Dear Diary.

[Betticus]

That's odd..

Apparently my house is haunted, the roomie has reported that a banging noise woke him the other night while I was at work. Said he came to see if someone was beating on the door only to discover that the kitchen cabinet doors were banging open and closed. Said it went on for a bit. Then Thursday night he and his gf were in the kitchen when he saw two shadowy, ephereal silhouettes behind her, they moved off toward the bedroom part of the house. They had been at the bar so soon after he fell asleep but she was up all night terrified.

I've heard odd voices when no one's around or coming seemingly from an empty room or strange noises here and there but nothing like that.

Even ghosts don't mess with doms!!!

Sometimes the cat freaks out and will come running out of the back of the house with her fur all puffed out or she meows away at nothing.

 

[graceanne]

That's odd..

Apparently my house is haunted, the roomie has reported that a banging noise woke him the other night while I was at work. Said he came to see if someone was beating on the door only to discover that the kitchen cabinet doors were banging open and closed. Said it went on for a bit. Then Thursday night he and his gf were in the kitchen when he saw two shadowy, ephereal silhouettes behind her, they moved off toward the bedroom part of the house. They had been at the bar so soon after he fell asleep but she was up all night terrified.

I've heard odd voices when no one's around or coming seemingly from an empty room or strange noises here and there but nothing like that.

Even ghosts don't mess with doms!!!

Sometimes the cat freaks out and will come running out of the back of the house with her fur all puffed out or she meows away at nothing.

Ok, that's creepy.

 

[Betticus]

While I admit that some off things have occurred nothing I've seen has genuinely creeped me out. In the case of the roomie he's having a hard time controlling his alcohol problem and I'm taking it all with that in mind and that it could even be alcohol induced dementia.

I'll discuss this possibility with him later as it may serve as a motivator.

 

[graceanne]

While I admit that some off things have occurred nothing I've seen has genuinely creeped me out. In the case of the roomie he's having a hard time controlling his alcohol problem and I'm taking it all with that in mind and that it could even be alcohol induced dementia.

I'll discuss this possibility with him later as it may serve as a motivator.

Still creepy. Did his girlfriend see the figures or only him? Cause it sounds like she wasn't that drunk.

 

[Betticus]

Still creepy. Did his girlfriend see the figures or only him? Cause it sounds like she wasn't that drunk.

He said they were behind her and that she was busy watching him turn white and get scared. By the time she caught on to what was going on it was already gone. He did say it was two figures, one adult sized and one child sized and that the big one was a dark shadow and the little one was bright.

The way he described it can probably be thought of as seeing someones aura without the person being there... just a vague outline shape, kind of shadowy or glowing depending on which one you're talking about.

It does seem kind of vivid. He said that he usually hears a girls voice when he's in the shower, like someone is on the other side of the curtain talking softly, when he checks of course there's nothing there.

 

[kiten69]

He said they were behind her and that she was busy watching him turn white and get scared. By the time she caught on to what was going on it was already gone. He did say it was two figures, one adult sized and one child sized and that the big one was a dark shadow and the little one was bright.

The way he described it can probably be thought of as seeing someones aura without the person being there... just a vague outline shape, kind of shadowy or glowing depending on which one you're talking about.

It does seem kind of vivid. He said that he usually hears a girls voice when he's in the shower, like someone is on the other side of the curtain talking softly, when he checks of course there's nothing there.

Remind me to never come visit you. . .ghosts creep me out!

 

[gypsy*seer]

I have a ghost(s) in my house, too!

Every now and then I will be awakened by a very weird vibration of my bed frame. (no, it's not what you're thinking! ) Only lasts for a second or two, then stops. Like someone trying to get my attention.

Also, in one of my spare bedrooms, I can actually feel the presence of another 'energy' ~ the only way to describe it. My brother, who has had more psychic phenomena experience than me, also feels it strongly when he is at my house.

I have lived here for 10 years and it hasn't creeped me out yet, but then again, I haven't seen anything really scary. (and I get scared pretty easily! lol)

 

[Plasmaball]

Dear Diary,

Why do I deserve this? Why hasnt the chaos ended? Why does it feel like one more thing is just piled on top of it all after things are getting settled? Why did he have to rip my heart out and stomp on it like this? Because I was stressed? Life is stress. Sure we picked a few fights, but really? "Long break?" Remain friends if nothing else? Just seems like hes so finalized in his decision, but string me along for the fuck of it.

But how do you turn away from the man you would lay down everything for?

i am sure his mind was a mess and in great turmoil.
Things are said when heated and in passion.
It happens all the time.
Sometimes its to late to see it.

 

[Nymphomaniacal]

Dear Diary-

Life. Is. Awesome. Now.
And UMB you better find my PM box soon I miss you.

The end.

 

[DVS]

He said they were behind her and that she was busy watching him turn white and get scared. By the time she caught on to what was going on it was already gone. He did say it was two figures, one adult sized and one child sized and that the big one was a dark shadow and the little one was bright.

