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Dear X:

I have let you back in after discussing some ground rules.
Thank you for accepting them & as far as I can see abiding by them.
I missed you deeply yesterday, missing you today & look forward to tomorrow.
You are definately a double edged sword.. I just hope you don't slash me to bits again. Be yourself because I hate masks, hide nothing because I will find out eventually, trust me with your fantasies so I can make them a reality.

You have no idea where I can take you, I am ahead of you on this kinky path but I have no issue staying where I am till you catch up & we can explore further together. I don't want to say I love you but scorpios are extremist's so under all the denial I must love you or you wouldn't be in my life like you are. Interest in another woman is about the only thing that will without a doubt ruin this ride we are on. Stay loyal & you will be amazed the places we will travel together.

~~Steg~~
 
Dear X
Hope yer wee lassie has a great first day at school.
They sure grow up fast.
X
 
Dear C,

I am sorry that you had to spend the weekend with your asshole boyfriend. I imagine that must have sucked as he has the social skills of a cockroach. And I am sorry that when you came home the screen door was locked and you couldn't get in and that when you called I didn't hear my phone. But I am NOT sorry for my behavior. You come downstairs, burst into my room and start bitching me out *whine whine* about isolated circumstances and then you can't figure out why I am not tickled pink to see you. Why would I be?

Friday night when you were getting ready to leave you were a right bitch to everyone (your boyfriend *IS* a douche but don't take it out on us!) and then you come home and start right back at me today. Sorry but that doesn't endear me to you in the least. Sure I missed you and if you were decent to me I would have stopped what I was doing and paid some attention to you but I am sick of being the one who does everything for you and gets shit on return and am your amusement when no one else is around to be.

By the way, we have watched so much Judge Judy and Judge Joe Brown together you would think that you would have learned that lending/giving money to loser boyfriends is a bad idea. I see you haven't. Trust me, a lot of the guys on there getting ridiculed by the judges look a lot more respectable than your precious boy. I mean how old is he and he wants a system for his truck? :rolleyes:

I don't know if this fox-racing, atv-driving girl is really who you are. I also don't like that he and his family ridicule/say nasty things to you at times. Strange that you never tell me these things but they get around to me. Well, since I cannot tell you to your face I will tell you here:

You shouldn't listen to a word his pathetic piece of shit mother has to say. It isn't like he is the bad apple of the bunch. All his brothers are fucking losers too from what you say. And what is this about her leaving them when they were little and that is why he is messed up? So, yeah, clearly this is not the model matriarch who has sage wisdom to impart to you. Why not try taking some from your own mother?

You shouldn't listen to a word that your precious Jeffy has to say, either. He got his job because his friend's dad is his boss. He makes less than you do. He still lives at home. He cannot have a simple conversation with anyone who is XX and only can talk to XYs who try to engage him in conversation. His ideas are simple-minded, he is arrogant without anything to back it up. He isn't handsome, he is heavy (not that that is an issue but when he says stuff to you about how you look it's damn hypocritical), and he is an idiot. You went to college, you worked hard to get where you are. You don't need to be with someone this much that you need to be in an abusive relationship, and that is really what I view it is.

I can't tell you, though. I'm bias. God knows my first real interaction with him sort of cemented my hating him for the rest of my life but you really can't blame me, can you? And sure, make fun of the guys I have dated but at least when they were guests in our home they didn't threaten anyone and they talked to everyone politely and courteously which is more than I can say for him, even after close to 2 years.

I told you this 2 years ago and I'll tell you this again here. You can do better.

Love,
Your Big Sister
 
Dear Love,

30 days! I know I'm not suposed to get over excited for another 20 days, but I can't help it! *giggles* You know how excitable I am anyway, but this is big...no not big, it's FUCKING HUGINATASOROUS!

It's been so great to text back and forth with you this week. It's made me feel so much closer to you. That's some luxury for us, eh? And you checking up on me just puts the hugest grin on my face. :heart:

I know my life is full of drama most of the time, but you're always such a great support. Can you see why i want you to take me away from all of this? *giggles*

I can't wait to get there. Spending the day here or there, and every night with you, it'll be heaven. I've almost completely made my dicition, it's just going to depend on a few things.

3 years ago this month you accepted me, and I first began planing that trip. Look at us now baby! We're both considering and have done things we never would have done before.

Still so much to do before my trip!

I love you so much,

your fat bottom slut:kiss:
 
if this weekend works that would be swell.

