Hitchiker69
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I know your situation exactly. When I was just beginning to enjoy sex with men I always felt awkward afterwards. I didn't feel comfortable identifying as a gay man. So I always made sure I had sex with at least one woman before I'd allow myself to suck a cock again. That helped me keep a sense of balance, and not 'go off the deep end' I wasn't denying my love of cock, just keeping it in perspective and in balance. Also, I never sucked a guy I knew, and never saw the same guy twice...always one night stands. It helped keep the distance for me. Now, years later, I'd be ready for a regular date, a guy I could see on a regular basis and satisfy both our needsOkay, I've made the jump from bi-curious to bi-golly-I-like-this. Earlier this year, after a couple years of thinking about it, I contacted a man who had expressed a similar situation and disposition towards having a JO bud. First time was super-awkward but hot. Very much on the downlow btw. Second time, several weeks later, was less awkward and hotter! Another few weeks and we met again, traded blowjobs and WOW! I was addicted to cocksucking. Except I haven't had the opportunity to meet again and I don't want to be addicted to cocksucking. Hmmm, it is a hinky spot for me, not sure I want to continue because of my extreme enjoyment (might go off the deep end) or just call it an experience and cut off all contact.
You tell me, guys, how does that sound? Where are y'all at?