Dear X:

[fishercat]

Dear Whomever is in Charge:

Please do not let my stupidity and ignorance get me killed. Or stalked. Or whatever could happen now. I didn't intend for him to get my real name. I'm scared. Please let him forget. Please let him be a good person.

I can't stop shaking. Please let it be okay.

 

[the_pet]

Dear X

WHY OH FUCKING WHY DID I TALK TO YOU! I TOLD MYSELF I WAS NOT GOING TO!..

i really felt i was strong this time....i really thought i could resist you....

and you did it again....you reeled me right in and i went willingly....i wanted any scrap of you that i could breathe in....and i took in a deeeeep breath of you....you heard me...... AND THEN YOU SILENCED ME AGAIN

(crying....WHEN WILL I EVER FUCKING LEARN) I MUST BE THE STUPIDEST BITCH ON THE FUCKING PLANET!

 

[Homburg]

Dear the_pet,

Not stupid. Not bitch.

Just human.

*hug*

Signed,
-another human.

 

[myinnerslut]

Dear X

WHY OH FUCKING WHY DID I TALK TO YOU! I TOLD MYSELF I WAS NOT GOING TO!..

i really felt i was strong this time....i really thought i could resist you....

and you did it again....you reeled me right in and i went willingly....i wanted any scrap of you that i could breathe in....and i took in a deeeeep breath of you....you heard me...... AND THEN YOU SILENCED ME AGAIN

(crying....WHEN WILL I EVER FUCKING LEARN) I MUST BE THE STUPIDEST BITCH ON THE FUCKING PLANET!

*hugs*

please dont be so hard on yourself

 

[the captians wench]

Dear assmunch,

Because of you I nearly lost some dear friends of mine. You spoke things to other people that you should not have said. You violated the trust of some one who was supposed to be important to you, some one who called you friend, and some one who was deeply involved. You have shown what respect you have for said persons. Why would you even go shouting this information to other people, people who do not, or did not even know any of us, let alone all of us? Why does it even matter to you what is going on, and why do you feel the need to tell the world? You are the worst kind of gossip and an asshole. Do you realize I got most of the blame and hard feelings for your loose tongue?

Well it doesn't matter. We are all very happy with things, and because of your antics have grown closer and stronger. If you are trying to seek happiness in this manor, then you are in for a great disappointment, but I will not let you bring me down.

Go crawl under a rock, and leave us alone. Stop with the gossip and lies, and propositions already. Most of us are onto you, and those who are not, soon will be.

go fuck yourself asshole.

with the most heart felt feelings,

wenchie

 

[LittleJade]

Dear Immune System

Buck the fuck up! Start doing your job! Start kicking germy ass!

Augh!

 

[intothewoods]

Dear assmunch,

Because of you I nearly lost some dear friends of mine. You spoke things to other people that you should not have said. You violated the trust of some one who was supposed to be important to you, some one who called you friend, and some one who was deeply involved. You have shown what respect you have for said persons. Why would you even go shouting this information to other people, people who do not, or did not even know any of us, let alone all of us? Why does it even matter to you what is going on, and why do you feel the need to tell the world? You are the worst kind of gossip and an asshole. Do you realize I got most of the blame and hard feelings for your loose tongue?

Well it doesn't matter. We are all very happy with things, and because of your antics have grown closer and stronger. If you are trying to seek happiness in this manor, then you are in for a great disappointment, but I will not let you bring me down.

Go crawl under a rock, and leave us alone. Stop with the gossip and lies, and propositions already. Most of us are onto you, and those who are not, soon will be.

go fuck yourself asshole.

with the most heart felt feelings,

wenchie

Uh, note to self: don't fuck with the wench. She might kick your ass.

 

[intothewoods]

Dear Gross and Grosser,

Y'all make me want to hurl.

intothewoods

 

[Sir_Winston54]

Uh, note to self: don't fuck with the wench. She might kick your ass.

Note to itw: Change "might" to "will." LOL!

 

[intothewoods]

Note to itw: Change "might" to "will." LOL!

Good point. Wait, I might like that. Shit. Now I'm confused.