If you really can swing fucking me out on the balcony that would be sweller. Then I'll have done it somewhere I shouldn't have and that's kind of grand.
 
if this weekend works that would be swell.

If you really can swing fucking me out on the balcony that would be sweller. Then I'll have done it somewhere I shouldn't have and that's kind of grand.

Mind if I add that to my "things to do in Ireland" list? Sounds hot
 
Dear x.

Happy x anniversary. Funny have not given you any thought at all until the last few minutes when I looked at the clock and remembered. My thoughts had turned blue and subsequently my thoughts turned to you lol.

As usual I had plans to do something significant. As usual they didn't come to pass.

For what its worth I bear you no grudges or bitterness. Neither do I feel love or sadness. I feel indifferent if I am honest.

Its ironic really, you have all the things I longed for...stability, a family and a committed relationship and I have everything you craved...freedom, independence, travel.

I will have those things though. They are part of my own plan and as always I will do them with or without a man. I am strong enough to take everything on, on my own. In that respect I don't need anyone.

I am glad we aren't married, though I wish you luck with your future and hope that you learn some valuable lessons along the way that will help you be a more accountable and decent man.

Happy being me,

your ex
 
Dear X,

Thankyou for taking me away, I had an awesome time.
Thankyou for going horseriding for the first time, now I have a riding buddy, stoked!
Thankyou for ypur awesome efforts in helping me clean my old apartment.
Thankyou for staying up and playing with us tonight.
Thankyou for you.

possums rock!:heart:
 
My Dearest T,
I am hoping and praying that you still do as you once told me you did and basically “stalk” me through this message board. I can’t bring myself to send this to you directly because I want to be able have the sweet delusion that you may not have responded because you didn’t see it. In choosing to go this route though I am holding back all that I could say, but I feel the need to fight for what I want. Fight for what could be. Even though I am more scared than I ever have been in this life by this. Just as scared and unsure as you are in many respects.

I know that you doubt yourself as I doubt myself. You’ve come far enough on your journey that you have recognized things in yourself that make you unsure and you’ve allowed yourself to believe some of the evil things that were said to you by another certain person. I’m here to tell you that to have gotten as far as you have you are much stronger than you give yourself credit for. It’s time now to move forward to the next part of the journey.

I know you are wondering what I have felt with your revelations of late. I have gone through some measure of unhappiness with it, but in the end I believe that I have come to some peace with it and some understanding. I also can’t say that given the situation you were in I might not have behaved the same. The experience of being there and being superman for someone must have been heady. You also probably saw it as a distraction that I know you needed with all the work you were doing. I just wish I could have provided it.

I should tell you that I too have been distracted during this time we have been distant. Men here have tried to turn my head on more that one occasion and with some there has been more than just an acknowledgement that they are attracted. I will tell you that I have nothing I feel guilty about, but the potential was there. So I can’t judge you. Ego boosts are very tempting.

T, I don’t care about your appearance, your money, or anything superficial. All I care about is the beautiful soul within. What I feel is unconditional and will not change. I love you still. I have written it in poetry, in isolated blurts, said it in my heart and mind, in the song files that I sent you, but now I say it directly to you here without façade. I feel this connection that we share more strongly than ever.

Don’t think that I have always been this understanding of my feelings. When we’re first getting to know each other I was trying to understand why I felt the need to be with you, to talk to you. What was this irritating pull? Especially when you disappeared during the first week of the new year after you said you would contact me. What the fuck was that was what I was thinking. I couldn’t understand why this strong pull was there for someone I barely knew and less understood. It was a huge struggle trying to put you away out of my life, and every time that I thought that you were coming back into it you were gone again.

Even more troublesome suspicion was when I realized in February that me, the lone wolf, who didn’t do love at first sight had become a victim of that very malady. Here I was in love with a guy who was more interested in himself than anyone else. All I had really wanted T was for us to explore this connection I believe we were both feeling, to talk and get to know one another, and see where that would take us. I thought at one point we were going to try that and then suddenly you were gone again. I got tired of it. I got tired of trying and getting very little in return. Of course everything had to be your own way and when I went against that I was punished. At least that’s how it felt, and boy was I punished.

T, I don’t care about that any more. I know what I’ve felt and what I’ve experienced with you since then. I have been able to read through the lines, and I’ve gotten your messages. Through this connection I’ve discovered a beautiful man with a good heart who may occasionally act a bit selfish, but who cares very deeply for others.