The way he described it can probably be thought of as seeing someones aura without the person being there... just a vague outline shape, kind of shadowy or glowing depending on which one you're talking about.

It does seem kind of vivid. He said that he usually hears a girls voice when he's in the shower, like someone is on the other side of the curtain talking softly, when he checks of course there's nothing there.

You mention he's got an alcohol problem? Is he trying to quit? The lack of alcohol can also cause you to see things that aren't there. But, if he was drunk at the time, that wouldn't be the problem.

At any rate, I love ghosts and would really like to visit with some. So, if you could tell them to come visit me, I'd appreciate it. Ghosts are just people lost between here and there.

Now, if it's a poltergeist or demon, you can keep the damn thing.

 

[Plasmaball]

Dear X
I dont like leaving things on a sour note.
All i want is to leave on a good note and let it go.
I dont think that is asking to much is it?
Maybe one day they will see what was there.

ill be here....

 

[ultramarineblue]

Dear Diary-

Life. Is. Awesome. Now.
And UMB you better find my PM box soon I miss you.

The end.

I'll find it real soon. Hopefully, I'll have all sorts of fun things to tell you about from today. That is, if I can finish getting ready and get on the road.

Miss you too!!!!

 

[Nymphomaniacal]

I'll find it real soon. Hopefully, I'll have all sorts of fun things to tell you about from today. That is, if I can finish getting ready and get on the road.

Miss you too!!!!

Hurry hurry!!

 

[Plasmaball]

Dear dairy,

Learned a lot today. Also had a lot of fun. ate my favorite burger with my best gal.

Came home and had a wonderful time with my family. Life is peaceful now and i feel like a giant weight was lifted off my head and heart. I realize i lost something but what i found hiding behind that lose was 10x greater than i ever expected.

Its interesting how hindsight does this. While i am curious to see what the future brings, and i think it will be great. The past will always be there to remind me of the truth.


My heart is large and full, and ready to give it to her fully.

 

[Nymphomaniacal]

Dear Diary-

We put my puppy down today. She was nine and had 5 seizures today do to the brain tumor. Im not sure how I feel at the moment, just kinda....exanimate or maybe blank. Poor thing. 5 seizures. Its hard but it was the right thing to do. At least I have the support of a good man and good friends behind me right now. I need it.


On another side note, I have never played games and dont plan to start now.

I think its a good night to play my game, talk to him and listen to my new favorite song on repeat. Joe Budden - Future. Sigh.

-Me.

 

[ultramarineblue]

Dear Diary-

We put my puppy down today. She was nine and had 5 seizures today do to the brain tumor. Im not sure how I feel at the moment, just kinda....exanimate or maybe blank. Poor thing. 5 seizures. Its hard but it was the right thing to do. At least I have the support of a good man and good friends behind me right now. I need it.


On another side note, I have never played games and dont plan to start now.

I think its a good night to play my game, talk to him and listen to my new favorite song on repeat. Joe Budden - Future. Sigh.

-Me.

*huge hugs*

 

[Plasmaball]

Dear diary:

So its my one year anniversy with my girl. Who knew that was going to happen?
Through the lies, cheating, and drama. Hell i was even being threatened, when all I wanted to do was move on with my life.
She got me the Flash figure i wanted at the hallmark store. I feel loved and lucky.Its nice not being alone.


Later tonight its dinner and a movie. Wolverine for some mind escaping action!

 

[angela7sexygirl]

Dear Diary-

We put my puppy down today. She was nine and had 5 seizures today do to the brain tumor. Im not sure how I feel at the moment, just kinda....exanimate or maybe blank. Poor thing. 5 seizures. Its hard but it was the right thing to do. At least I have the support of a good man and good friends behind me right now. I need it.


On another side note, I have never played games and dont plan to start now.

I think its a good night to play my game, talk to him and listen to my new favorite song on repeat. Joe Budden - Future. Sigh.

-Me.

Ouch, I am sorry to hear about puppy. I just had to do that 2 weeks ago, never easy.

 

[estellacumsalot79]

When the truth finally comes out

Dear Melissa,

I need to say what needs to be said. I am rather sure this is going to fall on deaf ears, these types of adult discussions typically due when you are dealing with a child. It takes one or two readings to actually get what is being said to the person. If you're reading this, do me a favor, read it, take the first initial response and push it aside. Read it again and don't emotionally react. Think back to when we were really doing well and channel that side of Melissa.

I know what it is like to have that attitude that the grass is greener on the other side. I've made that mistake a few times in my life. From the most recent of moving to California to the stupidest to believing someone who I met online. I understand the emotional reaction to meeting someone new and the promises that these people will make. It always seems grand in the beginning, the thrill of someone new, the attention given, the promises made due to the adrenaline. Living in the high is a wonderful thing, gives you power to ignore logic and reason. The high allows you to disregard responsibilities. I should know, I have been there many times in my life.