 

[LittleJade]

Dear Mom,

I am scared for you. And I am worried about you. That this issue cropped up right before you begin chemo- it doesn't sit right. That you have to undergo chemo at all... that doesn't sit right. That I'm not there to be with you... jesus christ, that doesn't sit at all with me. It's like a stone in my stomach.

I know this is hard for you. I do- I hear it in your voice, even though you say you're going to hold your chin up, and get through it. I know you're afraid. I know you're frustrated, and tired and stressed. I know you hate the idea of all of the chemicals going into your body, and the thought of how sick you'll be because of this.

I know that you're afraid that you're going to be a burden. You, mom, are never a burden. Not to me, not to my brother, not to your Honey. Not to your family, and that's what all of us are. You are... You are a joy, and a pleasure. You are sustenance, for me. You are the rock I've clung to, and I will be your rock as you face this storm. You are my best friend... and you are so loved, and so cared for. You know that you don't have to face this alone... so don't face it mute.

Talk to us. Share with us. You're my mom- nothing you can give to me to carry, will be too heavy for me to do so. And I will do it gladly.

I love you to the end of the earth.

 

[Plucky19]

Dear X,

It was hard to not write to you about tonight. Very hard.

It was a proud, fulfilling and emotional moment... seeing them succeed and graduate and I was happy to even be remembered and included in it. It reaffirms my decision to participate and teach in my community.

I'd like to think that you would have been there in the back to share the moment with me. I even found myself wearing a gown, something I have avoided doing up until now, though with a fringe and fur this time. I'm sure you'd be happy about that too.

The moment ended when I got home as it usually does, but no one can take it away from me as it happened.

Thank you for believing in me,

Your punk.

 

[rida]

to X

You know what?
I have been thinking ... as I told you... I think too much....
It seemed that we hit it off ... and I was looking forward meeting you...but you never showed up.
At first I was worrying that something bad might have happened, so I googled your name here and there.
You said you are a writer but nothing written by you showed up.
It is true that I was not sure I had your real name but than I found you on Myspace.... same name, same face...and you didn't touch the page since the day we were supposed to get together.
You could have made the page just for the hell of it since there is nothing more than you & your gf's pics...
But I though: would somebody go this length of trouble just to have some stranger wait for nothing?
That is why I was more willing to believe that something happened that kept you from showing up
But than your page got accessed and up-dated ... but no words from you, not even an apology for standing me up has arrived ...
So it got me thinking ... again...
I do not like to think bad things about people.... so I'd rather judge you with the benefit of the doubt...
I guess you just changed your mind, or your gf decided that your was not an open relationship after all... Maybe you just worried I was a man, because of the short hair pic I sent you, and is not unheard of of men posing as women in personals... Well, if that is what happened .... to bad for you. I am a woman, indeed.
Or I guess you were more simply just another one that "can talk the talk but cannot walk the walk".
Now: why am I writing you this? Since you, rightly, do not give a shit about what I think?
Well, just to make myself feel better. A selfish thing.
You didn't bother letting me know you where not showing up and I waited for 40 minutes for nothing.
So I feel entitled to bother you just one more time to let you have a piece of my mind.

[this message has been sitting in my e-mail draft folder for too long ... I need to move on so I am posting it here]

 

[LittleJade]

Dear Everyone Who is Being so Kind to My Mom, as She Prepares for Chemo:


Thank you. You've no idea how much your kindness to her means to me. You've shown my mom just how beautiful this world is- you've shown me just how amazing people can be. This is ... eye-opening. Amazing.

You have made my mom's journey, her trials, this tough road... so much easier for her... and I thank you.

One by one, I will thank you.

Each and every one.

 

[NALA CAYENNE]

And the Award of Dumbass Side of Stupid goes to...

Dear X,

Thanks to your asinine antics, drama has reigned in Lit-dom, and several people were hurt, directly & indirectly, almost costing friendships. Thankfully enough, those friendships forged greater bonds despite your piss ant, childish and totally selfish behavior

The one thing I can honestly thank you for, is the fact that because of your dishonesty, I have learned who my true friends are in the face of adversity, and who I can truly trust. I had to do nothing to retaliate against you. My dear Lit friends took care of that for me as well as the other parties involved.

