Dear X:

[Guest]

Dear Drama Queen,

Its been a long while since we've spoken. In fact, I don't believe I've ever voiced my feelings to you. I think I might have been afraid of ramifications, but hell, you only live once, right?

Before you came into our lives, we were just beginning to find our way and we were so very happy. I believed that we were on the way to really making strides with our girls and our surroundings.

Then you came into our home, into our lives like a tornado that no weather forecaster could have predicted. It doesn't matter if you are just walking into the room, the entire feeling of it changes. You leave a trail of stress that gags everyone in your wake.

You have no thought of anyones feelings but your own and are quite happy to sit atop this proverbial throne which you have built and adorned.

I'm tired now. I'm ready for you to leave. I will use my own last burst of strength to help you pack and be on your way. I will love you... from a distance.

V~

 

[Fallenfromgrace]

Dear Fallen

Would you like to borrow mine for a little while? She gives great hugs.

JL

Dear JL,

I think you need her more than i do, and i wouldn't want to take her from you. I'll take her on a short loan though- and i'll bring her back on time, i imagine the fine per second late would be more than i can afford as a student.



Fallen

 

[cloudy]

Dear M:

I'm sorry you feel that way. You're wrong, because, no, I did not lie to you for two years, but I'm still sorry. If it makes you feel better to hate me, by all means, go right ahead, although it diminishes you. Hate comes back to haunt you in spades, but it's your karma, not mine.

BTW, you're a coward, as well, for shutting me out the way you did. Truth hurts.

~ Cloudy

 

[AppleBiter]

Dear Sandman,

I've noticed that you've been slacking off. I don't know if you're just not paying attention or if your aim has been off, but only a few grains of sand have been managing to make their way into my son's eyes, causing him to sleep for very, very short periods at a time. If your job performance fails to improve, I'm afraid that I'll have to contact your supervisor.

AppleMama

 

[Guest]

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[SimpleGifts]

Dear Herself:

Yes, I do love you still. I always will. I gave you my heart to keep, and I meant it. And I respect that you couldn't go on with the way things were and you had to walk away. As much as it killed me...I know it nearly killed you too. That's just how it has to be now.

But you should know better than to come back and offer to be friends and expect it all to be ok. I want to stay your friend. I want to be able to help you, to be part of your life, even if we can't be together. But the friendship you've offered so far won't cut it. I'm not here just to reassure you and reconfirm my love for you every time another new lover dumps you, or you dump him. I'm not here to sympathize with you because you're sleeping with other guys but none of them compare to me. I'm not here to sit and tell you it's ok when you figure out that another guy is just using you for sex. I still can't understand how a woman as wise and smart as you can be so naive as to think that sleeping with a guy on the second date, just so you can make sure he's good in bed, is the best way to find out if he's a good long-term partner for you.

You complained to me that guys treat you like you're good enough to fuck but not good enough to date. If you throw out the signal that you're mainly interested in finding someone good to fuck, why would a guy bother getting to know you well enough to date you? He's going to see how lucky he is to get into your bed, and keep coming back until you finally realize that he's only there until he can find someone he really wants...and then you get to dump him and listen to him say that he doesn't deserve you. Of course he doesn't deserve you...but maybe you'd have more success if you figured that out BEFORE you invited him to your house to meet your daughter and have sex with you every week.

And the fact that you're willing to tell me all this doesn't show that you value my opinion and my friendship...it shows that you want my reassurance and my validation of your behavior, no matter what it does to my feelings.

We still love each other, and we shared a love that few will ever experience. So please stop and think before you kill it.

SG

 

[Fallenfromgrace]

Dear Dr. P. 'M'.

I dont know what is expected of me. One minute im the one that is 'off', and i give you what you keep asking for, and probably what i needed. It seemed that lead to your disclosure which ultimately was too much for you to think about. Then it meant that you were the one that was 'off' and you wont let me react to that. I can't react to a vacuum, and therefore to not be responded to is not allowing me to show you that i care and want you to give me what you've been asking of me too.

I don't suppose any of that made much sense, but it needed writting.

~Me.

 

[darkerdreamer]

Dear Insignificant Other,

Time to air out this ancient laundry.

I've been patient, you have to give me that much. Hell, I make patience look like a kiddy pool the way I've been wading in it. Every problem we have that you've told me "you don't want to talk about now", I stored in a mental file for later. I pulled that file out from time to time, going to down list to see if it was the right time to talk about them. Every single time you tell me to put it away, that we should discuss all that sometime later.

That's fine; I had time to waste waiting.

Now here we are, almost two years later and that file is bigger than ever. Let’s look at the time line:

-We haven't had sex in almost six months.
-We haven't even seen each other in almost four weeks.
-We haven't gone out in two months.

and finally,

-We haven't solved a single one of those problems in two years.