What I want you to understand is that you will never be rejected. Were you to come to me you would be welcomed with open arms and loved. I would feel such joy at seeing you that I feel my heart would burst. I would make love to you both spiritually and physically. You would never have been loved as I would love you. There will never been anyone else. I know what I feel in my heart. Once given it can’t be given to anyone else.

If you do not come back, I eventually will have to go on as I thought my life would be before I met you. I will give you a bit of time, but the pain of not being with you is such that it’s on occasion heart breaking. Understand that if that is the route that you choose that I will eventually go back to that and no longer be available in the ways that I have been. You will not see me or receive any messages from me nor will I “stalk” you. Your friends will also not hear from me. Despite the friendships that I have made with them, I can’t hear what they might have to say about you. I have to do this for my peace of mind, and I think you understand why. Please know though that I remain open to you, and I will always be there for you. I will not, however, live in hope that you might return. For my sanity I can’t do that.

Please accept my apologies if I have completely misread this situation. Please accept my apologies if I have been too much in love to see that you meant some of the things that you said in April, and I haven’t listened. I have never meant to hurt you. I will live with the fool I have made of myself if that’s the case, but in truth I don’t believe it. I believe that things of significance have passed between us. Some of what has been there has been so powerful and vivid that they affect me still. I can remember the feel of your caress, the touch of your lips, your hands gripping my hips, and you inside me.

I leave this all in your hands. I can only hope that you will read it with an open mind, and that you know I do it out of love. I want the opportunity to show you that I mean every word that I write and I hope you will give me that chance to do so.

Love Always and Forever,

C
 
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Dear X,

Thats so weird to have you showing me pics from your holidays with your new gf.. You should know that me and her will NEVER be friends. Sorry, but for me shes nothing but a bitch who were dating taken man. Man of a pregnant woman even! What you two did was sleazy. And its OKAY! Its just sometimes I still feel this need to kick the shit outta your fuckin ass for all the pain you took me thro.

The fact I am still talking to you DOESNT mean I have forget what you have done.....

Think I will never be able to see you without this little pain in my chest. You have dissapoint me as anyone else ever did... You really get me that time yes, because I actualy trusted you again. And what you did with it??? *ughhhh*

Your nothing but a trash and I am glad your outta my life. Honest, I am way too good for you. http://i324.photobucket.com/albums/k353/hispeanut/thefinger.gif


~your ex
 
Dear Me,

This is the hardest thing you have ever done and I know it sucks and I know you're tired but I promise it will get easier. We are already done with day 3 and we have already seen the results of our efforts. Let's take one step at a time and keep going and not give up and keep our priorities in mind. Let's pray and remember to do the right thing.

I'm so proud of you.

k
 
Dear X,

I crave you.

I crave the taste of your skin.

I crave your lips on mine, demanding, commanding.

I crave the crack of your hand against my ass, the sharp sting of your belt.

I crave the anticipation and the emotional release from being spanked.

I crave to be your 'good girl', to make you proud of me.

I crave your cock in my mouth, to taste you on my tongue, service you and swallow your cum.

I crave to see the look on your face when you see what I've brought.

I crave to feel the sting of your teeth on my nipple.

I crave to see the look on your face in the moment when you know you have complete power over me. You know the look I mean, the look of male arrogance...your sadist look...

I crack your cock fucking my pussy, the feel of your body over mine.

I crave your tenderness, to snuggle under your arm and relax.

I crave YOU.

~ Me :rose:
 
Dear x.

Happy x anniversary. Funny have not given you any thought at all until the last few minutes when I looked at the clock and remembered. My thoughts had turned blue and subsequently my thoughts turned to you lol.

As usual I had plans to do something significant. As usual they didn't come to pass.

For what its worth I bear you no grudges or bitterness. Neither do I feel love or sadness. I feel indifferent if I am honest.

Its ironic really, you have all the things I longed for...stability, a family and a committed relationship and I have everything you craved...freedom, independence, travel.

I will have those things though. They are part of my own plan and as always I will do them with or without a man. I am strong enough to take everything on, on my own. In that respect I don't need anyone.

I am glad we aren't married, though I wish you luck with your future and hope that you learn some valuable lessons along the way that will help you be a more accountable and decent man.

Happy being me,

your ex

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7Zdi2IF5ezw&feature=related *laugh*
 
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Dear HM homeoffice
Thank you for my pass port! It only took yous 6 weeks.
Happy daze.
 
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