To prove that I am a bigger person than you in this matter, I am going to be a friend to you. Not because you deserve it (and God knows that those who love me here will probably kick my ass for this), but because you need someone in your life who believes in you and will help make you secure enough in yourself that shit like this won't happen again, and other people won't get hurt because of you.

The road to redemption with me will not be an easy one. It is paved with heavy grime that you must get through to earn the trust that I gave you but you so flagrantly pissed on. The road is also weed trodden in the hopes that as you clear it to re-earn my trust, you will find the flower called true friendship and fight hard to keep it from withering in your hands.

Keep in mind that true friends don't fuck each other over for personal gain, they bond together to be even stronger, occasionally letting those in that can also call themselves true friends.

We will discuss the details of this post when you call me. And you will call.

Not because you feel guilty, or want to cover your ass.

Not even because in your mind you see a gullible, submissive woman that you think needs you in her life.

You will call because it is the first step that you have to make to apologize for the shitstorm that you created and because in your heart, however feeble and small it may be, you know it is the thing to do to try to make things right.

Also know that you will never take advantage of me again. I am stronger than you and will not let you tear me apart.

I will not let you get that close to me again without you groveling and begging as if I were the Mistress you had to please instead of the submissive you thought you would claim.

 

[intothewoods]

Dear X,

Thanks to your asinine antics, drama has reigned in Lit-dom, and several people were hurt, directly & indirectly, almost costing friendships. Thankfully enough, those friendships forged greater bonds despite your piss ant, childish and totally selfish behavior

The one thing I can honestly thank you for, is the fact that because of your dishonesty, I have learned who my true friends are in the face of adversity, and who I can truly trust. I had to do nothing to retaliate against you. My dear Lit friends took care of that for me as well as the other parties involved.

To prove that I am a bigger person than you in this matter, I am going to be a friend to you. Not because you deserve it (and God knows that those who love me here will probably kick my ass for this), but because you need someone in your life who believes in you and will help make you secure enough in yourself that shit like this won't happen again, and other people won't get hurt because of you.

The road to redemption with me will not be an easy one. It is paved with heavy grime that you must get through to earn the trust that I gave you but you so flagrantly pissed on. The road is also weed trodden in the hopes that as you clear it to re-earn my trust, you will find the flower called true friendship and fight hard to keep it from withering in your hands.

Keep in mind that true friends don't fuck each other over for personal gain, they bond together to be even stronger, occasionally letting those in that can also call themselves true friends.

We will discuss the details of this post when you call me. And you will call.

Not because you feel guilty, or want to cover your ass.

Not even because in your mind you see a gullible, submissive woman that you think needs you in her life.

You will call because it is the first step that you have to make to apologize for the shitstorm that you created and because in your heart, however feeble and small it may be, you know it is the thing to do to try to make things right.

Also know that you will never take advantage of me again. I am stronger than you and will not let you tear me apart.

I will not let you get that close to me again without you groveling and begging as if I were the Mistress you had to please instead of the submissive you thought you would claim.

Dude. Is something up around here or what? I hope everyone is okay.

 

[NALA CAYENNE]

Dude. Is something up around here or what? I hope everyone is okay.

All is well Sweetie

 

[LittleJade]

Dear X:

I can't believe that you love the rope on me as much as you do... and I can't believe you dragged me to the bedroom, begging me to show you how I do it. I'm thrilled that seeing me bound in knots turns you on, and even more thrilled that you willingly bound me last night, and then fucked me senseless....


I can't wait to try arm bondage on you... and I'm so happy that you're open to being my guinae pig with this new style I want to learn...

This... could be the beginning of something very very wonderful for us...

 

[EmpressFi]

Dear X,

What kind of example did you set for your child. Yes, I heard you today while we were walking in front of you. You were talking loudly enough, how could we not hear you.

On a day where hundreds, if not thousands, were walking to find a cure for breast cancer. A day where it didnt seem to matter how old, how young, skin color, religion... none of that mattered because we were all united in one cause. On this day, you decided to teach your child that bigotry can be further than a person's skin color.

I still cant believe you actually said this outloud.. to your child, just as calmly as you pointed out that even the dogs were walking to cure breast cancer... "Sometimes the morbidly obese need to learn how to control themselves when eating and learn when it's time to finally lose some weight."

