Dear X:

[DeservingBitch]

Dear Dissertation,

You suck. I hate you.

DB

 

[the captians wench]

dear Sir and Mrs. X

wish you were coming with me today.

just don't go with out me. *giggles*

wenchie

 

[SubKekiLee]

Dear X
I cannot wait until I see you today... MMMMM been more than a week since I saw you and Im craving you.... needing you.. desiring you..

 

[Homburg]

Dear X,

I've written this letter a hundred times. I've even sent you you one of the drafts. I don't know that it will ever be done, that it will ever express how I feel.

Thank you for crashing into my life. Yeah, it left wreckage, but it was truly glorious while it lasted.

Some day I will have words for what you mean to me. Some day I will be able to express it in words that shine like you shined for me. Until that day, I love you. Always will. I promise.

Yours,

...

 

[Netzach]

Dear everyone --

I love you. I need some me time.

Like serious serious me time. Like don't look at me like that when the dishes aren't done and don't rush me off the phone if I DO decide my "me time" means I want to talk to you. I need it to be about ME, follow?

So please leave your agendas, whines, and whatever makes you say "no sorry BUT..." aside for the next 48. Thank you.

Yeah, right. Worth a shot wasn't it?
Me.

 

[ShyGuy68]

Dear everyone --

I love you. I need some me time.

Like serious serious me time. Like don't look at me like that when the dishes aren't done and don't rush me off the phone if I DO decide my "me time" means I want to talk to you. I need it to be about ME, follow?

So please leave your agendas, whines, and whatever makes you say "no sorry BUT..." aside for the next 48. Thank you.

Yeah, right. Worth a shot wasn't it?
Me.

Yes Mistress!

 

[TheBlackDahlia]

To whomever will listen,

I really need help, more than I ever have before. I can't control these panic attacks, no matter how much I want to. I now find myself taking more than my regular dosage of medicine than I should (not by much, but enough to make me worried). I thought I had it under control earlier this year, but now it's coming back. This isn't how I am, this isn't how it's supposed to be. I'm a strong, intelligent, free-spirited person with more self-awareness than anyone else I know. I want to get off this medication, but I'm so afraid to. I don't want to go back to my old awkward andtimid self. The problem is that I'm scared of change, I'm scared of moving on. I need guidance, please.

"Dahlia"

 

[Homburg]

*hugs Dahlia*

I'm not qualified to help, but I can sure offer a hug.

*points to the PM thingy just in case you want some random person to talk to*

 

[HB1965]

Yes Mistress!

Damn Netzach, you've got the Dane bowing down to you? What astounding accomplishment.

 

[TheBlackDahlia]

*hugs Dahlia*

I'm not qualified to help, but I can sure offer a hug.

*points to the PM thingy just in case you want some random person to talk to*

Thank you very much

 

[northwoods_sub]

To whomever will listen,

I really need help, more than I ever have before. I can't control these panic attacks, no matter how much I want to. I now find myself taking more than my regular dosage of medicine than I should (not by much, but enough to make me worried). I thought I had it under control earlier this year, but now it's coming back. This isn't how I am, this isn't how it's supposed to be. I'm a strong, intelligent, free-spirited person with more self-awareness than anyone else I know. I want to get off this medication, but I'm so afraid to. I don't want to go back to my old awkward andtimid self. The problem is that I'm scared of change, I'm scared of moving on. I need guidance, please.

"Dahlia"

{{{{{HUGS}}}}}

As Homburg said, feel free to pm if you want. My family is a smorgasborg of these type of issues, depression, panic attacks, social anxiety disorders. I would be happy to talk if you need it.

 

[Evil_Geoff]

To whomever will listen,

I really need help, more than I ever have before. I can't control these panic attacks, no matter how much I want to. I now find myself taking more than my regular dosage of medicine than I should (not by much, but enough to make me worried). I thought I had it under control earlier this year, but now it's coming back. This isn't how I am, this isn't how it's supposed to be. I'm a strong, intelligent, free-spirited person with more self-awareness than anyone else I know. I want to get off this medication, but I'm so afraid to. I don't want to go back to my old awkward andtimid self. The problem is that I'm scared of change, I'm scared of moving on. I need guidance, please.

"Dahlia"

Hi Dahlia,

Wish I could help... but I can only offer friendship and support for you.

For some people, the meds are not an option, they treat a chemical imbalance that is causing the symptoms. For some, their issues come from an underlying emotional, spiritual, or psychological problem and the meds are needed to treat the symptoms until the underlying issues can be resolved or cured.

Some conditions can't be cured, they can only be controlled. Granted, my diabetes isn't a psychological disorder, but it serves as a good analogy about conditions that can be controlled. I'll have diabetes the rest of my life unless someway is found to restore my body's ability to process sugar properly. At one point not all that long ago I was taking two different kinds of insulin shots, and two oral medications. And my endocrinologist was telling me I would probably be on insulin the rest of my life.

Today I am taking a single oral medication because I owned my part in the disease, took responsibility for fixing, as much as possible, the damage I have done to myself, and took those necessary, if unwanted, steps...

I understand that I will ALWAYS have to do something to control the disease. Meds, exercise, diet restrictions, something... Always something. I can't just do nothing and expect it to go away.

You too, may have an illness that you will ALWAYS have to do something to control. You might have to take meds all your life. You may find mental exercises, disciplines if you will, that will allow you to conquer and control your anxiety. You may need long and difficult counselling to bring you to healing if your anxiety has it's roots in emotional or psychological damage you suffered. I don't know the details of your situation, but I understand the frustration and the fear and the unfairness...

