Confessions: What Are Yours? Part IV

[Chris_Michael]

I believe my genes need to be clensed from the gene pool. It would be inhumane for me to reproduce. The child would be predisposed to anxiety, depression, obesity, diabetes, addiction, schizophrenia (which I do NOT have), and problems with being social.

Everybody thinks that all lives matter. Natural Selection says otherwise.

 

[tnman03]

ICT Reading depths of despair and discontentment herein is disconcerting. I once walked that pathway, decided I didn't like it and enacted positive change.

It's my sincerest wish those of you dealing with gloominess can find within yourselves the strength to find constructive change as well.

Taking care of ourselves is critically important so put your focuses on you.


As for cheerful lot who entertain and titillate...please continue doing so.

 

[girlyboi85]

ICT I feel like a gross, disgusting pig, even though I only put on 1.5lbs (600g) this week, and it's probably down to fluctuations/muscle-building/water-retention and not because I've actually put weight back on ...

 

[TongueLust]

ICT I don't like these terms.

ICT I know it's up to me to change them.

ICT I will still complain.

 

[Charismata]

ICT I'm in love with a man I've never met.
ICT Lust has often been a driving force in my decisions.
ICT No matter my actual age I will always be 12 in my head.

 

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[Superman2008]

I confess I'm finally starting to feel normal again. There is still something that actually seriously worries me, something quite superficial, but only others who experience severe anxiety will understand.

Yep. Panic attacks recently have left me seriously off the past few weeks.

ICT : I have an appointment with my Dr. this week.

 

[Curvyallyson]

ICT: anxiety is now affecting me physically. Burned myself several times at work today and kept dropping things. Making stupid mistakes. No break in sight.

 

[Chris_Michael]

I know anxiety all too well. My need for Xanax around the clock for a decade is testament.

I think the American society is especially bad for people with anxiety because no matter what your problem is, the system pushes you harder and hardee while expecting better results. We oftentimes talk about mass shootings but we never talk about the people who take their own lives. Those people had the dignity to not take anybody else with them, even though it may have permanently scarred their friends and family.

It's sad. And it's why I'm against the American way of life. And yes yes, there are people from other countries on here. America is not the center of the world. But it's what I know.

 

[curvyangel1969]

I thought I could do this. That it would be ok. That I was strong enough to face it and move on. I'm not sure I really can and I'm no longer sure I really care to try. It hurts. And I'm tired of hurting. That is all.

 

[shadow_anon2u]

I thought I could do this. That it would be ok. That I was strong enough to face it and move on. I'm not sure I really can and I'm no longer sure I really care to try. It hurts. And I'm tired of hurting. That is all.

I'm sorry baby. Being a human means we hurt, often too deeply. We've never talked, but I know I would miss seeing you & so would many more! I tried to not try once. All I got was six weeks in ICU & another three months in another hospital. You have to find your reason to continue!!

 

[islandjoe2]

ICT often, during this time of the year, I wish I could do more for more people....it always feels like I do so little for people who need.

 

[Xerxes82]

ICT the fact that the PM counter always says I have 1 unread PM even though I don't bugs me. It is obviously some kind of glitch or error in the site, and it doesn't affect anything, save to remind me that no, in fact I do not have one unread PM. But every time I sign in, there it is mocking me with the promise of social interaction that it refuses to payoff. Discusses Interruptus, as it were.

 

[tnman03]

I thought I could do this. That it would be ok. That I was strong enough to face it and move on. I'm not sure I really can and I'm no longer sure I really care to try. It hurts. And I'm tired of hurting. That is all.

I'm sorry baby. Being a human means we hurt, often too deeply. We've never talked, but I know I would miss seeing you & so would many more! I tried to not try once. All I got was six weeks in ICU & another three months in another hospital. You have to find your reason to continue!!

ICT like Shadow said sometimes the cost of being human is the awareness of pain, loss and sorrow. But there are rewards as well. Our lives are always changing so a few bumps along the way are inevitable. Keep on keeping on.

 

[Hornblende]

I thought I could do this. That it would be ok. That I was strong enough to face it and move on. I'm not sure I really can and I'm no longer sure I really care to try. It hurts. And I'm tired of hurting. That is all.

*hugs CA*

 

[Chris_Michael]

I wish I were asexual. I wish that no woman was sexually appealing to me. I wish I didn'r care about it at all, period. But I do and it sucks.

 

[shadow_anon2u]

ICT with December being here I'm getting more depressed. My Dad LOVED Christmas & if it weren't for my son, I wouldn't do shit.

IACT my situation is bothering me more than I thought it would. I joke & make my normal sarcastic comments, but I am 100% alone. My males don't get it. They can walk in & out as much as they please. The ramp we have is so fucking steep, I can't even go outside without help! And the hubby doesn't get it. I'm used to being on the go all the time. Now, I just sit here.

 

[tnman03]

ICT with December being here I'm getting more depressed. My Dad LOVED Christmas & if it weren't for my son, I wouldn't do shit.

IACT my situation is bothering me more than I thought it would. I joke & make my normal sarcastic comments, but I am 100% alone. My males don't get it. They can walk in & out as much as they please. The ramp we have is so fucking steep, I can't even go outside without help! And the hubby doesn't get it. I'm used to being on the go all the time. Now, I just sit here.

What are the long term plans to improve your mobility? Also are there any outreach groups who'll work with you? Being homebound would be hard to get used to so I'm thinking your going to have to get creative as health improvements allow.
FWIW I don't enjoy Christmas very much as I lost my father on a Christmas Day. That kind of sets a mood because he loved Christmas.

 

[shadow_anon2u]

What are the long term plans to improve your mobility? Also are there any outreach groups who'll work with you? Being homebound would be hard to get used to so I'm thinking your going to have to get creative as health improvements allow.
FWIW I don't enjoy Christmas very much as I lost my father on a Christmas Day. That kind of sets a mood because he loved Christmas.

Oh, I will get a prosthetic sometime. Stimpy is taking his sweet time healing. This past Monday was 6 weeks post left below knee amputation. I had enough ETO (earned time off) at work that I could have cashed out 40 hours. Nope, used all that time being in the hospital.

I'm sorry about your Dad. Mines been gone 13 years now. His birthday, the day he died, & holidays suck. He was all about family. Now, I don't know the last time I spoke with my siblings.

 

[Kittyscave]

ICT I'm very upset and disappointed that a trip I thought would be in DC in March, where I could see my Lit friend, is being held in San Diego instead.

 

[frmtutanota]

That does sound like a huge disappointment,

 

[Eva_Star]

ICT...part of me died with her.
ICT...I no longer have that unlimited capacity to give that I did before I received that phone call.
ICT...it would be best if people understood that and didn't ask more of me than I am willing/able to give.
ICT...I now know what it feels like to truly love someone and truly hate them at the same time.
ICT...I still pick up the phone to call her and have to remember all over again that she will not answer.

 

[dchockeyman]

ICT I'm very upset and disappointed that a trip I thought would be in DC in March, where I could see my Lit friend, is being held in San Diego instead.

Boo...

(Although San Diego in March is nice)

 

[RubenesqueAphrodite]

ICT...part of me died with her.
ICT...I no longer have that unlimited capacity to give that I did before I received that phone call.
ICT...it would be best if people understood that and didn't ask more of me than I am willing/able to give.
ICT...I now know what it feels like to truly love someone and truly hate them at the same time.
ICT...I still pick up the phone to call her and have to remember all over again that she will not answer.

(((Hugs)))

 

[adams385]

I confess I'd like to be pegged soon. Like to be completely drained when she is done with me too.