I was too busy walking to turn around and confront you, but I wanted to ...

Listen bitch, in the past year I've lost 105lbs. I "walk" 3-3.25 miles every other day AND follow up that work out with weight training. I'm the lowest I've weighed in 8 years. And according to my doctor, I've dropped from the morbidly obese to just obese, thank you very much. And you know what.. I've only got another 100lbs to lose and considering I've already lost more than that..there's nothing keeping me from losing the rest.. and you know what else.. I'm beautiful now dammit.. and no matter what you do.. you'll still be ugly on the inside.. and you're teaching that ugliness to your child.. and there's no "diet" that can fix that.

 

[doveofserenity]

Dear X,

What kind of example did you set for your child. Yes, I heard you today while we were walking in front of you. You were talking loudly enough, how could we not hear you.

On a day where hundreds, if not thousands, were walking to find a cure for breast cancer. A day where it didnt seem to matter how old, how young, skin color, religion... none of that mattered because we were all united in one cause. On this day, you decided to teach your child that bigotry can be further than a person's skin color.

I still cant believe you actually said this outloud.. to your child, just as calmly as you pointed out that even the dogs were walking to cure breast cancer... "Sometimes the morbidly obese need to learn how to control themselves when eating and learn when it's time to finally lose some weight."

I was too busy walking to turn around and confront you, but I wanted to ...

Listen bitch, in the past year I've lost 105lbs. I "walk" 3-3.25 miles every other day AND follow up that work out with weight training. I'm the lowest I've weighed in 8 years. And according to my doctor, I've dropped from the morbidly obese to just obese, thank you very much. And you know what.. I've only got another 100lbs to lose and considering I've already lost more than that..there's nothing keeping me from losing the rest.. and you know what else.. I'm beautiful now dammit.. and no matter what you do.. you'll still be ugly on the inside.. and you're teaching that ugliness to your child.. and there's no "diet" that can fix that.

~applauds~ And you at least had the decency not to say what you felt at the time, for the sake of the child.

 

[CutieMouse]

*****

 

[the_pet]

Dear X

I know you are tracking me through the GPS on my phone. You think you are soooo clever. What are you going to do now, huh? or is it just fun to watch me?

 

[h_i_s]

Dear X:

[deleted]

Sincerely,
me


That wasn't helping at all. Never mind......


I'm done talking about the relationship between INSIDEYOURMIND and i on these forums. Due to constant concern with not wanting to disrespect the relationship dynamic, I can't express exactly what I have wanted to, many times in the past. Sometimes when I have in the past few years, my representation of the dynamics and details of our relationship as Master and slave has been said to be unacceptable by my Owner.

I am not interested in meeting expectations by pretending that this relationship is perfect to make a good public impression. It is easier at this point to keep my postings limited to fluff threads and not post my opinions regarding relationships and BDSM etc.

I don't do drama. I have disappeared from this forum several times in the past few years and everyone has always been nice to me and welcomed me back with no questions ... every time. This is an explaination of why I disappear at times.

I feel better for getting that off my chest in this way.

 

[intothewoods]

I'm sorry. That's got to be tough. I always enjoy your posts, but I can completely see how it would be tough on your relationship.

Dear X:

[deleted]

Sincerely,
me


That wasn't helping at all. Never mind......


I'm done talking about the relationship between INSIDEYOURMIND and i on these forums. Due to constant concern with not wanting to disrespect the relationship dynamic, I can't express exactly what I have wanted to, many times in the past. Sometimes when I have in the past few years, my representation of the dynamics and details of our relationship as Master and slave has been said to be unacceptable by my Owner.

I am not interested in meeting expectations by pretending that this relationship is perfect to make a good public impression. It is easier at this point to keep my postings limited to fluff threads and not post my opinions regarding relationships and BDSM etc.

I don't do drama. I have disappeared from this forum several times in the past few years and everyone has always been nice to me and welcomed me back with no questions ... every time. This is an explaination of why I disappear at times.

I feel better for getting that off my chest in this way.

 

[h_i_s]

Thanks intothewoods