There are ways to deal with your illness, and I hope you find the things that work best for you, that give you the most freedom and joy possible. Own it. It IS who you are, now. It may not be who you were. It may not be who you will be in the future. But it IS who you are, today.

And like the rest of us out here dealing with chronic conditions, the best you may be able to do is learn how to control it and muddle through it all, one day at a time, one hour at a time, sometimes one minute at a time.

And your friends will be here hon. With a {{{{HUG}}}} or a banana or a flower or a kisss to encourage you, to brighten your day, to let you know you are thought about, cared for, valued.

 

[SubKekiLee]

To whomever will listen,

I really need help, more than I ever have before. I can't control these panic attacks, no matter how much I want to. I now find myself taking more than my regular dosage of medicine than I should (not by much, but enough to make me worried). I thought I had it under control earlier this year, but now it's coming back. This isn't how I am, this isn't how it's supposed to be. I'm a strong, intelligent, free-spirited person with more self-awareness than anyone else I know. I want to get off this medication, but I'm so afraid to. I don't want to go back to my old awkward andtimid self. The problem is that I'm scared of change, I'm scared of moving on. I need guidance, please.

"Dahlia"

Dahila
I am here as well for you if you so need it.. I am sorry you are going thru this... {{{{BD}}}}}}

 

[TheBlackDahlia]

Dear B,

Thank you so much for answering my message and finally putting my fears to rest last night. Though we may never be the couple I once hoped we would be, I just want you to know that I care deeply about you and love you. You don't know how good it feels to have someone who understands me and gets my behavior, even when it's out of line. I've been so angry and reclusive, yet you still don't think down on me. No matter what happens, no matter where you go, please don't ever forget about me. And don't you dare transfer because then I'll cry.

Sincerely,

*******

 

[Blushing Bottom]

Dear S;

You are aware of the fact that I am about to put myself in the hands of another. Wondered if you had any thoughts about that?

 

[TheBlackDahlia]

Thank you everyone for all of your kind messages yesterday. I've been feeling slightly better today, though not as well as I'd like. Change is never easy, but once you take that first step, you'll feel so much better than you did before. I promise to keep all of you in mind should I ever need someone to talk to.

 

[the captians wench]

Dearest friend,

consider this a public invitation. Whether you believe it or not, I do consider you a friend dear to my heart. It's been nice to have a gal pal to talk to, some one who understands the choices I have made in how I live my life, and to loose that would be a tragidy. I am here for you, if you want me.

I know some things are going on that you don't understand, and are hurt by. I wish the hurt had not come, and I hope understanding will. And I may not be able to help you, but I can listen. I can give my perspective, my experience. Or I can be another shoulder to cry on, another sounding board for you to throw your pain at. But I can only do what you will let me.

I do care about you because I care about you, and my feelings for you has nothing to do with any one else. It pains me when you shut me out, and it hurts me to know that you are miserable and I can't even voice my concern.

So here it is, my olive branch if you will. My friendship has always been there for you, and it always will be when and if you are ever ready to recieve it.

With all my heart
wenchie

 

[SubKekiLee]

Dear J
Well I will accept your apology this time... But we must lay down ground rules for communcation for my own sanity....... I was going crazy this weekend and not knowing made it even worse.. I cant wait to hear your voice tonight... Ive missed you.....

your cumslut

 

[the_pet]

http://i120.photobucket.com/albums/o180/onesilentfeather/19530831a33446265b519438965l.jpg
~pet~

 

[northwoods_sub]

Dear X,
Get out of my head! You don't belong here, you have a place of your own to be. D thinks that I am reading too much into this and I really hope that I am. Maybe it is just me that has changed and I am picking up signals that aren't there.
I am strong in many ways yet I am weak. Please don't let me be weak. I want to be strong, but if you are invading my thoughts this way I will have to fight harder to maintain my strength. I haven't had to deal with men flirting with me in so long I am out of practice. Forgive me and help me remember how to be a flirt with out feeling submissive.

Thank You,

T

 

[LittleJade]

Dear X:

*sigh* I don't even know what to say to you, except that I wish you could take away all of the stress on my shoulders. I woke up this morning around 3, and had to consciously straighten my shoulders out, they were so tensed up. The LSAT, the walk, my mom, work, health... I feel like I'm struggling to breathe sometimes... and it's so hard to be strong... I have no desire to be weak, but sometimes I just want to cry for no apparent reason...

I hate the facade... I hate it... and I just want to sleep and sleep and sleep...

 

[Kajira Callista]

Dear Daddy,
I was so ok with things during your illness...i knew what was coming and we all knew you were going to die. I managed to get through the funeral without a trip to the ER...I'm still not smoking btw.
So why does it feel like someone tore half of my soul out and took it away?
I miss so many things about you but what I miss most today is your ability to ground me and make me think logically without making me feel stupid. I know what you would say and can hear your words in my head...but its not the same as hearing you say them for real.
I don't think I'm ever going to get over losing my father...I know you wouldnt like that much but its true.
Love,
Me

 

[Homburg]

Dear X,

I miss you. We were friends before this, and some sort of friends now, but it isn't the same. I miss that. I miss the laughing, the joking, and the smiles. I miss being able to just hang out with you. I miss feeling totally comfortable around you, and you feeling totally comfortable around me.

It'll never be like that again, and I hate it.

I miss you, and I wish we could trust each other again like we used to.

-H.


(And the sad thing is that this note could be applied to a couple of people in my life...)

 

[the_pet]

Dear X

you're right when you say i don't surrender to you completely, that you know alot of it is done under "silent protest"

pet

 

[nowgirl]

Dear X:

Where have you been? I miss you.

nowgirl