You say "I'll work on it". I say "I'll do anything to help, I don't know if it's you or me." Everyone says I need to fucking leave.

I've ignored everyone for one year and five months, now. Was it wrong for me to have waited, wishing you would see that you really would lose me if things didn't change? Was it wrong for me to bury my hurt when you made no effort, over and over again? Is it my fault now that I don't think anything could fix us, even if you did a 180 degree turn?

Thank you for showing me I'm not the awful person I always assumed I was. Thank you for reaching that better person inside. Thank you for showing me that I deserve to be truly loved.

I'm just sorry you couldn't be that person who truly loved me.

Goodbye.
-2D

 

[TitilateMe]

To the annoying person who left me feedback on my story:

Why would you take the time to comment with a series of idiotic sexual cliches? It's a waste of your time and mine.

TM

P.S. The aureoles are completely wrong, and it's not my "hot box." Just for the record.

 

[ABSTRUSE]

Celie: Until you do right by me everything you think about is gonna crumble!
Albert: Who you think you is? You can curse nobody. Look at you. Your black, your poor, your ugly, your a woman, your nothing at all!
Celie: Until you do right by me, everything you even think about gonna fail!
Albert: I shoulda locked you up. Just let you out to work.
Celie: The jail you plan for me is the one you gonna rot in!
Albert: I'ma knock you under...
[Celie hold up some kind of sign]
Celie: Everything you done to me, you already under you.

Dear Mister,

I know you are probably reading this because you have to feel you need to stalk me. Go right ahead.
You may think that verbally abusing me is going to make things better, but just keep in mind, all that negative you spew at me comes back to you three times worse.
I know who I am.

Celie.

 

[lucky-E-leven]

Dear X,

Yes, I understand being busy. It happens to everyone. I just wish there was a way you could find a way to be busy without making me feel so completely and utterly avoided and worthless.

Thanks,
Lucky

 

[Trombonus]

Dear mom,

All I ever wanted from you was for you to show even a shred of interest in me. Do you think I can't see through your bullshit? You think you can fake caring about me because you're family and it wont matter? Do you realize how much you've hurt not only me but my entire family? You wonder why we are the way we are. Well, all you need to do is take a good long look in the mirror. Thank God I've met good people in my life, people who have cared about me even when you have not. You think your threats will get me to do things for you? You wonder why I never come to you when I am in trouble or need someone to turn to. There are reasons why I turn to my friends rather than you. I am so glad I only have a few months left in this house. Unfortunately for you, it will be the last time you ever see me. Maybe then you'll understand your mistake. Maybe when you're alone, and my father has left you and your children refuse to speak to you will you see the truth. Yes, there is a reason why I never call you when I go away. Your words mean nothing to me. You yourself mean less and less to me every day. I've tried so hard not to hate you, and for all you've put me through I still don't. You are my mother after all, and nothing will ever change that. But that is the only connection left. All those tear filled moments. The fear I've always felt. It'll all be over soon.

Farewell
Your former son.

 

[ChristopherMaxwell]

Dear mom,

All I ever wanted from you was for you to show even a shred of interest in me. Do you think I can't see through your bullshit? You think you can fake caring about me because you're family and it wont matter? Do you realize how much you've hurt not only me but my entire family? You wonder why we are the way we are. Well, all you need to do is take a good long look in the mirror. Thank God I've met good people in my life, people who have cared about me even when you have not. You think your threats will get me to do things for you? You wonder why I never come to you when I am in trouble or need someone to turn to. There are reasons why I turn to my friends rather than you. I am so glad I only have a few months left in this house. Unfortunately for you, it will be the last time you ever see me. Maybe then you'll understand your mistake. Maybe when you're alone, and my father has left you and your children refuse to speak to you will you see the truth. Yes, there is a reason why I never call you when I go away. Your words mean nothing to me. You yourself mean less and less to me every day. I've tried so hard not to hate you, and for all you've put me through I still don't. You are my mother after all, and nothing will ever change that. But that is the only connection left. All those tear filled moments. The fear I've always felt. It'll all be over soon.

Farewell
Your former son.

That's a lot of pain. Hope that it is resolved.

 

[Just-Legal]

Dear All above this post:

Have a hug.

*hug*

--

Dear locum:

Fuck. You. You did not read my notes, you did not check my med history, and I did NOT ask for sedatives! Give me my damn Antidepressants and leave me the fuck alone. When my regular doctor comes back from study leave I don't think she'll be too impressed with you.

And for the record - calling someone with serious depressive problems "an attention seeker" is borderline malpractice, and all I did was ask about the state of my psyche referal.

Idiot. Doctors like you are the reason I suffered in silence for six years.

 

[FallingToFly]

Not anger at all-

Dear Cat-

You are an amazing human being. Can I be you when I grow up? (Minus the dangly bits, of course.)

