I agreed to. Infact most of them were things on my "absolutely not" list. You made me believe that I was worthless, that I didn't deserve the neglect you gave me, let alone any real attention. You tried to turn me into some one I am not. Why were you even interested in me any way if you wanted me to become some one completely different?

I won't let you in my head again. I'm in a good place now. I'm very well loved and cared for by an owner who wants me for me. Not because of what he can turn me into, but because of what I am. You know things like honesty. Of course, you only wanted me to lie to other people so you could get what you wanted.

I'm not going to let you bother me, you can't hurt me anymore. YOU CAN'T HURT ME ANYMORE! I have taken that power away from you. No more flash backs, no more night mares, no more hearing your voice tell me that I'm not worthy of licking the dirt off your boots, that I don't deserve to be cared for how I need to be.

The business card you left? I burned it. Not because I felt some what tempted by your offer, I really doubt it was serious. I burned it as a final symbol to myself that I am over you and all you did to me. I know I deserve the love I have. I know I deserve the care of a good owner. I know I deserve the devotion of good friends. I deserve to be me. I deserve to be happy. I deserve to be able to spend my money as I see fit. I deserve to live the way I want to and where I want to. I deserve everything I have and you can not take any of that away from me. Not even for a minute.

You Don't Own Me, and you Can't Hurt Me.

No longer afraid,
wenchie

 

[Essene]

*HUGS* For Wenchie.

 

[shy slave]

Dear X,

I'm glad I was out today, but part of me wonders if you knew I would be. Part of me wonders if I should call the cops like I told you I would if I ever saw you again. Did you really think I would be interested in your perposal enough to break my vow of never speaking to you again?

You really fucked with my head. Yes I let you do it, but I did not agree to what you did to me. The things you got me to believe and do, those were not things I agreed to. Infact most of them were things on my "absolutely not" list. You made me believe that I was worthless, that I didn't deserve the neglect you gave me, let alone any real attention. You tried to turn me into some one I am not. Why were you even interested in me any way if you wanted me to become some one completely different?

I won't let you in my head again. I'm in a good place now. I'm very well loved and cared for by an owner who wants me for me. Not because of what he can turn me into, but because of what I am. You know things like honesty. Of course, you only wanted me to lie to other people so you could get what you wanted.

I'm not going to let you bother me, you can't hurt me anymore. YOU CAN'T HURT ME ANYMORE! I have taken that power away from you. No more flash backs, no more night mares, no more hearing your voice tell me that I'm not worthy of licking the dirt off your boots, that I don't deserve to be cared for how I need to be.

The business card you left? I burned it. Not because I felt some what tempted by your offer, I really doubt it was serious. I burned it as a final symbol to myself that I am over you and all you did to me. I know I deserve the love I have. I know I deserve the care of a good owner. I know I deserve the devotion of good friends. I deserve to be me. I deserve to be happy. I deserve to be able to spend my money as I see fit. I deserve to live the way I want to and where I want to. I deserve everything I have and you can not take any of that away from me. Not even for a minute.

You Don't Own Me, and you Can't Hurt Me.

No longer afraid,
wenchie

You are amazing

 

[minx1]

Dear x,

I feel like I am floating away.

If you want me, hold me down. Secure me firmly with your love. Bind me with your hopes for us. Cast a net of warmth over me. Shackle me with your desire. Tie me to you with your commitment. Strengthen our bond.

Wrap me tightly in your arms and whisper you love me

I want you to. I need you to...... I feel like I am floating away. Pin me down firmly; don't let me get away.

Fight for me. Show me how much.

Infinity. I engraved it and I meant it. You.....?

Your L x

 

[celticsunspiral]

Dear X,

WHY? Why do you make the choices you do? Why are you trying to drag me down with you? Why do you think I will live like this forever?

No question to you is alright. Nothing I do is correct.

Ignore me, hate me, be mad at me. Love me, caress me, but hold me.

Break promises and don't be there when I need you.

Push me away but expect me to be there.

What should I do?

 

[Bi_Kitty]

Dear B

Thank you for letting me sleep earlier when I had a headache. You are too good for me. I hope this "having-a-headache/migraine-every-other-day" will stop soon, but thank you for dealing with me. I love you so much.

Kitty

(If this doesn't make much sense I'm sorry, I'm still half-asleep.)

 

[BiBunny]

Dear B

Thank you for letting me sleep earlier when I had a headache. You are too good for me. I hope this "having-a-headache/migraine-every-other-day" will stop soon, but thank you for dealing with me. I love you so much.

Kitty

(If this doesn't make much sense I'm sorry, I'm still half-asleep.)

Dear K.,

I love you, too.

Don't worry. I remember going through that whole migraine-a-day thing when I was around your age, too. It SUCKED. They spontaneously cleared up for no apparent reason, though. Maybe yours will, too. Or maybe you can get better soon once you see the neurologist.

Otherwise, I suggest a good sadist. That's how I used to get rid of mine.

Bunny

 

[jockdom]

Dear X
Can't wait.

 

[ShyVixen]

Dear X,

I know you arrived safely and I'm glad, you know me I'm a worrywort I hope you are having a wonderful time and doing all the things boys do on a manly vacation.

Just know that I miss you

And yes, I'm still crazy about you

Love, Me

 

[KayKat]

Dear You

I am so very happy with you..I am glad that we are taking this journey together..I hope that I continue to make you happy as I learn the many things there are to learn under your tutelage. Thank you for taking me on and being proud of me..Your being proud of me makes me happy. I love you

Love
Me

 

[girlofurdreams]

Dear X,

wishing you were here so badly today... there's so much going on that i want to share with you! so many good times, so much news, so much excitement... i know you're thinking of me and that means the world ~ can't wait til you get back!!!!

i love you huge amounts today x

 

[Harmony_1985]

Dear X

When the hell are you going to stop shitting on me from a great height?!

First the deal at work, then the deal with the scout group treasurer and now the stuff with my health.

GIVE ME A DAMN BREAK.

And money, lots of money.

 

[Cheshire D]

Dear X:

Are you suggesting complete anarchy? Are you THAT much of a stupid dipshit? I cannot wait till this fucking election is over.

 

[Daddy2mylilgirl]

Dear sweetie,

I loved our day together today. It was just like you.....perfect. I am so madly and deeply in love with you. I can't wait to be with you Forever.

Love,
Daddy

 

[SweetGigi]

dear R (& J by proxy),

Thank you for not only taking the time to listen to me today, but to really here and offer sound, loving and geniune advice. Things aren't perfect, but in time they will be. Perfect for me at least. Thank you for being such an amazing inspiration.

me

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Dear Tighearn,

You are my heart's song. Thank you for loving me in my brokenness. I promise I will make you proud of me.

love,

rib

 

[Lady_Moldovie]

Dear X,
You will never know just how much I want you, those words will never cross my lips, for it is never meant to be.

Em.

 

[Dominant_Chef]

Dear X,

Eat my shorts...

D C

 

[jockdom]

Dear X,

Eat my shorts...

D C

Probably better than the swill you serve up.

 

[Dominant_Chef]

Probably better than the swill you serve up.

Do you mean the swill that has, over the last 3 years given me an average annual profit of £1.7 million...

I churn out the swill, the rich and famous eat it son... as simple as that you porridge and stale haggis eating faggot.