I know you're not going to listen or care at the moment but I have to get this out. I thought I could help guide you to be the woman I thought you could be. Naturally what you did threw me for a loop. In the back of my mind I was actually waiting for it. I knew eventually things would get so hard that you would run. That the lies would eventually catch up and you would feel trapped. Bob gives you that excuse to run off and start new, therefore not having to face your problems, your reality, using him as a buffer so you don't have to deal with loss. I guarantee you those problems will not go away, it may be six months from now or three weeks, they will all catch up to you and the vicious cycle will start all over again. California and moving taught me this.

I understand Bob; I understand why you ran to him. I understand why you're acting the way you're acting. I know why you're saying the things that you are saying. I know why you sit there and say you don't care. I bet you anything at this point you're rolling your eyes. I understand this as well because I would be too. Its a natural reaction when you hear something in the back of your mind you know is true. Like I said earlier push the emotion away and understand what I am saying, don't react to it.

If you were that unhappy I was not going to hold you back. Sadly this did not happen the way it should have happened. Instead the lies where built on lies and so on. Hell I would have even supported you and talked to you about it had you been an adult on the matter but once again you choose the easy way out, the cowardly way.

I don't regret seeing you or meeting you. I don't regret having you in my life laughing and smiling. When I sit there and care and love someone I mean it. It may not be the sweep you off your feet kind of love. Regardless of that, when I love someone, even ex's its rich or poor, good times and the bad and the other ups and downs we encounter in our lives. I will always be there to support them when it is needed. Yet these people who may or may not be in my life at the moment need to be at least honest with themselves. They need to be honest with me as well.

This is who I am in a nut shell. I am an adult when I need to be and I know how to treat the people I love and care about. You should know this. You even commented how I am different when I am around my family. You know how I would do anything for my family, no matter how much they might piss me off. I treat the people outside my family that I love the same way. With family though we all understand at some point we all must come clean in order to be ok. We all have our ways of doing this. I’ve fought with my sister for 3 hours over stupid shit that was solved in one sentence.

I get it Melissa; you are young and want to have fun. I understand you are just not there yet to be what I thought you were ready to be. You have many wild times (maybe) a head of you. A lot of heartache and happiness to experience, People who will tell you things only to let you down over and over again.
Melissa I still care about you. I always will. Yet until you actually can grow up and admit to what you have done and I see actual regret. I need to honestly move on and live my life. I also think you do as well. So if it ever comes and you are ready I will be here to talk with you.

Someone asked me why would I put up with someone who lied, used, manipulated, ragged on my family and loved one, and in a sense cheated on me. It’s a hard question to answer because those are rather bad things for someone to do. Yet I did have an answer for them. Part of it is something I said to you earlier. How I am when I love someone. It’s the truth.

The other part of the answer is that I think of the good times. I think of the smiles, the toy hunting, the relaxing, and the pictures we took. That’s how I want to see you for the rest of my life. While other people say things, only my opinion of you is what truly matters when it comes to you.

Now I wasn’t perfect. I wasn’t honest with you about the Miranda thing. Yet for the most part I really was honest with you. I really tried with you Melissa. I gave you everything I could give you. I guess you could say it wasn’t everything because I wanted two women. I know for a fact though I really tried my hardest to make you happy. Talk things out with you, cuddle you, hold you and just be there for you. BTW I saved those pictures of us. Remember washing away your past does not wash away your sins. I want to remember you. I want to remember what you did and how I feel.

I am a fool for writing this letter to you. Your hatred for me and not caring about me will make this letter seem pointless. I really don’t know how you will view this letter. That may not even really matter either. I am saying my piece and moving on with my life.

I am so pissed at you right now Melissa. Seems you actually went to the party and fucked Tom anyways. You fucked him a few times afterwards. You said you hated him? That was all a ruse to have me defend you?
What’s left Melissa? What the fuck else did you lie about to me? But you are to much of a fucking cunt to answer me aren’t you. Was there at anytime you actually wanted to be with me? Was there anytime you actually loved me? Really you did all this because it was just fun and you needed to pass the time?
How did you manage to get so fucked up? I don’t get it. I fucking loved you and did all I could. ALL I COULD and yet you fucked him? What’s the reason? You were in limbo? You said you wouldn’t go to the party! You already went to it and then asked me didn’t you. That’s how it comes off now that I think about it.
To think about the time I took, the effort I made to make sure you were happy, that you had what you needed. I don’t get it.

For some retarded backwards reason I still care about you and don’t want to see you be a failure with your life. If you had came clean and then wanted to walk away I would have been ok with it. It would have hurt, but I could at least know you where honest with me.

Sadly this isn’t the case due to some lacking you have. You have the ability to confess this shit to other people, but the one person who actually thought the world of you doesn’t matter.

 

[Nymphomaniacal]

Dear Diary-

Im 21 today WWOOOO!

Time to have some fun This years going to be great.

-Me