Love,

Fly

 

[SeaCat]

Dear Cat-

You are an amazing human being. Can I be you when I grow up? (Minus the dangly bits, of course.)

Love,

Fly

Do you truly want to be me? Somehow I dont think so, and yet I am honored that you feel this way. As for my being an amazing human being? Nope, I am just me.

Cat

 

[SeaCat]

Dear Rosa,

I understand why you had to leave, and yet it cuts me to the bone.

You are the one person we have allowed into our lives. We love you like no one has ever loved you before. You are part o our lives and truly part of our family. You and your children are welcome here.

We do understand why you left southern Florida for New York, and yet we hope that you will return to us. You are first and foremost famly.

Cat

 

[arienette]

Dear AH,

I miss you, every single one of you.

Dear Cloudy,

I am so sorry to hear about everything going on in your life. You're right, your plate is awfully full and I wish you the best of luck in everything in your life and everything you do. Good people don't come out on top half as much as they should, but you are in my thoughts and I am sending you nothing but good vibes.

-- ari

Dear J,

I've been a recluse for a while now and haven't communicated and I know you well enough to know you've been doing the same. Getting out of bed is a struggle, never mind picking up the phone and I know you understand. I don't know what's going on with you and I've never been very good at taking the reins of communication into my own hands, but I do intend to try again very soon. I need a coffee break and I bet you do as well. I've tried to tell you how much I love you so very much quite a few times before -- You're the only mother I will ever have and you've taken such delicate care of me for years. You are my inspiration for every line of poetry I pen, my light to keep going forward when I can do nothing but sit idly and wait for yet another day to pass me by. You are my idol and I could never find someone who has touched me even a fraction of how much you have.

-- Your loving and always here even if I'm not "here", daughter ari

 

[Guest]

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[SEVERUSMAX]

Dear AH,

I miss you, every single one of you.

Dear Cloudy,

I am so sorry to hear about everything going on in your life. You're right, your plate is awfully full and I wish you the best of luck in everything in your life and everything you do. Good people don't come out on top half as much as they should, but you are in my thoughts and I am sending you nothing but good vibes.

-- ari

Dear J,

I've been a recluse for a while now and haven't communicated and I know you well enough to know you've been doing the same. Getting out of bed is a struggle, never mind picking up the phone and I know you understand. I don't know what's going on with you and I've never been very good at taking the reins of communication into my own hands, but I do intend to try again very soon. I need a coffee break and I bet you do as well. I've tried to tell you how much I love you so very much quite a few times before -- You're the only mother I will ever have and you've taken such delicate care of me for years. You are my inspiration for every line of poetry I pen, my light to keep going forward when I can do nothing but sit idly and wait for yet another day to pass me by. You are my idol and I could never find someone who has touched me even a fraction of how much you have.

-- Your loving and always here even if I'm not "here", daughter ari

Dear Ari...we've missed you. Welcum back.

 

[Trombonus]

Dear AH,

I miss you, every single one of you.

-- ari

Dear Ari,

We miss you too.

Trom

 

[Guest]

Dear All above this post:

Have a hug.

*hug*

--

Dear locum:

Fuck. You. You did not read my notes, you did not check my med history, and I did NOT ask for sedatives! Give me my damn Antidepressants and leave me the fuck alone. When my regular doctor comes back from study leave I don't think she'll be too impressed with you.

And for the record - calling someone with serious depressive problems "an attention seeker" is borderline malpractice, and all I did was ask about the state of my psyche referal.

Idiot. Doctors like you are the reason I suffered in silence for six years.

dear jl~
totally sympathetic. had a doctor tell me i was drug seeking when i asked for fiorcet for my migrains. i never went back to her. amazing how one statement from someone we place trust in, can start a maelstrom of emotion.

it hurts.

whats really cool about you is that youre taking your experience and instead of running like me, youre seeing this situation for what it is. you are ever so much stronger than i was.

keep the strength.

 

[cloudy]

Dear Sinuses,

it wasn't enough to wake me at 4:30 am with the most ungodly pain under my cheekbones, but now you have to extend those fingers of pain down to my teeth, and out to my ears.

What have I ever done to you?

~ cloudy

 

[impressive]

Dear All Known Deities,

Please watch over my brother while he's in Dubai.

Much obliged,

~ Imp

 

[Guest]

dear eldest daughter,
dont be moody with me. dont act out against me because i want to see you in concert. who the fuck do you think you are? how about taking a chill pill and helping me out around the house? how about seeing life from my point of view since ive been looking at things from your end for years now?

you need to realize that i love you. you need to understand that i have been and always will be your biggest fan, your strongest champion. slinging shit at me isnt going to change that. grow up, child. act as mature as you think you are.

i love you. im not going any where no matter how hard you push.
mom.